At the Bay Shore Farm

The Newburys were agog with excitement over the Governor's picnic. As

they talked it over on the verandah at sunset, they felt that life

could not be worth living to those unfortunate people who had not been

invited to it. Not that there were many of the latter in Claymont, for

it was the Governor's native village, and the Claymonters were getting

up the picnic for him during his political visit to the city fifteen

miles away.

Each of the Newburys had a special reason for wishing to attend the

Governor's picnic. Ralph and Elliott wanted to see the Governor

himself. He was a pet hero of theirs. Had he not once been a Claymont

lad just like themselves? Had he not risen to the highest office in

the state by dint of sheer hard work and persistency? Had he not won a

national reputation by his prompt and decisive measures during the big

strike at Campden? And was he not a man, personally and politically,

whom any boy might be proud to imitate? Yes, to all of these

questions. Hence to the Newbury boys the interest of the picnic

centred in the Governor.

"I shall feel two inches taller just to get a look at him," said Ralph

enthusiastically.

"He isn't much to look at," said Frances, rather patronizingly. "I saw

him once at Campden--he came to the school when his daughter was

graduated. He is bald and fat. Oh, of course, he is famous and all

that! But I want to go to the picnic to see Sara Beaumont. She's to be

there with the Chandlers from Campden, and Mary Spearman, who knows

her by sight, is going to point her out to me. I suppose it would be

too much to expect to be introduced to her. I shall probably have to

content myself with just looking at her."

Ralph resented hearing the Governor called bald and fat. Somehow it

seemed as if his hero were being reduced to the level of common clay.

"That's like a girl," he said loftily; "thinking more about a woman

who writes books than about a man like the Governor!"

"I'd rather see Sara Beaumont than forty governors," retorted Frances.

"Why, she's famous--and her books are perfect! If I could ever hope to

write anything like them! It's been the dream of my life just to see

her ever since I read _The Story of Idlewild_. And now to think that

it is to be fulfilled! It seems too good to be true that

tomorrow--tomorrow, Newburys,--I shall see Sara Beaumont!"

"Well," said Cecilia gently--Cecilia was always gentle even in her

enthusiasm--"I shall like to see the Governor and Sara Beaumont too.

But I'm going to the picnic more for the sake of seeing Nan Harris

than anything else. It's three years since she went away, you know,

and I've never had another chum whom I love so dearly. I'm just

looking forward to meeting her and talking over all our dear, good old

times. I do wonder if she has changed much. But I am sure I shall know

her."

"By her red hair and her freckles?" questioned Elliott teasingly.

"They'll be the same as ever, I'll be bound."

Cecilia flushed and looked as angry as she could--which isn't saying

much, after all. She didn't mind when Elliott teased her about her pug

nose and her big mouth, but it always hurt her when he made fun of

Nan.

Nan's family had once lived across the street from the Newburys. Nan

and Cecilia had been playmates all through childhood, but when both

girls were fourteen the Harrises had moved out west. Cecilia had never

seen Nan since. But now the latter had come east for a visit, and was

with her relatives in Campden. She was to be at the picnic, and

Cecilia's cup of delight brimmed over.

Mrs. Newbury came briskly into the middle of their sunset plans. She

had been down to the post office, and she carried an open letter in

her hand.

"Mother," said Frances, straightening up anxiously, "you have a

pitying expression on your face. Which of us is it for--speak

out--don't keep us in suspense. Has Mary Spearman told you that Sara

Beaumont isn't going to be at the picnic?"

"Or that the Governor isn't going to be there?"

"Or that Nan Harris isn't coming?"

"Or that something's happened to put off the affair altogether?" cried

Ralph and Cecilia and Elliott all at once.

Mrs. Newbury laughed. "No, it's none of those things. And I don't know

just whom I do pity, but it is one of you girls. This is a letter from

Grandmother Newbury. Tomorrow is her birthday, and she wants either

Frances or Cecilia to go out to Ashland on the early morning train and

spend the day at the Bay Shore Farm."

There was silence on the verandah of the Newburys for the space of ten

seconds. Then Frances burst out with: "Mother, you know neither of us

can go tomorrow. If it were any other day! But the day of the picnic!"

"I'm sorry, but one of you must go," said Mrs. Newbury firmly. "Your

father said so when I called at the store to show him the letter.

Grandmother Newbury would be very much hurt and displeased if her

invitation were disregarded--you know that. But we leave it to

yourselves to decide which one shall go."

"Don't do that," implored Frances miserably. "Pick one of us

yourself--pull straws--anything to shorten the agony."

"No; you must settle it for yourselves," said Mrs. Newbury. But in

spite of herself she looked at Cecilia. Cecilia was apt to be looked

at, someway, when things were to be given up. Mostly it was Cecilia

who gave them up. The family had come to expect it of her; they all

said that Cecilia was very unselfish.

Cecilia knew that her mother looked at her, but did not turn her face.

She couldn't, just then; she looked away out over the hills and tried

to swallow something that came up in her throat.

"Glad I'm not a girl," said Ralph, when Mrs. Newbury had gone into the

house. "Whew! Nothing could induce me to give up that picnic--not if a

dozen Grandmother Newburys were offended. Where's your sparkle gone

now, Fran?"

"It's too bad of Grandmother Newbury," declared Frances angrily.

"Oh, Fran, she didn't know about the picnic," said Cecilia--but still

without turning round.

"Well, she needn't always be so annoyed if we don't go when we are

invited. Another day would do just as well," said Frances shortly.

Something in her voice sounded choked too. She rose and walked to the

other end of the verandah, where she stood and scowled down the road;

Ralph and Elliott, feeling uncomfortable, went away.

The verandah was very still for a little while. The sun had quite set,

and it was growing dark when Frances came back to the steps.

"Well, what are you going to do about it?" she said shortly. "Which of

us is to go to the Bay Shore?"

"I suppose I had better go," said Cecilia slowly--very slowly indeed.

Frances kicked her slippered toe against the fern _jardinière_.

"You may see Nan Harris somewhere else before she goes back," she said

consolingly.

"Yes, I may," said Cecilia. She knew quite well that she would not.

Nan would return to Campden on the special train, and she was going

back west in three days.

It was hard to give the picnic up, but Cecilia was used to giving

things up. Nobody ever expected Frances to give things up; she was so

brilliant and popular that the good things of life came her way

naturally. It never seemed to matter so much about quiet Cecilia.

* * * * *

Cecilia cried herself to sleep that night. She felt that it was

horribly selfish of her to do so, but she couldn't help it. She awoke

in the morning with a confused idea that it was very late. Why hadn't

Mary called her, as she had been told to do?

Through the open door between her room and Frances's she could see

that the latter's bed was empty. Then she saw a little note, addressed

to her, pinned on the pillow.

Dear Saint Cecilia [it ran], when you read this I shall be on

the train to Ashland to spend the day with Grandmother

Newbury. You've been giving up things so often and so long

that I suppose you think you have a monopoly of it; but you

see you haven't. I didn't tell you this last night because I

hadn't quite made up my mind. But after you went upstairs, I

fought it out to a finish and came to a decision. Sara

Beaumont would keep, but Nan Harris wouldn't, so you must go

to the picnic. I told Mary to call me instead of you this

morning, and now I'm off. You needn't spoil your fun pitying

me. Now that the wrench is over, I feel a most delightful glow

of virtuous satisfaction!

Fran.

If by running after Frances Cecilia could have brought her back,

Cecilia would have run. But a glance at her watch told her that

Frances must already be halfway to Ashland. So she could only accept

the situation.

"Well, anyway," she thought, "I'll get Mary to point Sara Beaumont out

to me, and I'll store up a description of her in my mind to tell Fran

tonight. I must remember to take notice of the colour of her eyes.

Fran has always been exercised about that."

It was mid-forenoon when Frances arrived at Ashland station.

Grandmother Newbury's man, Hiram, was waiting for her with the pony

carriage, and Frances heartily enjoyed the three-mile drive to the Bay

Shore Farm.

Grandmother Newbury came to the door to meet her granddaughter. She

was a tall, handsome old lady with piercing black eyes and thick white

hair. There was no savour of the traditional grandmother of caps and

knitting about her. She was like a stately old princess and, much as

her grandchildren admired her, they were decidedly in awe of her.

"So it is Frances," she said, bending her head graciously that Frances

might kiss her still rosy cheek. "I expected it would be Cecilia. I

heard after I had written you that there was to be a gubernatorial

picnic in Claymont today, so I was quite sure it would be Cecilia. Why

isn't it Cecilia?"

Frances flushed a little. There was a meaning tone in Grandmother

Newbury's voice.

"Cecilia was very anxious to go to the picnic today to see an old

friend of hers," she answered. "She was willing to come here, but you

know, Grandmother, that Cecilia is always willing to do the things

somebody else ought to do, so I decided I would stand on my rights as

'Miss Newbury' for once and come to the Bay Shore."

Grandmother Newbury smiled. She understood. Frances had always been

her favourite granddaughter, but she had never been blind,

clear-sighted old lady that she was, to the little leaven of

easy-going selfishness in the girl's nature. She was pleased to see

that Frances had conquered it this time.

"I'm glad it is you who have come--principally because you are

cleverer than Cecilia," she said brusquely. "Or at least you are the

better talker. And I want a clever girl and a good talker to help me

entertain a guest today. She's clever herself, and she likes young

girls. She is a particular friend of your Uncle Robert's family down

south, and that is why I have asked her to spend a few days with me.

You'll like her."

Here Grandmother Newbury led Frances into the sitting-room.

"Mrs. Kennedy, this is my granddaughter, Frances Newbury. I told you

about her and her ambitions last night. You see, Frances, we have

talked you over."

Mrs. Kennedy was a much younger woman than Grandmother Newbury. She

was certainly no more than fifty and, in spite of her grey hair,

looked almost girlish, so bright were her dark eyes, so clear-cut and

fresh her delicate face, and so smart her general appearance. Frances,

although not given to sudden likings, took one for Mrs. Kennedy. She

thought she had never seen so charming a face.

She found herself enjoying the day immensely. In fact, she forgot the

Governor's picnic and Sara Beaumont altogether. Mrs. Kennedy proved to

be a delightful companion. She had travelled extensively and was an

excellent _raconteur_. She had seen much of men and women and

crystallized her experiences into sparkling little sentences and

epigrams which made Frances feel as if she were listening to one of

the witty people in clever books. But under all her sparkling wit

there was a strongly felt undercurrent of true womanly sympathy and

kind-heartedness which won affection as speedily as her brilliance won

admiration. Frances listened and laughed and enjoyed. Once she found

time to think that she would have missed a great deal if she had not

come to Bay Shore Farm that day. Surely talking to a woman like Mrs.

Kennedy was better than looking at Sara Beaumont from a distance.

"I've been 'rewarded' in the most approved storybook style," she

thought with amusement.

In the afternoon, Grandmother Newbury packed Mrs. Kennedy and Frances

off for a walk.

"The old woman wants to have her regular nap," she told them.

"Frances, take Mrs. Kennedy to the fern walk and show her the famous

'Newbury Bubble' among the rocks. I want to be rid of you both until

tea-time."

Frances and Mrs. Kennedy went to the fern walk and the beautiful

"Bubble"--a clear, round spring of amber-hued water set down in a cup

of rock overhung with ferns and beeches. It was a spot Frances had

always loved. She found herself talking freely to Mrs. Kennedy of her

hopes and plans. The older woman drew the girl out with tactful

sympathy until she found that Frances's dearest ambition was some day

to be a writer of books like Sara Beaumont.

"Not that I expect ever to write books like hers," she said hurriedly,

"and I know it must be a long while before I can write anything worth

while at all. But do you think--if I try hard and work hard--that I

might do something in this line some day?"

"I think so," said Mrs. Kennedy, smiling, "if, as you say, you are

willing to work hard and study hard. There will be a great deal of

both and many disappointments. Sara Beaumont herself had a hard time

at first--and for a very long first too. Her family was poor, you

know, and Sara earned enough money to send away her first manuscripts

by making a pot of jelly for a neighbour. The manuscripts came back,

and Sara made more jelly and wrote more stories. Still they came back.

Once she thought she had better give up writing stories and stick to

the jelly alone. There did seem some little demand for the one and

none at all for the other. But she determined to keep on until she

either succeeded or proved to her own satisfaction that she could make

better jelly than stories. And you see she did succeed. But it means

perseverance and patience and much hard work. Prepare yourself for

that, Frances, and one day you will win your place. Then you will look

back to the 'Newbury Bubble,' and you will tell me what a good

prophetess I was."

They talked longer--an earnest, helpful talk that went far to inspire

Frances's hazy ambition with a definite purpose. She understood that

she must not write merely to win fame for herself or even for the

higher motive of pure pleasure in her work. She must aim, however

humbly, to help her readers to higher planes of thought and

endeavour. Then and only then would it be worth while.

"Mrs. Kennedy is going to drive you to the station," said Grandmother

Newbury after tea. "I am much obliged to you, Frances, for giving up

the picnic today and coming to the Bay Shore to gratify an old woman's

inconvenient whim. But I shall not burden you with too much gratitude,

for I think you have enjoyed yourself."

"Indeed, I have," said Frances heartily. Then she added with a laugh,

"I think I would feel much more meritorious if it had not been so

pleasant. It has robbed me of all the self-sacrificing complacency I

felt this morning. You see, I wanted to go to that picnic to see Sara

Beaumont, and I felt quite like a martyr at giving it up."

Grandmother Newbury's eyes twinkled. "You would have been beautifully

disappointed had you gone. Sara Beaumont was not there. Mrs. Kennedy,

I see you haven't told our secret. Frances, my dear, let me introduce

you two over again. This lady is Mrs. Sara Beaumont Kennedy, the

writer of _The Story of Idlewild_ and all those other books you so

much admire."

* * * * *

The Newburys were sitting on the verandah at dusk, too tired and too

happy to talk. Ralph and Elliott had seen the Governor; more than

that, they had been introduced to him, and he had shaken hands with

them both and told them that their father and he had been chums when

just their size. And Cecilia had spent a whole day with Nan Harris,

who had not changed at all except to grow taller. But there was one

little cloud on her content.

"I wanted to see Sara Beaumont to tell Frances about her, but I

couldn't get a glimpse of her. I don't even know if she was there."

"There comes Fran up the station road now," said Ralph. "My eyes,

hasn't she a step!"

Frances came smiling over the lawn and up the steps.

"So you are all home safe," she said gaily. "I hope you feasted your

eyes on your beloved Governor, boys. I can tell that Cecilia

forgathered with Nan by the beatific look on her face."

"Oh, Fran, it was lovely!" cried Cecilia. "But I felt so sorry--why

didn't you let me go to Ashland? It was too bad you missed it--and

Sara Beaumont."

"Sara Beaumont was at the Bay Shore Farm," said Frances. "I'll tell

you all about it when I get my breath--I've been breathless ever since

Grandmother Newbury told me of it. There's only one drawback to my

supreme bliss--the remembrance of how complacently self-sacrificing I

felt this morning. It humiliates me wholesomely to remember it!"

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