CHAPTER XXXI.

There was great curiosity at Rosmore to hear what the young men had done

and what they had seen in Glasgow: in the chief place, no doubt on

account of the decorations for the ball, which were of so much

importance, and in which Eddy’s taste was expected to accomplish such

great things. Eddy had so much to say on this point, that the brief

interval in the drawing-room before dinner was wholly taken up with his

account of his arrangements and purchases.

“If it all succeeds as I expect,” said Eddy, “I know what I shall do,

Mrs. Rowland. It will make a revolution in my life. I will follow the

example of other _fils de famille_ and set myself up as a decorator.

Don’t you know? Algy Fergusson makes heaps of money by it. When you are

going to give a ball, he takes everything in hand, charges you a certain

sum, and supplies whatever you want, from the flowers on the stairs to

a few dancing men in the best society, if that is wanted. I shall follow

him in humble imitation. No, I’m not going to tell you too much. Mrs.

Rowland has given me _carte blanche_. Wait till you see.”

“It’s a queer trade,” said Rowland; “but something might be made of it.

I would advise you, however, Eddy, to look out for something more like a

man.”

“Oh, it is very like my kind of man,” said Eddy; “not yours, sir: but

there’s not very much of me.”

Rowland, like everybody else, had learned to call young Saumarez,

according to the fashion of the day, by his _petit nom_. And he laughed

with great good humour at this self-description. The young man was the

most entertaining study of what he considered the manners of the best

society to the master of Rosmore. Eddy’s lightness and ease and

imperturbability amused him more than he could say, and at the same time

filled him with respect. It was all the more evident in comparison with

Archie’s easily roused temper and irritable self-consciousness, which

saw in everything a shadow of blame, and never was at ease, or able to

take anything lightly. Rowland watched the effect upon his son of

intercourse with the other light-hearted lad with the greatest secret

anxiety. He thought with pleasure that Eddy had “taken to” his

uncultured uneasy boy, and that Archie would “learn manners” from

contact with the other youth, who, though so little to look at, not such

a nice-looking fellow as Archie, was yet so much more a man of the

world. Eddy’s cheerful admission of his own defects, and that there was

not very much of him, delighted Rowland. How it disarmed criticism!

Would Archie, he wondered, ever attain to that easy mind, and

unembarrassed faculty of taking the sting out of any jibe by tranquil

pre-assertion of his own deficiencies? It was not a thing which Mr.

Rowland could himself have attained, but he saw its advantages. It did

not seem, however, in the meantime that Archie had made much progress in

acquiring this gift. He took little part in the conversation which young

Saumarez kept up so lightly. It was Eddy who told the story of their day

in Glasgow, and owned to having yawned in the Cathedral. Archie was

silent, as was his wont. He kept a little apart, and said nothing.

Sometimes he cast a glance of strange meaning at the lively

conversationalist, who made their expedition sound so amusing. What was

it that look meant? It was Archie’s usual way--his inability to

understand the happier natures. They all noted that occasional glance,

and all gave the same interpretation to it: for what, indeed, could it

mean else? There was nothing else to arouse his surprise, the wondering,

half-question in his eyes.

Archie’s wonder, indeed, was beyond words. To think that, with such a

light heart, the transaction which had already cost himself so much

should be taken by the other, without a thought of the penalty involved,

or the shame it had already brought. Perhaps Eddy did not realise that

shame, or what it was to the young man to be suspected of unkindness, of

selfishness, of wasting upon miserable pursuits of his own the money

that might have saved the life of another. A year ago nothing could have

made Archie himself realise such a position, for he had never possessed

money, and could not in the nature of things have been asked for it, and

this probably was why Saumarez was so obtuse. There was another thing,

however, which Archie could not understand, but which he was deeply

grateful for: and that was that Eddy made not the slightest reference in

his lively narrative of the day’s proceedings, to the visit to Mrs.

Brown. Why? But Archie could not tell--it only vaguely increased the

trouble in his mind, while more or less soothing it externally: and he

did not know whether it was not his duty to mention it himself. They

might think him ashamed of Aunt Jane if he said nothing, and yet the

recollection of that visit was so painful that he preferred not to speak

of it, and was grateful to his companion for leaving it out of his easy

and amusing tale. After dinner Eddy was as much the hero of the moment

as he had been before. He had various experiments to make as to the

lights, as to the flowers, and all the details of the ball-room, for the

due regulation of which the group of admiring spectators followed him up

and down, hanging upon his words. Archie followed at the end of the

train, still wondering, saying to himself, that no doubt the money,

which apparently was to cost himself so dear, had so relieved Eddy’s

mind that he could not restrain himself, that he felt a new man: that

was no doubt the cause of his vivacity, the lightness of his heart.

Archie remembered how he had himself felt when relieved of the burden of

the debt to Rankin for the little dogs, and other small matters which

had been on his mind before he had received his father’s first gift of

twenty pounds. That gift had come to him amid painful circumstances,

but when the first effect produced by them had died away, how glad he

had been to have it, to clear himself from the small burdens which were

as lead upon his soul! Eddy was much more a man of the world than he,

and his liabilities were far greater, but he thought he could understand

how he must feel from those sensations of his own. He could not but

think, however, that in Eddy’s place he would have said something--he

would have given a look or a grasp of the hand to his benefactor to show

him that he appreciated and felt what he had done, especially if that

benefactor had been likely to get into trouble for it. Then Archie,

pondering behind backs, while all that lively chatter was going on,

remembered himself that he had not said a word of gratitude to his

father for the twenty pounds, had neither felt nor spoken any gratitude.

Ah, but I am not his father, Archie said to himself. With this thought,

however, came another reflection, that up to this moment he had never

shown any thankfulness to his father, who had bestowed so many gifts

upon him. He had been embarrassed and awkward, and had taken everything

for granted. Who was he to blame another for the same sentiment which

was so strong in himself? Only just I am not his father, Archie said.

It was when the party was breaking up for the night that Marion seized

upon her brother, drawing him into a corner of the hall where the lights

were extinguished, and where in the recess of a window there was a

sheltered place beyond the reach of observation. She caught him by the

arm and drew him aside there, until the others had dispersed, and then a

piece of inquiry which he had not anticipated burst upon Archie. “Were

you at Aunty Jane’s? Did you take him to Aunty Jane’s?” Marion exclaimed

breathlessly, holding his arm with her hands as if in a vice.

“You heard him,” said Archie, avoiding the question, “telling all where

we had been.”

“Were you not there? Did you not go there? He never said a word, but he

could not speak if you didn’t. Archie, tell me on your word--were you

not there?”

Archie saw that her eyes were gleaming, and her face pale. He did not

know what to make of this sudden assault, nor what it could matter to

Marion whether he had or had not gone to see Aunty Jane. He answered at

last, however, with reluctance.

“Yes, we were there.”

“You were there! you took him there!” cried the girl, her eyes in the

dark shooting out sparks of fire. She seized him again by the arm and

shook him violently. “Oh, I knew you would do it! What do you care for

keeping up our name? If it had been anybody else you might have done

what you pleased--but him!”

“Why him?” said Archie; “what is he? Do you think I could neglect an old

friend, not to speak of my nearest kin, and her that brought us up--”

“Oh, what’s in that?--brought us up! She was well paid for it,” cried

Marion, “and now established for her life, and everything provided,

because papa thinks she was kind to us.”

“She was very kind.”

“She was not unkind,” said Marion. “She just made us serve her purpose

and keep her in an easy life. If she had been unkind it would have been

the same as killing the goose that laid the golden eggs. And now you’ve

exposed us, and showed just what we were, and where we came from, to

Eddy Saumarez! Oh, Archie, man! could you not have said she was an old

nurse, or something like that, and then there could have been no

objection? I would have had my wits about me if I had been in such an

emergency. You might so easy have said she was our old nurse; but that’s

what you could never do, to take thought for our credit and not to

expose us.”

“I don’t know what you mean by exposing us,” said Archie indignantly,

“and as for disowning our Aunt Jane----”

“Oh, disowning is just a grand word! I mean nothing of the kind. I could

just be as fond of aunty in private as you. And what could she expect

more? It would show she was self-seeking and full of her own pride if

she wanted us to expose ourselves for her. What does that mean? It just

means that we have our position to keep up. We belong to the upper

classes and not to Sauchiehall Road. I would not have let the like of

Eddy Saumarez know that we had any connection with Sauchiehall Road,

except with an old nurse or the like of that. An old nurse explains

everything,” said Marion. “I will just let him understand that’s how it

is, and that we call her aunty because we are fond of her. You may do

that and no harm--just for kindness. And what is she more than an old

nurse? You know yourself she would not come to Rosmore for that--not to

expose us. Her and me we both understand. I will just explain it all.”

“One would think,” said Archie, “that Saumarez was of great importance,

and what he thought. And most likely he thinks nothing about it. His

mind is full of his own affairs.”

“And what are his own affairs?” said Marion scornfully. “Maybe that is

one of his own affairs,” she added with a faint blush, as Archie turned

upon her in surprise. “You never can tell what may turn out to be

important and what not. Eddy is just nothing in himself. But though he

will have no money, he will have a good property and a fine house, and a

position and all that. And we have plenty of money and nothing more. It

might be a thing to be taken into consideration on both sides. But you

will never understand that, nor perhaps papa either, and I will just

have all the responsibility thrown upon myself.”

“What responsibility?” said Archie, more and more astonished.

“Oh!” she cried, with a little stamp of her foot, “as if the like of you

would ever understand!” She gave him a little indignant push from her in

the impatience of her soul; but turned to him again after a moment’s

interval. “I am not saying, mind,” said Marion, “that there is anything

in it. There may be nothing in it. It may just pass over, and be of no

consequence. I will maybe be in a much better position when I have gone

to court, and have been seen in society and all that. But you should

remember, Archie, that we’re just very new people. Papa is a new man.

His name is known, but except for our money we are just nobody. Now

mamma is different. I was angry at the time to think that papa had

married again and brought in a grand lady that would look down upon you

and me; but I’ve come to a different way of thinking now. I just study

her and take a lesson by her, and I can see if we are to get on in the

world that she is the one to help us most.”

“I don’t want her help,” cried Archie, “and if that’s what you call

getting on in the world----”

“Oh,” cried Marion, with a sigh of impatience, “you are just like a

bairn. To think that you cannot see for yourself, you that are a man!

What are we to do if we don’t get into society? You would rather be back

in the Sauchiehall Road, with your football and your friends, than in a

grand house like this, with nobody that cares for you, and nothing that

you can do.”

“May,” said the young man, sadly, “many a time I have thought that

myself,--far rather! It was a kind of living, and this is none--to be

waited on hand and foot when you’re not used to it, and feel like a

fool, and have nothing to do. But that’s not all the harm it’s done.

When I went back to the Sauchiehall Road, I was just as much out of

place there! That’s ended: and the other is begun, and there’s no

satisfaction anywhere. I will be faithful to Aunty Jane, poor body, that

was so kind to us, while I have a breath to draw,” he exclaimed with

energy. Then sinking into despondency, “But I cannot go back there, and

I am out of place here; and there is no good that I can see in a world

that’s all a vain show, both for the rich and the poor.”

“Well,” said Marion, with a certain satisfaction, “you see then, just as

I do. We must get ourselves well into what we have, for we never can go

back to what we were. And the only way that we can do it is by----” She

broke off with a little laugh. “You can find it out for yourself, but

you need not put a spoke into another person’s wheel. I am not saying

that Eddy Saumarez will be of any consequence in the end. Maybe I will

not care to know them after I have been to court. I will not commit

myself, you may be sure. I will aye have a way of escape, if I should

change my mind. But it was just silly beyond measure to give him a story

about Aunty Jane. He will take her off, and make everybody laugh. You

can see yourself how he makes fun, and takes everybody off. That is what

amuses people, and makes them ask him. He could make it very funny about

Aunty Jane. Oh, I know all they say, and I’m getting to understand. If

you can tell them stories, and keep them laughing, it’s all they think

of. And you to give him the occasion with poor Aunty Jane!”

“He had better not let me hear him say a word about Aunty Jane,” said

Archie, between his closed teeth.

“Oh, he’ll not let you hear him,” said Marion. She was altogether

unconscious of the fact that Eddy took herself off with perfect effect,

so that even Mrs. Rowland had difficulty in looking severe enough.

Archie went to join the party in the smoking-room after this

conversation, with more uneasiness than ever. He was not quite clear

about his sister’s meaning. Marion was too far-seeing, too full of

calculations for her brother. He had himself his own thoughts: but they

were of a very different turn from hers. Rosamond Saumarez was to Archie

a being of a different species from himself or any one belonging to him.

It had not occurred to him that he could appropriate this beautiful

lady, and make life more possible by her means. She was still upon her

pedestal, a thing apart, a being to be remotely admired, scarcely even

as yet worshipped: for in worship itself there is a certain

appropriation, and his imagination had not gone so far as that, had not

ventured to use any pronoun of possession, even with goddess attached to

it. In no way had he imagined that she could ever be his, but always

something beyond reach, as superior to him as heaven is to earth. The

impression she produced upon him was subduing, rather than exciting. To

think that there could be such a distance between him and any other

human creature, as there was between him and Rosamond, doubled the

mystery and awe of the world on the threshold of which he was standing,

to the disturbed and unsatisfied mind of the boy-man, so rudely shaken

out of all his old habitudes, so little at home in his new. At no time

could Marion’s frank calculations of how she could help herself up the

ascent she meant to climb, by grasping a chance hand, this man’s or

another’s, as happened to suit her best, have been possible to her

brother. He faintly apprehended what she meant, but found it so

uncongenial that his mind declined to look into it. There are some who

feel themselves forced, in the course of nature, to investigate, and

come to the bottom of such questions; and there are some who shake

themselves uneasily free of an examination which could end in nothing

but pain.

Archie had no wish to think badly of Marion, to bring down the ideal of

his sister: so he shook off the question of her meaning, and left it

alone. There was not much pleasure to him in the sitting in the

smoking-room, where he found his father and Eddy in full discussion, the

latter bearing all the _frais_ of the conversation, and making his host

laugh with his lively descriptions and sketches. Archie was conscious

that he presented a complete foil and contrast to Eddy, as he went in

and seated himself a little in the background, notwithstanding the

invitations of both the gentlemen to draw his chair nearer to the fire.

He liked to skulk behind, Rowland thought angrily, with vexation, to

himself--never could take his place simply, always kept behind backs.

Perhaps young Saumarez was not any more than Archie the son he would

have chosen. But yet what a difference there was!

The day of the ball was approaching apace, and everything in the house

began to feel the excitement of the coming event. There was less than a

week to go, when Eddy broached the subject of Johnson--of Chads--and the

possibility of procuring him an invitation.

“Oh,” he said, “there is that--friend of mine up at the head of the

loch.” (Naturally, Eddy, however much he might endeavour to conceal the

fact, said “lock,” but I need not spoil my orthography by repeating his

error.) “I wonder if you would be inclined to let me bring him, Mrs.

Rowland. I scarcely like to ask; but he’s all alone, you know, and knows

nobody, and looks wistful when one sees him.”

“You should bring him in to dinner, Eddy,” said the ever-hospitable

Rowland.

“No, sir, I don’t think I should like to do that. He has not paid the

extra twopence for manners. In a crowd he might pass muster, but at your

table----”

There was the faintest emphasis on the words, which inferred a delicate

compliment. And Rowland was pleased.

“Mr. Johnson?” said Evelyn, doubtfully. “I did not feel quite sure about

him. He was a little--odd.”

“College dons are generally odd,” said the unblushing Eddy.

“Are you quite certain, my dear boy, that he is a college don?”

“For my own part,” said Eddy presently, “I should probably like him much

better if he were not. But I suppose there can’t be two Johnsons--of

Chads.”

“No, I suppose not,” said Evelyn, still doubtfully. “At the same time,”

she added, “one would have thought if there was one thing you could be

sure of in a college don it would be grammar--and his----and that they

should talk like gentlemen.”

“I don’t know,” said Eddy, reflectively, “that one can be so very sure

of that; now that everything goes by competition, you can’t tell by his

profession that any man is a gentleman. Besides, they speak Latin

between themselves,” said the young man, with an unmoved countenance.

“Eddy!” cried Rosamond.

“Well, they do. I allow it’s queer, but I have heard them _avec mes

propres oreilles, va!_ and Latin grammar is quite different from

English--far more elaborate, and that sort of thing. English translated

out of Latin would naturally sound a little strange.”

Even Evelyn looked at him with a little surprise, uncertain whether to

laugh or not. She was but little interested in the ways of college dons.

She had a kind of belief that there was something in what he said about

competition. The gardener’s son was at college, and if he came to be a

don he would no doubt remain a little inelegant in point of grammar.

While she was thus pondering, her husband took the matter in hand.

“Send him an invitation as Eddy’s friend,” he said, in his large and

liberal way; “if he were a coal-heaver what does it matter, so long as

he is Eddy’s friend? And I don’t suppose the young ladies will think of

his conversation; they will be more interested in his dancing. It’s a

question of heel and toe, and not of hs.”

“I don’t know that he dances much,” said Eddy; “but he could always prop

up a doorway, and it would please him awfully to come and look on.”

“You’ll ask him, of course, Evelyn,” Mr. Rowland said.

And he was asked, of course; and the invitation was handed to him next

day on the hillside, where he met Archie and Eddy and the gamekeeper,

and was supplied with a gun, to the great disdain of the latter

functionary.

“That man has never had a gun in his hands till this day,” said

Roderick, aside; “keep out of his road, for any sake, Mr. Airchie: he

will never hit a grouse, but he might put a wheen shots into you or me.”

“I was not very much better myself,” said Archie. “I can feel for him,

Roderick.”

“Oh you,” said the gamekeeper. It was his young master he was speaking

to, and that has a wonderfully mollifying influence. “You were maybe no

to call experienced, but you were neither frightened for your gun nor

sweerd to use her. Keep you to that side, Mr. Airchie, and if the other

gentleman gets it, it’s just his ain friend, and he maun bear the

brunt.”

“I thought you liked Mr. Saumarez, Roderick.”

“So I do like him, though he has an awfu’ funny name. He has a good eye

for a bird, and will make a fine shot when he’s come to his prime, and

just makes you lose your manners with his fun and nonsense. But if he

brings out a stick like this upon the moor, he must just rin the risk of

him. Come you, Mr. Airchie, to this side.”

Eddy, on his hand, had something to say to his guest. “Have you got me

that thing?” he said.

“They won’t give it up till they see the money, Master Eddy. I’ve told

you so before.”

“Very well, Johnson. I have an invitation for you, in my pocket, to the

ball--and I have a cheque in my pocket, which is better than money. You

shall neither have the one nor the other till I have that paper in my

own hands.”

“Give and take then, Master Eddy,” said the other.

“You ass, keep down the muzzle of your gun! No. I must have it in my

hands to see it’s all right before I let you touch the other. Oh, just

as you please! but that’s my last word.”

“You don’t suppose I carry it about in my pocket,” said Johnson.

“I suppose nothing. I only tell you what I’ll do. Give it me that I may

see its right and the genuine thing, and you shall have the cheque,

which is as good a cheque as any in the world, whatever the other may

be.”

“You might play me some tricks, or stop it at the bank,” said Johnson.

“By Jove, that’s an idea. I’ll do so, if you don’t look sharp with that

other thing.”

“Well,” said Johnson, “if that’s how it is to be, I’ll bring it up to

you to-morrow morning to the house--and then you can introduce me to the

ladies. I ought to know them first, before I come to the dance.”

“No,” said Eddy, “you can come to the ball, where it will be fun: but if

you come near the house till the night of the ball, I’ll let off my gun

by accident, as you’ll do presently if you don’t mind, and take your

wretched life. Now, you hear. You can come to old Rankin’s cottage in

the wood to-morrow, if you like, at twelve. You can say you want a

dog--he’ll not let you have it, for he never sells them to cads; but it

will do for an excuse.”

“By Jove,” said Johnson, “if you don’t mind what you say, I’ve got a

gun, and I can have an accident too.”

“Put it down, you ass!” cried Eddy, striking down the muzzle of the gun,

which, in the confusion, went off, nearly knocking down by the

concussion the unfortunate Johnson, and ploughing into the heather and

mossy soil. The neophyte thought he had killed somebody, and fell down

on his wretched knees. “I swear to God I never meant nothing. I never

meant to ‘it any man,” he cried.

“Oh, get up, you brute, and hold your tongue,” cried Eddy. He added,

shaking him by the shoulder, “if you talk when you’re at Rosmore, you’ll

be turned out of the house. I’ve told them you speak nothing but

Latin--mind you hold your tongue if you don’t want to do for both

yourself and me.”

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