CHAPTER IX. LUCID ALBA

The doctor had diagnosed the case correctly. Dorsenne’s ball had struck

Gorka below the wrist. Two centimetres more to the right or to the

left, and undoubtedly Boleslas would have been killed. He escaped with

a fracture of the forearm, which would confine him for a few days to

his room, and which would force him to submit for several weeks to the

annoyance of a sling. When he was taken home and his personal physician,

hastily summoned, made him a bandage and prescribed for the first few

days bed and rest, he experienced a new access of rage, which exceeded

the paroxysms of the day before and of that morning. All parts of his

soul, the noblest as well as the meanest, bled at once and caused him to

suffer with another agony than that occasioned by his wounded arm. Was

he satisfied in the desire, almost morbid, to figure in the eyes of

those who knew him as an extraordinary personage? He had hastened from

Poland through Europe as an avenger of his betrayed love, and he had

begun by missing his rival. Instead of provoking him immediately in

the salon of Villa Steno, he had waited, and another had had time to

substitute himself for the one he had wished to chastise. The other,

whose death would at least have given a tragical issue to the adventure,

Boleslas had scarcely touched. He had hoped in striking Dorsenne to

execute at least one traitor whom he considered as having trifled with

the most sacred of confidences. He had simply succeeded in giving that

false friend occasion to humiliate him bitterly, leaving out of the

question that he had rendered it impossible to fight again for many

days. None of the persons who had wronged him would be punished for

some time, neither his coarse and cowardly rival, nor his perfidious

mistress, nor monstrous Lydia Maitland, whose infamy he had just

discovered. They were all happy and triumphant, on that lovely, radiant

May day, while he tossed on a bed of pain, and it was proven too clearly

to him that very afternoon by his two seconds, the only visitors whom

he had not denied admission, and who came to see him about five o’clock.

They came from the races of Tor di Quinto, which had taken place that

day.

“All is well,” began Cibo, “I will guarantee that no one has talked....

I have told you before, I am sure of my innkeeper, and we have paid the

witnesses and the coachman.”

“Were Madame Steno and her daughter at the races?” interrupted Boleslas.

“Yes,” replied the Roman, whom the abruptness of the question surprised

too much for him to evade it with his habitual diplomacy.

“With whom?” asked the wounded man.

“Alone, that time,” replied Cibo, with an eagerness in which Boleslas

distinguished an intention to deceive him.

“And Madame Maitland?”

“She was there, too, with her husband,” said Pietrapertosa, heedless of

Cibo’s warning glances, “and all Rome besides,” adding: “Do you know

the engagement of Ardea and little Hafner is public? They were all three

there, the betrothed and the father, and so happy! I vow, it was fine.

Cardinal Guerillot baptized pretty Fanny.”

“And Dorsenne?” again questioned the invalid.

“He was there,” said Cibo. “You will be vexed when I tell you of the

reply he dared to make us. We asked him how he had managed--nervous

as he is--to aim at you as he aimed, without trembling. For he did

not tremble. And guess what he replied? That he thought of a recipe of

Stendhal’s--to recite from memory four Latin verses, before firing. ‘And

might one know what you chose?’ I asked of him. Thereupon he repeated:

‘Tityre, tu patulae recubens!”

“It is a case which recalls the word of Casal,” interrupted

Pietrapertosa, “when that snob of a Figon recommended to us at the

club his varnish manufactured from a recipe of a valet of the Prince of

Wales. If the young man is not settled by us, I shall be sorry for him.”

Although the two ‘confreres’ had repeated that mediocre pleasantry a

hundred times, they laughed at the top of their sonorous voices and

succeeded in entirely unnerving the injured man. He gave as a pretext

his need of rest to dismiss the fine fellows, of whose sympathy he was

assured, whom he had just found loyal and devoted, but who caused him

pain in conjuring up, in answer to his question, the images of all his

enemies. When one is suffering from a certain sort of pain, remarks like

those naively exchanged between the two Roman imitators of Casal are

intolerable to the hearer. One desires to be alone to feed upon, at

least in peace, the bitter food, the exasperating and inefficacious

rancor against people and against fate, with which Gorka at that moment

felt his heart to be so full. The presence of his former mistress at the

races, and on that afternoon, wounded him more cruelly than the rest.

He did not doubt that she knew through Maitland, himself, certainly

informed by Chapron, of the two duels and of his injury. It was on her

account that he had fought, and that very day she appeared in public,

smiling, coquetting, as if two years of passion had not united their

lives, as if he were to her merely a social acquaintance, a guest at her

dinners and her soirees. He knew her habits so well, and how eagerly,

when she loved, she drank in the presence of him she loved. No doubt she

had an appointment on the race-course with Maitland, as she had formerly

had with him, and the painter had gone thither when he should have cared

for his courageous, his noble brother-in-law, whom he had allowed to

fight for him! What a worthy lover the selfish and brutal American was

of that vile creature! The image of the happy couple tortured Boleslas

with the bitterest jealousy intermingled with disgust, and, by contrast,

he thought of his own wife, the proud and tender Maud whom he had lost.

He pictured to himself other illnesses when he had seen that beautiful

nurse by his bedside. He saw again the true glance with which that wife,

so shamefully betrayed, looked at him, the movements of her loyal hands,

which yielded to no one the care of waiting upon him. To-day she had

allowed him to go to a duel without seeing him. He had returned. She had

not even inquired as to his wound. The doctor had dressed it without

her presence, and all that he knew of her was what he learned from their

child. For he sent for Luc. He explained to him his broken arm, as

had been agreed upon with his friends, by a fall on the staircase, and

little Luc replied:

“When will you join us, then? Mamma says we leave for England this

evening or in the morning. All the trunks are almost ready.”

That evening or to-morrow? So Maud was going to execute her threat. She

was going away forever, and without an explanation. He could not even

plead his cause once more to the woman who certainly would not respond

to another appeal, since she had found, in her outraged pride, the

strength to be severe, when he was in danger of death. In the face

of that evidence of the desertion of all connected with him, Boleslas

suffered one of those accesses of discouragement, deep, absolute,

irremediable, in which one longs to sleep forever. He asked himself:

“Were I to try one more step?” and he replied: “She will not!” when his

valet entered with word that the Countess desired to speak with him.

His agitation was so extreme that, for a second, he fancied it was with

regard to Madame Steno, and he was almost afraid to see his wife enter.

Without any doubt, the emotions undergone during the past few days had

been very great. He had, however, experienced none more violent, even

beneath the pistol raised by Dorsenne, than that of seeing advance to

his bed the embodiment of his remorse. Maud’s face, in which ordinarily

glowed the beauty of a blood quickened by the English habits of fresh

air and daily exercise, showed undeniable traces of tears, of sadness,

and of insomnia. The pallor of the cheeks, the dark circles beneath the

eyes, the dryness of the lips and their bitter expression, the feverish

glitter, above all, in the eyes, related more eloquently than words the

terrible agony of which she was the victim. The past twenty-four hours

had acted upon her like certain long illnesses, in which it seems that

the very essence of the organism is altered. She was another person.

The rapid metamorphosis, so tragical and so striking, caused Boleslas to

forget his own anguish. He experienced nothing but one great regret when

the woman, so visibly bowed down by grief, was seated, and when he saw

in her eyes the look of implacable coldness, even through the fever,

before which he had recoiled the day before. But she was there, and her

unhoped-for presence was to the young man, even under the circumstances,

an infinite consolation. He, therefore, said, with an almost childish

grace, which he could assume when he desired to please:

“You recognized the fact that it would be too cruel of you to go away

without seeing me again. I should not have dared to ask it of you, and

yet it was the only pleasure I could have.... I thank you for having

given it to me.”

“Do not thank me,” replied Maud, shaking her head, “it is not on

your account that I am here. It is from duty.... Let me speak,” she

continued, stopping by a gesture her husband’s reply, “you can answer me

afterward.... Had it only been a question of you and of me, I repeat, I

should not have seen you again.... But, as I told you yesterday, we have

a son.”

“Ah!” exclaimed Boleslas, sadly. “It is to make me still more wretched

that you have come.... You should remember, however, that I am in no

condition to discuss with you so cruel a question.... I thought I had

already said that I would not disregard your rights on condition that

you did not disregard mine.”

“It is not of my rights that I wish to speak, nor of yours,” interrupted

Maud, “but of his, the only ones of importance. When I left you

yesterday, I was suffering too severely to feel anything but my pain. It

was then that, in my mental agony, I recalled words repeated to me by my

father: ‘When one suffers, he should look his grief in the face, and it

will always teach him something.’ I was ashamed of my weakness, and I

looked my grief in the face. It taught me, first, to accept it as a

just punishment for having married against the advice and wishes of my

father.”

“Ah, do not abjure our past!” cried the young man; “the past which has

remained so dear to me through all.”

“No, I do not abjure it,” replied Maud, “for it was on recurring to

it--it was on returning to my early impressions--that I could find not

an excuse, but an explanation of your conduct. I remembered what you

related to me of the misfortunes of your childhood and of your youth,

and how you had grown up between your father and your mother, passing

six months with one, six months with the other--not caring for, not

being able to judge either of them--forced to hide from one your

feelings for the other. I saw for the first time that your parents’

separation had the effect of saddening your heart at that epoch. It

is that which perverted your character.... And I read in advance Luc’s

history in yours.... Listen, Boleslas! I speak to you as I would speak

before God! My first feeling when that thought presented itself to my

mind was not to resume life with you; such a life would be henceforth

too bitter. No, it was to say to myself, I will have my son to myself.

He shall feel my influence alone. I saw you set out this morning--set

out to insult me once more, to sacrifice me once more! If you had been

truly repentant would you have offered me that last affront? And when

you returned--when they informed me that you had a broken arm--I wished

to tell the little one myself that you were ill.... I saw how much he

loved you, I discovered what a place you already occupied in his heart,

and I comprehended that, even if the law gave him to me, as I know it

would, his childhood would be like yours, his youth like your youth.”

“Then,” she went on, with an accent in which emotion struggled through

her pride, “I did not feel justified in destroying the respect so deep,

the love so true, he bears you, and I have come to say to you: You have

wronged me greatly. You have killed within me something that will never

come to life again. I feel that for years I shall carry a weight on my

mind and on my heart at the thought that you could have betrayed me as

you have. But I feel that for our boy this separation on which I had

resolved is too perilous. I feel that I shall find in the certainty

of avoiding a moral danger for him the strength to continue a common

existence, and I will continue it. But human nature is human nature, and

that strength I can have only on one condition.”

“And that is?” asked Boleslas. Maud’s speech, for it was a speech

carefully reflected upon, every phrase of which had been weighed by that

scrupulous conscience, contrasted strongly in its lucid reasoning with

the state of nervous excitement in which he had lived for several days.

He had been more pained by it than he would have been by passionate

reproaches. At the same time he had been moved by the reference to his

son’s love for him, and he felt that if he did not become reconciled

with Maud at that moment his future domestic life would be ended. There

was a little of each sentiment in the few words he added to the anxiety

of his question. “Although you have spoken to me very severely, and

although you might have said the same thing in other terms, although,

above all, it is very painful to me to have you condemn my entire

character on one single error, I love you, I love my son, and I agree

in advance to your conditions. I esteem your character too much to doubt

that they will be reconcilable with my dignity. As for the duel of this

morning,” he added, “you know very well that it was too late to withdraw

without dishonor.”

“I should like your promise, first of all,” replied Madame Gorka, who

did not answer his last remark, “that during the time in which you are

obliged to keep your room no one shall be admitted.... I could not bear

that creature in my house, nor any one who would speak to me or to you

of her.”

“I promise,” said the young man, who felt a flood of warmth enter his

soul at the first proof that the jealousy of the loving woman still

existed beneath the indignation of the wife. And he added, with a smile,

“That will not be a great sacrifice. And then?”

“Then?... That the doctor will permit us to go to England. We will leave

orders for the management of things during our absence. We will go this

winter wherever you like, but not to this house; never again to this

city.”

“That is a promise, too,” said Boleslas, “and that will be no great

sacrifice either; and then?”

“And then,” said she in a low voice, as if ashamed of herself. “You must

never write to her, you must never try to find out what has become of

her.”

“I give you my word,” replied Boleslas, taking her hand, and adding:

“And then?”

“There is no then,” said she, withdrawing her hand, but gently. And she

began to realize herself her promise of pardon, for she rearranged the

pillows under the wounded man’s head, while he resumed:

“Yes, my noble Maud, there is a then. It is that I shall prove to you

how much truth there was in my words of yesterday, in my assurance that

I love you in spite of my faults. It is the mother who returns to me

today. But I want my wife, my dear wife, and I shall win her back.”

She made no reply. She experienced, on hearing him pronounce those last

words with a transfigured face, an emotion which did not vanish. She had

acquired, beneath the shock of her great sorrow, an intuition too deep

of her husband’s nature, and that facility, which formerly charmed her

by rendering her anxious, now inspired her with horror. That man with

the mobile and complaisant conscience had already forgiven himself.

It sufficed him to conceive the plan of a reparation of years, and

to respect himself for it--as if that was really sufficient--for the

difficult task. At least during the eight days which lapsed between that

conversation and their departure he strictly observed the promise he had

given his wife. In vain did Cibo, Pietrapertosa, Hafner, Ardea try to

see him. When the train which bore them away steamed out he asked his

wife, with a pride that time justified by deeds:

“Are you satisfied with me?”

“I am satisfied that we have left Rome,” said she, evasively, and it was

true in two senses of the word:

First of all, because she did not delude herself with regard to the

return of the moral energy of which Boleslas was so proud. She knew that

his variable will was at the mercy of the first sensation. Then, what

she had not confessed to her husband, the sorrow of a broken friendship

was joined in her to the sorrows of a betrayed wife. The sudden

discovery of the infamy of Alba’s mother had not destroyed her strong

affection for the young girl, and during the entire week, busy with

her preparations for a final departure, she had not ceased to wonder

anxiously: “What will she think of my silence?... What has her mother

told her?... What has she divined?”

She had loved the “poor little soul,” as she called the Contessina in

her pretty English term. She had devoted to her the friendship peculiar

to young women for young girls--a sentiment--very strong and yet very

delicate, which resembles, in its tenderness, the devotion of an elder

sister for a younger. There is in it a little naive protection and also

a little romantic and gracious melancholy. The elder friend is severe

and critical. She tries to assuage, while envying them, the excessive

enthusiasms of the younger. She receives, she provokes her confidence

with the touching gravity of a counsellor. The younger friend is curious

and admiring. She shows herself in all the truth of that graceful

awakening of thoughts and emotions which precede her own period before

marriage. And when there is, as was the case with Alba Steno, a

certain discord of soul between that younger friend and her mother,

the affection for the sister chosen becomes so deep that it can not be

broken without wounds on both sides. It was for that reason that, on

leaving Rome, faithful and noble Maud experienced at once a sense of

relief and of pain--of relief, because she was no longer exposed to the

danger of an explanation with Alba; of pain, because it was so bitter

a thought for her that she could never justify her heart to her friend,

could never aid her in emerging from the difficulties of her life,

could, finally, never love her openly as she had loved her secretly.

She said to herself as she saw the city disappear in the night with its

curves and its lights:

“If she thinks badly of me, may she divine nothing! Who will now prevent

her from yielding herself up to her sentiment for that dangerous and

perfidious Dorsenne? Who will console her when she is sad? Who will

defend her against her mother? I was perhaps wrong in writing to the

woman, as I did, the letter, which might have been delivered to her in

her daughter’s presence.... Ah, poor little soul!... May God watch over

her!”

She turned, then, toward her son, whose hair she stroked, as if to

exorcise, by the evidence of present duty, the nostalgia which possessed

her at the thought of an affection sacrificed forever. Hers was a nature

too active, too habituated to the British virtue of self-control to

submit to the languor of vain emotions.

The two persons of whom her friendship, now impotent, had thought, were,

for various reasons, the two fatal instruments of the fate of the “poor

little soul,” and the vague remorse which Maud herself felt with regard

to the terrible note sent to Madame Steno in the presence of the young

girl, was only too true. When the servant had given that letter to

the Countess, saying that Madame Gorka excused herself on account of

indisposition, Alba Steno’s first impulse had been to enter her friend’s

room.

“I will go to embrace her and to see if she has need of anything,” she

said.

“Madame has forbidden any one to enter her room,” replied the footman,

with embarrassment, and, at the same moment, Madame Steno, who had just

opened the note, said, in a voice which struck the young girl by its

change:

“Let us go; I do not feel well, either.”

The woman, so haughty, so accustomed to bend all to her will, was indeed

trembling in a very pitiful manner beneath the insult of those phrases

which drove her, Caterina Steno, away with such ignominy. She paled to

the roots of her fair hair, her face was distorted, and for the first

and last time Alba saw her form tremble. It was only for a few

moments. At the foot of the staircase energy gained the mastery in that

courageous character, created for the shock of strong emotions and

for instantaneous action. But rapid as had been that passage, it had

sufficed to disconcert the young girl. For not a moment did she doubt

that the note was the cause of that extraordinary metamorphosis in the

Countess’s aspect and attitude. The fact that Maud would not receive

her, her friend, in her room was not less strange. What was happening?

What did the letter contain? What were they hiding from her? If she had,

the day before, felt the “needle in the heart” only on divining a scene

of violent explanation between her mother and Boleslas Gorka, how would

she have been agonized to ascertain the state into which the few lines

of Boleslas’s wife had cast that mother! The anonymous denunciation

recurred to her, and with it all the suspicion she had in vain rejected.

The mother was unaware that for months there was taking place in her

daughter a moral drama of which that scene formed a decisive episode,

she was too shrewd not to understand that her emotion had been very

imprudent, and that she must explain it. Moreover, the rupture with Maud

was irreparable, and it was necessary that Alba should be included in

it.

The mother, at once so guilty and so loving, so blind and so

considerate, had no sooner foreseen the necessity than her decision was

made, and a false explanation invented:

“Guess what Maud has just written me?” said she, brusquely, to her

daughter, when they were seated side by side in their carriage. God,

what balm the simple phrase introduced into Alba’s heart! Her mother was

about to show her the note! Her joy was short-lived! The note remained

where the Countess had slipped it, after having nervously folded it, in

the opening in her glove. And she continued: “She accuses me of being

the cause of a duel between her husband and Florent Chapron, and she

quarrels with me by letter, without seeing me, without speaking to me!”

“Boleslas Gorka has fought a duel with Florent Chapron?” repeated the

young girl.

“Yes,” replied her mother. “I knew that through Hafner. I did not speak

of it to you in order not to worry you with regard to Maud, and I have

only awaited her so long to cheer her up in case I should have found her

uneasy, and this is how she rewards me for my friendship! It seems that

Gorka took offence at some remark of Chapron’s about Poles, one of those

innocent remarks made daily on any nation--the Italians, the French, the

English, the Germans, the Jews--and which mean nothing.... I repeated

the remark in jest to Gorka!... I leave you to judge.... Is it my fault

if, instead of laughing at it, he insulted poor Florent, and if the

absurd encounter resulted from it? And Maud, who writes me that she will

never pardon me, that I am a false friend, that I did it expressly to

exasperate her husband.... Ah, let her watch her husband, let her lock

him up, if he is mad! And I, who have received them as I have, I, who

have made their position for them in Rome, I, who had no other thought

than for her just now!... You hear,” she added, pressing her daughter’s

hand with a fervor which was at least sincere, if her words were

untruthful, “I forbid you seeing her again or writing to her. If she

does not offer me an apology for her insulting note, I no longer wish to

know her. One is foolish to be so kind!”

For the first time, while listening to that speech, Alba was convinced

that her mother was deceiving her. Since suspicion had entered her heart

with regard to her mother, the object until then of such admiration and

affection, she had passed through many stages of mistrust. To talk

with the Countess was always to dissipate them. That was because Madame

Steno, apart from her amorous immorality, was of a frank and truthful

nature.

It was indeed a customary and known weakness of Florent’s to repeat

those witticisms which abound in national epigrams, as mediocre as they

are iniquitous. Alba could recall at least twenty circumstances when the

excellent man had uttered such jests at which a sensitive person might

take offence. She would not have thought it utterly impossible that a

duel between Gorka and Chapron might have been provoked by an incident

of that order. But Chapron was the brother-in-law of Maitland, of the

new friend with whom Madame Steno had become infatuated during the

absence of the Polish Count, and what a brother-in-law! He of whom

Dorsenne said: “He would set Rome on fire to cook an egg for his

sister’s husband.” When Madame Steno announced that duel to her

daughter, an invincible and immediate deduction possessed the poor

child--Florent was fighting for his brother-in-law. And on account

of whom, if not of Madame Steno? The thought would not, however, have

possessed her a second in the face of the very plausible explanation

made by the Countess, if Alba had not had in her heart a certain proof

that her mother was not telling the truth. The young girl loved Maud as

much as she was loved by her. She knew the sensibility of her faithful

and, delicate friend, as that friend knew hers. For Maud to write her

mother a letter which produced an immediate rupture, there must have

been some grave reason.

Another material proof was soon joined to that moral proof. Granted the

character and the habits of the Countess, since she had not shown Maud’s

letter to her daughter there and then, it was because the letter was not

fit to be shown. But she heard on the following day only the description

of the duel, related by Maitland to Madame Steno, the savage aggression

of Gorka against Dorsenne, the composure of the latter and the issue,

relatively harmless, of the two duels.

“You see,” said her mother to her, “I was right in saying that Gorka is

mad!... It seems he has had a fit of insanity since the duel, and that

they prevent him from seeing any one.... Can you now comprehend how Maud

could blame me for what is hereditary in the Gorka family?”

Such was indeed the story which the Venetian and her friends, Hafner,

Ardea, and others, circulated throughout Rome in order to diminish the

scandal. The accusation of madness is very common to women who have

goaded to excess man’s passion, and who then wish to avoid all blame for

the deeds or words of that man. In this case, Boleslas’s fury and his

two incomprehensible duels, fifteen minutes apart, justified the story.

When it became known in the city that the Palazzetto Doria was strictly

closed, that Maud Gorka received no one, and finally that she was

taking away her husband in the manner which resembled a flight, no doubt

remained of the young man’s wrecked reason.

Two persons profited very handsomely by the gossiping, the origin of

which was a mystery. One was the innkeeper of the ‘Tempo Perso’, whose

simple ‘bettola’ became, during those few days, a veritable place of

pilgrimage, and who sold a quantity of wine and numbers of fresh eggs.

The other was Dorsenne’s publisher, of whom the Roman booksellers

ordered several hundred volumes.

“If I had had that duel in Paris,” said the novelist to Mademoiselle

Steno, relating to her the unforeseen result, “I should perhaps have at

length known the intoxication of the thirtieth edition.”

It was a few days after the departure of the Gorkas that he jested thus,

at a large dinner of twenty-four covers, given at Villa Steno in honor

of Peppino Ardea and Fanny Hafner. Reestablished in the Countess’s favor

since his duel, he had again become a frequenter of her house, so much

the more assiduous as the increasing melancholy of Alba interested

him greatly. The enigma of the young girl’s character redoubled that

interest at each visit in such a degree that, notwithstanding the heat,

already beginning, of the dangerous Roman summer, he constantly

deferred his return to Paris until the morrow. What had she guessed in

consequence of the encounter, the details of which she had asked of

him with an emotion scarcely hidden in her eyes of a blue as clear, as

transparent, as impenetrable at the same time, as the water of certain

Alpine lakes at the foot of the glaciers. He thought he was doing right

in corroborating the story of Boleslas Gorka’s madness, which he knew

better than any one else to be false. But was it not the surest means of

exempting Madame Steno from connection with the affair? Why had he seen

Alba’s beautiful eyes veiled with a sadness inexplicable, as if he had

just given her another blow? He did not know that since the day on

which the word insanity had been uttered before her relative to Maud’s

husband, the Contessina was the victim of a reasoning as simple as

irrefutable.

“If Boleslas be mad, as they say,” said Alba, “why does Maud, whom I

know to be so just and who loves me so dearly, attribute to my mother

the responsibility of this duel, to the point of breaking with me

thus, and of leaving without a line of explanation?... No.... There is

something else.”.... The nature of the “something else” the young girl

comprehended, on recalling her mother’s face during the perusal of

Maud’s letter. During the ten days following that scene, she saw

constantly before her that face, and the fear imprinted upon those

features ordinarily so calm, so haughty! Ah, poor little soul, indeed,

who could not succeed in banishing this fixed idea “My mother is not a

good woman.”

Idea! So much the more terrible, as Alba had no longer the ignorance of

a young girl, if she had the innocence. Accustomed to the conversations,

at times very bold, of the Countess’s salon, enlightened by the reading

of novels chanced upon, the words lover and mistress had for her

a signification of physical intimacy such that it was an almost

intolerable torture for her to associate them with the relations of her

mother, first toward Gorka, then toward Maitland. That torture she had

undergone during the entire dinner, at the conclusion of which Dorsenne

essayed to chat gayly with her. She sat beside the painter, and the

man’s very breath, his gestures, the sound of his voice, his manner of

eating and of drinking, the knowledge of his very proximity, had caused

her such keen suffering that it was impossible for her to take anything

but large glasses of iced water. Several times during that dinner,

prolonged amid the sparkle of magnificent silver and Venetian crystal,

amid the perfume of flowers and the gleam of jewels, she had seen

Maitland’s eyes fixed upon the Countess with an expression which

almost caused her to cry out, so clearly did her instinct divine its

impassioned sensuality, and once she thought she saw her mother respond

to it.

She felt with appalling clearness that which before she had uncertainly

experienced, the immodest character of that mother’s beauty. With

the pearls in her fair hair, with neck and arms bare in a corsage

the delicate green tint of which showed to advantage the incomparable

splendor of her skin, with her dewy lips, with her voluptuous eyes

shaded by their long lashes, the dogaresse looked in the centre of that

table like an empress and like a courtesan. She resembled the Caterina

Cornaro, the gallant queen of the island of Cypress, painted by Titian,

and whose name she worthily bore. For years Alba had been so proud

of the ray of seduction cast forth by the Countess, so proud of those

statuesque arms, of the superb carriage, of the face which defied the

passage of time, of the bloom of opulent life the glorious creature

displayed. During that dinner she was almost ashamed of it.

She had been pained to see Madame Maitland seated a few paces farther

on, with brow and lips contracted as if by thoughts of bitterness. She

wondered: Does Lydia suspect them, too? But was it possible that her

mother, whom she knew to be so generous, so magnanimous, so kind, could

have that smile of sovereign tranquillity with such secrets in her

heart? Was it possible that she could have betrayed Maud for months and

months with the same light of joy in her eyes?

“Come,” said Julien, stopping himself suddenly in the midst of a speech,

in which he had related two or three literary anecdotes. “Instead of

listening to your friend Dorsenne, little Countess, you are following

several blue devils flying through the room.”

“They would fly, in any case,” replied Alba, who, pointing to Fanny

Hafner and Prince d’Ardea seated on a couch, continued: “Has what I told

you a few weeks since been realized? You do not know all the irony of

it. You have not assisted, as I did the day before yesterday, at the

poor girl’s baptism.”

“It is true,” replied Julien, “you were godmother. I dreamed of Leo

Thirteenth as godfather, with a princess of the house of Bourbon as

godmother. Hafner’s triumph would have been complete!”

“He had to content himself with his ambassador and your servant,”

replied Alba with a faint smile, which was speedily converted into

an expression of bitterness. “Are you satisfied with your pupil?” she

added. “I am progressing.... I laugh--when I wish to weep.... But you

yourself would not have laughed had you seen the fervor of charming

Fanny. She was the picture of blissful faith. Do not scoff at her.”

“And where did the ceremony take place?” asked Dorsenne, obeying the

almost suppliant injunction.

“In the chapel of the Dames du Cenacle.”

“I know the place,” replied the novelist, “one of the most beautiful

corners of Rome! It is in the old Palais Piancini, a large mansion

almost opposite the ‘Calcographie Royale’, where they sell those

fantastic etchings of the great Piranese, those dungeons and those ruins

of so intense a poesy! It is the Gaya of stone. There is a garden on the

terrace. And to ascend to the chapel one follows a winding staircase, an

incline without steps, and one meets nuns in violet gowns, with faces

so delicate in the white framework of their bonnets. In short, an ideal

retreat for one of my heroines. My old friend Montfanon took me there.

As we ascended to that tower, six weeks ago, we heard the shrill voices

of ten little girls, singing: ‘Questo cuor tu la vedrai’. It was a

procession of catechists, going in the opposite direction, with

tapers which flickered dimly in the remnant of daylight.... It was

exquisite.... But, now permit me to laugh at the thought of Montfanon’s

choler when I relate to him this baptism. If I knew where to find

the old leaguer! But he has been hiding since our duel. He is in some

retreat doing penance. As I have already told you, the world for him

has not stirred since Francois de Guise. He only admits the alms of

the Protestants and the Jews. When Monseigneur Guerillot tells him of

Fanny’s religious aspirations, he raves immoderately. Were she to

cast herself to the lions, like Saint Blandine, he would still cry out

‘sacrilege.’”

“He did not see her the day before yesterday,” said Alba, “nor the

expression upon her face when she recited the Credo. I do not believe in

mysticism, you know, and I have moments of doubt. There are times when

I can no longer believe in anything, life seems to me so wretched

and sad.... But I shall never forget that expression. She saw God!...

Several women were present with very touching faces, and there were

many devotees.... The Cardinal is very venerable.... All were by Fanny’s

side, like saints around the Madonna in the early paintings which you

have taught me to like, and when the baptism had been gone through,

guess what she said to me: ‘Come, let us pray for my dear father, and

for his conversion.’ Is not such blindness melancholy.”

“The fact is,” said Dorsenne again, jocosely, “that in the father’s

dictionary the word has another meaning: Conversion, feminine

substantive, means to him income.... But let us reason a little,

Countess. Why do you think it sad that the daughter should see her

father’s character in her own light?... You should, on the contrary,

rejoice at it.... And why do you find it melancholy that this adorable

saint should be the daughter of a thief?... How I wish that you were

really my pupil, and that it would not be too absurd to give you here,

in this corner of the hall, a lesson in intellectuality!... I would say

to you, when you see one of those anomalies which renders you indignant,

think of the causes. It is so easy. Although Protestant, Fanny is

of Jewish origin--that is to say, the descendant of a persecuted

race--which in consequence has developed by the side of the inherent

defects of a proscribed people the corresponding virtues, the devotion,

the abnegation of the woman who feels that she is the grace of a

threatened hearth, the sweet flower which perfumes the sombre prison.”

“It is all beautiful and true,” replied Alba, very seriously. She had

hung upon Dorsenne’s lips while he spoke, with the instinctive taste for

ideas of that order which proved her veritable origin. “But you do

not mention the sorrow. This is what one can not do--look upon as a

tapestry, as a picture, as an object; the creature who has not asked to

live and who suffers. You, who have feeling, what is your theory when

you weep?”

“I can very clearly foresee the day on which Fanny will feel her

misfortune,” continued the young girl. “I do not know when she will

begin to judge her father, but that she already begins to judge Ardea,

alas, I am only too sure.... Watch her at this moment, I pray you.”

Dorsenne indeed looked at the couple. Fanny was listening to the Prince,

but with a trace of suffering upon her beautiful face, so pure in

outline that the nobleness in it was ideal.

He was laughing at some anecdote which he thought excellent, and

which clashed with the sense of delicacy of the person to whom he was

addressing himself. They were no longer the couple who, in the early

days of their betrothal, had given to Julien the sentiment of a complete

illusion on the part of the young girl for her future husband.

“You are right, Contessina,” said he, “the decrystallization has

commenced. It is a little too soon.”

“Yes, it is too soon,” replied Alba. “And yet it is too late. Would you

believe that there are times when I ask myself if it would not be my

duty to tell her the truth about her marriage, such as I know it, with

the story of the weak man, the forced sale, and of the bargaining of

Ardea?”

“You will not do it,” said Dorsenne. “Moreover, why? This one or

another, the man who marries her will only want her money, rest assured.

It is necessary that the millions be paid for here below, it is one of

their ransoms.... But I shall cause you to be scolded by your mother,

for I am monopolizing you, and I have still two calls to pay this

evening.”

“Well, postpone them,” said Alba. “I beseech you, do not go.”

“I must,” replied Julien. “It is the last Wednesday of old Duchess

Pietrapertosa, and after her grandson’s recent kindness--”

“She is so ugly,” said Alba, “will you sacrifice me to her?”

“Then there is my compatriot, who goes away tomorrow and of whom I must

take leave this evening, Madame de Sauve, with whom you met me at the

museum.... You will not say she is ugly, will you?”

“No,” responded Alba, dreamily, “she is very pretty.”.... She had

another prayer upon her lips, which she did not formulate. Then, with

a beseeching glance: “Return, at least. Promise me that you will return

after your two visits. They will be over in an hour and a half. It will

not be midnight. You know some do not ever come before one and sometimes

two o’clock. You will return?”

“If possible, yes. But at any rate, we shall meet to-morrow, at the

studio, to see the portrait.”

“Then, adieu,” said the young girl, in a low voice.

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