But if we adhere to our abstraction, and imagine to ourselves this

immense wall without ornaments, with firm buttresses, with the necessary

openings in it, but only so far as necessity requires them, we even then

must allow that these chief divisions are in good proportion: thus the

whole will appear solemn and noble indeed, but always heavily

unpleasant, and, being without ornament, unartistical. For a work of

art, the whole of which is conceived in great, simple, harmonious parts,

makes indeed a noble and dignified impression; but the peculiar

enjoyment which the pleasing produces can only find place in the

consonance of all developed details.

And it is precisely here that the building we are examining satisfies us

in the highest degree, for we see all the ornaments fully suited to

every part which they adorn: they are subordinate to it, they seem to

have grown out of it. Such a manifoldness always gives great pleasure,

since it flows of its own accord from the suitable, and therefore at the

same time awakens the feeling of unity. It is only in such cases that

the execution is prized as the summit of art.

By such means, now, was a solid piece of masonry, an impenetrable wall,

which had moreover to announce itself as the base of two heaven-high

towers, made to appear to the eye as if resting on itself, consisting in

itself, but at the same time light and adorned, and, though pierced

through in a thousand places, to give the idea of indestructible

firmness.

This riddle is solved in the happiest manner. The openings in the wall,

its solid parts, the pillars, every thing has its peculiar character,

which proceeds from its particular destination: this communicates itself

by degrees to the subdivisions; hence every thing is adorned in

proportionate taste, the great as well as the small is in the right

place, and can be easily comprehended, and thus the pleasing presents

itself in the vast. I would refer only to the doors sinking in

perspective into the thickness of the wall, and adorned without end in

their columns and pointed arches; to the window with its rose springing

out of the round form; to the outline of its framework, as well as to

the slender reed-like pillars of the perpendicular compartments. Let one

represent to himself the pillars retreating step by step, accompanied by

little, slender, light-pillared, pointed structures, likewise striving

upwards, and furnished with canopies to shelter the images of the

saints, and how at last every rib, every boss, seems like a flower-head

and row of leaves, or some other natural object transformed into stone.

One may compare, if not the building itself, yet representations of the

whole and of its parts, for the purpose of reviewing and giving life to

what I have said. It may seem exaggerated to many; for I myself, though

transported into love for this work at first sight, required a long time

to make myself intimately acquainted with its value.

Having grown up among those who found fault with Gothic architecture, I

cherished my aversion from the abundantly overloaded, complicated

ornaments which, by their capriciousness, made a religious, gloomy

character highly adverse. I strengthened myself in this repugnance,

since I had only met with spiritless works of this kind, in which one

could perceive neither good proportions nor a pure consistency. But here

I thought I saw a new revelation of it, since what was objectionable by

no means appeared, but the contrary opinion rather forced itself upon my

mind.

But the longer I looked and considered, I all the while thought I

discovered yet greater merits beyond that which I have already

mentioned. The right proportion of the larger divisions, the ornamental,

as judicious as rich, even to the minutest, were found out; but now I

recognized the connection of these manifold ornaments amongst each

other, the transition from one leading part to another, the enclosing of

details, homogeneous indeed, but yet greatly varying in form, from the

saint to the monster, from the leaf to the dental. The more I

investigated, the more I was astonished; the more I amused and wearied

myself with measuring and drawing, so much the more did my attachment

increase, so that I spent much time, partly in studying what actually

existed, partly in restoring, in my mind and on paper, what was wanting

and unfinished, especially in the towers.

Finding that this building had been based on old German ground, and

grown thus far in genuine German times, and that the name of the master,

on his modest gravestone, was likewise of native sound and origin, I

ventured, being incited by the worth of this work of art, to change the

hitherto decried appellation of "Gothic architecture," and to claim it

for our nation as "German architecture;" nor did I fail to bring my

patriotic views to light, first orally, and afterwards in a little

treatise dedicated to the memory of Ervinus a Steinbach.

If my biographical narrative should come down to the epoch when the said

sheet appeared in print, which Herder afterwards inserted in his

pamphlet, "Von Deutscher Art und Kunst" ("Of German Manner and Art"),

much more will be said on this weighty subject. But, before I turn from

it this time, I will take the opportunity to vindicate the motto

prefixed to the present volume with those who may have entertained some

doubt about it. I know indeed very well, that in opposition to this

honest, hopeful old German saying, "Of whatever one wishes in youth, he

has abundance in old age," many would quote contrary experience, and

many trifling comments might be made; but much, also, is to be said in

its favor: and I will explain how I understand it.

Our wishes are presentiments of the capabilities which lie within us,

and harbingers of that which we shall be in a condition to perform.

Whatever we are able and would like to do, presents itself to our

imagination, as without us and in the future. We feel a longing after

that which we already possess in secret. Thus a passionate anticipating

grasp changes the truly possible into a dreamed reality. Now, if such a

bias lies decidedly in our nature, then, with every step of our

development will a part of the first wish be fulfilled,--under favorable

circumstances in the direct way, under unfavorable in the circuitous

way, from which we always come back again to the other. Thus we see men

by perseverance attain to earthly wealth. They surround themselves with

riches, splendor, and external honor. Others strive yet more certainly

after intellectual advantages, acquire for themselves a clear survey of

things, a peacefulness of mind, and a certainty for the present and the

future.

But now there is a third direction, which is compounded of both, and the

issue of which must be the most surely successful. When a man's youth

falls into a pregnant time; when production overweighs destruction, and

a presentiment is early awakened within him as to what such an epoch

demands and promises,--he will then, being forced by outward inducements

into an active interest, take hold now here, now there, and the wish to

be active on many sides will be lively within him. But so many

accidental hinderances are associated with human limitation, that here a

thing, once begun, remains unfinished: there that which is already

grasped falls out of the hand, and one wish after another is dissipated.

But had these wishes sprung out of a pure heart, and in conformity with

the necessities of the times, one might composedly let them lie and fall

right and left, and be assured that these must not only be found out and

picked up again, but that also many kindred things, which one has never

touched and never even thought of, will come to light. If, now, during

our own lifetime, we see that performed by others, for which we

ourselves felt an earlier call, but had been obliged to give it up, with

much besides, then the beautiful feeling enters the mind that only

mankind combined is the true man, and that the individual can only be

joyous and happy when he has the courage to feel himself in the whole.

This contemplation is here in the right place; for when I reflect on the

affection which drew me to these antique edifices, when I reckon up the

time which I devoted to the Strasburg minster alone, the attention with

which I afterwards examined: the cathedral at Cologne, and that at

Freyburg, and more and more felt the value of these buildings, I could

even blame myself for having afterwards lost sight of them altogether,--

nay, for having left them completely in the background, being attracted

by a more developed art. But when now, in the latest times, I see

attention again turned to those objects; when I see affection, and even

passion, for them appearing and flourishing; when I see able young

persons seized with this passion, recklessly devoting powers, time,

care, and property to these memorials of a past world,--then am I

reminded with pleasure that what I formerly would and wished had a

value. With satisfaction I see that they not only know how to prize what

was done by our fore-fathers, but that, from existing unfinished

beginnings, they try to represent, in pictures at least, the original

design, so as thus to make us acquainted with the thought, which is ever

the beginning and end of all undertakings; and that they strive with

considerate zeal to clear up and vivify what seems to be a confused

past. Here I especially applaud the brave Sulpiz Boisserée, who is

indefatigably employed in a magnificent series of copper-plates to

exhibit the cathedral of Cologne as the model of those vast conceptions,

the spirit of which, like that of Babel, strove up to heaven, and which

were so out of proportion to earthly means that they were necessarily

stopped fast in their execution. If we have been hitherto astonished

that such buildings proceeded only so far, we shall learn with the

greatest admiration what was really designed to be done.

Would that literary-artistical undertakings of this kind were duly

patronized by all who have power, wealth, and influence; that the great

and gigantic views of our fore-fathers may be presented to our

contemplation; and that we may be able to form a conception of what they

dared to desire. The insight resulting from this will not remain

fruitless; and the judgment will, for once at least, be in a condition

to exercise itself on these works with justice. Nay, this will be done

most thoroughly if our active young friend, besides the monograph

devoted to the cathedral of Cologne, follows out in detail the history

of our mediaeval architecture. When whatever is to be known about the

practical exercise of this art is further brought to light, when the art

is represented in all its fundamental features by a comparison with the

Graeco-Roman and the Oriental Egyptian, little can remain to be done in

this department. And I, when the results of such patriotic labors lie

before the world, as they are now known in friendly private

communications, shall be able, with true content, to repeat that motto

in its best sense, "Of whatever one wishes in youth, he will have enough

in old age."

But if, in operations like these, which belong to centuries, one can

trust one's self to time, and wait for opportunity, there are, on the

contrary, other things which in youth must be enjoyed at once, fresh,

like ripe fruits. Let me be permitted, with this sudden turn, to mention

dancing, of which the ear is reminded, as the eye is of the minster,

every day and every hour in Strasburg and all Alsace. From early youth

my father himself had given my sister and me instruction in dancing, a

task which must have comported strangely enough with so stern a man. But

he did not suffer his composure to be put out by it: he drilled us in

the positions and steps in a manner the most precise; and, when he had

brought us far enough to dance a minuet, he played for us something

easily intelligible in three-four time, on a /flute-douce/, and we

moved to it as well as we could. On the French theatre, likewise, I had

seen from my youth upwards, if not ballets, yet /pas seuls/ and

/pas de deux/, and had noticed in them various strange motions of

the feet, and all sorts of springs. When we had had enough of the

minuet, I requested my father to play some other dance-music, of which

our music-books, in their jigs and murkies, [Footnote: A "murki" is

defined as an old species of short composition for the harpsichord, with

a lively murmuring accompaniment in the bass.--TRANS.] offered us a rich

supply; and I immediately found out, of myself, the steps and other

motions for them, the time being quite suitable to my limbs, and, as it

were, born with them. This pleased my father to a certain degree;

indeed, he often, by way of joke for himself and us, let the "monkies"

dance in this way. After my misfortune with Gretchen, and during the

whole of my residence in Leipzig, I did not make my appearance again on

the floor: on the contrary, I still remember, that when, at a ball, they

forced me into a minuet, both measure and motion seemed to have

abandoned my limbs, and I could no longer remember either the steps or

the figures; so that I should have been put to disgrace and shame if the

greater part of the spectators had not maintained that my awkward

behavior was pure obstinacy, assumed with the view of depriving the

ladies of all desire to invite me and draw me into their circle against

my will.

During my residence in Frankfort I was quite cut off from such

pleasures; but in Strasburg, with other enjoyments of life, there soon

arose in my limbs the faculty of keeping time. On Sundays and week-days

one sauntered by no pleasure-ground without finding there a joyous crowd

assembled for the dance, and for the most part revolving in the circle.

Moreover, there were private balls in the country houses; and people

were already talking of the brilliant masquerades of the coming winter.

Here, indeed, I should have been out of my place, and useless to the

company, when a friend, who waltzed very well, advised me to practise

myself first in parties of a lower rank, so that afterwards I might be

worth something in the highest. He took me to a dancing-master, who was

well known for his skill. This man promised me, that, when I had in some

degree repeated the first elements and made myself master of them, he

would then lead me farther. He was one of your dry, ready French

characters, and received me in a friendly manner. I paid him a month in

advance, and received twelve tickets, for which he agreed to give me

certain hours' instruction. The man was strict and precise, but not

pedantic; and, as I already had some previous practice, I soon gave him

satisfaction, and received his commendation.

One circumstance, however, greatly facilitated the instruction of this

teacher: he had two daughters, both pretty, and both not yet twenty.

Having been instructed in this art from their youth upwards, they showed

themselves very skilful, and might have been able, as partners, soon to

help even the most clumsy scholars into some cultivation. They were both

very polite, spoke nothing but French; and I, on my part, did my best,

that I might not appear awkward or ridiculous before them. I had the

good fortune that they likewise praised me, and were always willing to

dance a minuet to their father's little violin, and, what indeed was

more difficult for them, to initiate me by degrees into waltzing and

whirling. Their father did not seem to have many customers, and they led

a lonely life. For this reason they often asked me to remain with them

after my hour, and to chat away the time a little, which I the more

willingly did, as the younger one pleased me well; and generally they

both altogether behaved very becomingly. I often read aloud something

from a novel, and they did the same. The elder, who was as handsome as,

perhaps even handsomer than, the second, but who did not correspond with

my taste so well as the latter, always conducted herself towards me more

obligingly, and more kindly in every respect. She was always at hand

during the lesson, and often protracted it: hence I sometimes thought

myself bound to offer back a couple of tickets to her father, which,

however, he did not accept. The younger, on the contrary, although never

showing me any ill will, was more reserved, and waited till she was

called by her father before she relieved the elder.

The cause of this became manifest to me one evening; for when, after the

dance was done, I was about to go into the sitting-room with the elder,

she held me back, and said, "Let us remain here a little longer; for I

will confess to you that my sister has with her a woman who tells

fortunes from cards, and who is to reveal to her how matters stand with

an absent lover, on whom her whole heart hangs, and upon whom she has

placed all her hope. Mine is free," she continued, "and I must accustom

myself to see it despised." I thereupon said sundry pretty things to

her, replying that she could at once convince herself on that point by

consulting the wise woman likewise; that I would do so myself, for I had

long wished to learn something of the kind, but lacked faith. She blamed

me for this, and assured me that nothing in the world was surer than the

responses of this oracle; only it must be consulted, not out of sport

and mischief, but solely in real affairs. However, I at last compelled

her to go with me into that room, as soon as she had ascertained that

the consultation was over. We found her sister in a very cheerful humor:

and even towards me she was kinder than usual, sportive, and almost

witty; for, since she seemed to be secure of an absent friend, she may

have thought it no treachery to be a little gracious with a present

friend of her sister's, which she thought me to be. The old woman was

now flattered, and good payment was promised her if she would tell the

truth to the elder sister and to me. With the usual preparations and

ceremonies she began her business, in order to tell the fair one's

fortune first. She carefully considered the situation of the cards, but

seemed to hesitate, and would not speak out what she had to say. "I see

now," said the younger, who was already better acquainted with the

interpretation of such a magic tablet, "you hesitate, and do not wish to

disclose any thing disagreeable to my sister; but that is a cursed

card!" The elder one turned pale, but composed herself, and said, "Only

speak out: it will not cost one's head!" The old woman, after a deep

sigh, showed her that she was in love; that she was not beloved; that

another person stood in the way; and other things of like import. We saw

the good girl's embarrassment. The old woman thought somewhat to improve

the affair by giving hopes of letters and money. "Letters," said the

lovely child, "I do not expect; and money I do not desire. If it is

true, as you say, that I love, I deserve a heart that loves me in

return."--"Let us see if it will not be better," replied the old woman,

as she shuffled the cards and laid them out a second time; but before

the eyes of all of us it had only become still worse. The fair one

stood, not only more lonely, but surrounded with many sorrows. Her lover

had moved somewhat farther, and the intervening figures nearer. The old

woman wished to try it a third time, in hopes of a better prospect; but

the beautiful girl could restrain herself no longer,--she broke out into

uncontrollable weeping, her lovely bosom heaved violently, she turned

round, and rushed out of the room. I knew not what to do. Inclination

kept me with the one present: compassion drove me to the other. My

situation was painful enough. "Comfort Lucinda," said the younger: "go

after her." I hesitated. How could I comfort her without at least

assuring her of some sort of affection? and could I do that at such a

moment in a cool, moderate manner? "Let us go together," said I to

Emilia. "I know not whether my presence will do her good," replied she.

Yet we went, but found the door bolted. Lucinda made no answer, we might

knock, shout, entreat, as we would. "We must let her have her own way,"

said Emilia: "she will not have it otherwise now." And, indeed, when I

called to my mind her manner from our very first acquaintance, she

always had something violent and unequal about her, and chiefly showed

her affection for me by not behaving to me with rudeness. What was I to

do? I paid the old woman richly for the mischief she had caused, and was

about to go, when Emilia said, "I stipulate that the cards shall now be

cut for you too." The old woman was ready. "Do not let me be present,"

cried I, and hastened down stairs.

The next day I had not courage to go there. The third day, early in the

morning, Emilia sent me word by a boy,--who had already brought me many

a message from the sisters, and had carried back flowers and fruits to

them in return,--that I should not fail that day. I came at the usual

hour, and found the father alone, who, in many respects, improved my

paces and steps, my goings and comings, my bearing and behavior, and,

moreover, seemed to be satisfied with me. The younger daughter came in

towards the end of the hour, and danced with me a very graceful minuet,

in which her movements were extraordinarily pleasing, and her father

declared that he had rarely seen a prettier and more nimble pair upon

his floor. After the lesson, I went as usual into the sitting-room; the

father left us alone; I missed Lucinda. "She is in bed," said Emilia,

"and I am glad of it: do not be concerned about it. Her mental illness

is first alleviated when she fancies herself bodily sick: she does not

like to die, and therefore she then does what we wish. We have certain

family medicines which she takes, and reposes; and thus, by degrees, the

swelling waves subside. She is indeed too good and amiable in such an

imaginary sickness; and as she is in reality very well, and is only

attacked by passion, she imagines various kinds of romantic deaths, with

which she frightens herself in a pleasant manner, like children when we

tell them ghost-stories. Thus, only last night, she announced to me with

great vehemence, that this time she should certainly die; and that only

when she was really near death, they should bring again before her the

ungrateful, false friend, who had at first acted so handsomely to her,

and now treated her so ill; she would reproach him bitterly, and then

give up the ghost."--"I know not that I am guilty," exclaimed I, "of

having expressed any sort of affection for her. I know somebody who can

best bear me witness in this respect." Emilia smiled, and rejoined, "I

understand you; and, if we are not discreet and determined, we shall all

find ourselves in a bad plight together. What will you say if I entreat

you not to continue your lessons? You have, I believe, four tickets yet

of the last month: and my father has already declared that he finds it

inexcusable to take your money any longer, unless you wish to devote

yourself to the art of dancing in a more serious manner; what is

required by a young man of the world you possess already."--"And do you,

Emilia, give me this advice, to avoid your house?" replied I. "Yes, I

do," said she, "but not of myself. Only listen! When you hastened away,

the day before yesterday, I had the cards cut for you; and the same

response was repeated thrice, and each time more emphatically. You were

surrounded by every thing good and pleasing, by friends and great lords;

and there was no lack of money. The ladies kept themselves at some

distance. My poor sister in particular stood always the farthest off:

one other advanced constantly nearer to you, but never came up to your

side; for a third person, of the male sex, always came between. I will

confess to you that I thought that I myself was meant by the second

lady, and after this confession you will best comprehend my well-meant

counsel. To an absent friend I have promised my heart and my hand; and,

until now, I loved him above all: yet it might be possible for your

presence to become more important to me than hitherto; and what kind of

a situation would you have between two sisters, one of whom you had made

unhappy by your affection, and the other by your coldness, and all this

ado about nothing and only for a short time? For, if we had not known

already who you are and what are your expectations, the cards would have

placed it before my eyes in the clearest manner. Fare you well!" said

she, and gave me her hand. I hesitated. "Now," said she, leading me

towards the door, "that it may really be the last time that we shall

speak to each other, take what I would otherwise have denied you." She

fell upon my neck, and kissed me most tenderly. I embraced her, and

pressed her to my bosom.

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