VIII

A Japanese dressing-gown, the ideality of whose tissue delights me, some

fresh honey and milk set by this couch hung with royal fringes; and

having partaken of this odorous refreshment, I call to Jack, my great

python crawling about after a two months' fast. I tie up a guinea-pig to

the _tabouret_, pure Louis XV., the little beast struggles and squeaks,

the snake, his black, bead-like eyes are fixed, how superb are the

oscillations...now he strikes; and with what exquisite gourmandise he

lubricates and swallows.

Marshall is at the organ in the hall, he is playing a Gregorian chant,

that beautiful hymn, the "Vexilla Regis," by Saint Fortunatus, the great

poet of the Middle Ages. And, having turned over the leaves of "Les

Fêtes Galantes," I sit down to write.

My original intention was to write some thirty or forty stories varying

from thirty to three hundred lines in length. The nature of these

stories is easy to imagine: there was the youth who wandered by night

into a witches' sabbath, and was disputed for by the witches, young and

old. There was the light o' love who went into the desert to tempt the

holy man; but he died as he yielded; his arms stiffened by some miracle,

and she was unable to free herself; she died of starvation, as her

bondage loosened in decay. I had increased my difficulties by adopting

as part of my task the introduction of all sorts of elaborate, and in

many cases extravagantly composed metres, and I had begun to feel that I

was working in sand, I could make no progress, the house I was raising

crumbled and fell away on every side. These stories had one merit: they

were all, so far as I can remember, perfectly constructed. For the art

of telling a story clearly and dramatically, _selon les procédés de M.

Scribe_, I had thoroughly learnt from old M. Duval, the author of a

hundred and sixty plays, written in collaboration with more than a

hundred of the best writers of his day, including the master himself,

Gautier. I frequently met M. Duval at breakfast at a neighbouring

_café_, and our conversation turned on _l'exposition de la pièce,

préparer la situation, nous aurons des larmes_, etc. One day, as I sat

waiting for him, I took up the _Voltaire_. It contained an article by M.

Zola. _Naturalisme, la vérité, la science,_ were repeated some

half-a-dozen times. Hardly able to believe my eyes, I read that you

should write, with as little imagination as possible, that plot in a

novel or in a play was illiterate and puerile, and that the art of M.

Scribe was an art of strings and wires, etc. I rose up from breakfast,

ordered my coffee, and stirred the sugar, a little dizzy, like one who

has received a violent blow on the head.

Echo-augury! Words heard in an unexpected quarter, but applying

marvellously well to the besetting difficulty of the moment. The reader

who has followed me so far will remember the instant effect the word

"Shelley" had upon me in childhood, and how it called into existence a

train of feeling that illuminated the vicissitudes and passions of many

years, until it was finally assimilated and became part of my being; the

reader will also remember how the mere mention, at a certain moment, of

the word "France" awoke a vital impulse, even a sense of final

ordination, and how the irrevocable message was obeyed, and how it led

to the creation of a mental existence.

And now for a third time I experienced the pain and joy of a sudden and

inward light. Naturalism, truth, the new art, above all the phrase, "the

new art," impressed me as with a sudden sense of light. I was dazzled,

and I vaguely understood that my "Roses of Midnight" were sterile

eccentricities, dead flowers that could not be galvanised into any

semblance of life, passionless in all their passion.

I had read a few chapters of the "Assommoir," as it appeared in _La

République des Lettres_; I had cried, "ridiculous, abominable," only

because it is characteristic of me to instantly form an opinion and

assume at once a violent attitude. But now I bought up the back numbers

of the _Voltaire_, and I looked forward to the weekly exposition of the

new faith with febrile eagerness. The great zeal with which the new

master continued his propaganda, and the marvellous way in which

subjects the most diverse, passing events, political, social, religious,

were caught up and turned into arguments for, or proof of the truth of

naturalism astonished me wholly. The idea of a new art based upon

science, in opposition to the art of the old world that was based on

imagination, an art that should explain all things and embrace modern

life in its entirety, in its endless ramifications, be, as it were, a

new creed in a new civilisation, filled me with wonder, and I stood dumb

before the vastness of the conception, and the towering height of the

ambition. In my fevered fancy I saw a new race of writers that would

arise, and with the aid of the novel would continue to a more glorious

and legitimate conclusion the work that the prophets had begun; and at

each development of the theory of the new art and its universal

applicability, my wonder increased and my admiration choked me. If any

one should be tempted to turn to the books themselves to seek an

explanation of this wild ecstasy, he would find nothing--as well drink

the dregs of yesterday's champagne. One is lying before me now, and as I

glance through the pages listlessly I say, "Only the simple crude

statements of a man of powerful mind, but singularly narrow vision."

Still, although eager and anxious for the fray, I did not see how I was

to participate in it. I was not a novelist, not yet a dramatic author,

and the possibility of a naturalistic poet seemed to me not a little

doubtful. I had clearly understood that the lyrical quality was to be

for ever banished; there were to be no harps and lutes in our heaven,

only drums; and the preservation of all the essentials of poetry, by the

simple enumeration of the utensils to be found in a back kitchen,

sounded, I could not help thinking (here it becomes necessary to

whisper), not unlike rigmarole. I waited for the master to speak. He had

declared that the Republic would fall if it did not become instantly

naturalistic; he would not, he could not pass over in silence so

important a branch of literature as poetry, no matter how contemptible

he might think it. If he could find nothing to praise, he must at least

condemn. At last the expected article came. It was all that could be

desired by one in my fever of mind. Hugo's claims had been previously

disproven, but now Banville and Gautier were declared to be warmed-up

dishes of the ancient world; Baudelaire was a naturalist, but he had

been spoilt by the romantic influence of his generation. _Cependant_

there were indications of the naturalistic movement even in poetry. I

trembled with excitement, I could not read fast enough. Coppée had

striven to simplify language; he had versified the street cries,

_Achetez la France, le Soir, le Rappel_; he had sought to give utterance

to humble sentiments as in "Le Petit Epicier de Montrouge," the little

grocer _qui cassait le sucre avec mélancolie_; Richepin had boldly and

frankly adopted the language of the people in all its superb crudity.

All this was, however, preparatory and tentative. We are waiting for our

poet, he who will sing to us fearlessly of the rude industry of dustmen

and the comestible glories of the market-places. The subjects are to

hand, the formula alone is wanting.

The prospect dazzled me; I tried to calm myself. Had I the stuff in me

to win and to wear these bays, this stupendous laurel crown?--bays,

laurel crown, a distinct _souvenir_ of Parnassus, but there is no modern

equivalent, I must strive to invent a new one, in the meantime let me

think. True it is that Swinburne was before me with the "Romantiques."

The hymn to Proserpine and Dolores are wonderful lyrical versions of

Mdlle. de Maupin. In form the Leper is old English, the colouring is

Baudelaire, but the rude industry of the dustmen and the comestible

glories of the market-place shall be mine. _A bas "Les Roses de

Minuit"_!

I felt the "naturalisation" of the "Roses of Midnight" would prove a

difficult task. I soon found it an impossible one, and I laid the poems

aside and commenced a volume redolent of the delights of Bougival and

Ville d'Avray. This book was to be entitled "Poems of 'Flesh and

Blood.'"

"_Elle mit son plus beau chapeau, son chapeau bleu_" ...and then? Why,

then picking up her skirt she threads her way through the crowded

streets, reads the advertisements on the walls, hails the omnibus,

inquires at the _concierge's_ loge, murmurs as she goes upstairs, "_Que

c'est haut le cinquième_," and then? Why, the door opens, and she

cries, "_Je t'aime_"

But it was the idea of the new æstheticism--the new art corresponding to

modern, as ancient art corresponded to ancient life--that captivated me,

that led me away, and not a substantial knowledge of the work done by

the naturalists. I had read the "Assommoir," and had been much impressed

by its pyramid size, strength, height, and decorative grandeur, and also

by the immense harmonic development of the idea; and the fugal treatment

of the different scenes had seemed to me astonishingly new--the

washhouse, for example: the fight motive is indicated, then follows the

development of side issues, then comes the fight motive explained; it is

broken off short, it flutters through a web of progressive detail, the

fight motive is again taken up, and now it is worked out in all its

fulness; it is worked up to _crescendo_, another side issue is

introduced, and again the theme is given forth. And I marvelled greatly

at the lordly, river-like roll of the narrative, sometimes widening out

into lakes and shallowing meres, but never stagnating in fen or

marshlands. The language, too, which I did not then recognise as the

weak point, being little more than a boiling down of Chateaubriand and

Flaubert, spiced with Goncourt, delighted me with its novelty, its

richness, its force. Nor did I then even roughly suspect that the very

qualities which set my admiration in a blaze wilder than wildfire, being

precisely those that had won the victory for the romantic school forty

years before, were very antagonistic to those claimed for the new art; I

was deceived, as was all my generation, by a certain externality, an

outer skin, a nearness, _un approchement_; in a word, by a substitution

of Paris for the distant and exotic backgrounds so beloved of the

romantic school. I did not know then, as I do now, that art is eternal,

that it is only the artist that changes, and that the two great

divisions--the only possible divisions--are: those who have talent, and

those who have no talent. But I do not regret my errors, my follies; it

is not well to know at once of the limitations of life and things. I

should be less than nothing had it not been for my enthusiasms; they

were the saving clause in my life.

But although I am apt to love too dearly the art of my day, and to the

disparagement of that of other days, I did not fall into the fatal

mistake of placing the realistic writers of 1877 side by side with and

on the same plane of intellectual vision as the great Balzac; I felt

that that vast immemorial mind rose above them all, like a mountain

above the highest tower.

And, strange to say, it was Gautier that introduced me to Balzac; for

mention is made in the wonderful preface to "Les Fleurs du Mal" of

Seraphita: Seraphita, Seraphitus; which is it?--woman or man? Should

Wilfred or Mona be the possessor? A new Mdlle. de Maupin, with royal

lily and aureole, cloud-capped mountains, great gulfs of sea-water

flowing up and reflecting as in a mirror the steep cliff's side; the

straight white feet are set thereon, the obscuring weft of flesh is

torn, and the pure, strange soul continues its mystical exhortations.

Then the radiant vision, a white glory, the last outburst and

manifestation, the trumpets of the apocalypse, the colour of heaven, the

closing of this stupendous allegory--Seraphita lying dead in the rays of

the first sun of the nineteenth century.

I, therefore, had begun, as it were, to read Balzac backwards; instead

of beginning with the plain, simple, earthly tragedy of the Père Goriot,

I first knelt in a beautiful but distant coigne of the great world of

his genius--Seraphita. Certain _nuances_ of soul are characteristic of

certain latitudes, and what subtle instinct led him to Norway in quest

of this fervent soul? The instincts of genius are unfathomable? but he

who has known the white northern women with their pure spiritual eyes,

will aver that instinct led him aright. I have known one, one whom I

used to call Seraphita; Coppée knew her too, and that exquisite volume,

"L'Exilé," so Seraphita-like in the keen blonde passion of its verse,

was written to her, and each poem was sent to her as it was written.

Where is she now, that flower of northern snow, once seen for a season

in Paris? Has she returned to her native northern solitudes, great gulfs

of sea water, mountain rock, and pine?

Balzac's genius is in his titles as heaven is in its stars: "Melmoth

Reconcilié," "Jesus-Christ en Flandres," "Le Revers d'un Grand Homme,"

"La Cousine Bette." I read somewhere not very long ago, that Balzac was

the greatest thinker that had appeared in France since Pascal. Of

Pascal's claim to be a great thinker I confess I cannot judge. No man is

greater than the age he lives in, and, therefore, to talk to us, the

legitimate children of the nineteenth century, of logical proofs of the

existence of God strikes us in just the same light as the logical proof

of the existence of Jupiter Ammon. "Les Pensées" could appear to me only

as infinitely childish; the form is no doubt superb, but tiresome and

sterile to one of such modern and exotic taste as myself. Still, I

accept thankfully, in its sense of two hundred years, the compliment

paid to Balzac; but I would add that personally he seems to me to have

shown greater wings of mind than any artist that ever lived. I am aware

that this last statement will make many cry "fool" and hiss

"Shakespeare"! But I am not putting forward these criticisms

axiomatically, but only as the expressions of an individual taste, and

interesting so far as they reveal to the reader the different

developments and the progress of my mind. It might prove a little

tiresome, but it would no doubt "look well," in the sense that going to

church "looks well," if I were to write in here ten pages of praise of

our national bard. I must, however, resist the temptation to "look

well"; a confession is interesting in proportion to the amount of truth

it contains, and I will, therefore, state frankly I never derived any

profit whatsoever, and very little pleasure from the reading of the

great plays. The beauty of the verse! Yes; he who loved Shelley so well

as I could not fail to hear the melody of--

"Music to hear, why hearest thou music sadly?

Sweets with sweets war not, joy delights in joy."

Is not such music as this enough? Of course, but I am a sensualist in

literature. I may see perfectly well that this or that book is a work of

genius, but if it doesn't "fetch me," it doesn't concern me, and I

forget its very existence. What leaves me cold to-day will madden me

to-morrow. With me literature is a question of sense, intellectual sense

if you will, but sense all the same, and ruled by the same

caprices--those of the flesh? Now we enter on very subtle distinctions.

No doubt that there is the brain-judgment and the sense-judgment of a

work of art. And it will be noticed that these two forces of

discrimination exist sometimes almost independently of each other, in

rare and radiant instances confounded and blended in one immense and

unique love. Who has not been, unless perhaps some dusty old pedant,

thrilled and driven to pleasure by the action of a book that penetrates

to and speaks to you of your most present and most intimate emotions.

This is of course pure sensualism; but to take a less marked stage. Why

should Marlowe enchant me? why should he delight and awake enthusiasm in

me, while Shakespeare leaves me cold? The mind that can understand one

can understand the other, but there are affinities in literature

corresponding to, and very analogous to, sexual affinities--the same

unreasoned attractions, the same pleasures, the same lassitudes. Those

we have loved most we are most indifferent to. Shelley, Gautier, Zola,

Flaubert, Goncourt! how I have loved you all; and now I could not, would

not, read you again. How womanly, how capricious; but even a capricious

woman is constant, if not faithful to her _amant de cœur_. And so with

me; of those I have loved deeply there is but one that still may thrill

me with the old passion, with the first ecstasy--it is Balzac. Upon that

rock I built my church, and his great and valid talent saved me often

from destruction, saved me from the shoaling waters of new æstheticisms,

the putrid mud of naturalism, and the faint and sickly surf of the

symbolists. Thinking of him, I could not forget that it is the spirit

and not the flesh that is eternal; that, as it was thought that in the

first instance gave man speech, so to the end it shall still be thought

that shall make speech beautiful and rememberable. The grandeur and

sublimity of Balzac's thoughts seem to me to rise to the loftiest

heights, and his range is limitless; there is no passion he has not

touched, and what is more marvellous, he has given to each in art a

place equivalent to the place it occupies in nature; his intense and

penetrating sympathy for human life and all that concerns it enabled him

to surround the humblest subjects with awe and crown them with the light

of tragedy. There are some, particularly those who can understand

neither and can read but one, who will object to any comparison being

drawn between the Dramatist and the Novelist; but I confess that I--if

the inherent superiority of verse over prose, which I admit

unhesitatingly, be waived--that I fail, utterly fail to see in what

Shakespeare is greater than Balzac. The range of the poet's thought is

of necessity not so wide, and his concessions must needs be greater than

the novelist's. On these points we will cry quits, and come at once to

the vital question--the creation. Is Lucien inferior to Hamlet? Is

Eugénie Grandet inferior to Desdemona? Is her father inferior to

Shylock? Is Macbeth inferior to Vautrin? Can it be said that the

apothecary in the "Cousine Bette," or the Baron Hulot, or the Cousine

Bette herself is inferior to anything the brain of man has ever

conceived? And it must not be forgotten that Shakespeare has had three

hundred years and the advantage of stage representation to impress his

characters on the sluggish mind of the world; and as mental impressions

are governed by the same laws of gravitation as atoms, our realisation

of Falstaff must of necessity be more vivid than any character in

contemporary literature, although it were equally great. And so far as

epigram and aphorism are concerned, and here I speak with absolute

sincerity and conviction, the work of the novelist seems to me richer

than that of the dramatist. Who shall forget those terrible words of the

poor life-weary orphan in the boarding-house? Speaking of Vautrin she

says, "His look frightens me as if he put his hand on my dress"; and

another epigram from the same book, "Woman's virtue is man's greatest

invention." Find me anything in La Rochefoucauld that goes more

incisively to the truth of things. One more; here I can give the exact

words: "_La gloire est le soleil des morts_." It would be easy to

compile a book of sayings from Balzac that would make all "Maximes" and

"Pensées," even those of La Rochefoucauld or Joubert, seem trivial and

shallow.

Balzac was the great moral influence of my life, and my reading

culminated in the "Comédie Humaine." I no doubt fluttered through some

scores of other books, of prose and verse, sipping a little honey, but

he alone left any important or lasting impression upon my mind. The rest

was like walnuts and wine, an agreeable aftertaste.

But notwithstanding all this reading I can lay no claim to scholarship

of any kind; for save life I could never learn anything correctly. I am

a student only of ball rooms, bar rooms, streets, and alcoves. I have

read very little; but all I read I can turn to account, and all I read I

remember. To read freely, extensively, has always been my ambition, and

my utter inability to study has always been to me a subject of grave

inquietude,--study as contrasted with a general and haphazard gathering

of ideas taken in flight. But in me the impulse is so original to

frequent the haunts of men that it is irresistible, conversation is the

breath of my nostrils, I watch the movement of life, and my ideas spring

from it uncalled for, as buds from branches. Contact with the world is

in me the generating force; without this what invention I have is thin

and sterile, and it grows thinner rapidly, until it dies away utterly,

as it did in the composition of my unfortunate "Roses of Midnight."

Men and women, oh the strength of the living faces! conversation, oh the

magic of it! It is a fabulous river of gold where the precious metal is

washed up without stint for all to take, to take as much as he can

carry. Two old ladies discussing the peerage? Much may be learned, it is

gold; poets and wits, then it is fountains whose spray solidifies into

jewels, and every herb and plant is begemmed with the sparkle of the

diamond and the glow of the ruby.

I did not go to either Oxford or Cambridge, but I went to the "Nouvelle

Athènes." What is the "Nouvelle Athènes"? He who would know anything of

my life must know something of the academy of the fine arts. Not the

official stupidity you read of in the daily papers, but the real French

academy, the _café_. The "Nouvelle Athènes" is a _café_ on the Place

Pigale. Ah! the morning idlenesses and the long evenings when life was

but a summer illusion, the grey moonlights on the Place where we used

to stand on the pavements, the shutters clanging up behind us, loath to

separate, thinking of what we had left said, and how much better we

might have enforced our arguments. Dead and scattered are all those who

used to assemble there, and those years and our home, for it was our

home, live only in a few pictures and a few pages of prose. The same old

story, the vanquished only are victorious; and though unacknowledged,

though unknown, the influence of the "Nouvelle Athènes" is inveterate in

the artistic thought of the nineteenth century.

How magnetic, intense, and vivid are these memories of youth. With what

strange, almost unnatural clearness do I see and hear,--see the white

face of that _café_, the white nose of that block of houses, stretching

up to the Place, between two streets. I can see down the incline of

those two streets, and I know what shops are there; I can hear the glass

door of the _café_ grate on the sand as I open it. I can recall the

smell of every hour. In the morning that of eggs frizzling in butter,

the pungent cigarette, coffee and bad cognac; at five o'clock the

fragrant odour of absinthe; and soon after the steaming soup ascends

from the kitchen; and as the evening advances, the mingled smells of

cigarettes, coffee, and weak beer. A partition, rising a few feet or

more over the hats, separates the glass front from the main body of the

_café_. The usual marble tables are there, and it is there we sat and

æstheticised till two o'clock in the morning. But who is that man? he

whose prominent eyes flash with excitement. That is Villiers de

l'Isle-Adam. The last or the supposed last of the great family. He is

telling that girl a story--that fair girl with heavy eyelids, stupid and

sensual. She is, however, genuinely astonished and interested, and he is

striving to play upon her ignorance. Listen to him. "Spain--the night is

fragrant with the sea and the perfume of the orange trees, you know--a

midnight of stars and dreams. Now and then the silence is broken by the

sentries challenging--that is all. But not in Spanish but in French are

the challenges given; the town is in the hands of the French; it is

under martial law. But now an officer passes down a certain garden, a

Spaniard disguised as a French officer; from the balcony the family--one

of the most noble and oldest families Spain can boast of, a thousand

years, long before the conquest of the Moors--watches him. Well

then"--Villiers sweeps with a white feminine hand the long hair that is

falling over his face--he has half forgotten, he is a little mixed in

the opening of the story, and he is striving in English to "scamp," in

French to _escamoter_. "The family are watching, death if he is caught,

if he fails to kill the French sentry. The cry of a bird, some vague

sound attracts the sentry, he turns; all is lost. The Spaniard is

seized. Martial law, Spanish conspiracy must be put down. The French

general is a man of iron." (Villiers laughs, a short, hesitating laugh

that is characteristic of him, and continues in his abrupt, uncertain

way), "man of iron; not only he declares that the spy must be beheaded,

but also the entire family--a man of iron that, ha, ha; and then, no you

cannot, it is impossible for you to understand the enormity of the

calamity--a thousand years before the conquest by the Moors, a Spaniard

alone could--there is no one here, ha, ha, I was forgetting--the utter

extinction of a great family of the name, the oldest and noblest of all

the families in Spain, it is not easy to understand that, no, not easy

here in the 'Nouvelle Athènes'--ha, ha, one must belong to a great

family to understand, ha, ha.

"The father beseeches, he begs that one member may be spared to continue

the name--the youngest son--that is all; if he could be saved, the rest

what matter; death is nothing to a Spaniard; the family, the name, a

thousand years of name is everything. The general is, you know, a 'man

of iron.' 'Yes, one member of your family shall be respited, but on one

condition.' To the agonised family conditions are as nothing. But they

don't know the man of iron is determined to make a terrible example, and

they cry, 'Any conditions.' 'He who is respited must serve as

executioner to the others.' Great is the doom; you understand; but after

all the name must be saved. Then in the family council the father goes

to his youngest son and says, 'I have been a good father to you, my son;

I have always been a kind father, have I not? answer me; I have never

refused you anything. Now you will not fail us, you will prove yourself

worthy of the great name you bear. Remember your great ancestor who

defeated the Moors, remember.'" (Villiers strives to get in a little

local colour, but his knowledge of Spanish names and history is limited,

and he in a certain sense fails.) "Then the mother comes to her son and

says, 'My son, I have been a good mother, I have always loved you; say

you will not desert us in this hour of our great need.' Then the little

sister comes, and the whole family kneels down and appeals to the

horror-stricken boy....

"'He will not prove himself unworthy of our name,' cries the father.

'Now, my son, courage, take the axe firmly, do what I ask you, courage,

strike straight.' The father's head falls into the sawdust, the blood

all over the white beard; then comes the elder brother, and then another

brother; and then, oh, the little sister was almost more than he could

bear, and the mother had to whisper, 'Remember your promise to your

father, to your dead father.' The mother laid her head on the block, but

he could not strike. 'Be not the first coward of our name, strike;

remember your promise to us all,' and her head was struck off."

"And the son," the girl asks, "what became of him?"

"He never was seen, save at night, walking, a solitary man, beneath the

walls of his castle in Granada."

"And whom did he marry?"

"He never married."

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