NOTICE TO QUIT.
We drank tea with Lady Lorrimer. Mamma continued very silent, and I
think she had been crying in her room.
"They can't tell me here whether Harry has arrived or not," said Lady
Lorrimer. "He might have returned by the Dardale Road, and if so, he
would not have passed through Golden Friars, so it is doubtful. But I'm
pretty sure that was he."
"I wish I were sure of that," said mamma.
"Well, I don't know," said Lady Lorrimer, "what to advise. I was just
going to say it might be a wise thing if you were to make up your mind
to see him, and to beard the lion in his den."
"No," said mamma; "if you mean to meet him and speak to him, I could not
do that. I shall never see him again--nothing but pain could come of it;
and he would not see me, and he ought not to see me; and he ought not to
forgive me--never!"
"Well, dear, I can't deny it, you did use him very ill. And he is, and
always was, a fierce and implacable enemy," answered Lady Lorrimer. "I
fancied, perhaps, if he did see you, the old chord might be touched
again, and yield something of its old tone on an ear saddened by time.
But I daresay you are right. It was a Quixotic inspiration, and might
have led to disaster; more probably, indeed, than to victory."
"I am quite sure of that--in fact, I know it," said mamma.
And there followed a silence.
"I sometimes think, Mabel--I was thinking so all this evening," said
Lady Lorrimer, "it might have been happier for us if we had never left
this lonely place. We might have been happier if we had been born under
harder conditions; the power of doing what pleases us best leads us so
often into sorrow."
Another silence followed. Mamma was looking over her shoulder, sadly,
through the window at the familiar view of lake and mountain, indolently
listening.
"I regret it, and I don't regret it," continued Lady Lorrimer. "If I
could go back again into my early self--I wish I could--but the
artificial life so perverts and enervates one, I hardly know, honestly,
what I wish. I only know there is regret enough to make me discontented,
and I think I should have been a great deal happier if I had been
compelled to stay at Golden Friars, and had never passed beyond the
mountains that surround us here. I have not so long as you to live,
Mabel, and I'm glad of it. I am not quite so much of a Sadducee as you
used to think me, and I hope there may be a happier world for us all.
And, now that I have ended my homminy, as they call such long speeches
in this country, will you, dear Ethel, give me a cup of tea?"
Lady Lorrimer and I talked. I was curious about some of the places and
ruins I had seen, and asked questions, which it seemed to delight her to
answer. It is a region abounding in stories strange and marvellous,
family traditions, and legends of every kind.
"I think," said mamma, _a propos des bottes_, "if he has returned they
are sure to know in the town before ten to-night. Would you mind asking
again by-and-by?"
"You mean about Harry Rokestone?"
"Yes."
"I will. I'll make out all about him. We saw his castle to-day," she
continued, turning to me. "Our not knowing whether he was there or not
made it a very interesting contemplation. You remember the short speech
Sheridan wrote to introduce Kelly's song at Drury Lane--'There stands
my Matilda's cottage! She must be in it, or else out of it?'"
Again mamma dropped out, and the conversation was maintained by Lady
Lorrimer and myself. In a little while mamma took her leave, complaining
of a headache; and our kinswoman begged that I would remain for an hour
or so, to keep her company. When mamma had bid her good night, and was
gone, the door being shut, Lady Lorrimer laughed, and said:
"Now, tell me truly, don't you think if your papa had been with us
to-day in the boat, and seen the change that took place in your mamma's
looks and spirits from the moment she saw Dorracleugh, and the tall man
who stood on the rock, down to the hour of her headache and early good
night, he would have been a little jealous?"
I did not quite know whether she was joking or serious, and I fancy
there was some puzzle in my face as I answered:
"But it can't be that she liked Sir Harry Rokestone; she is awfully
afraid of him--that is the reason, I'm sure, she was so put out. She
never liked him."
"Don't be too sure of that, little woman," she answered, gaily.
"Do you really think mamma liked him? Why, she was in love with papa."
"No, it was nothing so deep," said Lady Lorrimer; "she did not love your
papa. It was a violent whim, and if she had been left just five weeks to
think, she would have returned to Rokestone."
"But there can be no sentiment remaining still," I remarked. "Sir Harry
Rokestone is an old man!"
"Yes, he is an old man; he is--let me see--he's fifty-six. And she did
choose to marry your papa. But I'm sure she thinks she made a great
mistake. I am very sure she thinks that, with all his faults, Rokestone
was the more loveable man, the better man, the truer. He would have
taken good care of her. I don't know of any one point in which he was
your papa's inferior, and there are fifty in which he was immeasurably
his superior. He was a handsomer man, if that is worth anything. I think
I never saw so handsome a man, in his peculiar style. You think me a
very odd old woman to tell you my opinion of your father so frankly; but
I am speaking as your mamma's friend and kinswoman, and I say your papa
has not used her well. He is good-humoured, and has good spirits, and he
has some good-nature, quite subordinated to his selfishness. And those
qualities, so far as I know, complete the muster-roll of his virtues.
But he has made her, in no respect, a good husband. In some a very bad
one. And he employs half-a-dozen attorneys, to whom he commits his
business at random; and he is too indolent to look after anything. Of
course he's robbed, and everything at sixes and sevens; and he has got
your mamma to take legal steps to make away with her money for his own
purposes; and the foolish child, the merest simpleton in money matters,
does everything he bids her; and I really believe she has left herself
without a guinea. I don't like him--no one could who likes _her_. Poor,
dear Mabel, she wants energy; I never knew a woman with so little will.
She never showed any but once, and that was when she did a foolish
thing, and married your father."
"And did Sir Harry Rokestone like mamma very much?" I asked.
"He was madly in love with her, and when she married your papa, he
wanted to shoot him. I think he was, without any metaphor, very nearly
out of his mind. He has been a sort of anchorite ever since. His money
is of no use to him. He is a bitter and eccentric old man."
"And he can injure papa now?"
"So I'm told. Your papa thinks so; and he seldom takes the trouble to be
alarmed about danger three or four months distant."
Then, to my disappointment and, also, my relief, that subject dropped.
It had interested and pained me; and sometimes I felt that it was
scarcely right that I should hear all she was saying, without taking up
the cudgels for papa. Now, with great animation, she told me her
recollections of her girlish days here at Golden Friars, when the old
gentry were such bores and humorists as are no longer to be met with
anywhere. And as she made me laugh at these recitals, her maid, whom
she had sent down to "the bar" to make an inquiry, returned, and told
her something in an undertone. As soon as she was gone, Lady Lorrimer
said:
"Yes, it is quite true. Tell your mamma that Harry Rokestone is at
Dorracleugh."
She became thoughtful. Perhaps she was rehearsing mentally the mediatory
conference she had undertaken.
We had not much more conversation that night; and we soon parted with a
very affectionate good-night. My room adjoined mamma's, and finding that
she was not yet asleep, I went in and gave her Lady Lorrimer's message.
Mamma changed colour, and raised herself suddenly on her elbow, looking
in my face.
"Very well, dear," said she, a little flurried. "We must leave this
to-morrow morning."