asked. "Listen to me: I know all about it. Just now, when I wanted to
listen and you _would_ talk, God showed it to me in a dream. Mon père
is ill. He wants me--I'll take you to find him."
Marie stood at the door holding out her arms; the guide motioned
peremptorily that the child should return to the chalet. Arthur
stood irresolute. He felt half inclined to trust to the little one's
instincts, and in the delay, while the precious moments that might mean
life or death to one of the two men in the snow were passing, _that_
sound came to their ears again--a heavy groan, drawn, it would seem,
from a heart's agony.
It was more than Laura could bear, for she, and she alone of that
little company, knew the sound; she had heard it before.
In his excitement Arthur's hold on her hand relaxed. With a sudden cry
she wrenched herself free, and before the two men could seize her again
her white dress and scarlet cloak made a blot on the moonlit snow far
on in advance. What could they do but follow in her track? and when
they had come up with her, when she had allowed herself once more to
be caught, the light from the open door of the chalet gleamed far away
in the distance. The wilful little maiden was perched once more on the
shoulder of the stolid Swiss guide. She arrogated to herself the right
of directing her companions, and it was well. Once, at least, from her
tower of observation she scented danger and warned them away from the
brink of a ravine. But the men had a surer guide than the dreams of a
child. In a part of the meadow that was sheltered from the wind Arthur
had found the traces of footsteps in the snow.
Strange to say, the discovery was made in the very direction which
Laura had taken when she started on her wild flight. Had her loving
instincts guided her, or was there really something supernatural in her
knowledge?
Arthur asked himself this question repeatedly as he followed his guide
in silence. He never found an answer. The events of that night were
always wrapped in a partial mystery.
Was it so very unnatural? Who that has looked into the far-seeing eyes
of some children, who that has carefully noted their strange ways,
will be able to answer unhesitatingly that it was? They are nearer
to heaven, nearer to the invisible, than those who have weathered
a hundred storms, who have lost their faith in humanity, who have
travelled for long years along the dusty highways of the world,
tarnishing much of their soul's beauty, and forgetting too often the
grandeur of their high destiny.
What wonder that the little ones sometimes see farther than we? for the
invisible chord which binds their soul to heaven is, at their tender
age, free for the passage to and fro of the angels, and it may be that
they whisper to the children of the things that no eye can see. And the
child is ready for these beautiful intuitions. It does not question--it
believes.
CHAPTER VII.
_FOR THE SECOND TIME SAVED FROM HIMSELF._
Oh, unsay
What thou hast said of man; nor deem me wrong.
Mind cannot mind despise--it is itself.
Mind must love mind.
The two men and the child pressed on. They had left the path behind
them, they were winding between huge boulders, the débris from some
devastating avalanche; like a mighty wall the mountains rose above
them, hedging them in on the one side, while on the other was the
continuation of the pine wood.
The guide had given up the lantern to Arthur; he could not manage
both it and the child, and the young man, a few yards in advance, was
seeking on hands and knees for further traces of footsteps in the snow.
The groans had not been repeated, and from this Arthur augured badly.
It might be that the dying had passed into the dead. The young man's
heart was sad. He had reckoned so entirely on the success of his
enterprise, he had been so full of hope, and now it seemed as if the
whole--all his hopes, all his efforts--was to be swamped in this sudden
horror. For even if Maurice had escaped unhurt, even if the life of
his enemy had fallen by his hand in his first horror at the discovery
of that enemy's dark treachery, what would the result be on his own
mind, on those of others?--to Margaret, who above all things had
entreated that this man should be unharmed; to Laura, who loved him
with all the strength of her young soul; to Maurice himself, who would
feel when the deed was done that it was wrongly done, for this man
had thrown himself, alone and helpless, into his hands, carrying as a
peace-offering the act of expiation for his past wrongs, the confession
of Margaret's spotless innocence. Arthur had gathered from Laura's
words, beyond the possibility of a doubt, that this, and only this, had
been the intention of L'Estrange in seeking an interview with Mr. Grey.
If he could only have foreseen all this, he said to himself mournfully,
it might have been so different.
The voice of the child awoke him from his sad musing. It was very low,
but in the stillness of that snowy night the slightest sound wrote its
impress on the air. The earth itself seemed to be listening. "We're
very near them now," she said; "I am sure we are. There, there! listen!
The trees are shaking."
Almost instinctively the two men obeyed her imperative gestures. They
rounded a great shoulder of rock. It led them on to a kind of plateau,
studded here and there with stunted, snow-laden pines, ending abruptly
in a depth of darkness, for what lay beyond the ravine that bounded it
was hidden by the snow-vapors.
At first they saw nothing, but a certain feeling warned them to pause
and look round attentively.
"Put me down," cried the child, and as if in answer to her call the
branches of the pine that overhung the precipice crackled and stirred.
This excited Laura. She broke loose from the guide, and once more
outstripping her companions rushed forward over the snow. A moment
more, and her cry, partly of joy, partly of pain, drew Arthur to the
spot. It was on the very brink of the ravine, under an overhanging
pine tree, whose black shadow on the moonlit snow had prevented them
from discovering what lay beneath it.
L'Estrange was outstretched there, silent, motionless, to all
appearance dead. Laura was on her knees beside her friend, calling out
to him piteously to open his eyes and speak to her. In her excitement
the little one had not seen at first that there was another there--that
the head of her friend was on the knees of a man who sat upright on the
cold snow, his back resting against the stem of a pine tree. That man
was her father--Maurice Grey.
Just before they came up he had fallen into that most dangerous of
all states, a sleep among the snows--a dull, numb insensibility
induced by the constrained posture, the long watching, the extreme
cold. His child's wail aroused him. He opened his eyes, but his first
thought was that he was dreaming, for as Arthur's lantern was turned
slowly on the little group he saw in the golden hair from which the
scarlet hood had fallen back, in the fair, delicately-chiselled face,
in the dark, mournful eyes, so like his own, the little one he had
deserted--Margaret's child. How had she come there? Gradually, as the
film passed from his senses, he began to remember the events of the
night, and the latter part of L'Estrange's strange confession flashed
over his mind. While horror withheld Arthur from speaking, while the
guide, whose movements were slower than his, was coming up to their
assistance, a glimmering of the truth dawned upon Maurice's mind.
_His_ child had come out to seek this man, his enemy--_his_ child was
pouring out on her mother's betrayer the treasures of her young heart's
affection. It smote him with a sudden pang.
But no answer came from the stricken man to the child's impassioned
cries, and suddenly she raised her eyes. They met those of her father.
She looked at him for a moment in silence, and involuntarily Maurice
trembled. He was thinking of what might have been if the hand of God
had not forestalled his.
In his first burst of anger against this man, the destroyer of his
peace, the slanderer of her who was dearer to him than life, it had
seemed no crime to avenge himself once and for ever of his enemy. But
with the silence of that solemn night other thoughts had come. In the
unlooked-for ending of their strife that evening God had rebuked him.
"Vengeance is mine!" seemed to be crying in his ears. What was he, that
he should arrogate to himself the functions that belong to the Divine?
And say what one will, under any circumstances it is an awful thing--a
thing that can never be forgotten or put away--to destroy human life.
Maurice Grey was neither weak nor sentimental, but that night as he
hung over his enemy, tending as a brother might have done the man he
had intended to destroy, he shuddered at the remembrance of what might
have happened in the fever of his just indignation. And now, when the
child--his child--looked up at him, her eyes large with fear for his
enemy, asking him mutely for an account of this strangeness, Maurice
was thankful that his answer might be no revelation of a tragedy that
would have chilled her warm young blood and filled her with loathing of
him--her father.
"Who has hurt mon père?" asked Laura.
"Little one," replied Maurice gravely, "he is ill; he will be better
soon."
By this time Arthur was close beside them. He stumbled over something
hard, stooped, and found a pistol at his feet.
"Don't touch it!" cried Maurice hastily; "it is loaded."
"Loaded!" repeated the young man slowly; "then--"
"Foolish boy!" replied Maurice with meaning. "I tell you this man was
taken ill near my door. In the impossibility of getting assistance to
move him, I have been watching him ever since his first seizure; but,
for Goodness' sake, don't stand looking at us, or we shall die of cold
out here! Get your burly friend to help you, and between you perhaps
you may be able to carry this man as far as the chalet. As for myself,
I am so cramped and numb that it will be all I can do to creep."
Maurice spoke cheerfully. It was as if a great load had suddenly been
lifted from his soul.
Margaret pure, his hands free from blood-guiltiness, his little
daughter within his grasp! It was like the opening of heaven to a
spirit long tormented in the purifying fires.
Laura looked up triumphantly as she heard her father's words. "Didn't I
say so?" she cried; "mon père was ill, and my own papa was taking care
of him?" She stooped over L'Estrange: "Mon père, pauvre, cher père!"
Then to Arthur and the guide: "Oh, please, lift him very gently. We
must put him beside the fire. It will make mon père better."
She made an effort to raise his head on her small arm. And at her touch
L'Estrange opened his eyes. "Ma fillette!" he whispered. Laura was
satisfied.
"I have done him good already," she said, looking round at Arthur; "I
said I could."
It was only when she had seen her friend raised, the burly Swiss
supporting his head and shoulders, Arthur his feet, that she had eyes
or words for Maurice. He rose with difficulty, the little one standing
beside him and offering her small hand by way of assistance.
"Have you nothing to say to me, Laura?" he asked rather sadly as he
walked, painfully at first, after Arthur and the guide, the little one
trotting joyfully through the snow by his side.
She looked up at him: "You _are_ my own papa?"
"Yes, Laura."
"And you are coming back home with us?"
"Yes."
"And you really want to see mamma again?"
"Yes."
"Then"--the child gave a deep sigh--"I am very glad."
That was the end of the first conversation between Laura and her
father. They were obliged to look carefully to their footing, for two
or three times the child had fallen upon the frozen snow. She did not
seem to care much, but her father did; when at last the congealed
blood began to flow through his veins, and his wonted vigor to return,
Maurice Grey stooped and in his turn gathered her up into his arms.
Laura had found her true place at last. After her wanderings, her
strange adventures, her fears and her dreams, she was able to lay her
head on her father's breast. He was a stranger to the child. As yet her
love for her false father was much stronger than any feeling for the
true; but the consciousness perhaps of this, that he _was_ her father,
that her task was ended, her childish work accomplished, made a deep
rest steal over her. With her arms round Maurice's neck and her head
upon his shoulder the child fell fast asleep after her fatigues. It was
childhood's sleep, dreamless and unbroken.
So Maurice brought her in to his house, solitary now no longer. He
would not give her up into Marie's care, but taking the blankets from
his bed, he arranged them with his pillows in a corner near the stove,
and laid the little one down. There was a soft look in his face as
he stooped over her. Where was all his cynicism? It had gone. He was
thinking of Laura's mother, and reckoning how long the time might be
before he could himself give back her child to her arms.
And in the mean time the cold dawn was beginning to creep over the
snow. Maurice turned to his companions and held a council of war. They
examined L'Estrange carefully, and found that one of his arms and part
of his side were perfectly dead and helpless. He seemed to be partially
paralyzed.
The question was, What should they do with him? In the solitude of
Maurice's little chalet it would be impossible for him to obtain the
necessary treatment, yet to move a man in his condition so far as the
hotel would be a serious matter, and required more hands than they
could muster.
They had improvised a kind of bed on the floor of the small
sitting-room; they were standing round him, Maurice and Arthur talking
earnestly, the guide only waiting for a sign to do anything that might
be desired of him, when suddenly, to their astonishment, the man they
had thought utterly insensible looked up and tried to raise himself.
He fell back helpless. Then he opened his lips and tried to speak.
Maurice stooped over him to catch the words, for his voice was thick
and changed. "La fillette!" he murmured; "I saw her." Then, as Maurice
pointed out the child fast asleep among the pillows: "It is well," he
said quietly, and his head fell back again. He was thinking.
Gradually the events of the night were shaping themselves out of
the mists which his long insensibility had thrown over his mind. "I
remember," he said at last in a faint, low tone. He beckoned to
Arthur, who wondered at the recognition which he read in the face of
the stricken man. But the dying have their privileges. Arthur overcame
his repugnance and stooped down to listen to his words. "Tell me--" was
all he said, pointing to the bed where Laura lay asleep.
The young man understood what he wanted. In as few words as possible he
told of his discovery, of Laura's anxiety, of their midnight journey,
and once or twice, as his tale went on, a tear rolled down L'Estrange's
face, for in spirit as in body the man was overcome.
When it was ended he called Maurice to his side, and held out the only
hand over which his will had any power, whispering as he did so, "Is it
peace?"
Maurice took the hand and held it in his own. "Forgive me--" he began,
but the man interrupted him with something of his old imperiousness.
"Young people," he said, "lie down--rest."
It was, after all, the most sensible, suggestion. They gave him some
brandy and hot water, which seemed to revive him; then, as utter
weariness had taken possession of Arthur and the guide, they thought
it best to obey, Maurice, who had piled fuel on the stove, declaring
his intention of watching it and L'Estrange. But he too gave way before
long, and the morning light streamed in upon the little chalet parlor,
full of prostrate forms stretched out on the floor and wrapped in every
kind of material.
Before the full morning light had aroused the weary men Laura had risen
from her bed, and had knelt down by her friend to place one of the
pillows her father had arranged for her under his head.
He was awake, and he opened his eyes with a smile, but the smile passed
into a frown, and Laura feared she had offended him. The fact was,
L'Estrange was steeling his heart and hers. He wanted to detach himself
from his darling--to accustom himself to do without her--to teach her,
if possible to care for him less.
But the little one put it down to pain, and tears filled her eyes "Mon
père is worse," she murmured.
She remained by his side till the full light, breaking in upon the
room, had aroused the sleepers.
Then another discussion took place. It was very strange. But the night
before Maurice Grey would have thought it no sin to deprive his enemy
of life. Another hand than his had smitten L'Estrange, and instead of
deserting him, as he might have done, leaving him to find his death
among the snows, Maurice Grey had risked his own life (for the numbness
which had been creeping over him when his friends came up might soon
have proved fatal) to watch over his. Perhaps the reason might be
found in his helplessness. On the previous evening he had stood before
Maurice as an accuser and a judge, arraigning him for the folly and
short-sightedness which, according to his showing, had been far more
instrumental than anything else in bringing about his suffering and
Margaret's. And his biting words had found their echo in Maurice's
own heart, being gifted with a double sting. In the man's attitude
there had been a certain power, and this it was that had inflamed his
opponent, till he had longed with a fierce, sudden passion of hatred to
punish him to the uttermost.
For the second time Maurice Grey had been saved from himself, and now,
as the man he had hated lay helpless at his feet--the brain that had
conceived and the hand that had written that cruel letter torpid, the
tongue which had given forth its biting irony silent--all his feelings
changed. The helplessness of the strong man recommended him to his
compassion; the remembrance of the service he had rendered him, the
consciousness of his penitence for the wrong he had committed, softened
Maurice toward him. He saw, for the first time, in L'Estrange's strange
conduct the return to itself of a soul that had wandered from his own
nobility. Bowing his head, the man who had been known as a bitter cynic
confessed his wrong to humanity, his distrust of God. Maurice Grey
was a changed man. He felt it in the lightness of heart with which he
rose that morning; for, say what we will, it cannot but be that this
hatred of their kind on which some men pride themselves is a bad and
heart-degrading thing. It recoils upon itself. A man cannot despise his
own nature and be happy. Maurice during these wretched years had been
heaping up misery to himself. But it was over, once and for ever. In
Margaret's faithful devotion and forgiving love, in his enemy's return
to a better mind, in his child's simplicity, in Arthur's high-hearted
chivalry, Maurice saw the other side of the picture he had so long been
contemplating.
In the course of his life of wandering he had been pleasing himself by
drawing out and marking the weaknesses of his fellows, and he had not
found his task difficult; but now in his God-given nature, the nature
he had despised, he began to see there was something underlying all
these superficialities For humanity had shown itself to him in its
beauty--the beauty which made God Himself pronounce it good on that
creation-dawn when "the morning stars sang together and all the sons
of God shouted for joy." Maurice Grey thanked God and took courage.
The discussion between himself and Arthur (for the guide was a silent
assistant) resulted in very little.
Something in the way of a litter would be necessary to take the
sufferer over the hills, and at least four strong men who could relieve
one another. They were only three, and it seemed perfectly impossible
to construct a litter out of the materials at hand.
The best plan seemed to be for the guide to return to the hotel and
bring back with him men and litter, also provisions of some kind, for
Marie's black bread and sausages had been so seriously besieged by her
numerous invaders that very little, even of this uninviting food, was
to be found in the small kitchen upon which Arthur made a raid. There
was fortunately enough coffee to supply them each with a strong cup,
only it had to be taken with goat's milk that had been standing for
some days in Marie's pans.
Arthur and Laura, the two most fastidious of the little party, made
many a wry face over the poor fare. These two had become fast friends;
indeed, the child was in a fair way to be spoilt. She reigned like a
queen among these men, so strangely met together in the solitary's
dwelling. The general devotion did not much impress her. Most of her
thoughts were given to one, and he seemed to take very little notice of
his darling. Once or twice the tears filled Laura's eyes as she noticed
how he would refuse what nourishment he could take when she offered
it, and then receive it from another hand. It gave the young heart,
premature in its development, a bitter pang to feel that the affection
of this friend might possibly cease. But of all this the child said
nothing. Breakfast--if breakfast it might be called--was over, the
guide was about to start for Grindelwald, Arthur was busying himself
about domestic matters, trying by his rapid movements to quicken the
perceptions of old Marie, who had been rendered even more stupid than
usual by the strange events of the night; Maurice sat by the side of
his stricken guest, with his little daughter on his knees, when over
the snow outside there came the sound of voices.
Laura ran to the window. "Four men," she cried, "and a mule, and one
of those chairs to carry people, and rugs, and a big bundle, and--Oh,
I hope there's some white bread; but perhaps they're not going to stop
here."
She appealed to Arthur, the person with whom she felt most on terms of
equality: "_Do_ go out and see if they'd give us just one little bit."
Her summons drew the whole of the little party to the door, just in
time to see the small cavalcade draw up, and to meet the questioning,
reproachful gaze of the good Karl.
To explain his appearance on the scene, it will be necessary to relate
how the ungrateful Arthur had quite forgotten his friend's servant,
who according to his own showing had earned for him the favor of that
tête-à-tête dinner at the hotel with the man to find whom he had
traversed Europe in its length and breadth.
It was only when the good German showed his round face, in which
sentiment and joy were struggling for the mastery, at the door of the
chalet that Arthur remembered his intention of letting him know of
his own return to the hotel and his master's whereabouts. The rapid
start with Laura and the guide, following on the interval of regretful
meditation in his own room, had put everything else out of his mind,
and Karl, who, as was his wont, had been making himself useful and
entertaining in the kitchen of the hotel, only found out when it was
too late to do any good that uneasy rumors were afloat in the house
about the two Englishmen, one of whom was his master.
Karl was eminently practical. He lost no time in dreaming about their
probable fate. Something--perhaps an accident to his master, since the
younger man had returned for assistance--was detaining them at the
chalet. The chalet was ill-provided with food and necessary comforts.
As soon as it could be possible to gather together a company large
enough to be useful in any emergency, he would find his way to his
master.
He spent the rest of the night in making every arrangement. Before
dawn he and his party of three stalwart men were on foot. Hence their
arrival at a comparatively early hour of the morning.
Karl's astonishment at the appearance presented by the chalet was very
great, and it was blended with reproach. His master and his master's
friend were on their feet, apparently uninjured; they seemed to have
plenty of assistants, for the guide, Marie, Arthur, Maurice and the
child made an imposing show in the small doorway; it was impossible
to tell how many more might be behind them. Why, then, had he, the
Englishman's faithful servant, been forgotten in this strange jubilee?
But his helpful nature reasserted itself when he found how very much
his services were needed. In the course of a few minutes he was
bustling about, acting as interpreter, preparing a substantial meal for
Maurice's half-starved little company, presenting everybody with shawl
or rug, and making himself generally useful.
Laura had her white bread and some sugar and milk. Arthur and Maurice
rejoiced in the dissection of a fowl, and the guide had a fresh and
unlimited supply of sausages; they were therefore soon sufficiently
strengthened to think with equanimity of a new start. The poles of the
_chaise-à-porteur,_ brought up in case of emergency by the provident
Karl, formed, with mattresses and ropes, an excellent litter. On this
they laid L'Estrange, well wrapped up in rugs and blankets.
Before the sun had risen very high in the heavens the little cavalcade
was in motion--Laura mounted on the mule which her father led;
L'Estrange, passive as an infant, in the litter they had prepared for
him; the rest of the party on foot.
As they entered the pinewood, Maurice turned, and shading his eyes from
the morning sun, took one last look at his temporary dwelling. It had
been the home of his solitude, the mute witness of despair that had
reached its climax in those last days when his life had seemed a burden
too heavy to be borne, and he was leaving it--leaving it and the past
life for ever.
His pride had been rebuked, his self-reliance had fallen. But a few
months before he had thought himself sufficient to himself: _that_
madness had gone; human interests had already begun to throw their
sweet influence around him; from the hermit's dwelling he was going out
once more into the great world. It had done its work. The trial-time
was over. He was stronger and better. His faith in God and humanity
had returned. He could now look forward with hope--not, perhaps, the
sanguineness of youth, which hopes simply because to despair would be
impossible, but hope resting on a well-grounded confidence in himself,
in humanity, in God.
Maurice Grey's after-life was not without its troubles, but through
them all he never lost sight of the lessons learnt in his hermit life.
Painfully gained, they were earnestly held.
CHAPTER VIII.
_A PARTING._
Thou whose exterior semblance doth belie
Thy soul's immensity;
Thou best philosopher, who yet dost keep
Thy heritage; thou eye among the blind:
Thou over whom thy immortality
Broods like the day, a master o'er a slave,
A presence which is not to be put by!
In the hotel they returned, for the moment, to their old arrangements.
The faithful child would not forsake her friend; his illness had, if
possible, only endeared him to her.
L'Estrange was better. The shock had only been very partial. On the
day following that of his return to the hotel he was already able to
speak intelligibly, and to understand everything that went on around
him. It was the morning of that day. Laura had been busy about the
room putting everything tidy, as she said in her childish way, for her
father had sent his servant to say that he would pay them a visit.
She noticed that the eyes of L'Estrange followed her painfully about
the room. There was a trouble in his face the child did not quite
understand. Except for his illness--which, childlike, Laura looked
upon as something very transient--she could not see in their present
circumstances any cause for sadness. Her mind was troubled with no
doubts about the right course to pursue. They were all to go back to
her mamma as soon as ever her friend could be moved. It had never
crossed her gentle mind that he was to be shut out of their happiness,
and, so far as she was concerned, she had no intention of leaving him.
The heart of the little child was light. Everything had come about as
she had hoped.
But Laura, young as she was, had been too often in the presence of
suffering not to recognize it, and her friend had taught her to
observe. She read the sorrow in his face and went to his bedside: "Mon
père, what is it? Are you worse?"
"Come to me, fillette," he answered, and with his left hand he drew her
face to his.
The child smiled: "Pauvre cher père, why do you look so sorry? You
ought to look glad, because we're all going back to mamma. Oh, I am so
happy! That night, mon père, you remember, when you were out in the
snow, and I thought you were lost, and I was to be left alone with
people who said cross things, I wasn't happy then; but now it's all
right. My papa is found--and," she lowered her voice as if speaking
in confidence, "I think I shall love him too--then we shall see mamma
again--"
She stopped suddenly, for the tears were falling one by one over her
companion's face. To a stronger heart than Laura's the sight would have
been pitiful. This stern, self-contained man did not often express
his feelings. Even the child he loved had trembled sometimes as she
looked at his dark, strong face--even she had feared to intrude upon
his silence; now all was broken down. Weakness as of a little child
had taken hold upon him. Laura was very much distressed. With tears
of sympathy in her own eyes, she stroked the dark, passionate face,
murmuring gentle words.
He spoke at last, and there was a sternness in his voice that might
have repelled the child had she not known her friend so well. "Laura,"
he said, "you must not again say such things as these; you must try and
understand, little one. What must be, must be; and thou and I _must_
part. Hush! hush!"
For Laura's face was averted; she had hidden it in the bed-clothes;
she was weeping in the silent, unchildlike way that once or twice
before had moved L'Estrange so deeply. In his weakness the man had much
difficulty in preventing himself from giving way once more and weeping
with her, but he controlled himself, for he was determined that no one
but himself should make her understand.
"Laura," he said very tenderly, laying his left hand on the soft,
golden head he loved so well, "it is necessary--you must go. I am not
worthy of this love, and your mother is waiting for you."
"But, mon père--" Laura lifted up her tear-stained face and met his
deep, stern eyes. Her voice faltered, for, child as she was, she read
his resolve. "You will be better," she said, "and come too."
"Never," he answered slowly. "Listen, little one." He put away the
hair from her face and looked at her long and tenderly: "In years to
come--ah, petite, long, long years--after your friend has been put away
under the ground, ma fillette will be a woman, tall and beautiful and
good; then she will know and understand that this thing is right; then
she will know that her friend, who loved her, acted for the best in
this--that what my Laura desires would not be possible. She must say to
her old friend good-bye; she must go away to those who love her; not
better--that could not be--but to those who have a greater right to her
love. Why do you care for me, fillette? Ah, mon Dieu! it is painful,"
he added as if to himself, for the child's sobs had never ceased.
He drew her face down to him again: "Little bird, it is not well. These
deep feelings give me grief. Thine is the age of laughter. Think then
of la pauvre maman--she is weeping too."
"Yes," replied the child through her tears. "I want to go back; but
oh"--a happy thought had struck her; she clasped her hands and looked
up into her friend's face--"if papa and I go away now, at once, you'll
get well and come afterward. This won't be saying good-bye for always:
_please, please_, say it won't."
He felt inclined to give her an indefinite answer, to let her think
that it should be as she wished; but when he looked into her dark,
imploring eyes--the eyes from which shone out the tenderest, most
innocent soul that had ever loved him in all his wild career--he felt
that to deceive her would be impossible. He answered slowly and calmly,
with the manner of one who for ever puts away some beautiful thing out
of his sight: "Thou hast said it, fillette. Good-bye for always."
"Always! always!" The child repeated the word, her large dark eyes
dilating as if with some hidden awe. "Mon père," she said almost in
a whisper, "it is so long--always, for ever. Do you mean that I am
_never, never_ to see you again?"
He looked at her curiously. In his old way he was analyzing. He was
trying to understand the sudden emotion that had blanched the little
one's cheek and brought that look of awe into her eyes. It was not
the first time that this vague terror of the unknowable had taken
possession of this strange child's mind.
She shivered slightly as, standing by her friend's side, she reasoned
out the matter with herself: "Mon père, what does it mean? To-day ends,
and to-morrow will end; and this year and next year, and every year,
I suppose, till we die; and then--after then--there is heaven and for
ever--always, always, for ever. I _can't_ understand it. Oh, mon père,
is it true?" The child was in an agony. This was the mental torture
that had, several times, racked her brain.
"And," she added under her breath, with the look and tone of one treble
her age, "in all this for ever--so long, so long--I must not see mon
père any more."
It was L'Estrange's turn to tremble. Rapidly as in a dream the
remembrance came of that first day when for his own purpose he had
implanted into the little one's mind thoughts and ideas too great and
strong for one of her years.
"Mon Dieu!" murmured the stricken man, "and must it always be thus? I
only love to blight and poison."
"Laura," he answered aloud--and his voice was grave and earnest--"you
take things too much to heart. Try now to understand me, little one.
Words have a certain meaning of their own, but people may give them
too much meaning or too little. When ma fillette is older she will
know that 'always' may sometimes mean a day, a week, a year--sometimes
indeed this for ever of which she speaks so earnestly, but _very, very_
seldom. Look up, petite. _My_ always is not at all so very terrible.
All I mean is this: you must go back home with your own father, and
leave your friend here. See! I have made a letter be written to Paris,
to the person whom you will remember there. Marie will come and help me
to move to her little house; then if ever ma fillette comes to Paris
she will know where to hear of her old friend."
"Oh, please let me have it," cried the child. She took the letter
from the hand of L'Estrange, sat down before the table, and copied
the address, letter by letter, in her large childish handwriting, her
friend spelling it over for her that there might be no mistake. Then
she folded up the paper and clasped it in both hands. "Mon père," she
said, "I will never lose it."
In the practical action Laura's dreamy fears had fled. Hope, the hope
of a young child, reasserted itself once more. "I will show it to
mamma," she said, "and we'll come together to see you; then perhaps--"
She was interrupted by a knock at the door. Her father was outside
waiting for admittance.
As might have been expected, Maurice Grey had lost no time in making
all needful preparation for their journey to England. He was in a fever
of anxiety to be moving once more, to be on his way to his injured
wife, to assure himself of her forgiveness and continued love. And
there had been certain points in the story told by Arthur which had
alarmed him. Margaret's poverty: the thought of this gave him perhaps
the keenest pang he had experienced. He could not understand it,
for, as has already been seen, Maurice Grey was not exactly to blame
for this; but in his after review of all the circumstances he blamed
himself bitterly for what he now looked upon as his own weak-minded
folly in preserving this total silence. He had thought of his own pain
in the event of all his fears receiving fatal confirmation, and his
wife, so tenderly reared, had been suffering.
Then her delicacy, the sudden collapse of her powers. The thought
of this was almost too hard to be borne, for if--if there should be
disappointment before him--if he could never ask her forgiveness for
the cruel wrong he had committed, never hold her again to his heart,
never let her know how deeply through it all he had loved her--the
man felt as if it would be better even to die himself. The bare idea
maddened him.
He would willingly have cut through the air to reach her, and the
necessary delay chafed his spirit. Since the moment of their return to
the hotel the Englishman had been busy in making every preparation for
departure.
Happily for him, the season had not yet entirely closed. Sledges
would have to be used in various parts of the journey, and guides and
drivers would probably require to be highly feed; but this was a matter
of very small import. All he desired was speed. Arthur seconded his
efforts ably. As the diligence had ceased running between Grindelwald
and Interlachen, and the steamers no longer made their daily journey
on the lake, a visit to Interlachen had been necessary, that special
arrangements might be made as well for this as for their further
journey; the railway connecting Thun with Berne had not then been
completed.
It was arranged that Arthur should act as courier, preceding them
to Thun to have relays prepared, and that Maurice should return to
Grindelwald for Laura.
The child had not seen him since their journey through the snow from
his solitary chalet in the mountains. She was a little shy of this new
father, though inclined, as she had expressed herself to L'Estrange, to
think that she should love him.
The fact was, that Laura, too much given to reason upon every point,
could not quite reconcile to herself his love for her mother and his
long absence. This had tormented the little one considerably during
these last days. She took his caresses that morning very calmly.
She would have run away then and left her father and friend alone
together, but L'Estrange detained her. She obeyed his gesture and sat
down again by his side.
Maurice drew her toward him, "Laura," he asked, "are you ready to come
home?"
"Now?" said the child, "at once?"
"You want to go back to mamma, Laura?" he said gravely.
The child stood silent, trembling from head to foot. She was afraid to
show what she felt before her father.
"Come," said Maurice, "we must thank your friend who has been so kind
to you, and say good-bye to him."
Laura looked at L'Estrange. The proud face was turned to the wall. Weak
as he was, he would yet show nothing before Maurice Grey. She went
close up to his side. He motioned her away from him, and the heart
of the little child could bear no longer. "Mon père will die if I go
away," she cried piteously. She covered her face with her hands and
began to cry. It was difficult for Maurice to know what to do. The
child's tears made him feel perfectly helpless. He was not accustomed
to little ones, and he felt inclined not only to wonder, but to feel
rather angry, at the strange power this man, her mother's bitterest
enemy, had gained over the child's mind.
He answered her with a man's impatience. Like others, he forgot for
the moment, in her strange womanliness, that Laura was only a little
child. "My dear Laura," he said sternly, "I must have no more of this.
Leave off crying at once, and do as I tell you. Say good-bye to Mr.
L'Estrange, find your cloak and hat and come with me. I have told the
maid to put your things together, and a sledge is waiting at the door."
Her father's voice checked the child so suddenly that the moment he had
spoken he reproached himself for having spoken too strongly.
She left off crying at once, looked up with a pale, resolute face, and
went into her own room to get ready for the journey. Then, when the
scarlet cloak and hood had been put on by the sympathetic Gretchen,
Laura returned and stood once more beside her friend.
"Papa," she said, turning to Maurice, "I'm quite ready, and you may go
down now. I shall come presently. Please, I want to say good-bye to mon
père alone."
Maurice could not have been more astonished if he had suddenly seen his
little daughter put on her womanhood than he was at this calm demand.
He even hesitated a moment. But the little one stood her ground.
Laura's instincts had told her what it was that had made her friend so
suddenly cold and distant. She could not leave him without _one_ more
kind word; then, on the other hand, the presence of her father, and
his stern forbidding of her ready tears, prevented her from letting
her friend see some at least of the love and gratitude that filled her
small heart.
Maurice looked at the tiny figure and smiled: "My daughter has her
father's will. Well, little one, I suppose I must give in this time. It
is natural, perhaps, that you should feel this, only don't be too long
about your adieus."
He turned to L'Estrange, thanked him for his kindness to the child,
asked if he could do anything for him before he went away; then, when
the question had received a decided negative, bade him a courteous
farewell.
Once more, and for the last time, the child and the man--the
child so near heaven in her simplicity, the man world-weary and
travel-stained--were left alone together, and now the little one felt
that it was really for the last time.
He turned his face toward her. She threw herself down on her knees by
his side, sobbing convulsively. "Mon père," she cried piteously, "is it
for ever?"
For a few moments he was silent. In the sorrow of parting from this
only creature in the world who purely loved him, the memory of that
night when God's peace had been shed abroad in his soul, when the
tumult of his heart had been stayed by the consciousness of a presence
above and around him, returned to his mind. He was alone and hopeless
no longer. "Little one," he answered, drawing her soft cheek to his,
"you must look for me there--in heaven."
"I will, I will," answered the sobbing child, for heaven at this moment
seemed near and real to her.
She was about to rise, but he drew her down again: "Laura, remember,
if I go there ever it will be through thee. My child! my child!"--his
voice broke down suddenly--"the great God bless thee, now, every day of
thy life, and even for ever!"
A knock at the door; the child's father was becoming impatient. Laura
rose, kissed her friend once more, smoothed his bed-clothes as she had
been accustomed to do, then turned away, choking back her sobs. The
little one could not trust her own father yet. She was afraid he would
be angry. She did not dare to look back at the door: she went, and
L'Estrange was left alone.
The excitement had been almost too much for him in his weak state.
That night L'Estrange thought that he would die. They were very kind
and attentive to him in the hotel, did everything that could be done
to lighten his sufferings, but all he wished was to be left alone,
that he might die in peace. He was mistaken, however, as he had often
been before. This stroke did not mean death. A few days after Laura's
departure he was able to sit up, a day or two later he was trying
to teach his left hand to do the duties of the right, and before a
fortnight had passed his friend from Paris had arrived.
Sorely in those days of enforced solitude he had missed his little
comforter, but Marie's bright, helpful presence did much toward
restoring him. He recovered in time to a certain measure of health and
strength, and yet the man was changed.
The spirit that had faced the world's storms, that had made joys for
itself wherever fate had thrown him, was broken down. He had no aims,
and to begin again his life of wandering seemed desolate beyond measure.
Perhaps his intercourse with Laura, and that parting which had wrung
both their hearts, had stung him in this: it had brought before
his mind the torment of that "might-have-been" which lurks in the
background of pleasure and self-seeking to seize upon the remnant of a
wasted life. It was his retribution, the portion he had prepared for
himself, but none the less was it bitterly hard to be borne.
L'Estrange never regained his former vigor of body or strength of mind.
He spent the rest of his life in wandering, for no ties held him to
any particular place, and he was restless.
He wrote to Margaret as soon as ever he had acquired sufficient power
over his left hand (the right remained for some time comparatively
helpless). The letter was a pouring out of his heart, a confession of
her wrongs. He took no merit to himself for having been instrumental
in restoring her to happiness. He only offered this as a proof of his
sincerity, he only asked for a line to let him know he was forgiven.
They never met again; indeed, L'Estrange did not live very much longer,
but his end was peace.
"After the burden and heat of the day,
The starry calm of night."
CHAPTER IX.
_THE NEST IS EMPTY._
The warm sun is failing, the bleak wind is wailing,
The bare boughs are sighing, the pale flowers are dying,
And the year
On the earth, her deathbed, in a shroud of leaves dead,
Is lying.
One evening--it must have been in the month of November, when the days
had grown short and the nights long, when the autumn winds whistled
bleakly and the waves were given to lashing the shore--a young girl sat
alone at the window of a room which only the red fire and flickering
twilight redeemed from total darkness. She was looking out, gazing
with dreamy eyes that saw very little of that upon which they were
apparently fixed, at the desolation of the world that lay outside. And
yet that desolation was writing its impress on her brain, giving to
the inner life the images of dreary hopelessness that belonged for the
moment to the outer.
The young girl scarcely saw the leafless giants shivering in their
nakedness, or the leaden clouds driving restlessly over the sky, or
the dark sea moaning, plunging like a mighty thing tied down--a power
compelled by a higher power to miserable inaction; yet these things
were with and around her; they helped to call that deep look into
her eyes, to cause the impatient sigh that escaped her now and then.
Inside, there was nothing to disturb her meditation. In the room and
in the house was an utter stillness. It was the stillness of watchers
engaged in a hand-to-hand struggle with man's last and darkest foe.
For that struggle had been going on in the little house during three
or four long days and nights, and now, at last, a lull had come. The
patient slept.
Poor Adèle! It could scarcely be matter for wonder that her cheek
looked pale and her blue eyes deep, that impatient sighs broke from
her, that she was ready to sympathize with the gray desolation of a
winter night. For Adèle had been passing through a time of anxiety such
as she had never before experienced.
Margaret dying, Arthur gone--no word, no line to let them know the fate
of the wanderers--no possibility of being able to give the sufferer
the news for which her soul was craving--nothing in all the here and
hereafter but vague uncertainty, but cruel delay.
And Adèle, in the bitterness of her spirit, had begun to doubt about
everything. It had been so hard to watch the patient sufferer, to
know that in any moment she might be the prey of death--that the
pure, noble life, worn away by sorrow, might pass into the invisible
without one gleam of light to cheer it on its progress; it had been so
hard to listen in the sombre light of the sick room to the passionate
ravings of the faithful wife, and to realize the utter impossibility of
bringing her that for want of which her life was waning.
These things preyed upon Adèle's mind. In the darkness and solitude, in
the suspension of immediate anxiety, her heart sank, her spirit began
with itself humanity's dreary questioning.
Everywhere, everywhere--in the angry cries of the young child, in the
quiet sorrow of those of riper years, in the patient sadness of the
aged, in the pallor of young faces--_it_ can be read--the why that
rises evermore to Heaven, the great mystery of human woe. Shall it be
answered one day? Ah, who can doubt it? Else were we wretched beyond
compare.
The _why_ was in Adèle's heart that evening, welling up from its
innermost depths, proving itself too strong and terrible for her young
brain to fathom. And still she sat there, her arms folded and her pale
face looking seaward, thinking, thinking.
Once or twice she turned to look at her companion. Margaret was on the
sofa. For the first time since that attack of brain-fever which had so
terrified her devoted nurses she was dressed, and her dress was of the
soft, pale material which Maurice loved.
They had been afraid of the fatigue, for Margaret was very ill.
Emotion, anxiety, suspense had told upon her to such a degree that at
last her life had been despaired of.
For three days her mind had been wandering. Such strange, pathetic
wandering it was that often and often tears had poured down the cheeks
of those who watched over her. But early in this evening her senses
seemed suddenly to return. There came a light into her eyes; she sat
up and looked round her. And then she insisted upon being dressed and
taken into the little parlor. They could not refuse her, though the old
woman shook her head ominously. "It's well to be seen," she whispered
to Adèle, "what the end of it a' will be. Puir leddie!" and she wiped
her eyes, "the sair heart hae dune it. Humor her bit fancies, bairnie;
'twill be the same, ony gait."
Weeping in spite of herself, Adèle obeyed the old nurse. They
dressed Margaret with minute care, combed the waving hair--short
now, alas!--from her white forehead, put on her the trailing
lavender-colored dress and the pretty lace ruffles, wrapped the Indian
scarf round her shoulders, and laid her down, exhausted but happy, on
the parlor sofa.
She thanked them with her gentle smile, gave a sigh of intense
contentment; then, after a few moments, fell into a quiet, healthy
sleep.
It was this sleep which Adèle had been watching in the dark room until,
so quiet and peaceful had been the sleeper's face, the tension on her
watcher's nerves was partially relaxed. She turned from that earnest
gazing at the pale face, so beautiful in its pure outlines, to look at
the outside world--to think and dream and hope. For in the heart of the
young hope is ever rampant. It is only when years of experience have
shown hope's futility that the radiant companion forsakes the soul.
Forsakes! Ah, in thousands of instances scarcely forsakes--rather takes
a higher ground, shows a larger prospect. In the dreariness of wintry
age hope is still busy, gilding not the transitory _here_, but the
lasting beyond.
Adèle had not reached that stage of experience. Her young heart, though
ready at times to look forward even to that shadowy beyond, was yet
very busy with the _here_, the sweet earthly happiness which all young
humanity is earnestly craving.
That evening there seemed very little to feed her persistent
hopefulness. Another day and yet another, with no line from Arthur,
the consciousness of his devotion, of his thoughtful affection,
making his silence the more strange and ominous; winter in its dreary
desolation looking in at her from sea and land, telling loudly of the
difficulty--even perhaps the danger--of travelling; the life of her
friend waning, passing in its miserable famine of all that makes a
woman's joy. These were the gloomy thoughts with which the hopefulness
of the young soul struggled that evening.
For a few moments they overpowered her. In a dark phalanx rose before
her mind tales of sorrow and wrong; pallid faces passed her by, tones
of bitter misery rang in her ears. She covered her face with her hands.
"They are the many," she cried, "the great multitude! Why should any
think to be happy? God help us! for this is a dreary world." The words
were spoken half aloud, for in the momentary despair she had forgotten
everything but this--the aching of her own heart, the sadness of a
hope-forsaken world.
She was aroused by a slight rustling among the leaves outside.
The house was very solitary, and the lonely women had more than once
experienced that nervous terror which shudders at a sound and sees an
intruder in every shadow. However, they kept nothing of great value
in the house, and they had hitherto had no real cause for uneasiness.
But Adèle in all her night-terrors had never heard anything so meaning
as this stealthy rustling among the branches. She leaped to her feet
and peered out into the night. This time she had not been deceived. At
the gate there was a vision of fluttering garments. Adèle thought she
recognized the form that was passing out into the night. With blanched
face and trembling limbs she flew, rather than ran, across the room.
It was almost too dark to see, but feeling on hands and knees the
young girl discovered, to her horror, that the sofa was empty. Those
fluttering garments were Margaret's. An access of fever had come on. In
its delirium she had rushed out to meet certain death in the cold and
desolate night.
For a moment Adèle was almost paralyzed by this new misfortune--fruit,
as she told herself bitterly, of her own carelessness; then gathering
her wits rapidly together, she threw a shawl round her head and rushed
out in pursuit of the fugitive. She did not even wait to let the
landlady and the old nurse know of their patient's flight. Time was the
great consideration. Margaret might be stopped and brought back before
any serious mischief should have happened.
And thus it came about that the two elder women, who were in the lower
part of the house enjoying a cup of tea and a chat, in the pleasant
relaxation of that anxiety which had been oppressing them all, knew
nothing whatever of the strange commotion, of the mysterious flight of
the two younger, for whose safety either of them would have staked her
life.
The little parlor was deserted, the red fire flickered and waned, the
door of the house stood open, through the dark hall the wind whistled
and shrieked; while all the time, outside in the darkness, by the
shores of the moaning sea, life and death, reason and madness, love and
folly were carrying on their fierce, impatient strife.
* * * * *
Had Adèle waited for one more moment, she might have been startled
by another sound. Scarcely had she left the little house, wild with
anxiety, to discover and bring back her friend, before there came from
the direction opposite to that she had taken the sound of horses' hoofs
that echoed through the silent night.
For this was what had been happening in the mean time. A carriage had
been driving as rapidly as a very poor horse could take it in the
direction of the cottage. Inside it were a young man and a child,
neither of whom spoke a word for the intensity of their outlook into
the night.
A horseman rode beside them, and at times it seemed as if his
impatience could scarcely be restrained, as if it were impossible for
him to suit himself to the slow movement of the carriage.
There was a cry at last from the child, which the horseman heard. He
half stopped and bent over her, then rose again erect and vigorous,
for the little hand had pointed out his goal, and the dark spot, still
in the distance, but faintly showing against the background of sea by
the solitary lamp that shone before it, was the shrine that held his
treasure. A moment, and Maurice Grey was tearing wildly along the road.
Would that faint light ever grow nearer? Maurice was wont to say in
after years that those minutes spent in rushing through the darkness
were the longest he had ever known.
But the longest minutes have an end. The panting horse was drawn up
at last before the solitary lamp. Blindly and madly, not thinking of
what might become of it, Maurice threw himself from his saddle, burst
open the little garden-gate, and trying, but in vain, to steady his
trembling nerves, walked up the path.
But as he looked at the cottage his fierce pace slackened, and a sudden
horror seized him, for in its dreary solitude it looked like death.
Maurice stopped for a moment. The heart of the strong man, the heart
that had borne so much, beat violently. He thought he must have fallen
to the ground, but gathering himself together he pressed forward,
trying to reassure his coward heart.
"They are in the back part of the house, of course," he muttered. The
door of the cottage stood wide open. "Strange," he thought, "on so cold
a night!"
Noiselessly the husband, who was a stranger in his wife's house, passed
into the little hall, and still that sickening silence, that dreariness
of solitude, met him. A faint light glimmered from the remnants of
the parlor-fire. He peered into the room; it was dark and seemingly
empty. Maurice struck a match and looked round him. The red ashes, the
position of the chairs, the tumbled covers, the crushed sofa pillow,
all told of recent occupation; and indeed the two fugitives could
scarcely have gone many yards from the house. As he gazed the haggard
face relaxed. Crossing to the sofa, he stooped and pressed his lips to
the pillow, for something told him that Margaret's head had been there.
But his match died down; he was left again in darkness.
"Was anything stirring," he asked himself, "in this house of death?
Where was she the traces of whose presence he was finding in the
deserted room?"
He decided to remain there for a moment. It could not but be that
before many moments should pass the music of her voice would meet
his ears, and then he could discover himself. But waiting met with
the same fate as searching. Not a sound, not a breath broke the
stillness. It was a strange coincidence. In the very room, by the very
spot where the deserted wife, the bereaved mother had thrown herself
down, almost lost, even to herself, in her anguish, he stood, he
waited, his heart sinking with vague dread, his spirit fainting in its
sickening suspense, the man who had deserted her, the husband who had
misunderstood, who had lightly judged her.
The first sound which met Maurice's ear was the rattling of the wheels
that announced the approach of his companions. He rose and went to the
door of the room. Surely this new sound would be heard. In the little
hall, on the narrow staircase, he might catch the fluttering of her
dress. Before she knew of his coming he might clasp her in his arms.
As the little Laura sprang from the carriage, and danced rather than
walked along the path, up the steps, through the hall, the driver rang
the outside bell with some violence, and this at last proved effectual.
Maurice's hungry ears detected movement, but it came from below. There
was the sound of chairs being pushed back, of steps on the lower
passages and stairs.
The fact was this: Jane and the old nurse, worn out by nursing and
anxiety, having ascertained that Margaret was sleeping calmly, had
allowed themselves to be beguiled by the pleasant fumes of tea and
the kindly warmth of the kitchen fire into giving way themselves.
During Margaret's flight and Adèle's pursuit, during the arrival of
Margaret's husband and the subsequent drawing up of the carriage, they
had been sleeping, one on each side of the kitchen fire.
Jane was the first to be aroused--the first, that is to say, to gain
full possession of her senses, for the violent ringing of the outside
bell had startled the old woman so much that at first she scarcely knew
where she was. Jane got up at once, straightened her sprightly figure,
smoothed her hair and apron and struck a light. "Who in the world may
it be?" she muttered indignantly: "I'd be bound it's one of them boys.
The mistress just gone off too, and frightening her out of her wits.
Them sort hasn't got a spark of feeling about them."
She walked leisurely up the stairs with her candle, and opened the door
that led into the hall. She had scarcely done so before a blast of wind
sweeping through the hall put it out. In the next moment her arm was
seized, she was dragged into the semi-light outside and confronted with
Maurice's fierce eyes. For while Jane was preparing herself to answer
the importunate bell the child had been up and down; she had opened
the door of the different rooms, all well known to her; she had come
down trembling and weeping to say that they were dark and empty, and
where--where was mamma?
There was reproach in the wailing cry; in her rapid journey, in her
enforced separation from L'Estrange, in her weariness, in her childish
sorrow, this had been the one consolation: at the end of it she should
see her mother, she should rest in her arms. And now, when the end
had come, when the home so intensely longed for had been found, the
promised remained unfulfilled.
The blow to Laura was all the more cruel that it was utterly
unexpected. No sad forebodings had crossed _her_ young mind. She had
pictured the little parlor and the lighted lamp and her mother's gentle
face and open arms, and then the rest in those arms, the telling out of
her pent-up woes.
The cottage had been found, but within it was only empty darkness.
Laura threw herself down on the sofa, and her wailing cry reached
the ears of her father as he dragged the landlady out into the
light: "Mamma has gone, and mon père is dead." That and his own
disappointment made him almost mad for the moment. Seizing Jane by the
shoulder, he shook her roughly as he looked down into her white face:
"What have you done with her, woman? Speak, or by Heaven I will make
you!"
CHAPTER X.
_LAURA AND HER FATHER._
Oh, there is never sorrow of heart
That shall lack a timely end,
If but to God we turn and ask
Of Him to be our Friend.
It was an awful moment for the bewildered landlady. The wildness of the
night, the mystery of that empty room, the violence of the disappointed
man, brought vividly to her mind that other night when, but for the
interposing power of God, her hands might have been imbrued with the
ineffaceable stain of crime. It had passed, it had been forgiven, but
in this moment, her senses scarcely awake, the suddenness and mystery
around her, it seemed almost as if the deed had been done, as if the
accuser were before her.
Instead of answering she cowered and shrank, while Maurice in his
agony, without ever relaxing that vice-like grasp, repeated his fierce
inquiries. "You know; I can read it in your coward face. Great God,
give me patience!" And as he spoke he shook her roughly, making the
poor woman all the more powerless to utter a word.
Only a few moments had passed, but they seemed ages to them both,
before Arthur came out among the trees. His face was very pale, for
in the interval the old woman had been telling him all that had
happened--at least all she knew. It appeared that they were totally
unexpected, for although both Maurice and Arthur had written to
announce their arrival, in the uncertainty of the winter-post from
Switzerland they had preceded their letters.
The continued suspense after Mrs. Churchill's cheerful presence was
withdrawn had been too much for Margaret to bear up against, but her
sudden disappearance was as much of a mystery to the old woman as it
had been to them; she connected it, however, with her illness, and the
conclusions she drew were very gloomy. In the whole circumstance there
was only one ray of hope--Margaret's faithful friend was with her, as
Adèle was missing too. But how had she allowed her to leave the house?
why had she not called for assistance?
Arthur, as he went out to meet the disappointed man, felt hope sink
down in his heart. But though pale and sad his face was resolute. It
would be necessary to act, and to act at once. Taking Maurice by the
arm, he drew away from his grasp the terrified woman. "Mr. Grey," he
said, "listen to me. Your wife is out there in the night. Be calm or
nothing can be done. My cousin is with her."
Maurice gave a sudden start. "What? how?" he gasped.
"I tell you," replied the younger man, "you _must_ command yourself.
She has had a dangerous fever; it may be delirium--no one knows. In any
case they must be instantly followed. We certainly did not pass them
in the direction of the station. Take you the road to the sea; I with
Martha will go inland. Mr. Grey, do you hear?" for Maurice was staring
wildly about him.
"In the night, by the sea," he muttered, staggering blindly against the
wall.
Arthur was in despair. This was worse than all; _how_ could he make
him understand? But at that very moment help came from an unexpected
source. A little soft hand was put into that of the bewildered man,
large spiritual eyes looked up into his face. Laura had heard the last
words. Her father's emotion had for the first time brought him near to
her.
"Dear papa, you will find mamma. Come!"
He submitted to the leading hand, walked with the little one down
the garden-path to the gate, outside of which the saddled horse was
standing, quietly cropping the wayside grass.
The fearless child caught the bridle and put it into her father's hand.
Then first Maurice seemed to understand what was wanted. He took the
bridle from the child's hand and stooped to kiss her on the brow.
"Pray for us, Laura," he whispered--"your father and mother."
A moment, and the good horse was spurred forward again, this time on
the sandy road that led down to the sea.
Happily, the moon came out from a rent in the clouds.
The child looked up. "He will see mamma," she whispered; then, as the
horseman disappeared behind the trees, her strong little heart failed.
She threw herself down on her knees in the wet grass by the
garden-gate, and clinging to its posts poured out her sorrow: "O God,
save mamma. O God, bring her back to Laura."
It was the landlady who found her there.
After her first terror about the strange events of the evening, Jane
vaguely remembered to have caught a glimpse of the little one, and her
first thought was to search for her in every direction, for she was
alone in the house, Nurse Martha having at once started off with Arthur
to look for the wanderers.
She found Laura at last by the garden-gate, and in spite of resistance
carried her in to the warm fireside, for, practical in the midst of
her excitement, Jane had rekindled the parlor fire, and it was blazing
merrily.
"Miss Laura, my dear, think what your mamma will say if you're ill too;
and you know you'll be ill if you stay out in the cold."
This made her submit at last to be wrapped up warmly and laid on
the parlor sofa. It was well for her. The fatigue and subsequent
excitement, the exhaustion of her sorrow, and the pleasant warmth
combined to cause a drowsiness that could not be restrained.
Laura forgot all her troubles. While the fate of her parents still
trembled in the balance she slept childhood's unbroken sleep, and Jane
was set free to run up to her own little charge, who had been aroused
by the commotion and was crying out for her lustily.
She found him so excited that as it was impossible to divide herself
between parlor and bedroom, she thought it well to wrap him up warmly
and bring him down.
The bright fire was as effectual with Willie as it had been with
Laura. Jane laid him down on the sofa, and the hard, unsympathetic
woman felt her eyes grow dim and her heart soft as she watched the
quiet sleep of the little ones--the one round and rosy as the day, the
other pale, with a troubled look even in sleep, but fair as one of
God's angels.
CHAPTER XI.
_UNITED AT LAST._
One moment these were heard and seen--another
Past; and the two who stood beneath that night,
Each only saw or heard or felt the other.
Adèle had been swift--swift as the wind. Instinctively in her rapid
departure she had chosen their favorite road, that which led down to
the sea, but at first it seemed as if all her efforts were destined to
be in vain. The fluttering garments had disappeared; on the white road,
stretching away into the distance, was no sign of the wanderer.
Choking down the horror which possessed her, the young girl tried to
collect her senses. A few moments ago their patient had been sleeping
so peacefully that their fears had been set at rest, they had believed
her out of danger; now--Adèle was inexperienced, but rapidly in her
despair old stories of disease, madness, delirium, unnatural strength
crowded in upon her mind.
What if at last the long anguish had destroyed the fair mind? What if
a dull horror was to swamp their hopes for ever? If--if--She dared
not look this last woe in the face. Impulsively she pressed on, her
trembling limbs endowed with a new strength, her young heart breathing
out its resolves upon the night: "I will save her--I. Great God, in Thy
mercy help me."
She had come to a turn in the road. Rounding it, she made an eager
bound forward, for there through the darkness she could distinguish at
last the outlines of Margaret's form.
Pressing her hands to her head, Adèle tried to think. If only the old
nurse had been with her, or their landlady! How was she to act? how in
her single strength to arrest and bring back the fugitive?
Yet there was something in Margaret's gliding movement which made the
girl think rather of somnambulism than of delirium. If this should
be the cause of her flight Adèle knew that a sudden awakening might
possibly be dangerous to health or reason.
Struggling with her terror, trying to come to some right conclusion,
she at last reached her friend. Close by was a little path which Adèle
and Margaret know well. It led off from the road, through a wilderness
of stunted grass and tangled weeds, to the sea.
Here Margaret paused a moment, as if in hesitation. During that
moment's pause Adèle looked at her fixedly. The young girl's last
suspicion had been true. By the wide-open, sightless eyes, by the
groping of the hands, by the soft, continuous murmuring of the lips,
she saw her friend was asleep.
Straining her ears, she distinguished through the moaning wind and
sobbing sea some of the words that were falling from Margaret's lips.
"Which way?" And then groping forward, with that blind, pitiful
movement of the hands, "To the sea? Cold, so cold, but," with a smile
that made Adèle weep, "Maurice is there."
As she spoke, Margaret turned into the winding path, and Adèle
shivered. What awful dream was bewildering her brain?
Throwing her arm gently round the sleeper, she tried to draw her back
to the road.
"Maurice is here," she said in a tone as dreamy as her own; "come."
To her intense relief, Margaret obeyed her guidance, the shore was
left behind, they were passing on to their quiet home; but the relief
was transient. Scarcely had they lost sight of the sea before Margaret
stopped--the bewildered look returned to her face--there began that
dark, dreary groping of the hands. "I have lost him," she cried in a
voice pitiful as a child's wail, and turning once more she pressed
forward to the sands with a swift-gliding step. What could the young
girl do? In her powerlessness the tears rolled down her face.
Her arms were still round her friend, but she did not dare to constrain
her. "Margaret," she whispered pleadingly, her lips close to her
friend's ear.
Quietly Margaret turned her pale face, over which a strange, sweet
smile was beaming. "Coming, my beloved," she answered softly.
They had left the grass and tangled weeds behind them; they were
treading the soft yellow sands; behind them was the warm earth, touched
by the light of a young crescent moon, set like a silver bow in the
parting clouds; before them, dark and hungry, roaring evermore like a
monster chained, lay the awful sea.
Adèle groaned. If indeed a conflict were before them, she wished it
had taken place above, while those terrible waters were comparatively
distant, and Margaret was now pressing forward as though _they_ were
her goal. "Margaret, my darling! for pity's sake awake!" she cried in
her desperation.
But Margaret only answered the voice of her dream. Again came that
strange, sweet smile--again her lips moved: "Coming, Maurice, coming."
Then, as Adèle with all her force tried to drag her back to the path,
"Patience, my beloved!" and as she spoke the young girl felt in her
quiet resistance the strength of madness.
Lifting up her heart in a passionate prayer for help to the one Being
who seems in these awful moments near and real to weak humanity, Adèle
made another effort. "Margaret!" she cried, and the ring of her young
voice sounded clear above the tumult of wind and waves--"Margaret,
listen to me."
Had she been understood at last? Was the terrible moment over?
Certainly her voice had pierced the films of sleep. Into the fixed eyes
came a sudden meaning. Margaret shivered, and pausing in her mad flight
looked before her wildly. But not yet was the danger over--rather it
was prolonged and intensified. The quiet somnambulism had given place
to the worst kind of delirium.
With a shriek Margaret threw her hands above her head and tore herself
free from the detaining grasp. "Maurice!" she cried in the strange
exaltation of this madness. "I saw him there--they shall keep me from
him no longer. Beloved, wait for me; I am coming."
One despairing glance Adèle threw around her; no human being was in
sight; she felt numb and powerless, while the frail being, the faint
pulsations of whose ebbing life they had been watching through those
anxious nights and days, seemed endowed suddenly with a giant's
strength. Sobbing convulsively, Adèle threw herself upon Margaret, and
seizing her by the waist dragged her backward with all her remaining
strength. A moment of struggle; then she felt herself being borne along
the sands, her arms still round Margaret, but all her weight as nothing
in comparison with this fierce energy of disease. Cooler and damper
blew the wind, nearer and nearer came the sound of beating waves; at
last the light foam began to sprinkle their faces; yet the faithful
girl would not loosen her grasp--rather she would die with her friend.
A moment, and memory, grown acute in the death-agony, showed her
pleasant scenes and soft home-pictures, children's faces, blazing
fires, fair poetic dreams of beauty and use, Arthur and the to-come
which was to have been so bright,--all to pass away for ever in the
pitiless suction of those on-creeping waves.
Another moment, and she felt the crawling foam about her; a wave fell
thundering even at their feet, throwing over them its cold salt spray;
and the young girl moaned. There would still be time to escape, to
return to life and its warm beauty. Would she draw back? A thousand
times no. In the numbing of every faculty, in the passing away of every
joy, that grasp of the slender arms grew only the mightier. She would
save her friend if she could. If not, all she had left was to die with
her. Like a black cloud that wave hung over them. What delayed its
onward sweep? Adèle used to say afterward that it was a miracle, for if
it had fallen they were lost, beyond the possibility of salvation.
But while they stood, their feet in the foam and that ominous cloud
above them--for Margaret's impetuous rushing had ceased, and Adèle
lacked power to drag her backward--there was a shout, a cry. Another
of those long moments, and a strong arm was extended; they were drawn
on to the dry sands, and even as they stood there shivering the
mighty wave fell, sucking back into the watery waste that lay beyond
the treacherous foam where their feet had been. Margaret fell back
unconscious, while Adèle for the moment scarcely thought either of her
or their preserver.
As she felt the solid ground beneath her feet and the cool air around
her she fell on her knees. "Saved, saved!" she cried, and the labored
hysteric sobs showed how terrible her excitement had been.
But then came other thoughts. Had they escaped the sea only to meet
worse dangers? Who was this deliverer? She turned round to look at him.
By the light of the moon, which still struggled through the clouds, she
was able to see his face. There was about it a wildness that seemed
to confirm her worst fears, and his arms were about Margaret--he was
gazing into her face.
She did not seem to be aware of it. She was all but inanimate, for,
although not alive to the terrible danger of her situation, Margaret
had been exhausted by the struggle.
The sight aroused Adèle. Though her knees were trembling under her from
fatigue and exhaustion, though her bosom was heaving with sobs that
refused to be choked down, the brave little champion had still a work
to do. Her friend was helpless; she must defend her.
Adèle got up, and showing a pale but resolute front touched the
stranger on the arm. He turned to her with a sudden start and muttered
apology for his neglect; he did not seem to have been aware of her
presence, and as she caught a nearer view of the dark face, lined with
suffering, convulsed with emotion, some suspicion of the truth began to
dawn upon her mind.
A flutter of hope, more exciting than all the previous agitation,
nearly choked her; the dignified little sentence in which she had
intended, while thanking him for his timely assistance, to rebuke
his presumption and recall him to a sense of his duty as a man and
a gentleman, died away on her lips; she could only stammer out
incoherently, "Who are you? For pity's sake tell me!"
The dark eyes which had been scanning the pale calm beauty of
Margaret's face were turned on her. "I am her husband," he said
simply; his voice trembled, he spoke with difficulty. "And you have
saved her," he added softly. But this Adèle scarcely heard. She had
turned away. She was passing as fast as her wearied limbs could carry
her along the path that led to the road. She would leave them alone
together, and--the cottage held her Arthur.
* * * * *
They were united at last. By the shores of the surging sea, the
desolate night around them, they stood together, and at first, so
overpowering were the emotions that swept over the man's soul, he
could think only of this--that they were together, that she was in his
arms, safe from harm and danger--that once more he was gazing into her
face--a face so calm and pure that even in this moment Maurice cursed
himself for not having understood better the strong purity, the beauty,
the loveliness of the soul it revealed.
After the delirium which had so nearly been fatal a great calm had
fallen upon Margaret. With the touch of Maurice's hand, with the
encircling of his arms, the unrest seemed to have fled. She did
not look up, apparently she did not know him; but her eyes closed,
her breathing became soft and regular, she lay back in his arms
contentedly, like a weary child that has found its resting-place.
In times of intense feeling a life seems to be condensed into a moment.
Scarcely more than a moment had Maurice been holding her to his
throbbing heart before he recovered from his stupor to a knowledge of
the necessity for immediate action.
The winds of the wintry night were beating about his darling. She was
ill, unconscious, it might be dying. Her clothes were drenched with
the sea-foam that had besprinkled them in their wild flight, her hair,
damp with the night vapors, was clinging about her face, the shoes in
which she had started from the cottage had been carried out to sea,
the delicate lavender dress and soft lace ruffles with which she had
adorned herself that she might look fair in the eyes of the husband she
had gone out to meet in her delirium, were torn in the struggle that
had taken place, were bespattered with mud and sea-sand. It was not in
such a plight as this that Margaret had thought of presenting herself
to the long-absent. But when does anything in this world correspond
with those same dreams and ideas of ours? In Maurice's eyes she was
fair--perhaps all the fairer for her weakness. Hastily he took off his
fur-lined cloak and wrapped it round her, then he raised her in his
arms to carry her up the road.
This time the horse had been tethered. Maurice had caught sight of
the light dresses in the moonlight just at the moment when Adèle had
succeeded in arousing Margaret from the dangerous sleep, and there
had been a moment's hesitation. Totally unprepared for the impetuous
rush upon the sea, he had taken the precaution, before following the
fugitives on foot, of tying up the horse, that it might be ready for
any emergency.
He was glad he had done so, for the emotion of that evening seemed to
have affected his physical power. Under the weight of his wife, his
recovered treasure, he staggered and almost fell.
Margaret remained unconscious, and Maurice fervently hoped that for
the moment she would continue in the same state. He was fearful of the
effect upon her mind of a sudden awakening in his arms: but it was not
to be. Just as they reached the point of junction between the path and
high-road a faint tremor convulsed her; she opened her eyes and turned
them on the dark face that was stooping over her.
Maurice was afraid the delirium was about to return; but gazing at her
anxiously he saw, to his astonishment, that there was no bewilderment
in her eyes; only, as she met her husband's gaze, she glided from his
arms, and before he knew what she meant to do she was kneeling at his
feet on the moonlit road. Her hands were clasped, her pale face looked
haggard in its earnestness. "Maurice! Maurice, forgive me!" she cried.
At the sight of her husband the memory of that one moment of weakness
had flashed over her soul with such a bitter force that until his
forgiveness had been gained, she could not forgive herself.
But Maurice! If an angel had knelt to him he could scarcely have been
more astonished. In his agitation he seized her almost roughly, and
raising her from the ground pressed her once more to his breast, while
the hot tears fell on her face and neck.
"Margaret, you will kill me! Beloved, it is I who should kneel--I who
should make my life one long repentance."
Then she twined her arms about his neck and laid her head upon his
shoulder, but she was not altogether satisfied. To the craving of her
weakness his answer was like an evasion: she persisted in her demand:
"You are good to me, dear, but you have not answered. Tell me, tell me!
Is my miserable folly forgiven?"
"Margaret, for pity's sake--" he began.
But she stopped him, and in her look and tone there was some of the
wildness of disease. "I see how it is," she moaned; "he is too kind to
say it, but I know my folly was beyond forgiveness. Have I not felt it?
O God! O God! pity!" Her voice sank into a moan. Her head fell heavily
on her breast: she began to cry plaintively, like a child that has been
crossed in its whim.
They were close now to the spot where the horse had been tethered; the
moon shone brightly above them; their dark shadows made a blot on the
whiteness of the moonlit road. Maurice paused a moment, and the drops
of agony stood on his brow.
He felt the urgent necessity for getting her home with as little delay
as possible, but in the state in which she was he dared not put her
out of his arms. He bowed his head over her till his cheek touched
hers: "Be comforted, my wife, my own--mine now and for ever. Forgive
you?--yes, yes." And then looking up he turned his pale face to the
skies, as if calling Heaven for a witness to his extremity: "I have
forgiven her--I who wronged her, who tortured her, who vexed her pure
soul by mistrust! God preserve my reason!"
But Margaret took his answer to her heart. She smiled again, the
wildness left her eyes, and a deep, restful calm took its place. She
said no more, but for the first time since their meeting by the waters
she pressed her lips to his.
Without demur she allowed him to lift her into the saddle and to
support her with his one hand, while with the other he took the bridle
and led the horse at a quick walk to the cottage, which was about half
a mile distant from the little path that led down to the sea.
Before they had gone very far Margaret had relapsed into total
unconsciousness, and Maurice was obliged to mount the horse himself,
taking her before him on the saddle.
Meanwhile, Adèle had reached the cottage, just in time to stop Arthur
and the old nurse from starting on another fruitless search.
As the horse with its double burden paced along the road, she and her
cousin, their arms lovingly intertwined, stood at the gate of the
cottage-garden waiting for its approach out of the shadows. They were
together and alone--Nurse Martha and the landlady being busy indoors,
making everything ready in Margaret's room, for the young girl had
told her tale of horrors, and they feared it would be impossible for
Margaret to survive so much.
But Adèle had seen her calm face, and she answered the doleful
prophecies of the nurses by a smile: "You'll see, nurse; our Margaret
will soon be better now."
They had been extremely anxious to seize the young girl, after her
breathless entry and thrilling tale, and put her to bed as an invalid,
but Adèle decidedly refused submission. The sight of Arthur was like
a tonic to her trembling nerves. She would only allow her poor little
wet feet to be dried and warmed by the parlor fire, close to which the
children were still sleeping, and her wet clothes to be changed. As to
shutting herself out from Arthur when she had just found him, it was
simply cruel to ask it.
She was the heroine of the moment, for although her own tale had
barely done justice to the self-forgetfulness with which that terrible
struggle had been conducted, they yet heard enough to know that in her
faithful devotion she had risked her own life, and Arthur, the old
woman, the landlady looked upon the young girl with a new respect.
"What did you think of, Adèle," asked her cousin as, wrapped up warmly,
she stood clinging to him by the garden-gate--"what did you think of
when that ugly wave was so close to you?" Doubtless, Arthur knew what
the answer would be. Of course the heroine had thought about her hero.
How could it possibly have been otherwise?
"Dear," she replied softly, and the ready tears flowed down her cheeks,
"I thought of you, and how miserable and lonely you would be. Margaret
gone, and--and--"
"My Adèle gone," he said very softly, filling up the pause.
And then--ah yes--and then all kinds of foolish things no doubt were
said and done, for these young people were, as it will be seen, very
young, and what is more very much in love; and as we all know the kind
of things, perhaps it is scarcely necessary to put them down in black
and white.
Black and white is not the dress for lovers' nothings, especially the
sweet almost childish nothings that would flow from lips like Adèle's
and Arthur's. They should be written in such colors as the blushing
east can give, inscribed by the pen of one of God's angels.
For young as Adèle and Arthur were, they knew what they were doing.
They had passed through the hand of the Great Instructor, so terrible
in His aspect, so wise, even loving, in His ways of dealing with weak
humanity. In the furnace of suffering their hearts had been tried, and
they knew how to value their happiness, how to prize one another.
CHAPTER XII.
_A LONG SLEEP._
O wind!
If winter comes, can spring be far behind?
Everything was ready in Margaret's room--warm blankets, steaming cans
of water, hot fomentations, cordials of many a different kind--for her
nurses were afraid that the unconsciousness of which Adèle had spoken
might, after her previous excitement, be very difficult to conquer.
They were surprised, then, when Maurice at last carried her in and laid
her down, to find that she bore every appearance of being wrapped in a
quiet, healthy sleep; indeed, so convinced was her husband that this,
and this only, was the cause of her unconsciousness, that he would
allow no means to be used for her restoration, at least until the
morning, when the doctor from the neighboring town had already promised
to look in upon them.
Nurse Martha shook her head. There was something mysterious about it
all. "Who ever heard," she asked Jane in whispers, "of a body sleeping
awa' that gait, and she in a dangerous fever that had wellnigh ta'en
her life?"
But in spite of protest Maurice's wishes were obeyed, Margaret's wet
things were removed as quietly as possible by the experienced old
woman, and she only stirred once during the process. Her husband
watched her sleep that night. Kindly but peremptorily he sent everyone
away, and sat himself by his wife's side, counting the very pulsations
of her heart as the hours of the night passed by. The old nurse and
the landlady (they had insisted upon sending the younger people to
bed) watched by turns during the night in the little parlor adjoining
the bedroom, for neither of them had much belief in the efficiency of
this new care-taker. But no sound came from the room where the husband
was watching the death-like repose of her he had wronged and deserted,
the woman who was suffering, as he told himself bitterly, for his
uncomprehending folly. Once or twice during that long watch he grew
alarmed, the rest was so deep; but putting his ear to her heart he
heard the pulsations, faint yet regular, and he was comforted.
So the night went by, and in the morning he could no longer keep his
treasure to himself; they would all come in to know how she was, to
watch and wonder. The little Laura was the first to creep into the
room. She had been told on the preceding night that her mother had been
found, but was too ill to see her--that she would doubtless be better
in the morning. Submitting to the inevitable had become a habit with
Laura. She had allowed herself to be undressed and put to bed, but very
early, in night-dress and bare toes, she made a voyage of discovery to
find out where her mamma could be.
When, as she softly opened the door of Margaret's room, the little
child saw her father sitting dressed on a chair by the bedside, and
her mother, so white and silent, in the bed, she stopped suddenly,
trembling from head to foot. Laura had heard of death, though she had
never seen it, and this solemn hush, this silent watching, struck like
a chill upon her heart; she turned very pale, and seemed half afraid to
cross the room, but her father called her: "Mamma is asleep, darling;
come here and see her." He took her up and laid her down on the bed
beside Margaret, telling her to be very still. Laura scarcely required
the warning. She crept close to her mother. The strange child could
not have spoken at that moment, she was so absolutely content. And
Maurice had to turn away from her searching gaze; he would not have his
child see that tears were gathering in his eyes at the sight of them
together--the mother and child united one to the other, given back to
his arms.
But still that sleep went on, and all but Maurice grew uneasy. The
doctor came in at a tolerably early hour, but went away again after
giving utterance to a few commonplaces. It was evident that he was
puzzled. He asked repeatedly whether any narcotic had been given to
her, and when he was answered in the negative shook his head ominously.
She had better, he said, be left to herself; it might possibly be
dangerous to arouse her. Nature in some cases was the best guide; he
would call again.
The hours of the day passed by--morning, noon, evening, and still
Maurice watched, and still he hoped, while still there was no cessation
of that death-like trance. Evening passed into night, and all but
Maurice gave up hope. They were allowed to come into the room and
share the watch, for there was not one in the little house who did not
enter deeply into the anxiety. The night deepened, and still no sign
of life from the sleeper. Adèle's cheeks became pale and her eyes red
with frequent weeping; this seemed so desolate an ending to their hopes
and anxieties. On the child's young face the shadow deepened. She had
found her mother, but that mother was deaf to her little one's voice,
unconscious even of her presence; the old nurse's gestures grew more
and more mysterious, only Maurice retained his quiet confidence.
The hours of the night passed by; none of them would go to bed. If
those eyes were ever again to open, each one wished to be the first to
hear the joyful news. The night waned, and even Maurice grew restless.
His face resumed the old haggard look; oftener and oftener he applied
to her lips the testing mirror, which still at each trial gave the
answering dimness. The night passed into morning, the night-lamp showed
a yellow flame, the white dawn began to struggle with the darkness;
only Laura and her father were in the room. The child was watching her
mother's face, Maurice had turned away to draw up the blind; perhaps
the breaking of the morning-light might arouse the sleeper; they were
afraid as yet to use stronger means. Suddenly the child gave a cry. He
looked hastily at the bed; Margaret was in the same position. There was
the same death-like immobility of face, the same rigidity of attitude.
But Laura's eyes were rapt and eager. "Mamma moved, she will soon
awake," she cried, and before her father could stop her she had danced
out of the room to proclaim the joyful news.
Adèle was dozing on the parlor sofa, Arthur was pacing the room
restlessly. He saw the light in the little one's eyes and stopped.
Laura to Arthur was a kind of prophet, a superior being.
"Mamma will soon awake," she said, and passed on to tell the old nurse,
who was in the kitchen preparing restoratives of various kinds, for she
had made up her mind that some means would have to be used to break
this death-like sleep.
Adèle had heard the child's voice. She started from the sofa. "Let us
go to her," she cried, and Arthur and she went into the room together.
They were joined after a few moments by the child, the nurse, the
landlady, all eager to find the happy news confirmed.
The child was right. Margaret was certainly waking. The death-like
stillness had gone from her face, her hands moved, she sighed now and
then.
Maurice hung over her, breathless in his anxiety; he would meet her
first glance. Adèle and Arthur stood together at the foot of the bed;
the child had crept on to it, and lay very silent close beside her
mother. It seemed a long time that they waited there together, but when
the end came it was like a shock to them all.
A shiver convulsed her, her eyelids quivered; slowly she raised them,
and first fixed her eyes upon her husband, then looked in a bewildered,
half-frightened way about the room.
Maurice raised her on his arm. "Margaret," he whispered, and she looked
at him again.
"Is it morning?" she asked, and when he had answered in the
affirmative, "I knew it would come," she said, then lay silent, smiling
calmly.
Evidently as yet she did not know where she was, and Maurice was
perplexed.
Adèle came to the rescue. Motioning to him to give up his place, she
stooped over her friend. "Margaret darling," she whispered, "Maurice
has come, and little Laura and Arthur."
The familiar face and well-known voice seemed to arouse her. "It is not
a dream, then," she said. "No," for the little Laura's clasping arms
were about her neck, "my child is here, and Maurice; I thought I saw
him last night and that he forgave me. Was it true, Adèle?"
Her voice sank, for she was very weak, but the old nurse came forward
with a cordial, which restored her so much that her mind began
gradually to take in all that had happened.
Later in the day they dressed her and laid her down once more on the
parlor sofa. Until then she had not spoken much, she had been in a
quiet, passive state, but with the familiar surroundings a full sense
of the reality of her dream-like happiness seemed to come to her. The
first person for whom she asked was Arthur.
In his boyish timidity he had vanished as soon as ever he had become
certain that she was really awake. Adèle found him and brought him into
the room. Margaret held out her hand. "How can I ever thank you, my
best, my most untiring friend?" she said.
And then--for he seemed as if he did not know how to answer--she drew
Adèle toward her and joined their hands.
"You will be happy," she said smiling--"perhaps all the happier
for this. Maurice"--he was sitting close beside her, his arm round
her shoulders--"we shall be happier too, for if God will we shall
understand better." Her voice sank, she looked dreamily over the sea:
"Morning is all the fairer for the black night that goes before. Dear,
we should thank Him even for our darkness."
THE END.
End of Project Gutenberg's Chaste as Ice, Pure as Snow, by Charlotte Despard