CHAPTER XVIII.

I wandered over this deserted mansion, in a considerable degree, at

random. Effluvia of a pestilential nature assailed me from every corner.

In the front room of the second story, I imagined that I discovered

vestiges of that catastrophe which the past night had produced. The bed

appeared as if some one had recently been dragged from it. The sheets

were tinged with yellow, and with that substance which is said to be

characteristic of this disease, the gangrenous or black vomit. The floor

exhibited similar stains.

There are many who will regard my conduct as the last refinement of

temerity, or of heroism. Nothing, indeed, more perplexes me than a

review of my own conduct. Not, indeed, that death is an object always to

be dreaded, or that my motive did not justify my actions; but of all

dangers, those allied to pestilence, by being mysterious and unseen, are

the most formidable. To disarm them of their terrors requires the

longest familiarity. Nurses and physicians soonest become intrepid or

indifferent; but the rest of mankind recoil from the scene with

unconquerable loathing.

I was sustained, not by confidence of safety, and a belief of exemption

from this malady, or by the influence of habit, which inures us to all

that is detestable or perilous, but by a belief that this was as

eligible an avenue to death as any other; and that life is a trivial

sacrifice in the cause of duty.

I passed from one room to the other. A portmanteau, marked with the

initials of Wallace's name, at length attracted my notice. From this

circumstance I inferred that this apartment had been occupied by him.

The room was neatly arranged, and appeared as if no one had lately used

it. There were trunks and drawers. That which I have mentioned was the

only one that bore marks of Wallace's ownership. This I lifted in my

arms with a view to remove it to Medlicote's house.

At that moment, methought I heard a footstep slowly and lingeringly

ascending the stair. I was disconcerted at this incident. The footstep

had in it a ghost-like solemnity and tardiness. This phantom vanished in

a moment, and yielded place to more humble conjectures. A human being

approached, whose office and commission were inscrutable. That we were

strangers to each other was easily imagined; but how would my

appearance, in this remote chamber, and loaded with another's property,

be interpreted? Did he enter the house after me, or was he the tenant of

some chamber hitherto unvisited; whom my entrance had awakened from his

trance and called from his couch?

In the confusion of my mind, I still held my burden uplifted. To have

placed it on the floor, and encountered this visitant, without this

equivocal token about me, was the obvious proceeding. Indeed, time only

could decide whether these footsteps tended to this, or to some other,

apartment.

My doubts were quickly dispelled. The door opened, and a figure glided

in. The portmanteau dropped from my arms, and my heart's blood was

chilled. If an apparition of the dead were possible, (and that

possibility I could not deny,) this was such an apparition. A hue,

yellowish and livid; bones, uncovered with flesh; eyes, ghastly, hollow,

woe-begone, and fixed in an agony of wonder upon me; and locks, matted

and negligent, constituted the image which I now beheld. My belief of

somewhat preternatural in this appearance was confirmed by recollection

of resemblances between these features and those of one who was dead. In

this shape and visage, shadowy and death-like as they were, the

lineaments of Wallace, of him who had misled my rustic simplicity on my

first visit to this city, and whose death I had conceived to be

incontestably ascertained, were forcibly recognised.

This recognition, which at first alarmed my superstition, speedily led

to more rational inferences. Wallace had been dragged to the hospital.

Nothing was less to be suspected than that he would return alive from

that hideous receptacle, but this was by no means impossible. The figure

that stood before me had just risen from the bed of sickness, and from

the brink of the grave. The crisis of his malady had passed, and he was

once more entitled to be ranked among the living.

This event, and the consequences which my imagination connected with it,

filled me with the liveliest joy. I thought not of his ignorance of the

causes of my satisfaction, of the doubts to which the circumstances of

our interview would give birth, respecting the integrity of my purpose.

I forgot the artifices by which I had formerly been betrayed, and the

embarrassments which a meeting with the victim of his artifices would

excite in him; I thought only of the happiness which his recovery would

confer upon his uncle and his cousins.

I advanced towards him with an air of congratulation, and offered him my

hand. He shrunk back, and exclaimed, in a feeble voice, "Who are you?

What business have you here?"

"I am the friend of Wallace, if he will allow me to be so. I am a

messenger from your uncle and cousins at _Malverton_. I came to know the

cause of your silence, and to afford you any assistance in my power."

He continued to regard me with an air of suspicion and doubt. These I

endeavoured to remove by explaining the motives that led me hither. It

was with difficulty that he seemed to credit my representations. When

thoroughly convinced of the truth of my assertions, he inquired with

great anxiety and tenderness concerning his relations; and expressed his

hope that they were ignorant of what had befallen him.

I could not encourage his hopes. I regretted my own precipitation in

adopting the belief of his death. This belief had been uttered with

confidence, and without stating my reasons for embracing it, to Mr.

Hadwin. These tidings would be borne to his daughters, and their grief

would be exasperated to a deplorable and perhaps to a fatal degree.

There was but one method of repairing or eluding this mischief.

Intelligence ought to be conveyed to them of his recovery. But where was

the messenger to be found? No one's attention could be found disengaged

from his own concerns. Those who were able or willing to leave the city

had sufficient motives for departure, in relation to themselves. If

vehicle or horse were procurable for money, ought it not to be secured

for the use of Wallace himself, whose health required the easiest and

speediest conveyance from this theatre of death?

My companion was powerless in mind as in limbs. He seemed unable to

consult upon the means of escaping from the inconveniences by which he

was surrounded. As soon as sufficient strength was regained, he had left

the hospital. To repair to _Malverton_ was the measure which prudence

obviously dictated; but he was hopeless of effecting it. The city was

close at hand; this was his usual home; and hither his tottering and

almost involuntary steps conducted him.

He listened to my representations and counsels, and acknowledged their

propriety. He put himself under my protection and guidance, and promised

to conform implicitly to my directions. His strength had sufficed to

bring him thus far, but was now utterly exhausted. The task of searching

for a carriage and horse devolved upon me.

In effecting this purpose, I was obliged to rely upon my own ingenuity

and diligence. Wallace, though so long a resident in the city, knew not

to whom I could apply, or by whom carriages were let to hire. My own

reflections taught me, that this accommodation was most likely to be

furnished by innkeepers, or that some of those might at least inform me

of the best measures to be taken. I resolved to set out immediately on

this search. Meanwhile, Wallace was persuaded to take refuge in

Medlicote's apartments; and to make, by the assistance of Austin, the

necessary preparation for his journey.

The morning had now advanced. The rays of a sultry sun had a sickening

and enfeebling influence beyond any which I had ever experienced. The

drought of unusual duration had bereft the air and the earth of every

particle of moisture. The element which I breathed appeared to have

stagnated into noxiousness and putrefaction. I was astonished at

observing the enormous diminution of my strength. My brows were heavy,

my intellects benumbed, my sinews enfeebled, and my sensations

universally unquiet.

These prognostics were easily interpreted. What I chiefly dreaded was,

that they would disable me from executing the task which I had

undertaken. I summoned up all my resolution, and cherished a disdain of

yielding to this ignoble destiny. I reflected that the source of all

energy, and even of life, is seated in thought; that nothing is arduous

to human efforts; that the external frame will seldom languish, while

actuated by an unconquerable soul.

I fought against my dreary feelings, which pulled me to the earth. I

quickened my pace, raised my drooping eyelids, and hummed a cheerful and

favourite air. For all that I accomplished during this day, I believe

myself indebted to the strenuousness and ardour of my resolutions.

I went from one tavern to another. One was deserted; in another the

people were sick, and their attendants refused to hearken to my

inquiries or offers; at a third, their horses were engaged. I was

determined to prosecute my search as long as an inn or a livery-stable

remained unexamined, and my strength would permit.

To detail the events of this expedition, the arguments and supplications

which I used to overcome the dictates of avarice and fear, the

fluctuation of my hopes and my incessant disappointments, would be

useless. Having exhausted all my expedients ineffectually, I was

compelled to turn my weary steps once more to Medlicote's lodgings.

My meditations were deeply engaged by the present circumstances of my

situation. Since the means which were first suggested were

impracticable, I endeavoured to investigate others. Wallace's debility

made it impossible for him to perform this journey on foot; but would

not his strength and his resolution suffice to carry him beyond

Schuylkill? A carriage or horse, though not to be obtained in the city,

could, without difficulty, be procured in the country. Every farmer had

beasts for burden and draught. One of these might be hired, at no

immoderate expense, for half a day.

This project appeared so practicable and so specious, that I deeply

regretted the time and the efforts which had already been so fruitlessly

expended. If my project, however, had been mischievous, to review it

with regret was only to prolong and to multiply its mischiefs. I trusted

that time and strength would not be wanting to the execution of this new

design.

On entering Medlicote's house, my looks, which, in spite of my languors,

were sprightly and confident, flattered Wallace with the belief that my

exertions had succeeded. When acquainted with their failure, he sunk as

quickly into hopelessness. My new expedient was heard by him with no

marks of satisfaction. It was impossible, he said, to move from this

spot by his own strength. All his powers were exhausted by his walk from

Bush Hill.

I endeavoured, by arguments and railleries, to revive his courage. The

pure air of the country would exhilarate him into new life. He might

stop at every fifty yards, and rest upon the green sod. If overtaken by

the night, we would procure a lodging, by address and importunity; but,

if every door should be shut against us, we should at least enjoy the

shelter of some barn, and might diet wholesomely upon the new-laid eggs

that we should find there. The worst treatment we could meet with was

better than continuance in the city.

These remonstrances had some influence, and he at length consented to

put his ability to the test. First, however, it was necessary to

invigorate himself by a few hours' rest. To this, though with infinite

reluctance, I consented.

This interval allowed him to reflect upon the past, and to inquire into

the fate of Thetford and his family. The intelligence which Medlicote

had enabled me to afford him was heard with more satisfaction than

regret. The ingratitude and cruelty with which he had been treated

seemed to have extinguished every sentiment but hatred and vengeance. I

was willing to profit by this interval to know more of Thetford than I

already possessed. I inquired why Wallace had so perversely neglected

the advice of his uncle and cousin, and persisted to brave so many

dangers when flight was so easy.

"I cannot justify my conduct," answered he. "It was in the highest

degree thoughtless and perverse. I was confident and unconcerned as long

as our neighbourhood was free from disease, and as long as I forbore any

communication with the sick; yet I should have withdrawn to Malverton,

merely to gratify my friends, if Thetford had not used the most powerful

arguments to detain me. He laboured to extenuate the danger.

"'Why not stay,' said he, 'as long as I and my family stay? Do you think

that we would linger here, if the danger were imminent? As soon as it

becomes so, we will fly. You know that we have a country-house prepared

for our reception. When we go, you shall accompany us. Your services at

this time are indispensable to my affairs. If you will not desert me,

your salary next year shall be double; and that will enable you to marry

your cousin immediately. Nothing is more improbable than that any of us

should be sick; but, if this should happen to you, I plight my honour

that you shall be carefully and faithfully attended.'

"These assurances were solemn and generous. To make Susan Hadwin my wife

was the scope of all my wishes and labours. By staying, I should hasten

this desirable event, and incur little hazard. By going, I should

alienate the affections of Thetford; by whom, it is but justice to

acknowledge, that I had hitherto been treated with unexampled generosity

and kindness; and blast all the schemes I had formed for rising into

wealth.

"My resolution was by no means steadfast. As often as a letter from

_Malverton_ arrived, I felt myself disposed to hasten away; but this

inclination was combated by new arguments and new entreaties of

Thetford.

"In this state of suspense, the girl by whom Mrs. Thetford's infant was

nursed fell sick. She was an excellent creature, and merited better

treatment than she received. Like me, she resisted the persuasions of

her friends, but her motives for remaining were disinterested and

heroic.

"No sooner did her indisposition appear, than she was hurried to the

hospital. I saw that no reliance could be placed upon the assurances of

Thetford. Every consideration gave way to his fear of death. After the

girl's departure, though he knew that she was led by his means to

execution, yet he consoled himself by repeating and believing her

assertions, that her disease was not _the fever_.

"I was now greatly alarmed for my own safety. I was determined to

encounter his anger and repel his persuasions; and to depart with the

market-man next morning. That night, however, I was seized with a

violent fever. I knew in what manner patients were treated at the

hospital, and removal thither was to the last degree abhorred.

"The morning arrived, and my situation was discovered. At the first

intimation, Thetford rushed out of the house, and refused to re-enter it

till I was removed. I knew not my fate, till three ruffians made their

appearance at my bedside, and communicated their commission.

"I called on the name of Thetford and his wife. I entreated a moment's

delay, till I had seen these persons, and endeavoured to procure a

respite from my sentence. They were deaf to my entreaties, and prepared

to execute their office by force. I was delirious with rage and terror.

I heaped the bitterest execrations on my murderer; and by turns, invoked

the compassion of, and poured a torrent of reproaches on, the wretches

whom he had selected for his ministers. My struggles and outcries were

vain.

"I have no perfect recollection of what passed till my arrival at the

hospital. My passions combined with my disease to make me frantic and

wild. In a state like mine, the slightest motion could not be endured

without agony. What then must I have felt, scorched and dazzled by the

sun, sustained by hard boards, and borne for miles over a rugged

pavement?

"I cannot make you comprehend the anguish of my feelings. To be

disjointed and torn piecemeal by the rack was a torment inexpressibly

inferior to this. Nothing excites my wonder but that I did not expire

before the cart had moved three paces.

"I knew not how, or by whom, I was moved from this vehicle.

Insensibility came at length to my relief. After a time I opened my

eyes, and slowly gained some knowledge of my situation. I lay upon a

mattress, whose condition proved that a half-decayed corpse had recently

been dragged from it. The room was large, but it was covered with beds

like my own. Between each, there was scarcely the interval of three

feet. Each sustained a wretch, whose groans and distortions bespoke the

desperateness of his condition.

"The atmosphere was loaded by mortal stenches. A vapour, suffocating and

malignant, scarcely allowed me to breathe. No suitable receptacle was

provided for the evacuations produced by medicine or disease. My nearest

neighbour was struggling with death, and my bed, casually extended, was

moist with the detestable matter which had flowed from his stomach.

"You will scarcely believe that, in this scene of horrors, the sound of

laughter should be overheard. While the upper rooms of this building are

filled with the sick and the dying, the lower apartments are the scene

of carousals and mirth. The wretches who are hired, at enormous wages,

to tend the sick and convey away the dead, neglect their duty, and

consume the cordials which are provided for the patients, in debauchery

and riot.

"A female visage, bloated with malignity and drunkenness, occasionally

looked in. Dying eyes were cast upon her, invoking the boon, perhaps, of

a drop of cold water, or her assistance to change a posture which

compelled him to behold the ghastly writhings or deathful _smile_ of his

neighbour.

"The visitant had left the banquet for a moment, only to see who was

dead. If she entered the room, blinking eyes and reeling steps showed

her to be totally unqualified for ministering the aid that was needed.

Presently she disappeared, and others ascended the staircase, a coffin

was deposited at the door, the wretch, whose heart still quivered, was

seized by rude hands, and dragged along the floor into the passage.

"Oh! how poor are the conceptions which are formed, by the fortunate

few, of the sufferings to which millions of their fellow-beings are

condemned. This misery was more frightful, because it was seen to flow

from the depravity of the attendants. My own eyes only would make me

credit the existence of wickedness so enormous. No wonder that to die in

garrets, and cellars, and stables, unvisited and unknown, had, by so

many, been preferred to being brought hither.

"A physician cast an eye upon my state. He gave some directions to the

person who attended him. I did not comprehend them, they were never

executed by the nurses, and, if the attempt had been made, I should

probably have refused to receive what was offered. Recovery was equally

beyond my expectations and my wishes. The scene which was hourly

displayed before me, the entrance of the sick, most of whom perished in

a few hours, and their departure to the graves prepared for them,

reminded me of the fate to which I, also, was reserved.

"Three days passed away, in which every hour was expected to be the

last. That, amidst an atmosphere so contagious and deadly, amidst causes

of destruction hourly accumulating, I should yet survive, appears to me

nothing less than miraculous. That of so many conducted to this house

the only one who passed out of it alive should be myself almost

surpasses my belief.

"Some inexplicable principle rendered harmless those potent enemies of

human life. My fever subsided and vanished. My strength was revived, and

the first use that I made of my limbs was to bear me far from the

contemplation and sufferance of those evils."

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