CHAPTER XIV

Rain had collected in the gargoyle and gave off a hopeless gurgle as if

someone were sobbing under the steep double roof.

Out of doors the autumn evening fell sadly. On the window panes of the

sunshine room raindrops ran down like tears on a transparent grey face.

Silence reigned in the deserted old nursery. Since Christopher’s

departure Anne had been very lonely. She would often rise from the

work table during the afternoon and go quietly to the door. She opened

it quickly, nobody was there. She looked down into the depths of the

staircase. The house was silent. She decided to count up to a hundred,

then wait no longer. Twice she counted up to a hundred, and even after

that she looked back from the threshold.

At night when Netti lit the lamp and Florian bolted the front door,

Anne’s eyes more than once filled with tears. She felt a prisoner. Life

remained outside the walls of her prison. Again a useless day had drawn

to an end, that at its dawning had promised so generously. It tortured

her artfully while it lasted, and in the end achieved nothing.

Thomas Illey came no more.

Anne’s little face became quite pale and thin. She began to be afraid.

Perhaps Illey went to someone else now, perhaps he was angry? The last

time he saw her he asked her so earnestly to go the next day to the

Danube pier. And she could not go, could send no message, could not

write. Christopher had to leave and their father was very strict with

both of them.

“Why does he not come? Where is he?”

She pressed her face against the window pane. Whenever the front door

bell rang the blood rushed to her heart. She waited, then hung her head

wearily.

In the sunshine room the furniture began to whisper. The walls too

remembered. The door handle was familiar with Thomas’s hand. The shaded

lamp, the clock under the glass globe, they all told her that they had

seen him many times.

Anne turned her face away. The memories wounded her. She clasped her

hands in prayer for respite from her tortures.

Hours passed. Tini came in and started to read her fortune with cards.

“All your sorrows will come to an end, my little dove,” she said when

she finished her game.

“I have no sorrows,” answered the girl and tried to hold her head high.

John Hubert’s voice said:

“Anne, a visitor!”

Of late Charles Münster had often come to the house. In the evening he

sat comfortably in the green room, approving everything John Hubert

said, and when he could think of nothing to say, he carelessly twirled

the thumbs of his big, red hands.

Those hands annoyed Anne. They became embarrassed, blushed like human

faces, struggled, while Charles Münster remained placid and tedious in

his inordinately long Sunday coat.

“Why does he come?” wondered Anne wearily, while sitting opposite him.

One day she learned that too; Charles Münster had asked her father for

her hand.

“It is a very honourable proposal and very advantageous,” said John

Hubert to his daughter. “The house of Münster has a good reputation and

is serious. The young man is intelligent and owns some capital.”

Anne’s heart sank while she looked at him and then the blood rushed to

her face. All her life she had striven to repress her will; she had

always obeyed, but what she was now asked to do roused her to rebellion.

“No, never!” And her voice rang out like a hammer dropping on steel.

John Hubert was startled. That was the voice of Ulwing the builder.

“I spoke too soon,” he thought, vexed. “I ought to have waited a little

longer.”

Then he waited. Outside the snow was falling already.

In the next few weeks Anne’s face became more and more transparent.

She did not sleep at night. She sang no longer, nor did she laugh and

during the long evenings she sat silent in the green room, while her

father worked at the writing table with the innumerable drawers.

John Hubert had now to use spectacles for reading. He pushed them up

on his forehead and looked stealthily at Anne. Gradually he became

anxious. He thought of his own life. He had never been happy, had never

made anybody else happy.

“Are you ill?” he asked suddenly.

“No.”

“Have you any pain?”

Anne did not answer but her eyes asked him why he tortured her. John

Hubert bent down. He turned the pages of his ledger. Anne heard him

sigh anxiously.

“Have you had bad news from Christopher?” she asked, going to the

writing table. “No? Is it the business?... Speak to me about it, for I

too am an Ulwing.”

John Hubert closed the book in which he had been reckoning.

“You would not understand it.”

“But I could learn to....”

“You just go on embroidering, singing. You have no need to know about

business. It is not suitable for women. God has created you for other

ends.” But this sentence aroused his conscience. He became embarrassed.

“You have not yet forgotten Thomas Illey?” he whispered casting his

eyes down.

“I have not forgotten him.”

A few days later Grandfather Jörg came in the evening to take Anne to

a concert. In the carriage the old gentleman began to mention Charles

Münster.

“Is he too like all the others?” the girl thought and looked sadly at

her grandfather. Once he had been to prison for sympathizing with the

freedom of others; and now he spoke against his grandchild’s freedom.

In the concert hall the crowd was already large. Innumerable candles

burned in the gilt wooden chandelier. Their flames wove a peaceful

yellow light in the air. On the platform the piano stood open. The

orchestra was tuning up and this sounded like birds with sharp beaks

pecking at the stringed instruments.

A few reporters stood near the wall. Anne heard them agree in advance

as to what they would say in next day’s papers. In the stalls

well-known merchants from the inner town, wives of rich citizens,

officers in uniform, and right in front bejeweled ladies in huge

crinolines, noble gentlemen in Hungarian national costume.

The family of Müller the chemist nodded to them. The Münster daughters

were there too. In the back rows the newcomers moved their chairs.

Some laughed and cleared their throats, then suddenly, as if moved by

a common spring, all the heads turned towards the platform. Then all

became silent.

Anne glanced over the faces. The crowd seemed to her like an empty

vessel gaping towards the piano in expectation of being filled with

sounds and emotions. Her heart was full of her young distress and she

felt afraid that at the first sound her sufferings would overflow

through her eyes.

All of a sudden she became strangely restless, as if some one had

touched her from a distance. She turned her head quickly. The blood

throbbed in her veins as her look met the dark, sad eyes of Thomas

Illey. And the two glances united through space.

Waves surged between them. A wild tumult of cheers broke out. The round

of applause echoed like a thunderstorm from the walls.

The great artist stood on the platform, high above everybody. His long

white hair waved softly round his marble brow. He inclined his wiry

body before the homage.

Then the piano burst out under his hands. And the sounds sang, crept,

stormed furiously, coaxed voluptuously, and dissolved in a smile. The

artist with the marble brow conjured up harmonies from the piano that

had not existed before him and were not to be after him.

The crowd listened with bated breath, spellbound. And the music

continued like a swelling tide. Then it became tender like a dying

echo. It broke forth again with superb impetuosity. Sounds wrought

in fire rose and those who heard them lived the creative moments of

Beethoven, Sebastian Bach and Weber over again. These sublime moments

were resuscitated by the master whose playing was forever the begetting

of gods.

Anne Ulwing’s soul was carried on glowing wings by Beethoven’s

Appassionata to Thomas over the heads of the crowd. She felt that the

waves of the music swept them together and that they became swallowed

up in some boundless glittering veil.

The hall was delirious again. People stood up. Some rushed to the

platform and continued to applaud there.

The artist began to play a composition of his own. And then, as if his

marble countenance had been set aflame, fire shone on his brow, fire

streamed from his eyes and the creative artist wandered and was alone

by himself.

Anne turned towards the piano. This was different from anything she

had ever heard. Long-forgotten words recurred to her mind: “One has to

create like God. Even the clay has to be created anew.”

Applause rose again, but the clapping seemed more restrained. It was

addressed to the virtuoso, not to the creator.

“They don’t understand him,” said Anne disappointed.

“It is not yet safe to admire this music. It came too early ...” and

again the words of Adam Walter came to her mind.

Then everything was forgotten. Her eyes searched for Thomas in the

crowd thronging towards the exit. In the dust-laden heat of the

cloak-room people pushed each other. Under the porch the doors of the

carriages slammed. A hoarse voice shouted the names of the coachmen.

Anne saw Florian and made a sign to him. Ulrich Jörg was already in the

carriage.

“I should like to walk,” said the girl hurriedly. The old gentleman was

sleepy. The horses of the next carriage became restive in the cold. The

door banged. Anne felt herself free.

“Let us go....”

Florian’s broad, good-natured face turned to her for an instant in

wonder. Then he followed her obediently in the snow.

A motionless figure stood at the street corner under a lamp peering

into the windows of the passing carriages. Suddenly he looked no longer

towards the carriages. His dark sad eyes rested on Anne. He held his

hat low in his hand and snow fell on his thin face.

They clasped each other’s hands and the peace of their mind was like

the languid moment, still incredible, when a bodily pain has abruptly

ceased to torture.

The sound of rolling carriages spread in all directions. Occasional

laughter flared up among the human voices, dying away at a distance.

After that, only the snow was falling in slow, shiny flakes. By tacit

agreement they started, side by side, into the great whiteness.

Anne did not feel the cold. The furs slid down her bare shoulders and

her low shoes sank deep into the snow. Illey gazed at her in rapture,

then pulled himself together. He wanted to appear calm, but his voice

was strangely changed.

“When I saw the posters of the concert, I began to hope that we might

meet. It all happened more wonderfully than my wildest hopes.”

Anne too tried to control herself.

“So you really did not go for the music’s sake?” she asked in a

whisper, smiling.

“I never go to concerts,” said Illey candidly. “I don’t understand the

higher music.”

Anne turned to him anxiously:

“Then you did not understand what I sang to you?”

“I did not understand the music, but I understood her who produced it.”

Anne’s thought became confused. Till then she had thought that they

met, united in music.... And now Thomas told her that he did not

understand the only language which her soul, her blood could speak....

It did not matter, nothing mattered so long as he was here, if only he

could be at her side.

She drew her head back a little and with eyes half shut looked

longingly at Illey’s shoulders as though she would, by the intensity of

her regard, build a nest there for her little head.

Thomas began to walk at a noticeably slow pace. Then Anne too noticed

the snow-covered lamp in front of the Ulwings’ house.

“I have sought this moment for a long time,” said Illey quickly. “I was

seeking it on the island when I waited for you so long--till the stars

appeared and the ferryman lit a fire for the night. Next day I was

there too. I have pulled the bell at your door many times. I saw your

face through the window, I heard you play the piano, yet I was told you

were not in. Florian avoided my eyes when he said that. I understood.

It was not desired that I should come.”

“And I was expecting you.” There was so much suffering in Anne’s veiled

voice that all became clear to Illey.

At this moment they came in sight of the house. They stepped so slowly

that they remained practically on the same spot, yet the distance grew

smaller. The porch moved out of the wall and came to meet them rapidly,

dark through the glittering whiteness. The two pillar-men came with it

too. They leaned more and more from under the cornice and looked down

on them.

The porch stopped with a jerk. They had reached the end of the street.

Anne’s heart stood still with anguish. One more moment and they would

be together no more.

Florian dropped the latch key. He fumbled slowly, very slowly with his

hand in the snow and never looked up once while doing so.

Thomas Illey bent to Anne:

“We cannot live any more without each other,” and he kissed her hand.

Snow was falling slowly and through the snow-white veil they looked

silently into each other’s eyes.

When Anne walked up the stairs she took Thomas’s kiss with her lips

from her hand.

Next day she told her father all that had happened and when in the

afternoon the front door bell rang Florian opened the door with a broad

beaming face to Thomas Illey.

Anne heard his steps. The steps passed her door, along the corridor,

towards the green room.

Thomas Illey spoke little. His voice was serious and firm. John Hubert

listened to him standing and only offered him a seat when he had

finished.

“An honourable proposal....” This reminded him that he had used

the same words to Charles Münster. He laughed and then spoke out

conscientiously, as he had decided beforehand. He spoke of the loss

caused by the fire, of bad years of business. Of Anne’s dowry. His

voice became feeble:

“I am very sorry but I cannot withdraw any capital from the business.

The estate must remain undivided. This was decided by my late father. I

cannot depart from this.”

Illey waved his hand politely, disparagingly.

“This is not my affair. It concerns Miss Anne alone.”

John Hubert stared at him with undisguised astonishment. The charm

of the ancient name of Illey re-asserted itself on him: he no longer

leaned back in his armchair. He sat straight up solemnly and felt sorry

he had till now been so business-like.

“But what about the property of Ille,” he chose his words carefully, “I

understand that it is, unfortunately, in strange hands....”

Illey turned his head away. He realized that he had just been showing

off before the other and felt ashamed. This mild-eyed good old business

man reminded him of that which had attracted him at first to Anne. It

was no good denying it; in those times he thought that the Ulwings

were rich and that the ancestral property of Ille might again become

his own. He now tried to justify himself for those old thoughts by the

longing for the land of his forebears. There was one hope. He thrust it

aside.

John Hubert looked at him expectantly.

“Did Mr. Illey not think of buying the property back?”

Many a proud, disinterested word came to Illey’s mind. To rise above

everything, even above himself. To ask for nothing, only for Anne whom

he loved. He turned his sharp gentlemanly face to John Hubert. He

looked him straight in the eyes, as if making a vow:

“I think no longer of buying Ille back.”

John Hubert enquired politely after his family.

Thomas slowly turned the old seal ring on his finger. He began to speak

of his father. He died young of heart disease. His mother followed him.

Then the property got into the auctioneer’s hands. Only a swampy wood

remained. Nobody wanted that. And a little money. He wanted to learn

to work. This brought him to town. He wanted to regain possession of

the land through his own exertions. Had it not given them their name,

or had it not received its name from them? However it was, the land of

Ille and the Illeys had belonged to each other for nearly a thousand

years.

Thomas looked down wearily. He thought that the fate of the

Lord-Lieutenant’s grandchildren had overtaken him too.

“I studied law,” he said quietly, “like the rest of us; politics

absorbed me and I did not learn to work for money. That is in our

blood. It is only when work is done gratuitously that the Hungarian

nobility does not blush to work. Those of us who gave themselves for

money became bad men; the good ones were ruined.”

John Hubert nodded absent-mindedly. He was quite reassured now that he

had ascertained that Thomas Illey did not intend to withdraw Anne’s

dowry from the business. He proffered his hand to him.

“It is settled. You do not think of buying Ille back. You won’t meddle

with the business. Now we can look at the ledgers and the balance

sheet.”

Thomas smiled. He wanted to see nothing but Anne, and John Hubert

opened the door of the sunshine room to him. There everything was

bright and warm.

When the new spring made earth and sky bright and warm around the old

house, Mamsell Tini stuck a wreathed veil into Anne’s hair. Now, like a

white cloud, the veil floated through the old rooms, caressed the doors

and walls. Anne kissed her father.

“Thank you, father,” said the girl. “I am so happy.”

Tears came into the eyes of John Hubert. Life had no more joys in store

for him....

In the corridor stood old Füger, and Mrs. Henrietta in a starched

bonnet, and Mr. Gemming. Poor little Feuerlein, deeply stirred, wiped

his eyes. None bowed more respectfully to Thomas Illey than Otto Füger.

Above, high above the roofs, the bells clanged loud from the church

steeple of Leopold’s town, bells that had so often spoken of the

destinies of the Ulwings. And under the porch the two pillar-men looked

down into the flower-laden carriage.

The porch repeated once over the sound of the parting wheels, then the

house fell into silence. Anne carried her quiet laugh away with her on

her honeymoon. Everything became quiet, the men, the days.

* * * * *

John Hubert was quite alone. A letter from Christopher, one from Anne.

He read them both many times over, smiled and shut his eyes. Nowadays,

he was always sleepy. He looked at the clock. Too early to go to bed.

He walked up and down in the quiet rooms.

From the green room the light of the lamp reached the dining room. The

sunshine room received light from a lamp in the street which spread

over the ceiling. The old nursery was quite dark.

John Hubert folded his hands behind his back and walked slowly from

darkness into light, from light into darkness. He thought of his life.

It had been like that too, but now that he looked back on it there

seemed to have been more darkness than light.

He could not understand what made him think of this just now when his

head was weary enough. For an instant he intended sending for the

doctor. Then he felt too tired to do it.

While he slowly turned the key in his watch, he felt giddy, yet he put

all the various objects from his pocket into the alabaster tray. His

keys, his penknife and the cigar case embroidered with beads. This he

carried as a habit, having renounced smoking several years ago.

Next day was Sunday. He did not get out of bed. From time to time Tini

came in to ask if he wanted anything. He opened his eyes, nodded, but

said nothing.

Gárdos, the physician, reassured him.

“It will pass away; it is only a little overwork,” and prescribed nux

vomica.

“No, you must not write to the children.”

During the week John Hubert was up. On Sunday he again stayed in bed

and felt better there. A letter came from Anne. He smiled at it. So

there was one person in the world who owed him her happiness.... He

smoothed his blanket down and turned to the wall.

A loud buzzing woke him at night. His head turned, the bed turned, so

did the room. And he breathed with difficulty. He wanted to unbutton

his shirt collar, but did not succeed. He sat up suddenly and with his

accustomed movement put his hand several times to his neck as if to put

his necktie right.

Then he fell back and moved no more.

That night John Hubert Ulwing died, correctly, without much ado, just

as he had lived.

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