I know I deserved mine, and I appreciated it when I got it.

_December 3d._

The _chasse à courre_ is generally fixed for the last day of the _série_;

but their Majesties, at the suggestion of the thoughtful Vicomte Walsh,

ordered it to be changed to this afternoon, in order that the operetta

should arrive at a riper stage of perfection. Would it ever be near

enough? We had never had a moment yet when we could rehearse all together.

Vicomte de V----'s costume had not come from Paris, and he was bordering

on brain-fever, in a state of expectancy and impatience. Neither he nor

d'Espeuilles knew their songs, and the chorus needed much drilling. The

Princess Metternich put her salon at the Marquis's disposal, and he spent

half his time teaching some of his pupils.

The days of the _chasse à courre_ the gentlemen appear in red coats and

the ladies in green-cloth dresses. Those that had _le bouton_ put it in

their buttonhole. You may be sure I wore mine!

All the carriages, the horses, and grooms were before the terrace at two

o'clock, and after the usual delay we drove off to the forest. Their

Majesties and the Prince Imperial were on horseback. The Duchess de Sesto

invited me to drive with her, and in the same _char-à-banc_ with us were

Baronne de la Poeze, Comtesse Pourtales, and four or five others. The

Duchess looked very dainty, wrapped in her chinchilla furs. I had had so

little time to learn the talking part of my rôle that I took it with me in

the carriage, hoping to be able to study it. They all sympathized with me,

as they knew the operetta was to be given to-morrow evening.

The roads were full of mud; but we splashed through them regardless of

such minor details as dirt Fortunately it did not rain, and the sun made a

few spasmodic efforts to come out, but it was far from being the ideal day

of last year.

This _chasse_ varies but little, and I described my first acquaintance

with it in a letter last year, so I will spare you the repetition of

details. I fancy the route we took was the same; but I am not quite sure,

for all the roads and avenues resemble one another.

Once, as we halted at an _étoile_, we saw a beautiful stag bound past

us, full of life and strength, with enormous horns (they said it was a

_dix cors_). Every one in the carriage stood up in their excitement to

look after it. How I wished he would escape and live his free and happy

life in the forest. I hate this _chasse_; I hate to write about it; I

hate to be present at it. It is all so pitiful and painful to me! How can

any one find pleasure in such cruel sport?

To kill a living creature, to take the life of an animal that has done you

no harm, seems horrible to me. But I will say no more on this subject. It

always puts me in a bad temper, and makes me disgusted with my fellow-

creatures.

We followed the other part of the cavalcade and arrived at the _carrefour_

in time to see the death of one stag. The others saw it, but I was

occupied with my manuscript.

There were two stags taken, two beautiful creatures that ought to have

lived.

It was so cold and bleak I longed to get back to warm rooms, cheerful

fire, and a hot cup of tea, which I was sure to find awaiting me, and I

was heartily glad when we turned homeward.

Six o'clock had just struck when we drove up to the front of the Grand

Escalier, and I was able to get a little rest before dressing for dinner.

All the ladies who owned diamond crescents, or any crescent suggestive of

Diana and her pastimes, put them on. The Empress had a gorgeous crescent

on her lovely hair.

The worn-out Marquis took me in to dinner. It was fortunate, for there

were some vital points which we had to discuss. On my other side was the

Count de Grammont, a sportsman, who wanted to talk only of the hunt; but I

was able to turn a deaf ear to his marvelous exploits, thanks to the

Marquis's incessant explanations.

There was a little dancing, to fill up the time before the _curée_. It is

a pity that this is our last dance. The chamberlains are beginning to show

a good deal of talent in their playing _le piano méchanique_, and they can

play almost in time.

The _curée_ was at ten o'clock. The long gallery was soon alive with an

eager public. All the windows were occupied by the ladies. The courtyard

was filled, in spite of the cold weather, with the populace of Compiègne;

the _piqueurs_ waved their torches; the dogs howled and yelped; the

_gardes_ blew their long _cors de chasse_, and it was just like last year,

except that on this occasion there were two stags--therefore, two sets of

entrails to be devoured.

Tea and cakes were passed about. Those who had come from the neighboring

châteaux took their leave, those who were to return to Paris drove off to

the station, and the privileged guests retired to their apartments.

_December 4th._

At ten o'clock this morning I was surprised at hearing a timid knock at my

salon door. Who should it be but the Marquis d'Aoust. He begged my pardon

for disturbing me; but he wished to consult me about something he

considered of great importance.

He looked disheveled and careworn, even at this early hour, as if he had

not slept all night. Would I be willing to help Count d'E---- in our duet,

and sing a part of his music? Otherwise, he was sure it would never go.

I told him it would not be easy to sing tenor; but I would see at the

rehearsal what I could do. He was in despair. I tried to tranquilize him,

my compassion triumphing over my forebodings, and assured him that all

would go well. I did not tell him that I had had a succession of

nightmares last night, where I saw myself stranded on the stage, having

forgotten both words and music.

He said that he had been on the stage at work with the carpenters since I

don't know when this morning. They had first put up the scenery as he had

ordered; but he saw that there would not be space for the eight performers

(there are two scenes where we are all on the stage at once). Accordingly,

he had ordered the carpenters to change it.

I ate my _déjeuner_ sandwiched between the tenor and the basso. We

rehearsed our dialogues, although we pretended to discuss other matters.

The Empress went directly to the Marquis after _déjeuner_ and said, "We

are looking forward to your operetta to-night with real pleasure, and

we are sure that it will be a great success." The Marquis was radiant.

When we met later in the theater for our first and only rehearsal we were

delighted to find there the grand piano from the _salle de musique_. The

curtain rose on a very pretty garden scene, with trees on either side,

green linen on the floor representing grass, a village with a church-

steeple in the background, and for stage properties a garden bench and a

vase placed just before the footlights, so that it would not interfere

with our movements, but would show us where _not_ to fall off.

The Marquis was, of course, at the piano, and Prince Metternich, as

prompter, squeezed into a prompter's box, looking wretchedly

uncomfortable. We commenced the rehearsal, which, on the whole, went off

better than we expected.

The basso is the first to appear. He sings a melancholy song, in which he

makes known his love for the humble village maiden. His voice gets more

dismal and lower as he becomes despondent, and higher and more buoyant as

his hopes rise. At the end, when he sings "Elle sera à moi," his voice,

though very husky, was almost musical. Then I, as the village maiden,

enter with a basket, suggestive of butter and eggs, and sing a sentimental

ditty telling of my love for the friend of the lord. The music of this is

mediocre beyond words. The Marquis tries to show, by a few high soprano

notes, how high my wildest flights of aspirations fly before I could ever

reach the subject of my love. "Mes tourments" and "le doux plaisir

d'aimer" get so mixed that I don't know myself what I am singing about.

The lady of the manor hears my lament, and, believing me to be in love

with her husband, berates me in a dramatic duet. The friend and adviser

now appears, and we get through an incomprehensible trio. He cannot

convince her (the lady) of the innocence of her husband. She insists upon

thinking him a traitor, leaves us in a fury, and we have the floor to

ourselves when we sing the famous duet on account of which the Marquis had

qualms this morning. In it there is a minor phrase which is quite

intricate, and I saw that unless I came to d'E----'s rescue he could never

manage it.

The lord and the lady reappear, while the friend and I retire in the

background and lean up against the village steeple and whisper. The lady

is violent and the lord is indifferent. The music sounds like an

everlasting grumble, because her voice is contralto and his is bass. The

village maiden is called to the front, and denies everything she has been

accused of. The husband makes amends in a phrase miles too high for his

voice. The friend takes all the blame on his black-velvet shoulders, and

says he has loved the maiden all along. The maiden is overcome with

emotion and faints for joy.

The final quartette is a sad affair, musically speaking, constructed on

the Marquis's own ideas of thoroughbass. All the singers start on the same

plane, the soprano soars heavenward, the contralto and the bass grovel in

their deepest notes, while the tenor, who ought to fill up the gap, stands

counting the measures on his fingers, his eyes glued to the prompter,

until he joins me and we soar together.

To use a metaphor, one might say that the contralto and bass were in the

lower regions, the soprano floating in heaven, the tenor groping about on

earth for his note; then we all meet on the same place we started from,

which is the signal for the chorus to unite their forces with ours.

The Marquis was dreadfully put out with me because I refused to faint on

the stage (in the text it says _Rosette tombe évanouie_). He said nothing

was easier. I had only to put my arms out to break the fall and--fall. He

thought that with a little practice between the afternoon and the evening

I should be able to do it.

I could see myself covered with bruises tumbling about over sofas and

chairs, and I could see the bewilderment of any one coming into my room

while I was practising this part of my rôle.

I said, "I absolutely refuse to risk my neck." He thought it was very

selfish of me. One would have thought that the whole success of the

operetta depended on my fainting. He said he could show me how to fall

without hurting myself, and in trying to do so he tripped over the vase

and bumped his head against the garden bench. Fortunately he did not

damage himself, but the argument ended then and there.

At half-past four my maid came to the theater to tell me that the Empress

expected me to tea. I had thought she would, as she had promised the

answers to those questions; and so it was. As soon as I appeared (I had

had time to change my dress) the Empress called me to her and said:

"Here are the answers to your American soul-probing questions! These are

mine (giving me hers) and here are the Emperor's. He was very pleased to

write them, as it was you who asked him; besides, I think they amused him.

He spent a long time pondering over each answer. You see," she added, with

her lovely smile, "nous vous aimons bien."

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