CHAPTER XII

OF THE LAMPS OF THE MANSIONS: THE AMBASSADOR'S PLEA

Mrs. Hurstwood was not aware of any of her husband's moral defections,

though she might readily have suspected his tendencies, which she well

understood. She was a woman upon whose action under provocation you

could never count. Hurstwood, for one, had not the slightest idea of

what she would do under certain circumstances. He had never seen her

thoroughly aroused. In fact, she was not a woman who would fly into a

passion. She had too little faith in mankind not to know that they were

erring. She was too calculating to jeopardise any advantage she might

gain in the way of information by fruitless clamour. Her wrath would

never wreak itself in one fell blow. She would wait and brood, studying

the details and adding to them until her power might be commensurate

with her desire for revenge. At the same time, she would not delay to

inflict any injury, big or little, which would wound the object of her

revenge and still leave him uncertain as to the source of the evil. She

was a cold, self-centred woman, with many a thought of her own which

never found expression, not even by so much as the glint of an eye.

Hurstwood felt some of this in her nature, though he did not actually

perceive it. He dwelt with her in peace and some satisfaction. He did

not fear her in the least--there was no cause for it. She still took a

faint pride in him, which was augmented by her desire to have her

social integrity maintained. She was secretly somewhat pleased by the

fact that much of her husband's property was in her name, a precaution

which Hurstwood had taken when his home interests were somewhat more

alluring than at present. His wife had not the slightest reason to feel

that anything would ever go amiss with their household, and yet the

shadows which run before gave her a thought of the good of it now and

then. She was in a position to become refractory with considerable

advantage, and Hurstwood conducted himself circumspectly because he felt

that he could not be sure of anything once she became dissatisfied.

It so happened that on the night when Hurstwood, Carrie, and Drouet were

in the box at McVickar's, George, Jr., was in the sixth row of the

parquet with the daughter of H. B. Carmichael, the third partner of a

wholesale dry-goods house of that city. Hurstwood did not see his son,

for he sat, as was his wont, as far back as possible, leaving himself

just partially visible, when he bent forward, to those within the first

six rows in question. It was his wont to sit this way in every

theatre--to make his personality as inconspicuous as possible where it

would be no advantage to him to have it otherwise.

He never moved but what, if there was any danger of his conduct being

misconstrued or ill-reported, he looked carefully about him and counted

the cost of every inch of conspicuity.

The next morning at breakfast his son said:

"I saw you, Governor, last night."

"Were you at McVickar's?" said Hurstwood, with the best grace in the

world.

"Yes," said young George.

"Who with?"

"Miss Carmichael."

Mrs. Hurstwood directed an inquiring glance at her husband, but could

not judge from his appearance whether it was any more than a casual look

into the theatre which was referred to.

"How was the play?" she inquired.

"Very good," returned Hurstwood, "only it's the same old thing, 'Rip Van

Winkle.'"

"Whom did you go with?" queried his wife, with assumed indifference.

"Charlie Drouet and his wife. They are friends of Moy's, visiting here."

Owing to the peculiar nature of his position, such a disclosure as this

would ordinarily create no difficulty. His wife took it for granted that

his situation called for certain social movements in which she might not

be included. But of late he had pleaded office duty on several occasions

when his wife asked for his company to any evening entertainment. He had

done so in regard to the very evening in question only the morning

before.

"I thought you were going to be busy," she remarked, very carefully.

"So I was," he exclaimed. "I couldn't help the interruption, but I made

up for it afterward by working until two."

This settled the discussion for the time being, but there was a residue

of opinion which was not satisfactory. There was no time at which the

claims of his wife could have been more unsatisfactorily pushed. For

years he had been steadily modifying his matrimonial devotion, and found

her company dull. Now that a new light shone upon the horizon, this

older luminary paled in the west. He was satisfied to turn his face away

entirely, and any call to look back was irksome.

She, on the contrary, was not at all inclined to accept anything less

than a complete fulfilment of the letter of their relationship, though

the spirit might be wanting.

"We are coming down town this afternoon," she remarked, a few days

later. "I want you to come over to Kinsley's and meet Mr. Phillips and

his wife. They're stopping at the Tremont, and we're going to show them

around a little."

After the occurrence of Wednesday, he could not refuse, though the

Phillips were about as uninteresting as vanity and ignorance could make

them. He agreed, but it was with short grace. He was angry when he left

the house.

"I'll put a stop to this," he thought. "I'm not going to be bothered

fooling around with visitors when I have work to do."

Not long after this Mrs. Hurstwood came with a similar proposition, only

it was to a matinee this time.

"My dear," he returned, "I haven't time. I'm too busy."

"You find time to go with other people, though," she replied, with

considerable irritation.

"Nothing of the kind," he answered. "I can't avoid business relations,

and that's all there is to it."

"Well, never mind," she exclaimed. Her lips tightened. The feeling of

mutual antagonism was increased.

On the other hand, his interest in Drouet's little shop-girl grew in an

almost evenly balanced proportion. That young lady, under the stress of

her situation and the tutelage of her new friend, changed effectively.

She had the aptitude of the struggler who seeks emancipation. The glow

of a more showy life was not lost upon her. She did not grow in

knowledge so much as she awakened in the matter of desire. Mrs. Hale's

extended harangues upon the subjects of wealth and position taught her

to distinguish between degrees of wealth.

Mrs. Hale loved to drive in the afternoon in the sun when it was fine,

and to satisfy her soul with a sight of those mansions and lawns which

she could not afford. On the North Side had been erected a number of

elegant mansions along what is now known as the North Shore Drive. The

present lake wall of stone and granitoid was not then in place, but the

road had been well laid out, the intermediate spaces of lawn were lovely

to look upon, and the houses were thoroughly new and imposing. When the

winter season had passed and the first fine days of the early spring

appeared, Mrs. Hale secured a buggy for an afternoon and invited Carrie.

They rode first through Lincoln Park and on far out towards Evanston,

turning back at four and arriving at the north end of the Shore Drive at

about five o'clock. At this time of year the days are still

comparatively short, and the shadows of the evening were beginning to

settle down upon the great city. Lamps were beginning to burn with that

mellow radiance which seems almost watery and translucent to the eye.

There was a softness in the air which speaks with an infinite delicacy

of feeling to the flesh as well as to the soul. Carrie felt that it was

a lovely day. She was ripened by it in spirit for many suggestions. As

they drove along the smooth pavement an occasional carriage passed. She

saw one stop and the footman dismount, opening the door for a gentleman

who seemed to be leisurely returning from some afternoon pleasure.

Across the broad lawns, now first freshening into green, she saw lamps

faintly glowing upon rich interiors. Now it was but a chair, now a

table, now an ornate corner, which met her eye, but it appealed to her

as almost nothing else could. Such childish fancies as she had had of

fairy palaces and kingly quarters now came back. She imagined that

across these richly carved entrance-ways, where the globed and

crystalled lamps shone upon panelled doors set with stained and designed

panes of glass, was neither care nor unsatisfied desire. She was

perfectly certain that here was happiness. If she could but stroll up

yon broad walk, cross that rich entrance-way, which to her was of the

beauty of a jewel, and sweep in grace and luxury to possession and

command--oh! how quickly would sadness flee; how, in an instant, would

the heartache end. She gazed and gazed, wondering, delighting, longing,

and all the while the siren voice of the unrestful was whispering in her

ear.

"If we could have such a home as that," said Mrs. Hale sadly, "how

delightful it would be."

"And yet they do say," said Carrie, "that no one is ever happy."

She had heard so much of the canting philosophy of the grapeless fox.

"I notice," said Mrs. Hale, "that they all try mighty hard, though, to

take their misery in a mansion."

When she came to her own rooms, Carrie saw their comparative

insignificance. She was not so dull but that she could perceive they

were but three small rooms in a moderately well-furnished

boarding-house. She was not contrasting it now with what she had had,

but what she had so recently seen. The glow of the palatial doors was

still in her eye, the roll of cushioned carriages still in her ears.

What, after all, was Drouet? What was she? At her window, she thought it

over, rocking to and fro, and gazing out across the lamp-lit park toward

the lamp-lit houses on Warren and Ashland avenues. She was too wrought

up to care to go down to eat, too pensive to do aught but rock and sing.

Some old tunes crept to her lips, and, as she sang them, her heart sank.

She longed and longed and longed. It was now for the old cottage room in

Columbia City, now the mansion upon the Shore Drive, now the fine dress

of some lady, now the elegance of some scene. She was sad beyond

measure, and yet uncertain, wishing, fancying. Finally, it seemed as if

all her state was one of loneliness and forsakenness, and she could

scarce refrain from trembling at the lip. She hummed and hummed as the

moments went by, sitting in the shadow by the window, and was therein as

happy, though she did not perceive it, as she ever would be.

While Carrie was still in this frame of mind, the house-servant brought

up the intelligence that Mr. Hurstwood was in the parlour asking to see

Mr. and Mrs. Drouet.

"I guess he doesn't know that Charlie is out of town," thought Carrie.

She had seen comparatively little of the manager during the winter, but

had been kept constantly in mind of him by one thing and another,

principally by the strong impression he had made. She was quite

disturbed for the moment as to her appearance, but soon satisfied

herself by the aid of the mirror, and went below.

Hurstwood was in his best form, as usual. He hadn't heard that Drouet

was out of town. He was but slightly affected by the intelligence, and

devoted himself to the more general topics which would interest Carrie.

It was surprising--the ease with which he conducted a conversation. He

was like every man who has had the advantage of practice and knows he

has sympathy. He knew that Carrie listened to him pleasurably, and,

without the least effort, he fell into a train of observation which

absorbed her fancy. He drew up his chair and modulated his voice to such

a degree that what he said seemed wholly confidential. He confined

himself almost exclusively to his observation of men and pleasures. He

had been here and there, he had seen this and that. Somehow he made

Carrie wish to see similar things, and all the while kept her aware of

himself. She could not shut out the consciousness of his individuality

and presence for a moment. He would raise his eyes slowly in smiling

emphasis of something, and she was fixed by their magnetism. He would

draw out, with the easiest grace, her approval. Once he touched her hand

for emphasis and she only smiled. He seemed to radiate an atmosphere

which suffused her being. He was never dull for a minute, and seemed to

make her clever. At least, she brightened under his influence until all

her best side was exhibited. She felt that she was more clever with him

than with others. At least, he seemed to find so much in her to applaud.

There was not the slightest touch of patronage. Drouet was full of it.

There had been something so personal, so subtle, in each meeting between

them, both when Drouet was present and when he was absent, that Carrie

could not speak of it without feeling a sense of difficulty. She was no

talker. She could never arrange her thoughts in fluent order. It was

always a matter of feeling with her, strong and deep. Each time there

had been no sentence of importance which she could relate, and as for

the glances and sensations, what woman would reveal them? Such things

had never been between her and Drouet. As a matter of fact, they could

never be. She had been dominated by distress and the enthusiastic forces

of relief which Drouet represented at an opportune moment when she

yielded to him. Now she was persuaded by secret current feelings which

Drouet had never understood. Hurstwood's glance was as effective as the

spoken words of a lover, and more. They called for no immediate

decision, and could not be answered.

People in general attach too much importance to words. They are under

the illusion that talking effects great results. As a matter of fact,

words are, as a rule, the shallowest portion of all the argument. They

but dimly represent the great surging feelings and desires which lie

behind. When the distraction of the tongue is removed, the heart

listens.

In this conversation she heard, instead of his words, the voices of the

things which he represented. How suave was the counsel of his

appearance! How feelingly did his superior state speak for itself! The

growing desire he felt for her lay upon her spirit as a gentle hand. She

did not need to tremble at all, because it was invisible; she did not

need to worry over what other people would say--what she herself would

say--because it had no tangibility. She was being pleaded with,

persuaded, led into denying old rights and assuming new ones, and yet

there were no words to prove it. Such conversation as was indulged in

held the same relationship to the actual mental enactments of the twain

that the low music of the orchestra does to the dramatic incident which

it is used to cover.

"Have you ever seen the houses along the Lake Shore on the North Side?"

asked Hurstwood.

"Why, I was just over there this afternoon--Mrs. Hale and I. Aren't they

beautiful?"

"They're very fine," he answered.

"Oh, me," said Carrie, pensively. "I wish I could live in such a place."

"You're not happy," said Hurstwood, slowly, after a slight pause.

He had raised his eyes solemnly and was looking into her own. He assumed

that he had struck a deep chord. Now was a slight chance to say a word

in his own behalf. He leaned over quietly and continued his steady gaze.

He felt the critical character of the period. She endeavoured to stir,

but it was useless. The whole strength of a man's nature was working. He

had good cause to urge him on. He looked and looked, and the longer the

situation lasted the more difficult it became. The little shop-girl was

getting into deep water. She was letting her few supports float away

from her.

"Oh," she said at last, "you mustn't look at me like that."

"I can't help it," he answered.

She relaxed a little and let the situation endure, giving him strength.

"You are not satisfied with life, are you?"

"No," she answered, weakly.

He saw he was the master of the situation--he felt it. He reached over

and touched her hand.

"You mustn't," she exclaimed, jumping up.

"I didn't intend to," he answered, easily.

She did not run away, as she might have done. She did not terminate the

interview, but he drifted off into a pleasant field of thought with the

readiest grace. Not long after he rose to go, and she felt that he was

in power.

"You mustn't feel bad," he said, kindly; "things will straighten out in

the course of time."

She made no answer, because she could think of nothing to say.

"We are good friends, aren't we?" he said, extending his hand.

"Yes," she answered.

"Not a word, then, until I see you again."

He retained a hold on her hand.

"I can't promise," she said, doubtfully.

"You must be more generous than that," he said, in such a simple way

that she was touched.

"Let's not talk about it any more," she returned.

"All right," he said, brightening.

He went down the steps and into his cab. Carrie closed the door and

ascended into her room. She undid her broad lace collar before the

mirror and unfastened her pretty alligator belt which she had recently

bought.

"I'm getting terrible," she said, honestly affected by a feeling of

trouble and shame. "I don't seem to do anything right."

She unloosed her hair after a time, and let it hang in loose brown

waves. Her mind was going over the events of the evening.

"I don't know," she murmured at last, "what I can do."

"Well," said Hurstwood as he rode away, "she likes me all right; that I

know."

The aroused manager whistled merrily for a good four miles to his office

an old melody that he had not recalled for fifteen years.

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