restore them to the liberty of nature, from the easy confinement of no
more than a pair of jumps; but on their coming out to view, we thought
a new light was added to the room, so superiourly shining was their
whiteness; then they rose in so happy a swell as to compose her a well
horned fullness of bosom, that had such an effect on the eye as to seem
flash hardened into marble, of which it emulated the polished gloss,
and far surpassed even the whitest, in the life and lustre of its
colours, white weined with blue. Who could refrain from such provoking
enticements in reach? he touched her breasts, first lightly, when the
glossy smoothness of the skin eluded his hand, and made it slip along
the surface; he pressed them, and the springy flesh that filled them,
thus pitted by force, rose again reboundingly with his hand, and on the
instant defaced the pressure: and alike indeed was the consistence of
all those parts of her body throughout, where the fulness of flesh
compacts and constitutes all that fine firmness which the touch is so
highly attached to. When he had thus largely pleased himself with this
branch of dalliance and delight, he trussed up her petticoat and shift,
in a wisp to her waist, where being tucked in, she stood fairly naked
on every side; a blush at this overspread her lovely face, and her eyes
downcast to the ground, seemed to be for quarter, when she had so great
a right to triumph in all the treasures of youth and beauty that she
now so victoriously displayed. Her legs were perfectly well shaped and
her thighs, which she kept pretty close, shewed so white, so round, so
substantial and abounding in firm flesh, that nothing could afford a
stronger recommendation to the luxury of the touch, which he
accordingly did not fail to indulge in. Then gently removing her hand,
which in the first emotion of natural modesty, she had carried thither,
he gave us rather a glimpse than a view of that soft narrow chink
running its little length downwards, and hiding the remains of it
between her thighs; but plain was to be seen the fringe of light-brown
curls, in beauteous growth over it, that with their silk gloss created
a pleasing variety from the surrounding white, whose lustre too, their
gentle embrowning shade, considerably raised. Her spark then
endeavoured, as she stood, by disclosing her thighs, to gain us a
completer sight of that central charm of attraction, but not obtaining
it so conveniently in that attitude, he led her to the foot of the
couch, and bringing it to one of the pillows gently inclined her head
down, so that as she leaned with it over her crossed hands, straddling
with her thighs wide spread, and jutting her body out, she presented a
full back view of her person, naked to her waist. Her posteriors,
plump, smooth, and prominent, formed luxuriant tracts of animated snow,
that splendidly filled the eye, till it was commanded down the parting
or separation of those exquisitely white cliffs, by their narrow vale,
and was there stopt, and attracted by the embowered bottom-savity, that
terminated this delightful vista and stood moderately gaping from the
influence of her bended posture, so that the agreeable interior red of
the sides of the orifice came into view, and with respect to the white
that dazzled round it, gave somewhat the idea of a pink slash in the
glossiest white satin. Her gallant, who was a gentleman about thirty,
somewhat inclined to a fatness that was in no sort displeasing,
improving the hint thus tendered him of this mode of enjoyment, after
setting her well in this posture, and encouraging her with kisses and
caresses to stand him thro’, drew out his affair ready erected, and
whose extreme length, rather disproportioned to its breadth, was the
more surprising, as that excess is not often the case with those of his
corpulent habit; making then the right and direct application, he drove
it up to the guard, whilst the round bulge of those Turkish beauties of
her’s, tallying with the hollow made with the bent of his belly and
thighs, as he curved inwards, brought all those parts, surely not
un-delightfully, into warm touch, and close conjunction; his hands he
kept passing round her body, and employed in toying with her enchanting
breasts. As soon too as she felt him at home as he could reach, she
lifted her head a little from the pillow, and turning her neck, without
much straining, but her cheeks glowing with the deepest scarlet, and a
smile of the tenderest satisfaction, met the kiss he pressed forward to
give her as they were thus close joined together: when leaving him to
pursue his delights, she hid again her face and blushes with her hands
and pillow, and thus stood passively and as favourably too as she
could, whilst he kept laying at her with repeated thrusts and making
the meeting flesh on both sides resound again with the violence of
them; then ever as he backened from her, we could see between them part
of his long white staff foamingly in motion, till, as he went on again
and closed with her, the interposing hillocks took it out of sight.
Sometimes he took his hands from the semi-globes of her bosom, and
transferred the pressure of them to those large ones, the present
subjects of his soft blockade, which he squeezed, grasped and played
with, till at length in pursuit of driving, so hotly urged, brought on
the height of the fit, with such overpowering pleasure, that his fair
partner became now necessary to support him, panting, fainting and
dying as he discharged; which she no sooner felt the killing sweetness
of, than unable to keep her legs, and yielding to the mighty
intoxication, she reeld, and falling forward on the couch, made it a
necessity for him, if he would preserve the warm-pleasure hold, to fall
upon her, where they perfected, in a continued conjunction of body and
ecstatic flow, their scheme of joys for that time.
As soon as he had disengaged, the charming Emily got up, and we crowded
round her with congratulations and other officious little services; for
it is to be noted, that though all modesty and reserve were banished
from the transaction of these pleasures, good manners and politeness
were inviolably observed: there was no gross ribaldry, no offensive or
rude behaviour, or ungenerous reproaches to the girls for their
compliance with the humours and desires of the men. On the contrary,
nothing was wanting to soothe, encourage, and soften the sense of their
condition to them. Men know not in general how much they destroy of
their own pleasure, when they break through the respect and tenderness
due to our sex, and even to those of it who live only by pleasing them.
And this was a maxim perfectly well understood by these polite
voluptuaries, these profound adepts in the great art and science of
pleasure, who never shewed these votaries of theirs a more tender
respect than at the time of those exercises of their complaisance, when
they unlocked their treasures of concealed beauty, and shewed out in
the pride of their native charms, ever more touching surely than when
they parade it in the artificial ones of dress and ornament.
The frolic was now come round to me, and it being my turn of
subscription to the will and pleasure of my particular elect, as well
as to that of the company, he came to me, and saluting me very
tenderly, with a flattering eagerness, put me in mind of the
compliances my presence there authorized the hopes of, and at the same
time repeated to me, “that if all this force of example had not
surmounted any repugnance I might have to concur with the humours and
desires of the company, that though the play was bespoke for my
benefit, and great as his own private disappointment might be, he would
suffer any thing, sooner than be the instrument of imposing a
disagreeable task.”
To this I answered, without the least hesitation, or mincing grimace,
“that had I not even contracted a kind of engagement to be at his
disposal without the least reserve, the example of such agreeable
companions would alone determine me, and that I was in no pain about
any thing but my appearing to so great a disadvantage after such
superior beauties.” And take notice that I thought, as I spoke. The
frankness of the answer pleased them all; my particular was
complimented on his acquisition, and, by way of indirect flattery to
me, openly envied me.
Mrs. Cole, by the way, could not have given me a greater mark of her
regard than in managing for me the choice of this young gentleman for
my master of the ceremonies: for, independent of his noble birth and
the great fortune he was heir to, his person was even uncommonly
pleasing, well shaped and tall; his face marked with the small-pox, but
no more than what added a grace of more manliness to features rather
turned to softness and delicacy, was marvellously enlivened by eyes
which were of the clearest sparkling black; in short he was one whom
any woman would, in the familiar style, ready call a very pretty
fellow.
I was now handed by him to the cockpit of our match, where, as I was
dressed in nothing but a white morning gown, he vouchsafed to play the
male Abigail on this occasion, and spared me the confusion that would
have attended the forwardness of undressing myself: my gown then was
loosen’d in a trice, and I divested of it; my stays next offered an
obstacle which readily gave way, Louisa very readily furnished a pair
of scissors to cut the lace; off went that shell and dropping my
uppercoat, I was reduced to my under one and my shift, the open bosom
of which gave the hands and eyes all the liberty they could wish. Here
I imagined the stripping was to stop, but I reckon short; my spark, at
the desire of the rest, tenderly begged, that I would not suffer the
small remains of a covering to rob them of a full view of my whole
person; and for me, who was too flexibly obsequious to dispute any
point with them, and who considered the little more that remained as
very immaterial, I readily assented to whatever he pleased-In an
instant, then, my under petticoat was untied and at my feet, and my
shift drawn over my head, so that my cap, slightly fastened, came off
with it, and brought all my hair down (of which, be it again remembered
without vanity, that I had a very fine head) in loose disorderly
ringlets, over my neck and shoulders, to the no unfavourable set-off of
my skin.
I now stood before my judges in all the truth of nature, to whom I
could not appear a very disagreeable figure, if you please to recollect
what I have beforesaid of my person, which time, that at certain
periods of life robs use every instant of our charms, had, at that of
mine, then greatly improved into full and open, bloom, for I wanted
some months of eighteen. My breasts, which in the state of nudity are
ever capital points, now in no more than in graceful plenitude,
maintained a firmness and steady independence of any stay or support,
that dared and invited the test of the touch. Then I was as tall, as
slim-shaped as could be consistent with all that juicy plumpness of
flesh, ever the most grateful to the senses of sight and touch, which I
owed to the health and youth of my constitution. I had not, however, so
thoroughly renounced all innate shame, as not to suffer great confusion
at the state I saw myself in; but the whole troop round me, men and
women, relieved me with every mark of applause and satisfaction, even
flattering attention to raise and inspire me with even sentiments of
pride on the figure I made, which my friend gallantly protested,
infinitely outshone all other birthday finery whatever; so that had I
leave to set down, for sincere, all the compliments these connoisseurs
overwhelmed me with upon this occasion, I might flatter myself with
having passed my examination with the approbation of the learned.
My friend, however, who for this time had alone the disposal of me,
humoured their curiosity, and perhaps his own, so far, that he placed
me in all the variety of postures and lights imaginable, pointing out
every beauty under every aspect of it, not without such parentheses, of
kisses, such inflammatory liberties of his roving hands, as made all
shame fly before them, and a blushing glow give place to a warmer one
of desire, which led me even to find some relish in the present scene.
But in this general survey, you may be sure, the most material spot of
me was not excused the strictest visitation; nor was it but agreed,
that I had not the least reason to be diffident of passing even for a
maid, on occasion; so inconsiderable a flaw had my preceding adventures
created there, and so soon had the blemish of an over-stretch been
repaired and worn out at any age, and in my naturally small make in
that part.
Now, whether my partner had exhausted all the modes of regaling the
touch or sight, or whether he was now ungovernably wound up to strike,
I know not; but briskly throwing off his clothes, the prodigious heat
bred by a close room, a great fire, numerous candles, and even the
inflammatory warmth of these scenes, induced him to lay aside his shirt
too, when his breeches, before loosened, now gave up their contents to
view, and shew’d in front the enemy I had to engage with, stiffly
bearing up the port of its head unhooded, and glowing red. Then I
plainly saw what I had to trust to: it was one of those just true-sized
instruments, of which the masters have a better command than the more
unwieldy, inordinate sized one are generally under. Straining me then
close to his bosom, as he stood up foreright against me, and applying
to the obvious niche its peculiar idol, he aimed at inserting it,
which, as I forwardly favoured, he effected at once, by canting up my
thighs over his naked hips, and made me receive every inch, and close
home; so-that stuck upon the pleasure-pivot, add clinging round his
neck, in which and in his hair I hid my face, burn-ingly flushing with
present feeling as much as with shame, my bosom glued to him; he
carried me once round the couch, on which he then, without quitting the
middle-fastness, or dischannelling, laid me down, and began with
pleasure-grist. But so provokingly predisposed and primed as we were,
by all the moving sights of the night, our imagination was too much
heated not to melt us of the soonest; and accordingly I no sooner felt
the warm spray darted up my inwards from him, but I was punctually on
flow, to share the momentary extasy; but I had yet greater reason to
boast of our harmony: for finding that all the flames of desire were
not yet quenched within me, but that rather, like wetted coals, I
glowed the fiercer for this sprinkling, my hot-mettled spark,
sympathizing with me, and loaded for a double fire, recontinued the
sweet battery with undying vigour; greatly encouraged to accommodate
all my motions to his best advantage and delight; kisses, squeezes,
tender murmurs, all came into play, till our joys growing more
turbulent and riotous, threw us into a fond disorder, and as they raged
to a point, bore us far from our selves into an ocean of boundless
pleasures, into which we both plunged together in a transport of taste.
Now all the impressions of burning desire, from the lively scenes I had
been spectatress of, ripened the heat of this exercise, and collecting
to a head, throbbed and agitated me with insupportable irritations: I
perfectly fevered and maddened with their excess. I bid not now enjoy a
calm of reason enough to perceive, but I ecstatically, indeed, felt the
power of such rare and exquisite provocatives, as the examples of the
night had proved towards thus exalting our pleasures: which, with great
joy, I sensibly found my gallant shared in, by his nervous and home
expressions of it: his eyes flashing eloquent flames, his action
infuriated with the stings of it, all conspiring to raise my delight,
by assuring me of his. Lifted then to the utmost pitch of joy that
human life can bear, undestroyed by excess, I touched that sweetly
critical point, whence scarce prevented by the injection from my
partner, I dissolved, and breaking out into a deep drawn sigh, sent my
whole sensitive soul down to that passage where escape was denied it,
by its being so deliciously plugged and choked up. Thus we lay a few
blissful instants, overpowered, still, and languid; till, as the sense
of pleasure stagnated, we recovered from our trance, and he slipt out
of me, not however before he had protested his extreme satisfaction by
the tenderest kiss and embrace, as well as by the most cordial
expressions.
The company, who had stood round us in a profound silence, when all was
over, helped me to hurry on my clothes in an instant, and complimented
me on the sincere homage they could not escape observing had been done
as they termed it—to the sovereignty of my charms, in my receiving a
double payment of tribute at one juncture. But my partner, now dressed
again, signalized, above all, a fondness unbated by the circumstance of
recent enjoyment; the girls too kissed and embraced me, assuring me
that for that time, or indeed any other, unless I pleased, I was to go
through no farther public trials, and that I was now consummatedly
initiated, and one of them.
As it was an inviolable law for every gallant to keep to his partner,
for the night especially, and even till he relinquished possession over
to the community, in order to preserve a pleasing property, and to
avoid the disgusts and indelicacy of another arrangement, the company,
after a short refection of biscuits and wine, tea and chocolate, served
in at now about one in the morning, broke up, and went off in pairs.
Mrs. Cole had prepared my spark and me an occasion field-bed, to which
we retired, and there ended the night in one continued strain of
pleasure, sprightly and uncloyed enough for us not to have formed one
wish for its ever knowing an end. In the morning, after a restorative
breakfast in bed, he got up, and with very tender assurance of a
particular regard for me, left me to the composure and refreshment of a
sweet slumber; waking out of which, and getting up to dress before Mrs.
Cole should come in, I found in one of my pockets a purse of guineas,
which he had slipt there; and just as I was musing on a liberality I
had certainly not expected, Mrs. Cole came in, to whom I immediately
communicated the present, and naturally offered her whatever share she
pleased: but assuring me that the gentleman had very nobly rewarded
her, she would on no terms, no entreaties, no shape I could put it in,
receive any part of it. Her denial, she observed, was no affectation of
grimace, and proceeded to read me such admirable lessons on the economy
of my person and my purse, as I became amply paid for my general
attention and conformity to in the course of my acquaintance with the
town. After which, changing the discourse, she fell on the pleasures of
the preceding night, where I learned, without much surprise, as I began
to enter on her character, that she had seen every thing that had
passed, from a convenient place managed solely for that purpose, and of
which she readily made me the confidante.
She had scarce finished this, when the little troop of love girls, my
companions, broke in, and renewed their compliments and caresses. I
observed with pleasure, that the fatigues and exercises of the night
had not usurped in the least on the life of their complexion, or the
freshness of their bloom: this I found, by their confession, was owing
to the management and advice of our rare directress. They went down
then to figure it, as usual, in the shop; whilst I repaired to my
lodging, where I employed myself till I returned to dinner at Mrs.
Cole’s.
Here I staid in constant amusement, with one or other of these charming
girls, till about five in the evening; when seized with a sudden drowsy
fit, I was prevailed on to go up and doze it off on Harriet’s bed, who
left me on it to my repose. There then I laid down in my clothes, and
fell fast asleep, and had now enjoyed, by guess, about an hour’s rest,
when I was pleasingly disturbed by my new and favourite gallant, who,
enquiring for me, was readily directed where to find me. Coming then
into my chamber, and seeing me lie alone, with my face turned from the
light towards the inside of the bed, he, without more ado, just slipped
off his breeches, for the greater ease and enjoyment of the naked
touch; and softly turning up my petticoats and shift behind, opened the
prospect of the back avenue to the genial seat of pleasure; where, as I
lay at my side length, inclining rather face downward, I appeared full
fair, and liable to be entered. Laying himself gently down by me, he
invested me behind, and giving me to feel the warmth of his body, as he
applied his thighs and belly close to me, and the endeavours of that
machine, whose touch has something so exquisitely singular in it, to
make its way good into me. I awaked pretty much startled at first, at
seeing who it was, disposed myself to turn to him, when he gave me a
kiss, and desiring me to keep my posture, just lifted up my upper
thigh, and ascertaining the right opening, soon drove it up to the
farthest: satisfied with which, and solacing himself with lying so
close in those parts, he suspended motion, and thus steeped in
pleasure, kept me lying on my side, into him, spoon-fashion, as he
termed it, from the snug indent of the back part of my thighs, and all
upwards, into the space of the bending between his thighs and belly;
till, after some time, that restless and turbulent inmate, impatient by
nature of longer quiet, urged him to action, which now prosecuting with
all the usual train of toying, kissing, and the like, ended at length
in the liquid proof on both sides, that we had not exhausted, or at
less were quickly recruited of last night’s draughts of pleasure in us.
With this noble and agreeable youth lived I in perfect joy and
constancy. He was full bent on keeping me to himself, for the
honey-month at least; but his stay in London was not even so long, his
father, who had a post in Ireland, taking him abruptly with him, on his
repairing thither. Yet even then I was near keeping hold of his
affection and person, as he had proposed, and I had consented to follow
him in order to go to Ireland after him, as soon as he could be settled
there; but meeting with an agreeable and advantageous match in that
kingdom, he chose the wiser part, and forebore sending for me, but at
the same time took care that I should receive a very magnificent
present, which did not however compensate for all my deep regret on my
loss of him.
This event also created a chasm in our little society, which Mrs. Cole,
on the foot of her usual caution, was in no haste to fill up; but then
it redoubled her attention to procure me, in the advantages of a
traffic for a counterfeit maidenhead, some consolation for the sort of
widowhood I had been left in; and this was a scheme she had never lost
prospect of, and only waited for a proper person to bring it to bear
with.
But I was, it seems, fated to be my own caterer in this, as I had been
in my first trial of the market.
I had now passed near a month in the enjoyment of all the pleasures of
familiarity and society with my companions, whose particular favourites
(the baronet excepted, who soon after took Harriet home) had all, on
the terms of community established in the house, solicited the
gratification of their taste for variety in my embraces; but I had with
the utmost art and address, on various pretexts, eluded their pursuit,
without giving them cause to complain; and this reserve I used neither
out of dislike of them, nor disgust of the thing, but my true reason
was my attachment to my own, and my tenderness of invading the choice
of my companions, who outwardly exempt, as they seemed, from jealousy,
could not but in secret like me the better for the regard I had for,
without making a merit of it to them. Thus easy, and beloved by the
whole family, did I get on; when one day, that, about five in the
afternoon, I stepped over to a fruit shop in Covent Garden, to pick
some table fruit for myself and the young women, I met with the
following adventure.
Whilst I was chaffering for the fruit I wanted, I observed myself
followed by a young gentleman, whose rich dress first attracted my
notice; for the rest, he had nothing remarkable in his person, except
that he was pale, thin-made, and ventured himself upon legs rather of
the slenderest. Easy was it to perceive, without seeming to perceive
it, that it was me he wanted to be at; and keeping his eyes fixed on
me, till he came to the same basket that I stood at, and cheapening, or
rather giving the first price asked for the fruit, began his
approaches. Now most certainly I was not at all out of figure to pass
for a modest girl. I had neither the feathers, nor fumet of a taudry
town-miss: a straw hat, a white gown, clean linen, and above all, a
certain natural and easy air of modesty (which the appearances of never
forsook me, even on those occasions that I most broke in upon it, in
practice) were all signs that gave him no opening to conjecture my
condition. He spoke to me; and this address from a stranger throwing a
blush into my cheeks, that still set him wider of the truth, I answered
him, with an awkwardness and confusion the more apt to impose, as there
really was a mixture of the genuine in them. But when proceeding, on
the foot of having broken the ice, to join discourse, he went into
other leading questions, I put so much innocence, simplicity, and even
childishness, into my answers, that on no better foundation, liking my
person as he did, I will not answer for it, he would have been sworn
for my modesty. There is, in short, in the men, when once they are
caught, by the eye especially, a fund of cullibility that their lordly
wisdom little dreams of, and in virtue of which the most sagacious of
them are seen so often our dupes. Amongst other queries he put to me,
one was, whether I was married? I replied, that I was too young to
think of that this many a year. To that of my age, I answered, and sunk
a year upon him, passing myself for not above seventeen. As to my way
of life, I told him I had served an apprenticeship to a milliner in
Preston, and was come to town after a relation, that I had found, on my
arrival, was dead, and now lived journey-woman to a milliner in town.
That last article, indeed, was not much of the side of what I pretended
to pass for; but it did pass, under favour of the growing passion I had
inspired him with. After he had next got out of me, very dexterously as
he thought, what I had no sort of design to make reserve of, my own, my
mistress’s name, and place of abode, he loaded me with fruit, all the
rarest and dearest he could pick out and sent me home, pondering on
what might be the consequence of this adventure.
As soon then as I came to Mrs. Cole’s, I related to her all that
passed, on which she very judiciously concluded, that if he did not
come after me there was no harm done, and that, if he did, as her
presage suggested to her he would, his character and his views should
be well sifted, so as to know whether the game was worth the springes;
that in the mean time nothing was easier than my part in it, since no
more rested on me than to follow her cue and promptership throughout,
till the last act.
The next morning, after an evening spent on his side, as we afterwards
learnt, in perquisitions into Mrs. Cole’s character in the
neighbourhood (than which nothing could be more favourable to her
designs upon him), my gentleman came in his chariot to the shop, where
Mrs. Cole alone had an inkling of his errand. Asking then for her, he
easily made a beginning of acquaintance by bespeaking some millinery
ware; when, as I sat without lifting my eyes, and pursuing the hem of a
ruffle with the utmost composure and simplicity of industry, Mrs. Cole
took notice, that the first impressions I made on him ran no risk of
being destroyed by those of Louisa and Emily, who were then sitting at
work by me. After vainly endeavouring to catch my eyes in rencounter
with him (I held my head down, affecting a kind of consciousness of
guilt for having, by speaking to him given him encouragement and means
of following me), and after giving Mrs. Cole direction when to bring
the things home herself, and the time he should expect them, he went
out, taking with him some goods, that he paid for liberally, for the
better grace of his introduction.
The girls all this time did not in the least smoak the mystery of this
new customer; but Mrs. Cole, as soon as we were conveniently alone,
insured me, in virtue of her long experience in these matters, “that
for this bout my charms had not missed fire; for by his eagerness, his
manner and looks, she was sure he had it: the only point now in doubt
was his character and circumstances, which her knowledge of the town
would soon gain her the sufficient acquaintance with, to take measure
upon.”