ALICE JOHNSON.
The Sunday anticipated by Dr. Richards as the one which was to bless him
with a sight of Snowdon’s belle, dawned at last, a clear, cold, winter
morning, when the air was full of frost, and the crispy snow creaked
beneath the tread, and glittered like diamonds in the sunshine. The
Doctor had not yet made his appearance in the village, for a hoarseness,
to which he was subject, had confined him at home, and Saturday had been
spent by him in rehearsing to his sisters and the servants the things he
had seen abroad, and in wondering if Alice Johnson would meet his
expectations. He did not believe her face would at all compare with the
one which continually haunted his dreams, and over which the coffin-lid
was shut weary months ago, but $50,000 had invested Miss Alice with that
peculiar charm which will sometimes make an ugly face beautiful. The
Doctor was beginning to feel the need of funds, and now that _Lily_ was
dead, the thought had more than once crossed his mind that to set
himself to the task of finding a wealthy wife was a duty he owed himself
and his family. Had poor, deserted Lily lived, he could not tell what he
might have done, for the memory of her love was the one restraining
influence which kept him from much sin. He never could forget her; never
love another as he had once loved her, but she was dead and he was free
to do his mother’s will. Similar to these were the Doctor’s cogitations,
as, on that Sunday morning, he made his toilet for church, anticipating
not a little satisfaction from the sensation he was sure to create among
some of the worshippers at St. Paul’s, for he remembered that the
Terrace Hill gentry had always been people of much importance to a
certain class of Snowdonites.
Anna was not with the party which at the usual hour entered the family
carriage with Bibles and prayer-books in hand. She seldom went out
except on warm, pleasant days; but she stood in the deep bay window
watching the carriage as it wound down the hill and thinking, how
handsome and stylish her young brother looked with his Parisian cloak
and cap, which he wore so gracefully. Others than Anna thought so too;
and at the church door there was quite a little stir, as he gallantly
handed out first his mother and then his sisters, and followed them into
the church.
Dr. Richards had never enjoyed a reputation for being very devotional,
and the interval between his entrance and the commencement of the
service was passed by him in a rather scornful survey of the timeworn
house, which had not improved during his absence. With a sneer in his
heart, he mentally compared the old-fashioned pulpit, with its steep
flight of steps and faded trimmings, with the lofty cathedral he had
been in the habit of attending in Paris, and a feeling of disgust and
contempt for people who could be satisfied with a town like Snowdon, and
a church like St. Paul’s, was creeping over him, when a soft rustling of
silk and a consciousness of a delicate perfume, which he at once
recognized as aristocratic, warned him that somebody was coming;
somebody entirely different from the score of females who had
distributed themselves within range of his vision, their countrified
bonnets, as he termed them, trimmed outside and in without the least
regard to taste, or combination of color. But the little lady, moving so
quietly up the aisle, her full skirt of dark blue silk trailing as she
came, her handsome cloth cloak, falling so gracefully from the sloping
shoulders, which the fur of Russian sable fitted so well, her plain, but
fashionable hat tied beneath her chin, with broad, rich ribbon, the
color of her dress, her dainty little muff, and, more than all, the tiny
glove, fitting, without a wrinkle, the little hand which tried the pew
door twice ere it yielded to her touch; she was different. She was
worthy of respect, and the Paris beau felt an inclination to rise at
once and acknowledge her superior presence.
Wholly unconscious of the interest she was exciting, the lady deposited
her muff upon the cushions, and then kneeling reverently upon the well
worn stool, covered her face with the hands which had so won the
doctor’s admiration. What a little creature she was, and how gloriously
beautiful were the curls of indescribable hue, falling in such profusion
from beneath the jaunty hat. All this Dr. Richards noted, marvelling
that she knelt so long, and wondering what she could be saying. His
mother and sisters did the same, it is true, but he always imagined it
was merely to be fashionable; but in the attitude of this kneeler at his
side there was something which precluded mockery. Was she sincere? Was
there one hearing what she said—an ear which marked the faintest sigh
and caught the weakest tone? He wished he knew; and a pang, keen as the
cut of a dissector’s knife, shot through his heart, as he remembered
another maiden, almost as fair as this one, kneeling at her prayers.
_Lily_ had believed in Alice Johnson’s God, and he was glad that she had
so believed, for without God, poor Lily’s short, sad life had been worse
than vain!
Alice’s devotions ended at last, and the view so coveted was obtained;
for in adjusting her dress Alice turned toward him, or rather toward his
mother, and the doctor drew a sudden breath as he met the brilliant
flashing of those laughing sunny blue eyes, and caught the radiant
expression of that face, slightly dimpled with a smile. Beautiful,
wondrously beautiful was Alice Johnson, and yet the features were not
wholly regular, for the piquant nose had a slight turn up, and the
forehead was not very high; but for all this, the glossy hair, the
dancing blue eyes, the apple-blossom complexion, and the rose-bud mouth
made ample amend; and Dr. Richards saw no fault in that witching face,
flashing its blue eyes for an instant upon him, and then modestly
turning to the service just commencing. But few of the sacred words, we
fear, took deep root in the doctor’s heart that morning. He could
scarcely have told the day, certainly not the text, and when the
benediction was pronounced he was astonished that what he had dreaded as
prosy and long had proved to be so short.
As if divining his wishes in the matter, his mother, after waiting a
moment, till Alice arose from her knees, offered her hand to the young
girl, inquired kindly for Mrs. Johnson, expressed extreme concern when
told of a heavy cold, suggested one or two remedies, commented upon the
weather, spoke of Mr. Howard’s sermon, and then, as if all the while
this had not been the chief object in stopping, she turned to the
eagerly expectant doctor, whom she introduced as “My son, Dr. Richards.”
With a smile which he felt even to his finger tips, Alice offered him
her hand, welcoming him home, and making some trivial remark touching
the contrast between their quiet town and the cities he had left.
“But you will help make it pleasanter for us this winter, I am sure,”
she continued, and the sweet blue eyes sought his for an answer as to
whether he would desert Snowdon immediately.
“No,” he replied, he should probably remain at home some time, he always
found it pleasant at Snowdon though as a boy he had often chafed at its
dullness; but it could not now be dull, with the acquisition it had
received since he was there before; and he bowed toward the young lady,
who acknowledged the compliment with a faint blush and then turned
toward the group of noisy “ill-bred children,” as Dr. Richards thought,
who came thronging about her, one offering a penny lest it should be
forgotten, a second whispering that Tommie couldn’t come because he had
no shoes, while a third climbed upon the seat for the kiss, which was
promptly given, the giver all unconscious of the disgust felt by the
foreign gentleman, who had a strong desire to take the kissed by the
neck and thrust him out into the snow! What affinity was there between
that sparkling, beautiful girl, and that pack of vulgar young ones, he’d
like to know? What was she to them, or they to her, that they should
cling to her so confidingly?
“My Sunday School scholars; I have a large class, you see,” Alice said,
as if in answer to these mental queries. “Ah, here comes my youngest—”
and Alice stooped to caress a little rosy cheeked boy, with bright brown
eyes and patches on both coat sleeves.
The doctor saw the patches, and with a gesture of impatience, turned to
go, just as his ear caught another kiss, and he knew the patched boy
received what he would have given much to have.
“Hanged if I don’t half wish I was one of those ragged urchins,” he
said, after handing his mother and sisters to their carriage, and
seating himself at their side. “But does not Miss Johnson display
strange taste. Surely some other one less refined might be found to look
after those brats, if they must be looked after, which I greatly doubt.
Better leave them as you find them; can’t elevate them if you try. It’s
trouble thrown away,” and John Richards wrapped his Parisian cloak
closer around him, and leaning back in his corner, wondered if Alice
Johnson really was happy in her teaching, or did she do it for effect.
“It is like what Lily would have done,” he thought, “had she possessed
the power and means. Alice and Lily must be alike,” and with a mental
wish that Alice’s fate might prove a happier one than poor Lily’s had
been, John relapsed into a silent mood, such as usually came over him
when Lily was in his mind.
That afternoon, while his mother and elder sisters were taking their
usual Sunday nap, and Anna was nodding in her chair, the Doctor sat
watching the blazing fire and trying to decide upon his future course.
Should he return to New York, accept the offer of an old friend of his
father’s, an experienced practitioner, and earn his own bread honorably;
or, should he remain at Snowdon and cultivate Alice Johnson? John wanted
money sadly; the whole family wanted money, as every hour of his stay
among them proved. They were growing poor so fast; and it showed
plainly, in spite of their attempts to conceal it. John would almost as
soon be dead as be poor. He never had denied himself; he never could, he
said, though well he knew the time was coming when he must, unless, to
use Micawber’s expression, “something should turn up.” And hadn’t it
turned up in the shape of a beautiful heiress? What was to hinder him
from entering the lists and carrying off the prize? He had never yet
failed when he chose to exert himself, and though he might, for a time,
be compelled to adopt a different code of morality from that which he at
present acknowledged, he would do it for once. He could be interested in
those ragged children; he could encourage Sunday schools; he could
attend church as regularly as Alice herself and, better yet, he could
doctor the poor for nothing, as that was sure to tell, and he would do
it, too, if necessary. This was the finale which he reached at last by a
series of arguments pro and con, and when it was reached, he was anxious
to commence the task at once. He presumed he could love Alice Johnson;
she was so pretty, but even if he didn’t, he would only be doing what
thousands had done before him. He should be very proud of her, and would
certainly try to make her happy. One long, almost sobbing sigh to the
memory of poor Lily, who had loved so much and been so cruelly betrayed,
one faint struggle with conscience, which said that Alice Johnson was
too pure a gem for him to trifle with, and then the past, with its sad
memories, was buried. Lily’s sweet pleading face, asking that no other
one should be wronged as she had been, was thrust aside, and Dr.
Richards stood ready for his new career.