'I suppose it had better be so,' Marie Bromar had said to her lover,
when in set form he made his proposition. She had thought very much
about it, and had come exactly to that state of mind. She did
suppose that it had better be so. She knew that she did not love
the man. She knew also that she loved another man. She did not
even think that she should ever learn to love Adrian Urmand. She
had neither ambition in the matter, nor even any feeling of prudence
as regarded herself. She was enticed by no desire of position, or
love of money. In respect to all her own feelings about herself she
would sooner have remained at the Lion d'Or, and have waited upon
the guests day after day, and month after month. But yet she had
supposed 'that it had better be so.' Her uncle wished it,--wished
it so strongly that she believed it would be impossible that she
could remain an inmate in his house, unless she acceded to his
wishes. Her aunt manifestly thought that it was her duty to accept
the man, and could not understand how so manifest a duty, going hand
in hand as it did with so great an advantage, should be made a
matter of doubt. She had not one about her to counsel her to hold
by her own feelings. It was the practice of the world around her
that girls in such matters should do as they were bidden. And then,
stronger than all, there was the indifference to her of the man she
loved!
Marie Bromar was a fine, high-spirited, animated girl; but it must
not be thought that she was a highly educated lady, or that time had
been given to her amidst all her occupations, in which she could
allow her mind to dwell much on feelings of romance. Her life had
ever been practical, busy, and full of action. As is ever the case
with those who have to do chiefly with things material, she was
thinking more frequently of the outer wants of those around her,
than of the inner workings of her own heart and personal
intelligence. Would the bread rise well? Would that bargain she
had made for poultry suffice for the house? Was that lot of wine
which she had persuaded her uncle to buy of a creditable quality?
Were her efforts for increasing her uncle's profits compatible with
satisfaction on the part of her uncle's guests? Such were the
questions which from day to day occupied her attention and filled
her with interest. And therefore her own identity was not strong to
her, as it is strong to those whose business permits them to look
frequently into themselves, or whose occupations are of a nature to
produce such introspection. If her head ached, or had she lamed her
hand by any accident, she would think more of the injury to the
household arising from her incapacity than of her own pain. It is
so, reader, with your gardener, your groom, or your cook, if you
will think of it. Till you tell them by your pity that they are the
sufferers, they will think that it is you who are most affected by
their ailments. And the man who loses his daily wage because he is
ill complains of his loss and not of his ailment. His own identity
is half hidden from him by the practical wants of his life.
Had Marie been disappointed in her love without the appearance of
any rival suitor, no one would have ever heard of her love. Had
George Voss married, she would have gone on with her work without a
sign of outward sorrow; or had he died, she would have wept for him
with no peculiar tears. She did not expect much from the world
around her, beyond this, that the guests should not complain about
their suppers as long as the suppers provided were reasonably good.
Had no great undertaking been presented to her, the performance of
no heavy task demanded from her, she would have gone on with her
work without showing even by the altered colour of her cheek that
she was a sufferer. But this other man had come,--this Adrian
Urmand; and a great undertaking was presented to her, and the
performance of a heavy task was demanded from her. Then it was
necessary that there should be identity of self and introspection.
She had to ask herself whether the task was practicable, whether its
performance was within the scope of her powers. She told herself at
first that it was not to be done; that it was one which she would
not even attempt. Then as she looked at it more frequently, as she
came to understand how great was the urgency of her uncle; as she
came to find, in performing that task of introspection, how
unimportant a person she was herself, she began to think that the
attempt might be made. 'I suppose it had better be so,' she had
said. What was she that she should stand in the way of so many
wishes? As she had worked for her bread in her uncle's house at
Granpere, so would she work for her bread in her husband's house
at Basle. No doubt there were other things to be joined to her
work,--things the thought of which dismayed her. She had fought
against them for a while; but, after all, what was she, that she
should trouble the world by fighting? When she got to Basle she
would endeavour to see that the bread should rise there, and the
wine be sufficient, and the supper such as her husband might wish
it to be.
Was it not the manifest duty of every girl to act after this
fashion? Were not all marriages so arranged in the world around
her? Among the Protestants of Alsace, as she knew, there was some
greater latitude of choice than was ever allowed by the stricter
discipline of Roman Catholic education. But then she was a Roman
Catholic, as was her aunt; and she was too proud and too grateful to
claim any peculiar exemption from the Protestantism of her uncle.
She had resolved during those early hours of the morning that 'it
had better be so.' She thought that she could go through with it
all, if only they would not tease her, and ask her to wear her
Sunday frock, and force her to sit down with them at table. Let
them settle the day--with a word or two thrown in by herself to
increase the distance--and she would be absolutely submissive, on
condition that nothing should be required of her till the day should
come. There would be a bad week or two then while she was being
carried off to her new home; but she had looked forward and had told
herself that she would fill her mind with the care of one man's
house, as she had hitherto filled it with the care of the house of
another man.
'So it is all right,' said her aunt, rushing up to her with warm
congratulations, ready to flatter her, prone to admire her. It
would be something to have a niece married to Adrian Urmand, the
successful young merchant of Basle. Marie Bromar was already in her
aunt's eyes something different from her former self.
'I hope so, aunt.'
'Hope so; but it is so, you have accepted him?'
'I hope it is right, I mean.'
'Of course it is right' said Madame Voss. 'How can it be wrong for
a girl to accept the man whom all her friends wish her to marry? It
must be right. And your uncle will be so happy.'
'Dear uncle!'
'Yes, indeed. He has been so good; and it has made me wretched to
see that he has been disturbed. He has been as anxious that you
should be settled well, as though you had been his own. And this
will be to be settled well. I am told that M. Urmand's house is one
of those which look down upon the river from near the church; the
very best position in all the town. And it is full of everything,
they say. His father spared nothing for furniture when he was
married. And they say that his mother's linen was quite a sight to
be seen. And then, Marie, everybody acknowledges that he is such a
nice-looking young man!'
But it was not a part of Marie's programme to be waked up to
enthusiasm--at any rate by her aunt. She said little or nothing,
and would not even condescend to consider that interesting question,
of the day of the wedding. 'There is quite time enough for all
that, Aunt Josey,' she said, as she got up to go about her work.
Aunt Josey was almost inclined to resent such usage, and would have
done so, had not her respect for her niece been so great.
Michel did not return till near seven, and walking straight through
his wife's room to Marie's seat of office, came upon his niece
before he had seen any one else. There was an angry look about his
brow, for he had been trying to teach himself that he was ill-used
by his niece, in spite of that half-formed resolution to release her
from persecution if she were still firm in her opposition to the
marriage. 'Well,' he said, as soon as he saw her,--'well, how is it
to be?' She got off her stool, and coming close to him put up her
face to be kissed. He understood it all in a moment, and the whole
tone and colour of his countenance was altered. There was no man
whose face would become more radiant with satisfaction than that of
Michel Voss--when he was satisfied. Please him--and immediately
there would be an effort on his part to please everybody around him.
'My darling, my own one,' he said, 'it is all right.' She kissed
him again and pressed his arm, but said not a word. 'I am so glad,'
he exclaimed; 'I am so glad!' And he knocked off his cap with his
hand, not knowing what he was doing. 'We shall have but a poor
house without you, Marie--a very poor house. But it is as it ought
to be. I have felt for the last year or two, as you have sprung up
to be such a woman among us, my dear, that there was only one place
fit for such a one. It is proper that you should be mistress
wherever you are. It has wounded me--I don't mind saying it now--it
has wounded me to see you waiting on the sort of people that come
here.'
'I have only been too happy, uncle, in doing it.'
'That's all very well; that's all very well, my dear. But I am
older than you, and time goes quick with me. I tell you it made me
unhappy. I thought I wasn't doing my duty by you. I was beginning
to know that you ought to have a house and servants of your own.
People say that it is a great match for you; but I tell them that it
is a great match for him. Perhaps it is because you've been my own
in a way, but I don't see any girl like you round the country.'
'You shouldn't say such things to flatter me, Uncle Michel.'
'I choose to say what I please, and think what I please, about my
own girl,' he said, with his arm close wound round her. 'I say it's
a great match for Adrian Urmand, and I am quite sure that he will
not contradict me. He has had sense enough to know what sort of a
young woman will make the best wife for him, and I respect him for
it. I shall always respect Adrian Urmand because he has known
better than to take up with one of your town-bred girls, who never
learn anything except how to flaunt about with as much finery on
their backs as they can get their people to give them. He might
have had the pick of them at Basle,--or at Strasbourg either, for
the matter of that; but he has thought my girl better than them all;
and I love him for it--so I do. It was to be expected that a young
fellow with means to please himself should choose to have a
good-looking wife to sit at his table with him. Who'll blame him for
that? And he has found the prettiest in all the country round. But
he has wanted something more than good looks,--and he has got a
great deal more. Yes; I say it, I, Michel Voss, though I am your
uncle;--that he has got the pride of the whole country round. My
darling, my own one, my child!'
All this was said with many interjections, and with sundry pauses in
the speech, during which Michel caressed his niece, and pressed her
to his breast, and signified his joy by all the outward modes of
expression which a man so demonstrative knows how to use. This was
a moment of great triumph to him, because he had begun to despair of
success in this matter of the marriage, and had told himself on this
very morning that the affair was almost hopeless. While he had been
up in the wood, he had asked himself how he would treat Marie in
consequence of her disobedience to him; and he had at last succeeded
in producing within his own breast a state of mind that was not
perhaps very reasonable, but which was consonant with his character.
He would let her know that he was angry with her,--very angry with
her; that she had half broken his heart by her obstinacy; but after
that she should be to him his own Marie again. He would not throw
her off, because she disobeyed him. He could not throw her off,
because he loved her, and knew of no way by which he could get rid
of his love. But he would be very angry, and she should know of his
anger. He had come home wearing a black cloud on his brow, and
intending to be black. But all that was changed in a moment, and
his only thought now was how to give pleasure to this dear one. It
is something to have a niece who brings such credit on the family!
Marie as she listened to his praise and his ecstasies, knowing by a
sure instinct every turn of his thoughts, tried to take joy to
herself in that she had given joy to him. Though he was her uncle,
and had in fact been her master, he was actually the one real friend
whom she had made for herself in her life. There had been a month
or two of something more than friendship with George Voss; but she
was too wise to look much at that now. Michel Voss was the one
being in the world whom she knew best, of whom she thought most,
whose thoughts and wishes she had most closely studied, whose
interests were ever present to her mind. Perhaps it may be said of
every human heart in a sound condition that it must be specially
true to some other one human heart; but it may certainly be so said
of every female heart. The object may be changed from time to
time,--may be changed very suddenly, as when a girl's devotion is
transferred with the consent of all her friends from her mother to
her lover; or very slowly, as when a mother's is transferred from
her husband to some favourite child; but, unless self-worship be
predominant, there is always one friend to whom the woman's breast
is true,--for whom it is the woman's joy to offer herself in
sacrifice. Now with Marie Bromar that one being had been her uncle.
She prospered, if he prospered. His comfort was her comfort. Even
when his palate was pleased, there was some gratification akin to
animal enjoyment on her part. It was ease to her, that he should be
at his ease in his arm-chair. It was mirth to her, that he should
laugh. When he was contented she was satisfied. When he was
ruffled she was never smooth. Her sympathy with him was perfect;
and now that he was radiant with triumph, though his triumph came
from his victory over herself, she could not deny him the pleasure
of triumphing with him.
'Dear uncle,' she said, still caressing him, 'I am so glad that you
are pleased.'
'Of course it will be a poor house without you, Marie. As for me,
it will be just as though I had lost my right leg and my right arm.
But what! A man is not always to be thinking of himself. To see
you treated by all the world as you ought to be treated,--as I
should choose that my own daughter should be treated,--that is what
I have desired. Sometimes when I've thought of it all when I've
been alone, I have been mad with myself for letting it go on as it
has done.'
'It has gone on very nicely, I think, Uncle Michel.' She knew how
worse than useless it would be now to try and make him understand
that it would be better for them both that she should remain with
him. She knew, to the moving of a feather, what she could do with
him and what she could not. Her immediate wish was to enable him to
draw all possible pleasure from his triumph of the day, and
therefore she would say no word to signify that his glory was
founded on her sacrifice.
Then again came up the question of her position at supper, but there
was no difficulty in the arrangement made between them. The one
gala evening of grand dresses--the evening which had been intended
to be a gala, but which had turned out to be almost funereal--was
over. Even Michel Voss himself did not think it necessary that
Marie should come in to supper with her silk dress two nights
running; and he himself had found that that changing of his coat had
impaired his comfort. He could eat his dinner and his supper in his
best clothes on Sunday, and not feel the inconvenience; but on other
occasions those unaccustomed garments were as heavy to him as a suit
of armour. There was, therefore, nothing more said about clothes.
Marie was to dispense her soup as usual,--expressing a confident
assurance that if Peter were as yet to attempt this special branch
of duty, the whole supper would collapse,--and then she was to take
her place at the table, next to her uncle. Everybody in the house,
everybody in Granpere, knew that the marriage had been arranged, and
the old lady who had been so dreadfully snubbed by Marie, had
forgiven the offence, acknowledging that Marie's position on that
evening had been one of difficulty.
But these arrangements had reference only to two days. After two
days, Adrian was to return to Basle, and to be seen no more at
Granpere till he came to claim his bride. In regard to the choice
of the day, Michel declared roundly that no constraint should be put
upon Marie. She should have her full privileges, and no one should
be allowed to interfere with her. On this point Marie had brought
herself to be almost indifferent. A long engagement was a state of
things which would have been quite incompatible with such a
betrothal. Any delay that could have been effected would have been
a delay, not of months, but of days,--or at most of a week or two.
She had made up her mind that she would not be afraid of her
wedding. She would teach herself to have no dread either of the man
or of the thing. He was not a bad man, and marriage in itself was
honourable. She formed ideas also of some future true friendship
for her husband. She would endeavour to have a true solicitude for
his interests, and would take care, at any rate, that nothing was
squandered that came into her hands. Of what avail would it be to
her that she should postpone for a few days the beginning of a
friendship that was to last all her life? Such postponement could
only be induced by a dread of the man, and she was firmly determined
that she would not dread him. When they asked her, therefore, she
smiled and said very little. What did her aunt think?
Her aunt thought that the marriage should be settled for the
earliest possible day,--though she never quite expressed her
thoughts. Madame Voss, though she did not generally obtain much
credit for clear seeing, had a clearer insight to the state of her
niece's mind than had her husband. She still believed that Marie's
heart was not with Adrian Urmand. But, attributing perhaps no very
great importance to a young girl's heart, and fancying that she knew
that in this instance the young girl's heart could not have its own
way, she was quite in favour of the Urmand marriage. And if they
were to be married, the sooner the better. Of that she had no
doubt. 'It's best to have it over always as soon as possible,' she
said to her husband in private, nodding her head, and looking much
wiser than usual.
'I won't have Marie hurried,' said Michel.
'We had better say some day next month, my dear,' said Madame Voss,
again nodding her head. Michel, struck by the peculiarity of her
voice, looked into her face, and saw the unaccustomed wisdom. He
made no answer, but after a while nodded his head also, and went out
of the room a man convinced. There were matters between women, he
thought, which men can never quite understand. It would be very bad
if there should be any slip here between the cup and the lip; and,
no doubt, his wife was right.
It was Madame Voss at last who settled the day,--the 15th of
October, just four weeks from the present time. This she did in
concert with Adrian Urmand, who, however, was very docile in her
hands. Urmand, after he had been accepted, soon managed to bring
himself back to that state of mind in which he had before regarded
the possession of Marie Bromar as very desirable. For some
four-and-twenty hours, during which he had thought himself to be
ill-used, and had meditated a retreat from Granpere, he had contrived
to teach himself that he might possibly live without her; but as soon
as he was accepted, and when the congratulations of the men and women
of Granpere were showered down upon him in quick succession,--so
that the fact that the thing was to be became assured to him,--he
soon came to fancy again that he was a man as successful in love as
he was in the world's good, and that this acquisition of Marie's
hand was a treasure in which he could take delight. He undoubtedly
would be ready by the day named, and would go home and prepare
everything for Marie's arrival.
They were very little together as lovers during those two days, but
it was necessary that there should be an especial parting. 'She is
up-stairs in the little sitting-room,' Aunt Josey said; and up-stairs
to the little sitting-room Adrian Urmand went.
'I am come to say good-bye,' said Urmand.
'Good-bye, Adrian,' said Marie, putting both her hands in his, and
offering her cheek to be kissed.
'I shall come back with such joy for the 15th,' said he.
She smiled, and kissed his cheek, and still held his hand.
'Adrian,' she said.
'My love?'
'As I believe in the dear Jesus, I will do my best to be a good wife
to you.' Then he took her in his arms, and kissed her close, and
went out of the room with tears streaming down his cheeks. He knew
now that he was in truth a happy man, and that God had been good to
him in this matter of his future wife.