CHAPTER XIX.

Having gratified my curiosity in this respect, Wallace proceeded to

remind me of the circumstances of our first interview. He had

entertained doubts whether I was the person whom he had met at Lesher's.

I acknowledged myself to be the same, and inquired, in my turn, into the

motives of his conduct on that occasion.

"I confess," said he, with some hesitation, "I meant only to sport with

your simplicity and ignorance. You must not imagine, however, that my

stratagem was deep-laid and deliberately executed. My professions at the

tavern were sincere. I meant not to injure but to serve you. It was not

till I reached the head of the staircase that the mischievous

contrivance occurred. I foresaw nothings at the moment, but ludicrous

mistakes and embarrassment. The scheme was executed almost at the very

moment it occurred.

"After I had returned to the parlour, Thetford charged me with the

delivery of a message in a distant quarter of the city. It was not till

I had performed this commission, and had set out on my return, that I

fully revolved the consequences likely to flow from my project.

"That Thetford and his wife would detect you in their bedchamber was

unquestionable. Perhaps, weary of my long delay, you would have fairly

undressed and gone to bed. The married couple would have made

preparation to follow you, and, when the curtain was undrawn, would

discover a robust youth, fast asleep, in their place. These images,

which had just before excited my laughter, now produced a very different

emotion. I dreaded some fatal catastrophe from the fiery passions of

Thetford. In the first transports of his fury he might pistol you, or,

at least, might command you to be dragged to prison.

"I now heartily repented of my jest, and hastened home, that I might

prevent, as far as possible, the evil effects that might flow from it.

The acknowledgment of my own agency in this affair would, at least,

transfer Thetford's indignation to myself, to whom it was equitably due.

"The married couple had retired to their chamber, and no alarm or

confusion had followed. This was an inexplicable circumstance. I waited

with impatience till the morning should furnish a solution of the

difficulty. The morning arrived. A strange event had, indeed, taken

place in their bedchamber. They found an infant asleep in their bed.

Thetford had been roused twice in the night, once by a noise in the

closet, and afterwards by a noise at the door.

"Some connection between these sounds and the foundling was naturally

suspected. In the morning the closet was examined, and a coarse pair of

shoes was found on the floor. The chamber door, which Thetford had

locked in the evening, was discovered to be open, as likewise a window

in the kitchen.

"These appearances were a source of wonder and doubt to others, but were

perfectly intelligible to me. I rejoiced that my stratagem had no more

dangerous consequence, and admired the ingenuity and perseverance with

which you had extricated yourself from so critical a state."

This narrative was only the verification of my own guesses. Its facts

were quickly supplanted in my thoughts by the disastrous picture he had

drawn of the state of the hospital. I was confounded and shocked by the

magnitude of this evil. The cause of it was obvious. The wretches whom

money could purchase were, of course, licentious and unprincipled.

Superintended and controlled, they might be useful instruments; but that

superintendence could not be bought.

What qualities were requisite in the governor of such an institution? He

must have zeal, diligence, and perseverance. He must act from lofty and

pure motives. He must be mild and firm, intrepid and compliant. One

perfectly qualified for the office it is desirable, but not possible,

to find. A dispassionate and honest zeal in the cause of duty and

humanity may be of eminent utility. Am I not endowed with this zeal?

Cannot my feeble efforts obviate some portion of this evil?

No one has hitherto claimed this disgustful and perilous situation. My

powers and discernment are small, but if they be honestly exerted they

cannot fail to be somewhat beneficial.

The impulse produced by these reflections was to hasten to the City

Hall, and make known my wishes. This impulse was controlled by

recollections of my own indisposition, and of the state of Wallace. To

deliver this youth to his friends was the strongest obligation. When

this was discharged, I might return to the city, and acquit myself of

more comprehensive duties.

Wallace had now enjoyed a few hours' rest, and was persuaded to begin

the journey. It was now noonday, and the sun darted insupportable rays.

Wallace was more sensible than I of their unwholesome influence. We had

not reached the suburbs, when his strength was wholly exhausted, and,

had I not supported him, he would have sunk upon the pavement.

My limbs were scarcely less weak, but my resolutions were much more

strenuous than his. I made light of his indisposition, and endeavoured

to persuade him that his vigour would return in proportion to his

distance from the city. The moment we should reach a shade, a short

respite would restore us to health and cheerfulness.

Nothing could revive his courage or induce him to go on. To return or to

proceed was equally impracticable. But, should he be able to return,

where should he find a retreat? The danger of relapse was imminent; his

own chamber at Thetford's was unoccupied. If he could regain this house,

might I not procure him a physician and perform for him the part of

nurse?

His present situation was critical and mournful. To remain in the

street, exposed to the malignant fervours of the sun, was not to be

endured. To carry him in my arms exceeded my strength. Should I not

claim the assistance of the first passenger that appeared?

At that moment a horse and chaise passed us. The vehicle proceeded at a

quick pace. He that rode in it might afford us the succour that we

needed. He might be persuaded to deviate from his course and convey the

helpless Wallace to the house we had just left.

This thought instantly impelled me forward. Feeble as I was, I even ran

with speed, in order to overtake the vehicle. My purpose was effected

with the utmost difficulty. It fortunately happened that the carriage

contained but one person, who stopped at my request. His countenance and

guise was mild and encouraging.

"Good friend," I exclaimed, "here is a young man too indisposed to walk.

I want him carried to his lodgings. Will you, for money or for charity,

allow him a place in your chaise, and set him down where I shall

direct?" Observing tokens of hesitation, I continued, "You need have no

fears to perform this office. He is not sick, but merely feeble. I will

not ask twenty minutes, and you may ask what reward you think proper."

Still he hesitated to comply. His business, he said, had not led him

into the city. He merely passed along the skirts of it, whence he

conceived that no danger would arise. He was desirous of helping the

unfortunate; but he could not think of risking his own life in the cause

of a stranger, when he had a wife and children depending on his

existence and exertions for bread. It gave him pain to refuse, but he

thought his duty to himself and to others required that he should not

hazard his safety by compliance.

This plea was irresistible. The mildness of his manner showed that he

might have been overpowered by persuasion or tempted by reward. I would

not take advantage of his tractability; but should have declined his

assistance, even if it had been spontaneously offered. I turned away

from him in silence, and prepared to return to the spot where I had left

my friend. The man prepared to resume his way.

In this perplexity, the thought occurred to me that, since this person

was going into the country, he might, possibly, consent to carry Wallace

along with him. I confided greatly in the salutary influence of rural

airs. I believed that debility constituted the whole of his complaint;

that continuance in the city might occasion his relapse, or, at least,

procrastinate his restoration.

I once more addressed myself to the traveller, and inquired in what

direction and how far he was going. To my unspeakable satisfaction, his

answer informed me that his home lay beyond Mr. Hadwin's, and that this

road carried him directly past that gentleman's door. He was willing to

receive Wallace into his chaise, and to leave him at his uncle's.

This joyous and auspicious occurrence surpassed my fondest hopes. I

hurried with the pleasing tidings to Wallace, who eagerly consented to

enter the carriage. I thought not at the moment of myself, or how far

the same means of escaping from my danger might be used. The stranger

could not be anxious on my account; and Wallace's dejection and weakness

may apologize for his not soliciting my company, or expressing his fears

for my safety. He was no sooner seated, than the traveller hurried away.

I gazed after them, motionless and mute, till the carriage, turning a

corner, passed beyond my sight.

I had now leisure to revert to my own condition, and to ruminate on that

series of abrupt and diversified events that had happened during the few

hours which had been passed in the city: the end of my coming was thus

speedily and satisfactorily accomplished. My hopes and fears had rapidly

fluctuated; but, respecting this young man, had now subsided into calm

and propitious certainty. Before the decline of the sun, he would enter

his paternal roof, and diffuse ineffable joy throughout that peaceful

and chaste asylum.

This contemplation, though rapturous and soothing, speedily gave way to

reflections on the conduct which my duty required, and the safe

departure of Wallace afforded me liberty, to pursue. To offer myself as

a superintendent of the hospital was still my purpose. The languors of

my frame might terminate in sickness, but this event it was useless to

anticipate. The lofty site and pure airs of Bush Hill might tend to

dissipate my languors and restore me to health. At least while I had

power, I was bound to exert it to the wisest purposes. I resolved to

seek the City Hall immediately, and, for that end, crossed the

intermediate fields which separated Sassafras from Chestnut Street.

More urgent considerations had diverted my attention from the money

which I bore about me, and from the image of the desolate lady to whom

it belonged. My intentions, with regard to her, were the same as ever;

but now it occurred to me, with new force, that my death might preclude

an interview between us, and that it was prudent to dispose, in some

useful way, of the money which would otherwise be left to the sport of

chance.

The evils which had befallen this city were obvious and enormous. Hunger

and negligence had exasperated the malignity and facilitated the

progress of the pestilence. Could this money be more usefully employed

than in alleviating these evils? During my life, I had no power over it,

but my death would justify me in prescribing the course which it should

take.

How was this course to be pointed out? How might I place it, so that I

should effect my intentions without relinquishing the possession during

my life?

These thoughts were superseded by a tide of new sensations. The weight

that incommoded my brows and my stomach was suddenly increased. My brain

was usurped by some benumbing power, and my limbs refused to support me.

My pulsations were quickened, and the prevalence of fever could no

longer be doubted.

Till now, I had entertained a faint hope that my indisposition would

vanish of itself. This hope was at an end. The grave was before me, and

my projects of curiosity or benevolence were to sink into oblivion. I

was not bereaved of the powers of reflection. The consequences of lying

in the road, friendless and unprotected, were sure. The first passenger

would notice me, and hasten to summon one of those carriages which are

busy night and day in transporting its victims to the hospital.

This fate was, beyond all others, abhorrent to my imagination. To hide

me under some roof, where my existence would be unknown and unsuspected,

and where I might perish unmolested and in quiet, was my present wish.

Thetford's or Medlicote's might afford me such an asylum, if it were

possible to reach it.

I made the most strenuous exertions; but they could not carry me forward

more than a hundred paces. Here I rested on steps, which, on looking up,

I perceived to belong to Welbeck's house.

This incident was unexpected. It led my reflections into a new train. To

go farther, in the present condition of my frame, was impossible. I was

well acquainted with this dwelling. All its avenues were closed. Whether

it had remained unoccupied since my flight from it, I could not decide.

It was evident that, at present, it was without inhabitants. Possibly it

might have continued in the same condition in which Welbeck had left it.

Beds or sofas might be found, on which a sick man might rest, and be

fearless of intrusion.

This inference was quickly overturned by the obvious supposition that

every avenue was bolted and locked. This, however, might not be the

condition of the bath-house, in which there was nothing that required to

be guarded with unusual precautions. I was suffocated by inward and

scorched by external heat; and the relief of bathing and drinking

appeared inestimable.

The value of this prize, in addition to my desire to avoid the

observation of passengers, made me exert all my remnant of strength.

Repeated efforts at length enabled me to mount the wall; and placed me,

as I imagined, in security. I swallowed large draughts of water as soon

as I could reach the well.

The effect was, for a time, salutary and delicious. My fervours were

abated, and my faculties relieved from the weight which had lately

oppressed them. My present condition was unspeakably more advantageous

than the former. I did not believe that it could be improved, till,

casting my eye vaguely over the building, I happened to observe the

shutters of a lower window partly opened.

Whether this was occasioned by design or by accident there was no means

of deciding. Perhaps, in the precipitation of the latest possessor, this

window had been overlooked. Perhaps it had been unclosed by violence,

and afforded entrance to a robber. By what means soever it had

happened, it undoubtedly afforded ingress to me. I felt no scruple in

profiting by this circumstance. My purposes were not dishonest. I should

not injure or purloin any thing. It was laudable to seek a refuge from

the well-meant persecutions of those who governed the city. All I sought

was the privilege of dying alone.

Having gotten in at the window, I could not but remark that the

furniture and its arrangements had undergone no alteration in my

absence. I moved softly from one apartment to another, till at length I

entered that which had formerly been Welbeck's bedchamber.

The bed was naked of covering. The cabinets and closets exhibited their

fastenings broken. Their contents were gone. Whether these appearances

had been produced by midnight robbers, or by the ministers of law and

the rage of the creditors of Welbeck, was a topic of fruitless

conjecture.

My design was now effected. This chamber should be the scene of my

disease and my refuge from the charitable cruelty of my neighbours. My

new sensations conjured up the hope that my indisposition might prove a

temporary evil. Instead of pestilential or malignant fever, it might be

a harmless intermittent. Time would ascertain its true nature;

meanwhile, I would turn the carpet into a coverlet, supply my pitcher

with water, and administer without sparing, and without fear, that

remedy which was placed within my reach.

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