At the end of his first day's struggle Billy built himself a camp in a

bit of scrub timber which was not much more than bush. He had observed

that the timber and that every tree and bush he had passed since noon

was stripped and dead on the side that faced the north. He cooked and

ate his last food the following day, and went on. The small timber

turned to scrub, and the scrub, in time, to vast snow wastes over

which the storm swept mercilessly. All this day he looked for game,

for a flutter of bird life; he chewed bark, and in the afternoon got a

mouthful of foxbite, which made his throat swell until he could

scarcely breathe. At night he made tea, but had nothing to eat. His

hunger was acute and painful. It was torture the next day-- the

third-- for the process of starvation is a rapid one in this country

where only the fittest survive on from four to five meals a day. He

camped, built a small bush-fire at night, and slept. He almost failed

to rouse himself on the morning that followed, and when he staggered

to his feet and felt the cutting sting of the storm still in his face

and heard the swishing wail of it over the Barren he knew that at last

the hour had come when he was standing face to face with the Almighty.

For some strange reason he was not frightened at the situation. He

found that even over the level spaces he could scarce drag his

snow-shoes, but this had ceased to alarm him as he had been alarmed at

first. He went on, hour after hour, weaker and weaker. Within himself

there was still life which reasoned that if death were to come it

could not come in a better way. It at least promised to be painless--

even pleasant. The sharp, stinging pains of hunger, like little

electrical knives piercing him, were gone; he no longer experienced a

sensation of intense cold; he almost felt that he could lie down in

the drifted snow and sleep peacefully. He knew what it would be-- a

sleep without end, with the arctic foxes to pick his bones afterward--

and so he resisted the temptation and forced himself onward. The storm

still swept straight west from Hudson's Bay, bringing with it endless

volleys of snow, round and hard as fine shot, snow that had at first

seemed to pierce his flesh and which swished past his feet as if

trying to trip him and tossed itself in windrows and mountains in his

path. If he could only find timber, shelter! That was what he worked

for now. When he had last looked at his watch it was nine o'clock in

the morning; now it was late in the afternoon. It might as well have

been night. The storm had long since half blinded him. He could not

see a dozen paces ahead. But the little life in him still reasoned

bravely. It was a heroic spark of life, a fighting spark, and hard to

put out. It told him that when he came to shelter he would at least

feel it, and that he must fight until the last. The pack on his back

held no significance and no weight for him. He might have traveled a

mile or ten miles an hour and he would not have sensed the difference.

Most men would have buried themselves in the snow and died in comfort,

dreaming the pleasant dreams that come as a sort of recompense to the

unfortunate who dies of starvation and cold. But the fighting spark

commanded Billy to die upon his feet if he died at all. It was this

spark which brought him at last to a bit of timber thick enough to

give him shelter from wind and snow. It burned a little more warmly

then. It flared up and gave him new vision. And then, for the first

time, he realized that it must be night. For a light was burning ahead

of him, and all else was gloom. His first thought was that it was a

campfire miles and miles away. Then it drew nearer, until he knew that

it was a light in a cabin window. He dragged himself toward it, and

when he came to the door he tried to shout. But no sound fell from his

swollen lips. It seemed an hour before he could twist his feet out of

his snow-shoes. Then he groped for a latch, pressed against the door,

and plunged in.

What he saw was like a picture suddenly revealed for an instant by a

flashlight. In the cabin there were four men. Two sat at a table

directly in front of him. One held a dice box poised in the air, and

had turned a rough, bearded face toward him. The other was a younger

man, and in this moment it struck Billy as strange that he should be

clutching a can of beans between his hands. A third man stared from

where he had been looking down upon the dice-play of the other two. As

Billy came in he was in the act of lowering a half-filled bottle from

his lips. The fourth man sat on the edge of a bunk, with a face so

white and thin that he might have been taken for a corpse if it had

not been for the dark glare in his sunken eyes. Billy smelled the odor

of whisky; he smelled food. He saw no sign of welcome in the faces

turned toward him, but he advanced upon them, mumbling incoherently.

And then the spark, the fighting spark in him, gave out, and he

crumpled down on the floor. He heard a voice which came to him from a

great distance, and which said, "Who the hell is this?" and then,

after what seemed to be a long time, he heard that same voice say,

"Pitch him back into the snow."

After that he lost consciousness. But in that last moment between

light and darkness he experienced a strange thrill that made him want

to spring to his feet, for it seemed to him that he had recognized the

voice that had said "Pitch him back into the snow."

XXII

INTO THE SOUTH

A long time before he awoke Billy knew that he was not in the snow,

and that hot stuff was running down his throat. When he opened his

eyes there was no longer a light burning in the cabin. It was day. He

felt strangely comfortable, but there was something in the cabin that

stirred him from his rest. It was the odor of frying bacon. All of his

hunger had come back. The joy of life, of anticipation, shone in his

thin face as he pulled himself up. Another face-- the bearded face--

red-eyed, almost animal-like in its fierce questioning, bent over him.

"Where's your grub, pardner?"

The question was like a stab. Billy did not hear his own voice as he

explained.

"Got none!" The bearded man's voice was like a bellow as he turned

upon the others, "He's got no grub!"

In that moment Billy choked back the cry on his lips. He knew the

voice now-- and the man. It was Bucky Smith! He half rose to his feet

and then dropped back. Bucky had not recognized him. His own beard,

shaggy hair, and pinched face had saved him from recognition. Fate had

played his way.

"We'll divvy up, Bucky," came a weak voice. It was from the thin,

white-faced man who had sat corpselike on the edge of his bunk the

night before.

"Divvy hell!" growled the other. "It's up to you-- you 'n' Sweedy.

You're to blame!"

You're to blame!

The words struck upon Billy's ears with a chill of horror. Starvation

was in the cabin. He had fallen among animals instead of men. He saw

the thin-faced man who had spoken for him sitting again on the edge of

his bunk. Mutely he looked to the others to see who was Sweedy. He was

the young man who had clutched the can of beans. It was he who was

frying bacon over the sheet-iron stove.

"We'll divvy, Henry and I," he said. "I told you that last night." He

looked over at Billy. "Glad you're better," he greeted. "You see,

you've struck us at a bad time. We're on our last legs for grub. Our

two Indians went out to hunt a week ago and never came back. They're

dead, or gone, and we're as good as dead if the storm doesn't let up

pretty soon. You can have some of our grub-- Henry's and mine."

It was a cold invitation, lacking warmth or sympathy, and Billy felt

that even this man wished that he had died before he reached the

cabin. But the man was human; he had at least not cast his voice with

the one that had wanted to throw him back into the snow, and he tried

to voice his gratitude and at the same time to hide his hunger. He saw

that there were three thin slices of bacon in the frying-pan, and it

struck him that it would be bad taste to reveal a starvation appetite

in the face of such famine. Bucky was looking straight at him as he

limped to his feet, and he was sure now that the man he had driven

from the Service had not recognized him. He approached Sweedy.

"You saved my life," he said, holding out a hand. "Will you shake?"

Sweedy shook hands limply.

"It's hell," he said, in a low voice. "We'd have had beans this

morning if I hadn't shook dice with him last night." He nodded toward

Bucky, who was cutting open the top of a can. "He won!"

"My God--" began Billy.

He didn't finish. Sweedy turned the meat, and added:

"He won a square meal off me yesterday-- a quarter of a pound of

bacon. Day before that he won Henry's last can of beans. He's got his

share under his blanket over there, and swears he'll shoot any one who

goes to monkeyin' with his bed-- so you'd better fight shy of it.

Thompson-- he isn't up yet-- chose the whisky for his share, so you'd

better fight shy of him, too. Henry and I'll divvy up with you."

"Thanks," said Billy, the one word choking him.

Henry came from his bunk, bent and wabbling. He looked like a dying

man, and for the first time Billy noticed that his hair was gray. He

was a little man, and his thin hands shook as he held them out over

the stove and nodded to Billy. Bucky had opened his can, and

approached the stove with a pan of water, coming in beside Billy

without noticing him. He brought with him a foul odor of stale tobacco

smoke and whisky. After he had put his water over the fire he turned

to one of the bunks and with half a dozen coarse epithets roused

Thompson, who sat up stupidly, still half drunk. Henry had gone to a

small table, and Sweedy followed him with the bacon. Billy did not

move. He forgot his hunger. His pulse was beating quickly. Sensations

filled him which he had never known or imagined before. Was it

possible that these were people of his own kind? Had a madness of some

sort driven all human instincts from them? He saw Thompson's red eyes

fastened upon him, and he turned his face to escape their questioning,

stupid leer. Bucky was turning out the can of beans he had won. Beyond

him the door creaked, and Billy heard the wail of the storm. It came

to him now as a friendly sort of sound.

"Better draw up, pardner," he heard Sweedy say. "Here's your share."

One of the thin slices of bacon and a hard biscuit were waiting for

him on a tin plate. He ate as ravenously as Henry and Sweedy, and

drank a cup of hot tea. In two minutes the meal was over. It was

terribly inadequate. The few mouthfuls of food stirred up all his

craving, and he found it impossible to keep his eyes from Bucky Smith

and his beans. Bucky was the only one who seemed well fed, and his

horror increased when Henry bent over him and said, in a low whisper:

"He didn't get my beans fair. I had three aces and a pair, of deuces,

an' he took it on three fives and two sixes. When I objected he called

me a liar an' hit me. Them's my beans, or Sweedy's!" There was

something almost like murder in the little man's red eyes.

Billy remained silent. He did not care to talk or question. No one

asked him who he was or whence he came, and he felt no inclination to

know more of the men he had fallen among. Bucky finished, wiped his

mouth with his hand, and looked across at Billy.

"How about going out with me to get some wood?" he demanded.

"I'm ready," replied Billy.

For the first time he took notice of himself. He was lame and

sickeningly weak, but apparently sound in other ways. The intense cold

had not frozen his ears or feet. He put on his heavy moccasins, his

thick coat and fur cap, and followed Bucky to the door. He was filled

with a strange uneasiness. He was sure that his old enemy had not

recognized him, and yet he felt that recognition might come at any

moment. If Bucky recognized him-- when they were out alone--

He was not afraid, but he shivered. He was too weak to put up a fight.

He did not catch the ugly leer which Bucky turned upon Thompson. But

Henry did, and his little eyes grew smaller and blacker. On snow-shoes

the two men went out into the storm, Bucky carrying an ax. He led the

way through the bit of thin timber, and across a wide open over which

the storm swept so fiercely that their trail was covered behind them

as they traveled. Billy figured that they had gone a quarter of a mile

when they came to the edge of a ravine so steep that it was almost a

precipice. For the first time Bucky touched him. He seized him by the

arm, and in his voice there was an inhuman, taunting triumph.

"Didn't think I knew you, did you, Billy?" he asked. "Well, I did, and

I've just been waiting to get you out alone. Remember my promise,

Billy? I've changed my mind since then. I ain't going to kill you.

It's too risky. It's safer to let you die-- by yourself-- as you're

goin' to die to-day or to-night. If you come back to the cabin-- I'll

shoot you!"

With a movement so quick that Billy had no chance to prepare himself

for it Bucky sent him plunging headlong down the side of the ravine.

The deep snow saved him in the long fall. For a few moments Billy lay

stunned. Then he staggered to his feet and looked up. Bucky was gone.

His first thought was to return to the cabin. He could easily find it

and confront Bucky there before the others. And yet he did not move.

His inclination to go back grew less and less, and after a brief

hesitation he made up his mind to continue the struggle for life by

himself. After all, his situation would not be much more desperate

than that of the men he was leaving behind in the cabin. He buttoned

himself up closely, saw that his snow-shoes were securely fastened,

and climbed the opposite side of the ridge.

The timber thinned out again, and Billy struck out boldly into the low

bush. As he went he wondered what would happen in the cabin. He

believed that Henry, of the four, would not pull through alive, and

that Bucky would come out best. It was not until the following summer

that he learned the facts of Henry's madness, and of the terrible

manner in which he avenged himself on Bucky Smith by sticking a knife

under the latter's ribs.

Billy now found himself in a position to measure the amount of energy

contained in a slice of bacon and a cold biscuit. It was not much.

Long before noon his old weakness was upon him again. He found even

greater difficulty in dragging his feet over the snow, and it seemed

now as though all ambition had left him, and that even the fighting

spark was becoming disheartened. He made up his mind to go on until

the beginning of night, then he would stop, build a fire, and go to

sleep in its warmth.

During the afternoon he passed out of the scrub into a rougher

country. His progress was slower, but more comfortable, for at times

he found himself protected from the wind. A gloom darker and more

somber than that of the storm was falling about him when he came to

what appeared to be the end of the Barren country. The earth dropped

away from under his feet, and far below him, in a ravine shut out from

wind and storm, he saw the black tops of thick spruce. He began to

scramble downward. His eyes were no longer fit to judge distance or

chance, and he slipped. He slipped a dozen times in the first five

minutes, and then there came the time when he did not make a recovery,

but plunged down the side of the mountain like a rock. He stopped with

a terrific jar, and for the first time during the fall he wanted to

cry out with pain. But the voice that he heard did not come from his

own lips. It was another voice-- and then two, three, many of them, it

seemed to him. His dazed eyes caught glimpses of dark objects

floundering in the deep snow about him, and just beyond these objects

were four or five tall mounds of snow, like tents, arranged in a

circle. He knew what they meant. He had fallen into an Indian camp. In

his joy he tried to call out words of greeting, but he had no tongue.

Then the floundering figures caught him up, and he was carried to the

circle of snow mounds. The last that he knew was that warmth was

entering his lungs.

It was a face that he first saw after that, a face that seemed to come

to him slowly from out of night, approaching nearer and nearer until

he knew that it was a girl's face, with great, dark, strangely shining

eyes. In these first moments of his returning consciousness the

whimsical thought came to him that he was dying and the face was a

part of a pleasant dream. If that were not so, he had fallen at last

among friends. His eyes opened wider, he moved, and the face drew

back. Movement stimulated returning life, and reason rehabilitated

itself in great bounds. In a dozen flashes he went over all that had

happened up to the point where he had fallen down the mountain and

into the Cree camp. Straight above him he saw the funnel-like peak of

a large birch wigwam, and beyond his feet he saw an opening in the

birch-bark wall through which there drifted a blue film of smoke. He

was in a wigwam. It was warm and exceedingly comfortable. Wondering if

he was hurt, he moved. The movement drew a sharp exclamation of pain

from him. It was the first real sound he had made, and in an instant

the face was over him again. He saw it plainly this time, with its

dark eyes and oval cheeks framed between two great braids of black

hair. A hand touched his brow, cool and gentle, and a low voice

soothed him in half a dozen musical words. The girl was a Cree.

At the sound of her voice an indian woman came up beside the girl,

looked down at him for a moment, and then went to the door of the

wigwam, speaking in a low voice to some one who was outside. When she

returned a man followed in after her. He was old and bent, and his

face was thin. His cheek-bones shone, so tightly was the skin drawn

over them. Behind him came a younger man, as straight as a tree, with

strong shoulders and a head set like a piece of bronze sculpture. This

man carried in his hand a frozen fish, which he gave to the woman. As

he gave it to her he spoke words in Cree which Billy understood.

"It is the last fish."

For a moment a terrible hand gripped at Billy's heart and almost

stopped its beating. He saw the woman take the fish and cut it into

two equal parts with a knife, and one of these parts she dropped into

a pot of boiling water which hung over the stone fireplace built under

the vent in the wall. They were dividing with him their last fish! He

made an effort and sat up. The younger man came to him and put a

bearskin at his back. He had picked up some of the patois of

half-blood French and English.

"You seek," he said, "you hurt-- and hungry! You have eat soon."

He motioned with his hand to the boiling pot. There was not a flicker

of animation in his splendid face. There was something god-like in his

immobility, something that was awesome in the way he moved and

breathed. He sat in silence as the half of the last fish was brought

by the girl; and not until Billy stopped eating, choked by the

knowledge that he was taking life from these people, did he speak, and

then it was to urge him to finish the fish. When he had done, Billy

spoke to the Indian in Cree. Instantly the Indian reached over his

hand, his face lighting up, and Billy gripped it hard. Mukoki told him

what had happened. There had been a camp of twenty-two, and there were

now fifteen. Seven had died-- four men, two women, and one child. Each

day during the great storm the men had gone out on their futile search

for game, and every few days one of them had failed to return. Thus

four had died. The dogs were eaten. Corn and fish were gone; there

remained but a little flour, and this was for the women and the

children. The men had eaten nothing but bark and roots for five days.

And there seemed to be no hope. It was death to stray far from camp.

That morning two men had set out for the nearest post, but Mukoki said

calmly that they would never return.

That night and the next day and the terrible night and day that

followed were filled with hours that Billy would never forget. He had

sprained one hip badly in his fall, and could not rise from the cot

Mukoki was often at his side, his face thinner, his eyes more

lusterless. The second day, late in the afternoon, there came a low

wailing grief from one of the tepees, a moaning sound that pitched

itself to the key of the storm until it seemed to be a part of it. A

child had died, and the mother was mourning. That night another of the

camp huntsmen failed to return at dusk. But the next day there came at

the same time the end of both storm and famine. With dawn the sun

shone. And early in the day one of the hunters ran in from the forest

nearly crazed with joy. He had ventured farther away than the others,

and had found a moose-yard. He had killed two of the animals and

brought with him meat for the first feast.

This last great storm of the winter of 1910 passed well into the

"break-up" season, and, once the temperature began to rise, the change

was swift. Within a week the snow was growing soft underfoot. Two days

later Billy hobbled from his cot for the first time. And then, in the

passing of a single day and night, the glory of the northern spring

burst upon the wilderness. The sun rose warm and golden. From the

sides of the mountains and in the valleys water poured forth in

rippling, singing floods. The red bakneesh glowed on bared rocks.

Moose-birds and jays and wood-thrushes flitted about the camp, and the

air was filled with the fragrant smells of new life bursting from

earth and tree and shrub.

With return of health and strength Billy's impatience to reach

McTabb's cabin grew hourly. He would have set out before his hip was

in condition to travel had not Mukoki kept him back. At last the day

came when he bade his forest friends good-by and started into the

south.

XXIII

AT THE END OF THE TRAIL

The long days and nights of inactivity which Billy had passed in the

Indian camp had given him the opportunity to think more calmly of the

tragedy which had come into his life, and with returning strength he

had drawn himself partly out from the pit of hopelessness and despair

into which he had fallen. Deane was dead. Isobel was dead. But the

baby Isobel still lived; and in the hope of finding and claiming her

for his own he built other dreams for himself out of the ashes of all

that had gone for him. He believed that he would find McTabb at the

cabin and he would find the child there. So confident had he been that

Isobel would live that he had not told McTabb of the uncle who had

driven her from the old home in Montreal. He was glad that he had kept

this to himself, for there would not be much of a chance of Rookie

having found the child's relative. And he made up his mind that he

would not give the little Isobel up. He would keep her for himself. He

would return to civilization, for he would have her to live for. He

would build a home for her, with a garden and dogs and birds and

flowers. With his silver-claim money he had fifteen thousand dollars

laid away, and she would never know what it meant to be poor. He would

educate her and buy her a piano and she would have no end of pretty

dresses and things to make her a lady. They would be together and

inseparable always, and when she grew up he prayed deep down in his

soul that she would be like the older Isobel, her mother.

His grief was deep. He knew that he could never forget, and that the

old memories of the wilderness and of the woman he had loved would

force themselves upon him, year after year, with their old pain. But

these new thoughts and plans for the child made his grief less

poignant.

It was late in the afternoon of a day that had been filled with

sunlight and the warmth of spring that he came to the Little Beaver, a

short distance above McTabb's cabin. He almost ran from there to the

clearing, and the sun was just sinking behind the forest in the west

when he paused on the edge of the break in the forest and saw the

cabin. It was from here that he had last seen little Isobel. The bush

behind which he had concealed himself was less than a dozen paces

away. He noticed this, and then he observed things which made his

heart sink in a strange, cold way. A path had led into the forest at

the point where he stood. Now it was almost obliterated by a tangle of

last year's weeds and plants. Rookie must have made a new path, he

thought. And then, fearfully, he looked about the clearing and at the

cabin. Everywhere there was the air of desolation. There was no smoke

rising from the chimney. The door was closed. There were no evidences

of life outside. Not the sound of a dog, of a laugh, or of a voice

broke the dead stillness.

Scarcely breathing, Billy advanced, his heart choked more and more by

the fear that gripped him. The door to the cabin was not barred. He

opened it. There was nothing inside. The old stove was broken. The

bare cots had not been used for months-- perhaps for two years. As he

took another step an ermine scampered away ahead of him. He heard the

mouselike squeal of its young a moment later under the sapling floor.

He went back to the door and stood in the open.

"My God!" he moaned.

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