But now I have better things to write of, things that have some relish
of good in them. I was very weak and low from loss of blood for days,
and, suddenly, the tide turned. I had won recognition for distinguished
gallantry they told me--that day they took me to Washington. I lay three
weeks there in the hospital. As soon as they heard of my misfortune
at home Uncle Eb wrote he was coming to see me. I stopped him by a
telegram, assuring him that I was nearly well and would be home shortly.
My term of enlistment had expired when they let me out a fine day in
mid August. I was going home for a visit as sound as any man but, in
the horse talk of Faraway, I had a little 'blemish'on the left shoulder.
Uncle Eb was to meet me at the jersey City depot. Before going I, with
others who had been complimented for bravery, went to see the president.
There were some twenty of us summoned to meet him that day. It was warm
and the great Lincoln sat in his shirt-sleeves at a desk in the middle
of his big office. He wore a pair of brown carpet slippers, the rolling
collar and black stock now made so familiar in print. His hair was
tumbled. He was writing hurriedly when we came in. He laid his pen away
and turned to us without speaking. There was a careworn look upon his
solemn face.
'Mr President,' said the general, who had come with us, 'here are some
of the brave men of our army, whom you wished to see.
He came and shook hands with each and thanked us in the name of the
republic, for the example of courage and patriotism we and many others
had given to the army. He had a lean, tall, ungraceful figure and he
spoke his mind without any frill or flourish. He said only a few words
of good plain talk and was done with us.
'Which is Brower?' he enquired presently.
I came forward more scared than ever I had been before.
'My son,' he said, taking my hand in his, 'why didn't you run?'
'Didn't dare,' I answered. 'I knew it was more dangerous to run away
than to go forward.'
'Reminds me of a story,' said he smiling. 'Years ago there was a bully
in Sangamon County, Illinois, that had the reputation of running faster
and fighting harder than any man there. Everybody thought he was a
terrible fighter. He'd always get a man on the run; then he'd ketch
up and give him a licking. One day he tadded a lame man. The lame man
licked him in a minute.
'“Why didn't ye run?” somebody asked the victor.
'“Didn't dast,” said he. “Run once when he tackled me an I've been lame
ever since.”
“How did ye manage to lick him?” said the other.
'“Wall,” said he, “I hed to, an' I done it easy.”
'That's the way it goes,' said the immortal president, 'ye do it easy if
ye have to.
He reminded me in and out of Horace Greeley, although they looked no
more alike than a hawk and a handsaw. But they had a like habit of
forgetting themselves and of saying neither more nor less than they
meant. They both had the strength of an ox and as little vanity. Mr
Greeley used to say that no man could amount to anything who worried
much about the fit of his trousers; neither of them ever encountered
that obstacle.
Early next morning I took a train for home. I was in soldier clothes I
had with me, no others--and all in my car came to talk with me about the
now famous battle of Bull Run.
The big platform at Jersey City was crowded with many people as we got
off the train. There were other returning soldiers--some with crutches,
some with empty sleeves.
A band at the further end of the platform was playing and those near me
were singing the familiar music,
'John Brown's body lies a mouldering in the grave.
Somebody shouted my name. Then there rose a cry of three cheers for
Brower. It's some of the boys of the Tribune, I thought--I could see
a number of them in the crowd. One brought me a basket of flowers. I
thought they were trying to have fun with me.
'Thank you!' said I, 'but what is the joke?'
'No joke,' he said. 'It's to honour a hero.'
'Oh, you wish me to give it to somebody.'
I was warming with embarrassment
'We wish you to keep it,' he answered.
In accounts of the battle I had seen some notice of my leading a charge
but my fame had gone farther--much farther indeed--than I knew. I stood
a moment laughing--an odd sort of laugh it was that had in it the salt
of tears--and waving my hand to the many who were now calling my name.
In the uproar of cheers and waving of handkerchiefs I could not find
Uncle Eb for a moment. When I saw him in the breaking crowd he was
cheering lustily and waving his hat above his head. His enthusiasm
increased when I stood before him. As I was greeting him I heard a
lively rustle of skirts. Two dainty, gloved hands laid hold of mine;
a sweet voice spoke my name. There, beside me, stood the tall, erect
figure of Hope. Our eyes met and, before there was any thinking of
propriety, I had her in my arms and was kissing her and she was kissing
me.
It thrilled me to see the splendour of her beauty that day; her eyes wet
with feeling as they looked up at me; to feel again the trembling touch
of her lips. In a moment I turned to Uncle Eb.
'Boy,' he said, 'I thought you...' and then he stopped and began
brushing his coat sleeve.
'Come on now,' he added as he took my grip away from me. 'We're goin' t'
hev a gran' good time. I'll take ye all to a splendid tavern somewheres.
An' I ain't goin' to count the cost nuther.
He was determined to carry my grip for me. Hope had a friend with her
who was going north in the morning on our boat. We crossed the ferry and
took a Broadway omnibus, while query followed query.
'Makes me feel like a flapjack t'ride 'n them things,' said Uncle Eb as
we got out.
He hired a parlour and two bedrooms for us all at the St Nicholas.
'Purty middlin' steep!' he said to me as we left the office. 'It is,
sartin! but I don't care--not a bit. When folks has to hev a good time
they've got t' hev it.
We were soon seated in our little parlour. There was a great glow of
health and beauty in Hope's face. It was a bit fuller but had nobler
outlines and a colouring as delicate as ever. She wore a plain grey
gown admirably fitted to her plump figure. There was a new and splendid
'dignity in her carriage, her big blue eyes, her nose with its little
upward slant. She was now the well groomed young woman of society in the
full glory of her youth.
Uncle Eb who sat between us pinched her cheek playfully. A little spot
of white showed a moment where his fingers had been. Then the pink
flooded over it.
'Never see a girl git such a smack as you did,' he said laughing.
'Well,' said she, smiling, 'I guess I gave as good as I got.'
'Served him right,' he said. 'You kissed back good 'n hard. Gran sport!'
he added turning to me.
'Best I ever had,' was my humble acknowledgement.
'Seldom ever see a girl kissed so powerful,' he said as he took Hope's
hand in his. 'Now if the Bible said when a body kissed ye on one cheek
ye mus' turn if other I wouldn't find no fault. But ther's a heap o
differ'nce 'tween a whack an' a smack.
When we had come back from dinner Uncle Eb drew off his boots and sat
comfortably in his stocking feet while Hope told of her travels and I of
my soldiering. She had been at the Conservatory, nearly the whole period
of her absence, and hastened home when she learned of the battle and of
my wound. She had landed two days before.
Hope's friend and Uncle Eb went away to their rooms in good season. Then
I came and sat beside Hope on the sofa.
'Let's have a good talk,' I said.
There was an awkward bit of silence.
'Well,' said she, her fan upon her lips, 'tell me more about the war.
'Tired of war,' I answered; 'love is a better subject.
She rose and walked up and down the room, a troubled look in her face. I
thought I had never seen a woman who could carry her head so proudly.
'I don't think you are very familiar with it,' said she presently.
'I ought to be,' I answered, 'having loved you all these years.
'But you told me that--that you loved another girl,' she said, her elbow
leaning on the mantel, her eyes looking down soberly.
'When? Where?' I asked.
'In Mrs Fuller's parlour.'
'Hope,' I said, 'you misunderstood me; I meant you.
She came toward me, then, looking up into my eyes. I started to embrace
her but she caught my hands and held them apart and came close to me.
'Did you say that you meant me?' she asked in a whisper.
'I did.'
'Why did you not tell me that night?
'Because you would not listen to me and we were interrupted.
'Well if I loved a girl,' she said, 'I'd make her listen.'
'I would have done that but Mrs Fuller saved you.'
'You might have written,' she suggested in a tone of injury.
'I did.'
'And the letter never came--just as I feared.'
She looked very sober and thoughtful then.
'You know our understanding that day in the garden,' she added. 'If you
did not ask me again I was to know you--you did not love me any longer.
That was long, long ago.
'I never loved any girl but you,' I said. 'I love you now, Hope, and
that is enough--I love you so there is nothing else for me. You are
dearer than my life. It was the thought of you that made me brave in
battle. I wish I could be as brave here. But I demand your surrender--I
shall give you no quarter now.
'I wish I knew,' she said, 'whether--whether you really love me or not?
'Don't you believe me, Hope?
'Yes, I believe you,' she said, 'but--but you might not know your own
heart.
'It longs for you,' I said, 'it keeps me thinking of you always. Once
it was so easy to be happy; since you have been away it has seemed as if
there were no longer any light in the world or any pleasure. It has made
me a slave. I did not know that love was such a mighty thing.
'Love is no Cupid--he is a giant,' she said, her voice trembling with
emotion as mine had trembled. 'I tried to forget and he crushed me under
his feet as if to punish me.
She was near to crying now, but she shut her lips firmly and kept back
the tears. God grant me I may never forget the look in her eyes that
moment. She came closer to me. Our lips touched; my arms held her
tightly.
'I have waited long for this,' I said--'the happiest moment of my life!
I thought I had lost you.
'What a foolish man,' she whispered. 'I have loved you for years and
years and you--you could not see it, I believe now.'
She hesitated a moment, her eyes so close to my cheek I could feel the
beat of their long lashes.
'That God made you for me,' she added.
'Love is God's helper,' I said. 'He made us for each other.
'I thank Him for it--I do love you so,' she whispered.
The rest is the old, old story. They that have not lived it are to be
pitied.
When we sat down at length she told me what I had long suspected, that
Mrs Fuller wished her to marry young Livingstone.
'But for Uncle Eb,' she added, 'I think I should have done so--for I had
given up all hope of you.'
'Good old Uncle Eb!' I said. 'Let's go and tell him.
He was sound asleep when we entered his room but woke as I lit the gas.
'What's the matter?' he whispered, lifting his head.
'Congratulate us,' I said. 'We're engaged.
'Hey ye conquered her?' he enquired smiling.
'Love has conquered us both,' I said.
'Wall, I swan! is thet so?' he answered. 'Guess I won't fool away any
more time here in bed. If you childen'll go in t'other room I'll slip
into my trousers an' then ye'll hear me talk some conversation.
'Beats the world!' he continued, coming in presently, buttoning his
suspenders. 'I thought mos' likely ye'd hitch up t'gether sometime.
'Tain't often ye can find a pair s'well matched. The same style an
gaited jest about alike. When ye goin' t' git married?
'She hasn't named the day,' I said.
'Sooner the better,' said Uncle Eb as he drew on his coat and sat down.
'Used to be so t'when a young couple hed set up 'n held each other's
han's a few nights they was ready fer the minister. Wish't ye could
fix it fer 'bout Crissmus time, by jingo! They's other things goin' to
happen then. S'pose yer s'happy now ye can stan' a little bad news. I've
got to tell ye--David's been losin' money. Hain't never wrote ye 'bout
it--not a word--'cause I didn't know how 'twas comin' out.
'How did he lose it?' I enquired.
'Wall ye know that Ow Barker--runs a hardware store in Migleyville--he
sold him a patent right. Figgered an' argued night an' day fer more 'n
three weeks. It was a new fangled wash biler. David he thought he see a
chance if put out agents an' make a great deal o'money. It did look jest
as easy as slidin' downhill but when we come slide--wall, we found out
we was at the bottom o the hill 'stid o' the top an' it wan't reel good
slidin. He paid five thousan' dollars fer the right o'ten counties. Then
bym bye Barker he wanted him t'go security fer fifteen hunderd bilers
thet he was hevin' made. I to!' David he hedn't better go in no deeper
but Barker, he promised big things an' seemed to be sech a nice man 'at
fin'ly David he up 'n done it. Wall he's hed 'em t' pay fer an' the fact
is it costs s'much if sell 'em it eats up all the profits.
'Looks like a swindle,' I said indignantly.
'No,' said Uncle Eb, ''tain't no swindle. Barker thought he hed a gran'
good thing. He got fooled an' the fool complaint is very ketchin'. Got
it myself years ago an' I've been doctorin' fer it ever sence.
The story of David's undoing hurt us sorely. He had gone the way of most
men who left the farm late in life with unsatisfied ambition.
'They shall never want for anything, so long as I have my health,' I
said.
'I have four hundred dollars in the bank,' said Hope, 'and shall give
them every cent of it.
'Tain' nuthin'if worry over,' said Uncle Eb. 'If I don' never lose
more'n a little money I shan't feel terrible bad. We're all young yit.
Got more'n a million dollars wuth o' good health right here 'n this
room. So well, I'm 'shamed uv it! Man's more decent if he's a leetle bit
sickly. An' thet there girl Bill's agreed t'marry ye! Why! 'Druther hev
her 'n this hull city o' New York.
'So had I,' was my answer.
'Wall, you am'no luckier 'n she is--not a bit,' he added. 'A good man's
better 'n a gol'mine ev'ry time.
'Who knows,' said Hope. 'He may be president someday.
'Ther's one thing I hate,' Uncle El continued. 'That's the idee o hevin'
the woodshed an' barn an' garret full o' them infernal wash bilers.
Ye can't take no decent care uv a hoss there 'n the stable' they're
so piled up. One uv 'em tumbled down top o' me t'other day. 'Druther
'twould a been a panther. Made me s'mad I took a club an' knocked that
biler into a cocked hat. 'Tain't right! I'm sick o' the sight uv 'em.
'They'll make a good bonfire someday,' said Hope.
'Don't believe they'd burn,' he answered sorrowfully, 'they're tin.
'Couldn't we bury 'em?' I suggested.
'Be a purty costly funeral,' he answered thoughtfully. 'Ye'd hev to dig
a hole deeper n Tupper's dingle.
'Couldn't you give them away?' I enquired.
'Wall,' said he, helping himself to a chew of tobacco, 'we ve tried
thet. Gin 'em t'everybody we know but there ain't folks enough' there's
such a slew o'them bilers. We could give one to ev'ry man, woman an'
child in Faraway an' hex enough left t'fill an acre lot. Dan Perry druv
in t'other day with a double buggy. We gin him one fer his own fam'ly.
It was heavy t'carry an' he didn't seem t' like the looks uv it someway.
Then I asked him if he wouldn't like one fer his girl. “She ain't
married,” says he. “She will be some time,” says I, “take it along,” so
he put in another. “You've got a sister over on the turnpike hain't
ye?” says I. “Yes,” says he. “Wall,” I says, “don' want a hex her feel
slighted.” “She won't know 'bout my hevin' 'em,” says he, lookin' 's if
he'd hed enough. “Yis she will,” I says, “she'll hear uv it an' mebbe
make a fuss.” Then we piled in another. “Look here,” I says after that,
“there s yer brother Bill up there 'bove you. Take one along fer him.”
“No,” says he, “I don' tell ev'ry body, but Bill an' I ain't on good
terms. We ain't spoke fer more'n a year.”
'Knew he was lyin',' Uncle Eb added with a laugh, 'I'd seen him talkin'
with Bill a day er two before.
'Whew!' he whistled as he looked at his big silver watch. 'I declare
it's mos' one o'clock They's jes' one other piece o' business to come
before this meetin'. Double or single, want ye to both promise me t'be
hum Crissmus.
We promised.
'Now childern,' said he. ''S time to go to bed. B'lieve ye'd stan' there
swappin' kisses 'till ye was kner sprung if I didn't tell ye t' quit.
Hope came and put her arms about his neck, fondly, and kissed him
good-night.
'Did Bill prance right up like a man?' he asked, his hand upon her
shoulder.
'Did very well,' said she, smiling, 'for a man with a wooden leg.
Uncle Eb sank into a chair, laughing heartily, and pounding his knee. It
seemed he had told her that I was coming home with a wooden leg! 'That
is the reason I held your arm,' she said. 'I was expecting to hear it
squeak every moment as we left the depot. But when I saw that you walked
so naturally I knew Uncle Eb had been trying to fool me.
'Purty good sort uv a lover, ain't he?' said he after we were done
laughing.
'He wouldn't take no for an answer,' she answered.
'He was alwuss a gritty cuss,' said Uncle Eb, wiping his eyes with a big
red handkerchief as he rose to go. 'Ye'd oughter be mighty happy an' ye
will, too--their am'no doubt uv it--not a bit. Trouble with most young
folks is they wan' to fly tew high, these days. If they'd only fly clus
enough t'the ground so the could alwuss touch one foot, they'd be all
right. Glad ye ain't thet kind.
We were off early on the boat--as fine a summer morning as ever dawned.
What with the grandeur of the scenery and the sublimity of our happiness
it was a delightful journey we had that day. I felt the peace and beauty
of the fields, the majesty of the mirrored cliffs and mountains, but the
fair face of her I loved was enough for me. Most of the day Uncle Eb sat
near us and I remember a woman evangelist came and took a seat beside
him, awhile, talking volubly of the scene.
'My friend,' said she presently, 'are you a Christian?
'Fore I answer I'll hev to tell ye a story,' said Uncle Eb. 'I recollec'
a man by the name o' Ranney over 'n Vermont--he was a pious man. Got
into an argyment an' a feller slapped him in the face. Ranney turned
t'other side an' then t'other an' the feller kep' a slappin' hot 'n
heavy. It was jes' like strappin' a razor fer half a minnit. Then Ranney
sailed in--gin him the wust lickin' he ever hed.
'“I declare,” says another man, after 'twas all over, “I thought you was
a Christian.”
“Am up to a cert in p'int,” says he. “Can't go tew fur not 'n these
parts--men are tew powerful. 'Twon't do 'less ye wan' to die sudden.
When he begun poundin' uv me I see I wan't eggzac'ly prepared.”
''Fraid 's a good deal thet way with most uv us. We're Christians up to
a cert'in p'int. Fer one thing, I think if a man'll stan' still an' see
himself knocked into the nex' world he's a leetle tew good fer this.'
The good lady began to preach and argue. For an hour Uncle Eb sat
listening unable to get in a word. When, at last, she left him he came
to us a look of relief in his face.
'I b'lieve,' said he, 'if Balaam's ass hed been rode by a woman he never
'd hev spoke.'
'Why not?' I enquired.
'Never'd hev hed a chance,' Uncle Eb added.
We were two weeks at home with mother and father and Uncle Eb. It was
a delightful season of rest in which Hope and I went over the sloping
roads of Faraway and walked in the fields and saw the harvesting. She
had appointed Christmas Day for our wedding and I was not to go again to
the war, for now my first duty was to my own people. If God prospered
me they were all to come to live with us in town and, though slow to
promise, I could see it gave them comfort to know we were to be for them
ever a staff and refuge.
And the evening before we came back to town Jed Feary was with us and
Uncle Eb played his flute and sang the songs that had been the delight
of our childhood.
The old poet read these lines written in memory of old times in Faraway
and of Hope's girlhood.
'The red was in the clover an' the blue was in the sky:
There was music in the meadow, there was dancing in the rye;
An' I heard a voice a calling to the flocks o' Faraway
An' its echo in the wooded hills--Go'day! Go'day! Go'day!
O fair was she--my lady love--an' lithe as the willow tree,
An' aye my heart remembers well her parting words t' me.
An' I was sad as a beggar-man but she was blithe an' gay
An' I think o' her as I call the flocks Go'day! Go'day! Go'day!
Her cheeks they stole the dover's red, her lips the odoured air,
An' the glow o' the morning sunlight she took away in her hair;
Her voice had the meadow music, her form an' her laughing eye
Have taken the blue o' the heavens an' the grace o' the bending rye.
My love has robbed the summer day--the field, the sky, the dell,
She has taken their treasures with her, she has taken my heart as well;
An' if ever, in the further fields, her feet should go astray
May she hear the good God calling her Go'day! Go'day! Go'day!