To Rev. Ephraim Peabody, D.D.
SHEFFIELD, Nov. 10, 1856.
MY DEAR PEABODY,--I have written you several imaginary letters since I
saw you, and now I'm determined (before I go to Baltimore to lecture,
which is next week) that I will write you a real one. I desired H. T.
to inquire and let me know how you are, and she writes that you are
very much the same as when I was in Boston,--riding out in the morning,
and passing, I fear, the same sad and weary afternoons. I wish I were
near you this winter, that is, if I could help you at all through those
heavy hours. [244] I am writing a lecture on "Unconscious Education;"
for I want to add one to the Baltimore course. And is not a great deal
of our education unconscious and mysterious? You do not know, perhaps,
all that this long sickness and weariness and prostration are doing for
you. I always think that the future scene will open to us the wonders
of this as we never see them here.
Heine says that a man is n't worth anything till he has suffered;
or something like that. I am a great coward about it; and I imagine
sometimes that deeper trial might make something of me.
My dear friend, if I may call you so, I write to little purpose,
perhaps, but out of great sympathy and affection for you. I do not know
of a human being for whom I have a more perfect esteem than for you.
And in that love I often commend you, with a passing prayer, or sigh
sometimes, to the all-loving Father. We believe in Him. Let us "believe
the love that God hath to us."
With all our affectionate regards to your wife and girls and to you,
Yours ever,