THE LILY-STALK.
“I was still lingering in my departure, for I knew not what to do if I
were gone, when Frau Elizabeth came to the door, and desired me to send
my mother down to her, and then to go about, and, if possible, get
tidings of the husband. ‘Mary begs you very much to do this,’ said she.
‘Can I not speak with her again myself?’ replied I. ‘That will not do,’
said Elizabeth; and we parted. In a short time I reached our dwelling:
my mother was ready that same night to go over, and be helpful to the
young stranger. I hastened down the country, thinking I should get the
surest intelligence at the _Amtmann’s_. But the _Amtmann_ himself was
still in uncertainty; and, as I was known to him, he invited me to pass
the night there. It seemed interminably long; and still I had the fair
form before my eyes, as she sat gently swaying in the saddle, and
looking down to me so sorrowful and friendly. Every moment I hoped for
news. To the worthy husband I honestly wished life and safety, and yet I
liked so well to fancy her a widow! The ranging troops by little and
little collected; and, after many variable rumors, the certainty at last
came to light, that the carriage was saved, but the hapless traveller
dead of his wounds in a neighboring village. I learned also, that,
according to our first arrangement, some of the party had gone to
communicate the melancholy tidings to Frau Elizabeth: consequently I had
nothing more to do there. Yet a boundless impatience, an immeasurable
longing, drove me over wood and mountain once more to her threshold. It
was dark; the door was shut; I saw light in the room, I saw shadows
moving on the curtains; and thus I sat watching on a bench opposite the
house; still on the point of knocking, and still withheld by many
considerations.
“But why should I go on describing to you what is in itself of no
interest? In short, next morning, too, the house was shut against me.
They knew the heavy tidings, they needed me no further; they sent me to
my father, to my work; they would not answer my inquiries; they wanted
to be rid of me.
“For eight days this sort of treatment had continued, when at last Frau
Elizabeth called me in. ‘Step softly, my friend,’ said she, ‘but enter
without scruple.’ She led me into a trim apartment, where, in the
corner, through the half-opened curtains, I saw my fair one dressed, and
sitting upright in the bed. Frau Elizabeth went towards her as if to
announce me, lifted something from the bed, and brought it me,--wrapped
in the whitest swathings, the prettiest boy! Frau Elizabeth held it
straight betwixt the mother and me; and just then the lily-stalk
occurred to me, which, in the picture, springs from the ground between
Joseph and Mary, as witness of the purity of their affection. From that
moment I was certain of my cause, certain of my happiness. I could
approach her with freedom, speak with her, bear her heavenly eye, take
the boy on my arm, and imprint a warm kiss on his brow.
“‘How I thank you for the love you bear to that orphan child!’ said the
mother. Unthinkingly and briskly I cried, ‘It is no orphan any longer,
if you like!’
“Frau Elizabeth, more prudent than I, took the child from my hands, and
got me put away.
“To this hour, when I chance to be wandering over our mountains and
forests, the remembrance of that time forms my happiest entertainment. I
can still recall the slightest particulars; which, however, as is fit, I
spare you at present. Weeks passed on: Mary was recovered; I could see
her oftener; my intercourse with her was a train of services and
attentions. Her family circumstances allowed her to choose a residence
according to her pleasure. She first staid with Frau Elizabeth: then she
paid us a visit, to thank my mother and me for so many and such friendly
helps. She liked to live with us, and I flattered myself that it was
partly on my account. What I wished to tell her, however, and durst not
utter, came to words in a singular and pretty wise, when I took her into
the chapel, which I had then fitted up as a habitual apartment. I showed
her the pictures, and explained them to her one after the other, and, so
doing, unfolded the duties of a foster-father in so vivid and cordial a
manner that the tears came into her eyes, and I could not get to the end
of my picture exhibition. I thought myself certain of her affection,
though I was not proud enough to wish so soon to efface the memory of
her husband. The law imposes on widows a year of mourning; and, in
truth, such an epoch, which includes in it the change of all earthly
things, is necessary for a feeling heart, to alleviate the painful
impressions of a great loss. We see the flowers fade and the leaves
fall; but we likewise see fruits ripen, and new buds shoot forth. Life
belongs to the living, and he who lives must be prepared for
vicissitudes.
“I now spoke with my mother on the concern which lay so near my heart.
She thereupon disclosed to me how grievous to Mary the death of her
husband had been, and how she had borne up and gathered courage again,
solely from the thought that she must live for her child. My inclination
was not unknown to the women, and already Mary had accustomed herself to
the idea of living with us. She staid a while longer in the
neighborhood: then she came up to us, and we lived for a time in the
gentlest and happiest state of betrothment. At last we wedded. That
feeling which had first drawn us together did not fade away. The duties
and joys of the father and the foster-father were united: and so our
little family, as it increased, did certainly surpass its prototype in
number of persons; but the virtues of that pattern, in respect to
faithfulness, and purity of sentiments, were sacredly maintained and
practised by us. And so also in friendly habitude we keep up the
external appearance which we, by accident, arrived at, and which fits
our internal state so well; for though all of us are good walkers, and
stout bearers of weight, the beast of burden still remains in our
company, when any business or visit takes us through these mountains and
valleys. As you met us last night, so does the whole country know us;
and we feel proud that our walk and conversation are of such a sort as
not to throw disgrace on the saintly name and figure whose imitators we
profess to be.”
_Wilhelm to Natalia._
I now conclude a pleasant, half-marvellous history, which I have
just written down for thee, from the mouth of a very worthy man.
If I have not always given his very words; if here and there, in
describing his sentiments, I have expressed my own,--this,
considering the relationship of mind I feel with him, was
natural enough. His reverence for his wife, does it not resemble
that which I entertain for thee? And is there not, even in the
first meeting of these lovers, something similar to ours? But
that he is fortunate enough to walk beside his animal, as it
bears the doubly beautiful burden; that he can enter at
evenings, with his family possession, through the old
cloister-gate; that he is inseparable from his own loved
ones,--in all this, I may well secretly envy him. Yet I must not
complain of my destiny; seeing I have promised thee that I will
suffer and be silent, as thou also hast undertaken.
Many a fair feature in the domestic union of these devout and
cheerful persons I have been obliged to omit, for how could it
be depicted in writing? Two days have passed over me agreeably,
but the third warns me to be mindful of my farther wayfaring.
With Felix I had a little quarrel to-day. He was almost for
compelling me to break through one wholesome regulation, for
which I stand engaged to thee. It has been an error, a
misfortune, in short, an arrangement of Fate with me hitherto,
that, before I am aware, my company increases; that I take a new
burden on my shoulders, which thenceforth I have to bear, and
drag along with me. So, in my present wanderings, no third party
is to become a permanent associate with us. We are, we will and
must continue, Two; and just now a new, and not very pleasing,
connection, seemed about to be established.
To the children of the house, with whom Felix has gayly passed
these days in sporting, there had joined himself a little merry
beggar-boy, who, submitting to be used or misused as the play
required, had very soon got into favor with Felix. By various
hints and expressions, I now gathered that the latter had found
himself a playmate for the next stage of our journey. The boy is
known in this quarter, and everywhere tolerated for his lively
humor, and now and then obtains an alms. Me, however, he did not
please; and I desired our host to get him sent away. This
likewise took place; but Felix was angry at it, and we had a
little flaw of discord.
In the course of this affair, I discovered something which was
pleasant to me. In the corner of the chapel, or hall, stood a
box of stones, which Felix, who, since our wanderings through
the mountains, has acquired an excessive fondness for minerals,
eagerly drew forth and examined. Many pretty eye-catching things
were among them. Our landlord said the child might choose out
what he liked: these were the remains of a large collection
which a friend had despatched thence a short while ago. He
called this person Montan; and thou wilt easily suppose how glad
I was to hear this name, under which one of our best friends is
travelling, one to whom we owe so much. Having inquired into
date and circumstances, I can now hope to meet him erelong on my
pilgrimage.
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