THE CONFESSION OF GOLIAS.

No. 5.

Boiling in my spirit's veins

With fierce indignation,

From my bitterness of soul

Springs self-revelation:

Framed am I of flimsy stuff,

Fit for levitation,

Like a thin leaf which the wind

Scatters from its station.

While it is the wise man's part

With deliberation

On a rock to base his heart's

Permanent foundation,

With a running river I

Find my just equation,

Which beneath the self-same sky

Hath no habitation.

Carried am I like a ship

Left without a sailor,

Like a bird that through the air

Flies where tempests hale her;

Chains and fetters hold me not,

Naught avails a jailer;

Still I find my fellows out,

Toper, gamester, railer.

To my mind all gravity

Is a grave subjection;

Sweeter far than honey are

Jokes and free affection.

All that Venus bids me do,

Do I with erection,

For she ne'er in heart of man

Dwelt with dull dejection.

Down the broad road do I run,

As the way of youth is;

Snare myself in sin, and ne'er

Think where faith and truth is;

Eager far for pleasure more

Than soul's health, the sooth is,

For this flesh of mine I care,

Seek not ruth where ruth is.

Prelate, most discreet of priests,

Grant me absolution!

Dear's the death whereof I die,

Sweet my dissolution;

For my heart is wounded by

Beauty's soft suffusion;

All the girls I come not nigh,

Mine are in illusion.

'Tis most arduous to make

Nature's self surrender;

Seeing girls, to blush and be

Purity's defender!

We young men our longings ne'er

Shall to stern law render,

Or preserve our fancies from

Bodies smooth and tender.

Who, when into fire he falls,

Keeps himself from burning?

Who within Pavia's walls

Fame of chaste is earning?

Venus with her finger calls

Youths at every turning,

Snares them with her eyes, and thralls

With her amorous yearning.

If you brought Hippolitus

To Pavia Sunday,

He'd not be Hippolitus

On the following Monday;

Venus there keeps holiday

Every day as one day;

'Mid these towers in no tower dwells

Venus Verecunda.

In the second place I own

To the vice of gaming:

Cold indeed outside I seem,

Yet my soul is flaming:

But when once the dice-box hath

Stripped me to my shaming,

Make I songs and verses fit

For the world's acclaiming.

In the third place, I will speak

Of the tavern's pleasure;

For I never found nor find

There the least displeasure;

Nor shall find it till I greet

Angels without measure,

Singing requiems for the souls

In eternal leisure.

In the public-house to die

Is my resolution;

Let wine to my lips be nigh

At life's dissolution:

That will make the angels cry,

With glad elocution,

"Grant this toper, God on high,

Grace and absolution!"

With the cup the soul lights up,

Inspirations flicker;

Nectar lifts the soul on high

With its heavenly ichor:

To my lips a sounder taste

Hath the tavern's liquor

Than the wine a village clerk

Waters for the vicar.

Nature gives to every man

Some gift serviceable;

Write I never could nor can

Hungry at the table;

Fasting, any stripling to

Vanquish me is able;

Hunger, thirst, I liken to

Death that ends the fable.

Nature gives to every man

Gifts as she is willing;

I compose my verses when

Good wine I am swilling,

Wine the best for jolly guest

Jolly hosts are filling;

From such wine rare fancies fine

Flow like dews distilling.

Such my verse is wont to be

As the wine I swallow;

No ripe thoughts enliven me

While my stomach's hollow;

Hungry wits on hungry lips

Like a shadow follow,

But when once I'm in my cups,

I can beat Apollo.

Never to my spirit yet

Flew poetic vision

Until first my belly had

Plentiful provision;

Let but Bacchus in the brain

Take a strong position,

Then comes Phoebus flowing in

With a fine precision.

There are poets, worthy men,

Shrink from public places,

And in lurking-hole or den

Hide their pallid faces;

There they study, sweat, and woo

Pallas and the Graces,

But bring nothing forth to view

Worth the girls' embraces.

Fasting, thirsting, toil the bards,

Swift years flying o'er them;

Shun the strife of open life,

Tumults of the forum;

They, to sing some deathless thing,

Lest the world ignore them,

Die the death, expend their breath,

Drowned in dull decorum.

Lo! my frailties I've betrayed,

Shown you every token,

Told you what your servitors

Have against me spoken;

But of those men each and all

Leave their sins unspoken,

Though they play, enjoy to-day,

Scorn their pledges broken.

Now within the audience-room

Of this blessed prelate,

Sent to hunt out vice, and from

Hearts of men expel it;

Let him rise, nor spare the bard,

Cast at him a pellet;

He whose heart knows not crime's smart,

Show my sin and tell it!

I have uttered openly

All I knew that shamed me,

And have spued the poison forth

That so long defamed me;

Of my old ways I repent,

New life hath reclaimed me;

God beholds the heart--'twas man

Viewed the face and blamed me.

Goodness now hath won my love,

I am wroth with vices;

Made a new man in my mind,

Lo, my soul arises!

Like a babe new milk I drink--

Milk for me suffices,

Lest my heart should longer be

Filled with vain devices.

Thou Elect of fair Cologne,

Listen to my pleading!

Spurn not thou the penitent;

See, his heart is bleeding!

Give me penance! what is due

For my faults exceeding

I will bear with willing cheer,

All thy precepts heeding.

Lo, the lion, king of beasts,

Spares the meek and lowly;

Toward submissive creatures he

Tames his anger wholly.

Do the like, ye powers of earth,

Temporal and holy!

Bitterness is more than's right

When 'tis bitter solely.

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