DEATH AND RESURRECTION
The cold morning air brought Thibault back to consciousness; he tried to
rise, but the extremity of his pain held him bound. He was lying on his
back, with no remembrance of what had happened, seeing only the low grey
sky above him. He made another effort, and turning managed to lift
himself on his elbow. As he looked around him, he began to recall the
events of the previous night; he recognised the breach in the wall; and
then there came back to him the memory of the love meeting with the
Countess and the desperate duel with the Count. The ground near him was
red with blood, but the Count was no longer there; no doubt, Lestocq,
who had given him this fine blow that was nailing him to the spot, had
helped his master indoors; Thibault they had left there, to die like a
dog, as far as they cared. He had it on the tip of his tongue to hurl
after them all the maledictory wishes wherewith one would like to assail
one’s cruellest enemy. But since Thibault had been no longer Thibault,
and indeed during the remainder of the time that he would still be the
Baron Raoul, or at least so in outward appearance, his demoniacal power
had been and would continue in abeyance.
He had until nine o’clock that evening; but would he live till then?
This question gave rise in Thibault to a very uneasy state of mind. If
he were to die before that hour, which of them would die, he or the
Baron? It seemed to him as likely to be one as the other. What, however,
disturbed and angered him most was his consciousness that the misfortune
which had befallen him was again owing to his own fault. He remembered
now that before he had expressed the wish to be the Baron for four and
twenty hours, he had said some such words as these:
“I should laugh, Raoul, if the Comte de Mont-Gobert were to take you by
surprise; you would not get off so easily as if he were the Bailiff
Magloire; there would be swords drawn, and blows given and received.”
At last, with a terrible effort, and suffering the while excruciating
pain, Thibault succeeded in dragging himself on to one knee. He could
then make out people walking along a road not far off on their way to
market, and he tried to call to them, but the blood filled his mouth and
nearly choked him. So he put his hat on the point of his knife and
signalled to them like a shipwrecked mariner, but his strength again
failing, he once more fell back unconscious. In a little while, however,
he again awoke to sensation; he appeared to be swaying from side to side
as if in a boat. He opened his eyes; the peasants, it seemed, had seen
him, and although not knowing who he was, had had compassion on this
handsome young man lying covered with blood, and had concocted a sort of
hand-barrow out of some branches, on which they were now carrying him to
Villers-Cotterets. But by the time they reached Puiseux, the wounded man
felt that he could no longer bear the movement, and begged them to put
him down in the first peasant’s hut they came to, and to send a doctor
to him there. The carriers took him to the house of the village priest,
and left him there, Thibault before they parted, distributing gold among
them from Raoul’s purse, accompanied by many thanks for all their kind
offices. The priest was away saying mass, but on returning and finding
the wounded man, he uttered loud cries of lamentation.
Had he been Raoul himself, Thibault could not have found a better
hospital. The priest had at one time been Curé of Vauparfond, and while
there had been engaged to give Raoul his first schooling. Like all
country priests, he knew, or thought he knew, something about doctoring;
so he examined his old pupil’s wound. The knife had passed under the
shoulder-blade, through the right lung, and out between the second and
third ribs.
He did not for a moment disguise to himself the seriousness of the
wound, but he said nothing until the doctor had been to see it. The
latter arrived and after his examination, he turned and shook his head.
“Are you going to bleed him?” asked the priest.
“What would be the use?” asked the doctor. “If it had been done at once
after the wound was given, it might perhaps have helped to save him, but
it would be dangerous now to disturb the blood in any way.”
“Is there any chance for him?” asked the priest, who was thinking that
the less there was for the doctor to do, the more there would be for
the priest.
“If his wound runs the ordinary course,” said the doctor, lowering his
voice, “he will probably not last out the day.”
“You give him up then?”
“A doctor never gives up a patient, or at least if he does so, he still
trusts to the possibility of nature mercifully interfering on the
patient’s behalf; a clot may form and stop the hemorrhage; a cough may
disturb the clot, and the patient bleed to death.”
“You think then that it is my duty to prepare the poor young man for
death,” asked the curate.
“I think,” answered the doctor, shrugging his shoulders, “you would do
better to leave him alone; in the first place because he is, at present,
in a drowsy condition and cannot hear what you say; later on, because he
will be delirious, and unable to understand you.” But the doctor was
mistaken; the wounded man, drowsy as he was, overheard this
conversation, more re-assuring as regards the salvation of his soul than
the recovery of his body. How many things people say in the presence of
sick persons, believing that they cannot hear, while all the while, they
are taking in every word! In the present case, this extra acuteness of
hearing may perhaps have been due to the fact that it was Thibault’s
soul which was awake in Raoul’s body; if the soul belonging to it had
been in this body, it would probably have succumbed more entirely to the
effects of the wound.
The doctor now dressed the wound in the back, but left the front wound
uncovered, merely directing that a piece of linen soaked in iced water
should be kept over it. Then, having poured some drops of a sedative
into a glass of water, and telling the priest to give this to the
patient whenever he asked for drink, the doctor departed, saying that he
would come again the following morning, but that he much feared he
should take his journey for nothing.
Thibault would have liked to put in a word of his own, and to say
himself what he thought about his condition, but his spirit was as if
imprisoned in this dying body, and, against his will, was forced to
submit to lying thus within its cell. But he could still hear the
priest, who not only spoke to him, but endeavoured by shaking him to
arouse him from his lethargy. Thibault found this very fatiguing, and it
was lucky for the priest that the wounded man, just now, had no
superhuman power, for he inwardly sent the good man to the devil, many
times over.
Before long it seemed to him that some sort of hot burning pan was being
inserted under the soles of his feet, his loins, his head; his blood
began to circulate, then to boil, like water over a fire. His ideas
became confused, his clenched jaws opened; his tongue which had been
bound became loosened; some disconnected words escaped him.
“Ah, ah!” he thought to himself, “this no doubt is what the good doctor
spoke about as delirium;” and, for the while at least, this was his last
lucid idea.
His whole life--and his life had really only existed since his first
acquaintance with the black wolf--passed before him. He saw himself
following, and failing to hit the buck; saw himself tied to the
oak-tree, and the blows of the strap falling on him; saw himself and the
black wolf drawing up their compact; saw himself trying to pass the
devil’s ring over Agnelette’s finger; saw himself trying to pull out the
red hairs, which now covered a third of his head. Then he saw himself on
his way to pay court to the pretty Madame Polet of the mill, meeting
Landry, and getting rid of his rival; pursued by the farm servants, and
followed by his wolves. He saw himself making the acquaintance of Madame
Magloire, hunting for her, eating his share of the game, hiding behind
the curtains, discovered by Maître Magloire, flouted by the Baron of
Vez, turned out by all three. Again he saw the hollow tree, with his
wolves couching around it and the owls perched on its branches, and
heard the sounds of the approaching violins and hautboy and saw himself
looking, as Agnelette and the happy wedding party went by. He saw
himself the victim of angry jealousy, endeavouring to fight against it
by the help of drink, and across his troubled brain came the
recollection of François, of Champagne, and the Inn-keeper; he heard the
galloping of Baron Raoul’s horse, and he felt himself knocked down and
rolling in the muddy road. Then he ceased to see himself as Thibault; in
his stead arose the figure of the handsome young rider whose form he had
taken for a while. Once more he was kissing Lisette, once more his lips
were touching the Countess’s hand; then he was wanting to escape, but he
found himself at a cross-road where three ways only met, and each of
these was guarded by one of his victims: the first, by the spectre of a
drowned man, that was Marcotte; the second, by a young man dying of
fever on a hospital bed, that was Landry; the third, by a wounded man,
dragging himself along on one knee, and trying in vain to stand up on
his mutilated leg, that was the Comte de Mont-Gobert.
He fancied that as all these things passed before him, he told the
history of them one by one, and that the priest, as he listened to this
strange confession, looked more like a dying man, was paler and more
trembling than the man whose confession he was listening to; that he
wanted to give him absolution, but that he, Thibault, pushed him away,
shaking his head, and that he cried out with a terrible laugh: “I want
no absolution! I am damned! damned! damned!”
And in the midst of all this hallucination, this delirious madness, the
spirit of Thibault could hear the priest’s clock striking the hours, and
as they struck he counted them. Only this clock seemed to have grown to
gigantic proportions and the face of it was the blue vault of heaven,
and the numbers on it were flames; and the clock was called eternity,
and the monstrous pendulum, as it swung backwards and forwards called
out in turn at every beat: “Never! For ever!” And so he lay and heard
the long hours of the day pass one by one; and then at last the clock
struck nine. At half past nine, he, Thibault, would have been Raoul, and
Raoul would have been Thibault, for just four and twenty hours. As the
last stroke of the hour died away, Thibault felt the fever passing from
him, it was succeeded by a sensation of coldness, which almost amounted
to shivering. He opened his eyes, all trembling with cold, and saw the
priest at the foot of the bed saying the prayers for the dying, and the
hands of the actual clock pointing to a quarter past nine.
His senses had become so acute, that, imperceptible as was their double
movement, he could yet see both the larger and smaller one slowly
creeping along; they were gradually nearing the critical hour; half past
nine! Although the face of the clock was in darkness, it seemed
illuminated by some inward light. As the minute hand approached the
number 6, a spasm becoming every instant more and more violent shook the
dying man; his feet were like ice, and the numbness slowly, but
steadily, mounted from the feet to the knees, from the knees to the
thighs, from the thighs to the lower part of the body. The sweat was
running down his forehead, but he had no strength to wipe it away, nor
even to ask to have it done. It was a sweat of agony which he knew every
moment might be the sweat of death. All kinds of strange shapes, which
had nothing of the human about them, floated before his eyes; the light
faded away; wings as of bats seemed to lift his body and carry it into
some twilight region, which was neither life nor death, but seemed a
part of both. Then the twilight itself grew darker and darker; his eyes
closed, and like a blind man stumbling in the dark, his heavy wings
seemed to flap against strange and unknown things. After that he sank
away into unfathomable depths, into bottomless abysses, but still he
heard the sound of a bell.
The bell rang once, and scarcely had it ceased to vibrate when the dying
man uttered a cry. The priest rose and went to the side of the bed; with
that cry the Baron Raoul had breathed his last: it was exactly one
second after the half hour after nine.