He concealed himself among the spruce as McTabb went into the cabin. A

moment later he reappeared. Isobel was in his arms, and Billy gulped

back a sob. For an instant she turned her face his way, and he could

see that she was pointing in his direction as Rookie talked to her,

and then for another instant the sun lit up the child's hair with a

golden fire, as he had first seen it on that wonderful day at

Fullerton. He wanted to cry out one word to her-- at least one-- but

what came was only the sob he had fought to keep back. He turned his

face into the forest. And this time he knew that the parting was

final.

XIX

A PILGRIMAGE TO THE BARREN

The fourth night after he had left the plague-stricken cabin Billy was

camped on Lame Otter Creek, one hundred and eighty miles from Fort

Churchill, over on Hudson's Bay. He had eaten his supper, and was

smoking his pipe. It was a clear and glorious night, with the sky

afire with stars and a full moon. Several times Billy had stared at

the moon. It was what the Indians called "the bleeding moon"-- red as

blood, with an uneven, dripping edge. It was the Indian superstition

that it meant misfortune to those who did not keep it at their backs.

For seven consecutive nights it had made a red trail through the skies

in that terrible year of plague nineteen years before, when a quarter

of the forest population of the north had died. Since then it had been

known as the "plague moon." Billy had seen it only twice before. He

was not superstitious, but to-night he was filled with a strange

sensation of uneasiness. He laughed an unpleasant laugh as he stared

into the crackling birch flames and wondered what new misfortune could

come to him.

And then, slowly, something seemed to come to him from out of the

wonderful night like a quieting hand to still the pain in his broken

heart. At last, once more, he was home. For the wind-swept Barrens and

the forest had been his home, and more than once he had told himself

that life away from them would be impossible for him. More deeply than

ever this thought came to him to-night. He had become a part of them

and they a part of him. And as he looked up again at the red moon the

sight of it no longer brought him uneasiness, but a strange sort of

joy. For an hour he sat there, and the fire died down. About him the

rustle and whisper of the wild closed in nearer. It was his world, and

he breathed more deeply and listened. Lonely and sick at heart, he

felt the life and sympathy and love of it creeping into him, grieving

with him in his grief, warming him with its hope, pledging him again

the eternal friendship of its trees, its mountains, and all of the

wild that it held therein. A hundred times, in that strange man-play

that comes of loneliness in the far north, he had given life and form

to the star shadows about him, to the shadows of the tall spruce, the

twisted shrub, the rocks, and even the mountains. And now it was no

longer play. With each hour that passed this night, and with each day

and night that followed, they became more real to MacVeigh; and the

fires he built in the black gloom painted him pictures as they had

never painted them before; and the trees and the rocks and the twisted

shrub comforted him more and more in his loneliness, and gave to him

the presence of life in their movement, in the coming and going of

their shadow forms. Everywhere they were the same old friends,

unvarying and changeless. The spruce shadow of to-night, nodding to

him in its silent way, was the same that nodded to him last night-- a

hundred nights ago; the stars were the same, the winds whispering to

him in the tree-tops were the same, everything was as it was

yesterday-- years ago. He knew that in these things, and in these

things alone, he would always possess Isobel. She would return to

civilization, and the shifting scenes of life down there would soon

make her forget him-- almost. But in his world there was no change.

Ten years from now he might go over their old trail and still find the

charred remains of the campfire he had built for her that night beside

the Barren. The wilderness would bear memory of her so long as he was

a part of it; and now, as he came nearer to Churchill, he knew that he

would always be a part of it.

Three weeks after he had left Couchée's cabin he came into Fort

Churchill. A month had changed him so that the factor did not

recognize him at first. The inspector in charge stared at him twice,

and then cried, "My God, is it you, MacVeigh?" To Pelliter alone, who

was waiting for him, did Billy tell all that had happened down on the

Little Beaver. There were several letters waiting for him at

Churchill, and one of these told him that a silver property in which

he was interested over at Cobalt had turned out well and that his

share in the sale was something over ten thousand dollars. He used

this unexpected piece of good-fortune as an excuse to the inspector

when he refused to re-enlist. A week after his arrival at Churchill

Bucky Smith was dishonorably discharged from the Service. There were

several near them when Bucky came up to him with a smile on his face

and offered to shake hands.

"I don't bear you any ill-will, Billy," he said, loud enough for the

others to hear. "Only you've made a big mistake." And then, in words

for Billy's ears alone, he added: "Remember what I promised you! I'll

kill you for this if I have to hunt you round the world!"

A few days later Pelliter left on the last of the slush snows in an

effort to reach Nelson House before the sledging was gone.

"I wish you'd go with me, Billy," he entreated for the hundredth time.

"My girl 'd love to have you come, an' you know how I'd like it."

But Billy could not be moved.

"I'll come and see you some day-- when you've got the kid," he

promised, trying to laugh, as he shook hands for the last time with

his old comrade.

For three days after Pelliter's departure he remained at the post. On

the morning of the fourth, with his pack on his back and without dogs,

he struck off into the north and west.

"I think I'll spend next winter at Fond du Lac," he told the

inspector. "If there's any mail for me you can send it there if you

have a chance, and if I'm not at Fond du Lac it can be returned to

Churchill."

He said Fond du Lac because Deane's grave lay between Churchill and

the old Hudson's Bay Company's post over in the country of the

Athabasca. The Barrens were the one thing that called to him now-- the

one thing to which he dared respond. He would keep his promise to

Isobel and visit Scottie's grave. At least he tried to make himself

believe that he was keeping a promise. But deep in him there was an

undercurrent of feeling which he could not explain. It was as if there

were a spirit with him at times, walking at his side, and hovering

about his campfire at nights, and when he gave himself up to the right

mood he felt that it was the presence of Deane. He believed in strong

friendship, but he had never believed in the love of man for man. He

had not thought that such a thing could exist, except, perhaps,

between father and son. With him, in all the castles he had built and

the dreams he had dreamed, the alpha and omega of love had remained

with woman. For the first time he knew what it meant to love a man--

the memory of a man.

Something held him from telling the secret of his mission at Churchill

even to Pelliter. The evening before he left he had smuggled an ax

into the edge of the forest, and the second day he found use for this.

He came to a straight-grained, thick birch, eighteen inches in

diameter, and he put up his tent fifty paces from it. Before he rolled

himself in his blankets that night he had cut down the tree. The next

day he chopped off the butt, and before another nightfall had hewn out

a slab two inches thick, a foot wide, and three feet long. When he

took up the trail into the north and west again the following morning

he left the ax behind.

The fourth night he worked with his hunting-knife and his belt-ax,

thinning down the slab and making it smooth. The fifth and the sixth

nights he passed in the same way, and he ended the sixth night by

heating the end of a small iron rod in the fire and burning the first

three letters of Deane's epitaph on the slab. For a time he was

puzzled, wondering whether he should use the name Scottie or David. He

decided on David.

He did not travel fast, for to him spring was the most beautiful of

all seasons in the wilderness. It was underfoot and overhead now. The

snow-floods were singing between the ridges and gathering in the

hollows. The poplar buds were swollen almost to the bursting point,

and the bakneesh vines were as red as blood with the glow of new life.

Seventeen days after he left Churchill he came to the edge of the big

Barren. For two days he swung westward, and early in the forenoon of

the third looked out over the gray waste, dotted with moving caribou,

over which he and Pelliter had raced ahead of the Eskimos with little

Isobel. He went to the cabin first and entered. It was evident that no

one had been there since he had left, On the bunk where Deane had died

he found one of baby Isobel's little mittens. He had wondered where

she had lost it, and had made her a new one of lynx-skin on the way

down to Couchée's cabin. The tiny bed that he had made for her on the

floor was as she had last slept in it, and in the part of a blanket

that he had used as a pillow was still the imprint of her head. On the

wall hung a pair of old trousers that Deane had worn. Billy looked at

these things, standing silently, with his pack at his feet. There was

something in the cabin that closed in about him and choked him, and he

struggled to overcome it by whistling. His lips seemed thick. At last

he turned and went to the grave.

The foxes had been there, and had dug a little about the sapling

cross. There was no other change. During the remainder of the forenoon

Billy cut down a heavier sapling and sunk the butt of it three feet

into the half-frozen earth at the head of Deane's grave. Then, with

spikes he had brought with him, he nailed on the slab. He believed

that no one would ever know what the words on that slab meant-- no one

except himself and the spirit of Scottie Deane. With the end of the

heated rod he had burned into the wood:

DAVID DEANE

Died Feb. 27, 1908

BELOVED OF ISOBEL AND THE ONE

WHO WISHES HE COULD TAKE

YOUR PLACE AND GIVE

YOU BACK TO

HER

W. M. April 15, 1908

He did not stop when it was time for dinner, but carried rocks from a

ridge a couple of hundred yards away, and built a cairn four feet high

around the sapling, so that storm or wild animals could not knock it

down. Then he began a search in the warmest and sunniest parts of the

forest, where the green tips of plant life were beginning to reveal

themselves. He found snowflowers, redglow, and bakneesh, and dug up

root after root, and at last, peeping out from between two rocks, he

found the arrowlike tip of a blue flower. The bakneesh roots he

planted about the cairn, and the blue flower he planted by itself at

the head of the grave.

It was long past midday when he returned to the cabin, and once more

he was oppressed by the appalling loneliness of it. It was not as he

had thought it would be. Deane's spirit and companionship had seemed

to be nearer to him beside his campfires and in the forest. He cooked

a meal over the stove, but the snapping of the fire seemed strange and

unnatural in the deserted room. Even the air he breathed was heavy

with the oppression of death and broken hopes. He found it difficult

to swallow the food he had cooked, though he had eaten nothing since

morning. When he was done he looked at his watch. It was four o'clock.

The northern sun had dropped behind the distant forests and was

followed now by the thickening gloom of early evening. For a few

moments Billy stood motionless outside the cabin. Behind him an owl

hooted its lonely mating-song. Over his head a brush sparrow

twittered. It was that hour, just between the end of day and the

beginning of night, when the wilderness holds its breath and all is

still. Billy clenched his hands and listened. He could not keep back

the break that was in his breath. Something out there in the silence

and the gathering darkness was calling him-- calling him away from the

cabin, away from the grave, and the gray, dead waste of the Barren. He

turned back into the cabin and put his things into the pack. He took

the little mitten to keep with his other treasures, and then he went

out and closed the door behind him. He passed close to the grave and

for the last time gazed upon the spot where Deane lay buried.

"Good-by, old man," he whispered. Goodby--"

The owl hooted louder as he turned his face into the west. It made him

shiver, and he hurried his steps into the unbroken wilderness that lay

for hundreds of miles between him and the post at Fond du Lac.

XX

THE LETTER

Days and weeks and months of a loneliness which Billy had never known

before followed after his pilgrimage to Deane's grave. It was more

than loneliness. He had known loneliness, the heartbreak and the

longing of it, in the black and silent chaos of the arctic night; he

had almost gone mad of it, and he had seen Pelliter nearly die for a

glimpse of the sun and the sound of a voice. But this was different.

It was something that ate deeper at his soul each day and each night

that he lived. He had believed that thought of Isobel and his memories

of her would make him happier, even though he never saw her again. But

in this he was mistaken. The wilderness does not lend to

forgetfulness, and each day her voice seemed nearer and more real to

him, and she became more and more insistently a part of his thoughts.

Never an hour of the day passed that he did not ask himself where she

was. He hoped that she and the baby Isobel had returned to the old

home in Montreal, where they would surely find friends and be cared

for. And yet the dread was upon him that she had remained in the

wilderness, that her love for Deane would keep her there, and that she

would find a woman's work at some post between the Height of Land and

the Barrens. At times there possessed him an overwhelming desire to

return to McTabb's cabin and find where they had gone. But he fought

against this desire as a man fights against death. He knew that once

he surrendered himself to the temptation to be near her again he would

lose much that he had won in his struggle during the days of plague in

Couchée's cabin.

So his feet carried him steadily westward, while the invisible hands

tugged at him from behind. He did not go straight to Fond du Lac, but

spent nearly three weeks with a trapper whom he ran across on the

Pipestone River. It was June when he struck Fond du Lac, and he

remained there a month. He had more than half expected to pass the

winter there, but the factor at the post proved a disagreeable

acquaintance, and he did not like the country. So early in July he set

out deeper into the Athabasca country to the west, followed the

northern shore of the big lake, and two months later came to Fort

Chippewyan, near the mouth of the Slave River.

He struck Chippewyan at a fortunate time. A government geological and

map-making party was just preparing to leave for the terra incognita

between the Great Slave and the Great Bear, and the three men who had

come up from Ottawa urged Billy to join them. He jumped at the

opportunity, and remained with them until the party returned to the

Mackenzie River by the way of Fort Providence five months later. He

remained at Fort Providence until late spring, and then came down to

Fort Wrigley, where he had several friends in the service. Fifteen

months of wandering had had their effect upon him. He could no longer

resist the call of the wanderlust. It urged him from place to place,

and stronger and stronger grew in him the desire to return to his old

country along the shores of the big Bay far to the west. He had partly

planned to join the railroad builders on the new trans-continental in

the mountains of British Columbia, but in August, instead of finding

himself at Edmonton or Tête Jaune Cache, he was at Prince Albert,

three hundred and fifty miles to the east. From this point he struck

northward with a party of company men into the Lac La Ronge country,

and in October swung eastward alone through the Sissipuk and Burntwood

waterways to Nelson House. He continued northward after a week's rest,

and on the eighteenth of December the first of the two great storms

which made the winter of 1909-10 one of the most tragic in the history

of the far northern people overtook him thirty miles from York

Factory. It took him five days to reach the post, where he was held up

for several weeks. These were the first of those terrible weeks of

famine and intense cold during which more than fifteen hundred people

died in the north country. From the Barren Lands to the edge of the

southern watershed the earth lay under from four to six feet of snow,

and from the middle of December until late in January the temperature

did not rise above forty degrees below zero, and remained for the most

of the time between fifty and sixty. From all points in the wilderness

reports of starvation and death came to the company's posts. Trap

lines could not be followed because of the intense cold. Moose,

caribou, and even the furred animals had buried themselves under the

snow. Indians and half-breeds dragged themselves into the posts. Twice

at York Factory Billy saw mothers who brought dead babies in their

arms. One day a white trapper came in with his dogs and sledge, and on

the sledge, wrapped in a bearskin, was his wife, who had died fifty

miles back in the forest.

During these terrible weeks Billy found it impossible to keep Isobel

and the baby Isobel out of his mind night or day. The fear grew in him

that somewhere in the wilderness they were suffering as others were

suffering. So obsessed did he become with the thought that he had a

terrible dream one night, and in that dream baby Isobel's face

appeared to him, a deathlike mask, white and cold and thinned by

starvation. The vision decided him. He would go to Fort Churchill, and

if McTabb had not been driven in he would go to his cabin, over on the

Little Beaver, and learn what had become of Isobel and the little

girl. A few days later, on the twenty-seventh day of January, there

came a sudden rise in the temperature, and Billy prepared at once to

take advantage of the change. A half-breed, on his way to Churchill,

accompanied him, and they set out together the following morning. On

the twentieth of February they arrived at Fort Churchill.

Billy went immediately to detachment headquarters. There had been

several changes in two years, and there was only one of the old force

to shake hands with him. His first inquiry was about McTabb and Isobel

Deane. Neither was at Churchill, nor had been there since the arrival

of the new officer in charge. But there was mail for Billy-- three

letters. There had been half a dozen others, but they were now

following up his old trails somewhere out in the wilderness. These

three had been returned recently from Fond du Lac. One was from

Pelliter, the fourth he had written, he said, without an answer. The

"kid" had come-- a girl-- and he wondered if Billy was dead. The

second letter was from his Cobalt partner.

The third he turned over several times before he opened it. It did not

look much like a letter. It was torn and ragged at the edges, and was

so soiled and water-stained that the address on it was only partly

legible. It had been to Fond du Lac, and from there it had followed

him to Fort Chippewyan. He opened it and found that the writing inside

was scarcely more legible than the inscription on the envelope. The

last words were quite plain, and he gave a low cry when he found that

it was from Rookie McTabb.

He went close to a window and tried to make out what McTabb had

written. Here and there, where water had not obliterated the writing,

he could make out a line or a few words. Nearly all was gone but the

last paragraph, and when Billy came to this and read the first words

of it his heart seemed all at once to die within him, and he could not

see. Word by word he made out the rest after that, and when he was

done he turned his stony face to the white whirl of the storm outside

the window, his lips as dry as though he had passed through a fever.

A part of that last paragraph was unintelligible, but enough was left

to tell him what had happened in the cabin down on the Little Beaver.

McTabb had written:

"We thought she was getting well... took sick again.... did

everything... could. But it didn't do any good,... died just five

weeks to a day after you left. We buried her just behind the cabin.

God... that kid... You don't know how I got to love her, Billy....

give her up..."

McTabb had written a dozen lines after that, but all of them were a

water-stained and unintelligible blur.

Billy crushed the letter in his hand. The new inspector wondered what

terrible news he had received as he walked out into the blinding chaos

of the storm.

XXI

THE FIGHTING SPARK

For ten minutes Billy buried himself blindly in the storm. He scarcely

knew which direction he took, but at last he found himself in the

shelter of the forest, and he was whispering Isobel's name over and

over again to himself.

"Dead-- dead--" he moaned. "She is dead-- dead--"

And then there rushed upon him, crushing back his deeper grief, a

thought of the baby Isobel. She was still with McTabb down on the

Little Beaver. In the blur of the storm he read again what he could

make out of Rookie's letter. Something in that last paragraph struck

him with a deadly fear. "God... that kid... You, don't know how I got

to love her, Billy,... give her up..."

What did it mean? What had McTabb told him in that part of the letter

that was gone?

The reaction came as he put the letter back into his pocket. He walked

swiftly back to the inspector's office.

"I'm going down to the Little Beaver. I'm going to start to-day," he

said. "Who is there in Churchill that I can get to go with me?"

Two hours later Billy was ready to start, with an Indian as a

companion. Dogs could not be had for love or money, and they set out

on snowshoes with two weeks' supply of provisions, striking south and

west. The remainder of that day and the next they traveled with but

little rest. Each hour that passed added to Billy's mad impatience to

reach McTabb's cabin.

With the morning of the third day began the second of those two

terrible storms which swept over the northland in that winter of

famine and death. In spite of the Indian's advice to build a permanent

camp until the temperature rose again Billy insisted on pushing ahead.

The fifth night, in the wild Barren country west of the Etawney, his

Indian failed to keep up the fire, and when Billy investigated he

found him half dead with a strange sickness. He made the Indian's

balsam shelter snow and wind proof, cut wood, and waited. The

temperature continued to fall, and the cold became intense. Each day

the provisions grew less, and at last the time came when Billy knew

that he was standing face to face with the Great Peril. He went

farther and farther from camp in his search for game. Even the brush

sparrows and snow-hawks were gone. Once the thought came to him that

be might take what food was left and accept the little chance that

remained of saving himself. But the idea never got farther than a

first thought. On the twelfth day the Indian died. It was a terrible

day. There was food for another twenty-four hours.

Billy packed it, together with his blankets and a few pieces of

tinware. He wondered if the Indian had died of a contagious disease.

Anyway, he made up his mind to put out the warning for others if they

came that way, and over the dead Indian's balsam shelter he planted a

sapling, and at the end of the sapling he fastened a strip of red

cotton cloth-- the plague signal of the north.

Than he struck out through the deep snows and the twisting storm,

knowing that there was no more than one chance in a thousand ahead of

him, and that the one chance was to keep the wind at his back.

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