The time draws near when I shall meet those eyes, that may
perchance look cold on me--"but doubt is called the beacon
of the wise, the test that reaches to the bottom of the worst."
[_Troilus and Cressida_, II.ii:
but modest doubt is called
The beacon of the wise, the tent that searches
To th' bottom of the worst.]
On the appointed day, Theodore proceeded to the house of Alida's father,
where he arrived late in the afternoon. Alida had retired to a little
summer-house at the end of the garden. A servant conducted him thither.
[_A&M_:
At the appointed day, Alonzo proceeded to the house of Melissa's
father, where he arrived late in the afternoon. Melissa had retired
to a little summer house at the end of the garden; a servant
conducted Alonzo thither.]
She was dressed in a flowing robe of white muslin, richly embroidered.
Her hair was in dishevelled curls; she was contemplating a bouquet of
flowers which she held in her hand. Theodore fancied she never appeared
so lovely. She arose to receive him.
[_A&M_:
She was dressed in a flowing robe of white muslin, embroidered with
a deep fringe of lace. Her hair hung loosely upon her shoulders--she
was contemplating a bouquet of flowers which she held in her hand.
Alonzo fancied she never appeared so lovely. She arose to receive
him.]
We have been expecting you for some time, said she; we were anxious to
inform you that we have just received a letter from my brother, in which
he desires us to present you his most friendly respects, and complains
of your not visiting him lately so frequently as usual. Theodore thanked
her for the information; said that business had prevented him; he
esteemed him as his most valuable friend, and would be more particular
in future.
[_A&M_:
"We have been expecting you some time, [said Melissa,] we were
anxious to inform you, that we have just received a letter from my
brother, in which he desires us to present you his most friendly
respects, and complains of your not writing to him lately so
frequently as usual." Alonzo thanked her for the information--said
that business had prevented him--he esteemed him as his most
valuable friend, and would be more particular in future.]
"We have been thronged with company several days," said Alida. The last
of them took their departure yesterday. And I have only to regret, that
I have nearly a week been prevented from taking my favourite walk to the
grove, to which place you attended me when you were last here. "We will
walk there, then, if you have no objections, as no doubt it is much
improved since that time," said Theodore. They resorted thither towards
evening, and seated themselves in the arbour where they sat some time
contemplating the scenery.
[_A&M_:
"We have been thronged with company for several days, [said Melissa]
once a year .... The last of this company took their departure
yesterday, and I have only to regret that I have for nearly a week,
been prevented from visiting my favorite hill, to which you attended
me when you was last here. It is much improved since then; I have
had a little arbor built under the large tree on its summit: you
will have no objection to view it, Alonzo?" He assured her he
accepted the invitation with pleasure, and towards evening they
resorted to the place and seated themselves in the arbor.]
[[The omitted text, referring to Melissa's father's birthday
celebration, was used earlier in _Alida_.]]
It was the beginning of autumn, and a yellow hue was spread over the
natural beauties of creation. The withering forest began to shed its
decaying foliage, which the light gales pursued along the russet
fields;--the low sun extended its lengthening shadows;--curling smoke
ascended from the neighbouring village and the surrounding cottages;--a
thick fog crept along the valleys;--a grey mist hovered over the tops of
the distant hills;--the glassy surface of the water glittering to the
sun's departing ray;--the solemn herds lowed in monotonous
symphony;--the autumnal insects, in sympathetic wafting, plaintively
predicted their approaching fate.
[_A&M_:
It was the beginning of autumn, and a yellow hue was spread over the
fading charms of nature. The withering forest began to shed its
decaying foliage, which the light gales pursued along the russet
fields. The low sun extended the lengthening shadows; curling smoke
ascended from the surrounding cottages. A thick fog crept along the
vallies, a grey mist hovered over the tops of the mountains. The
glassy surface of the Sound glittered to the sun's departing ray.
The solemn herds lowed in monotonous symphony.--The autumnal insects
in sympathetic wafting, plaintively predicted their approaching
fate.]
The scene is changed since we last visited this place, said Alida; "the
gay charms of summer are beginning to decay, and must soon yield their
splendours to the rude despoiling hand of winter."
[_A&M_:
"The scene is changed since we last visited this place, [said
Melissa;] the gay charms of summer are beginning to decay, and must
soon yield their splendors to the rude despoiling hand of winter."]
"That will be the case," said Theodore, "before I shall have the
pleasure of your company here again." "That may probably be, though it
is nearly two months yet to winter," said Alida.
[_A&M_:
"That will be the case, (said Alonzo) before I shall have the
pleasure of your company here again."
Mel. That probably may be, though it is nearly two months yet to
winter.]
"Great changes may take place within that time," said Theodore. Yes,
changes must take place, she answered, but nothing, I hope to embitter
present prospects.
[_A&M_:
Al. Great changes may take place within that time.
Mel. Yes, changes must take place; but nothing, I hope, to embitter
present prospects.]
As it respects yourself, I trust not, madam. "And I sincerely hope not,
as it respects you, Theodore." That wish, said he, I believe is vain.
[_A&M_:
Al. (Peevishly) As it respects yourself, I trust not, madam.
Mel. (Tenderly) And I sincerely hope not, as it respects you,
Alonzo.
Al. That wish--I believe--is vain.]
Your feelings accord with the season, Theodore; you are melancholy.
Shall we return?
[_A&M_:
Mel. Your feelings accord with the season, Alonzo; you are
melancholy. Shall we return?]
"I ask your pardon, madam; I know I am unsociable. You speak of
returning; you know the occasion of my being here. You cannot have
forgotten your own appointment and consequent engagement?" She made no
answer.
[_A&M_:
Al. I ask your pardon, madam; I know I am unsociable. You speak of
returning--You know the occasion of my being here.
...
(She made no reply.)
Al. You cannot have forgotten your own appointment, and consequent
engagement?
(She made no answer.)]
I know, Alida, that you are incapable of duplicity or evasion. I have
promised and now repeat the declaration, that I will silently submit to
your decision. This you have engaged to make, and this is the time you
have appointed. The pain of present suspense can scarcely be surpassed
by the pang of disappointment. On your part you have nothing to fear.
I trust you have candidly determined, and will decide explicitly.
[_A&M_:
Al. I know, Melissa, that you are incapable of duplicity or evasion.
I have promised and now repeat the declaration, that I will silently
submit to your decision. This you have engaged to make, and this is
the time you have appointed. The pains of present suspense can
scarcely be surpassed by the pangs of disappointment. On your part
you have nothing to fear. I trust you have candidly determined, and
will decide explicitly.]
"I am placed in an exceedingly delicate situation," answered Alida,
(sighing.) "I know you are, madam," said Theodore, "but your own honour,
your own peace, require that you should extricate yourself from the
perplexing embarrassment."
[_A&M_:
Mel. (sighing) I am placed in an exceedingly delicate situation.
Al. I know you are,--but your own honor, your own peace,
require that you should extricate yourself from the perplexing
embarrassment.]
"That I am convinced of," replied she. "I know that I have been
inadvertently indiscreet. I have admitted the addresses of Bonville and
yourself, without calculating or expecting the consequences. You have
both treated me honourably and with respect. You are both on equal
grounds as to standing in life. With Bonville I became first acquainted.
As it relates to him, some new arrangements have taken place since you
came here."
[_A&M_:
Mel. That I am convinced of. I now know that I have been
inadvertently indiscreet. I have admitted the addresses of Beauman
and yourself, without calculating or expecting the consequences. You
have both treated me honorably, and with respect. You are both on
equal grounds as to your character and standing in life. With
Beauman I became first acquainted. As it relates to him, some new
arrangements have taken place since you were here, which----]
Theodore interrupted her with emotion. "Of those arrangements I am
acquainted, I received the intelligence from a friend in your
neighbourhood. I am prepared for the event."
[_A&M_:
Al. (interrupting her, with emotion) Of those arrangements I am
acquainted.
...
Al. I received it from a friend in your neighbourhood.
...
Al. You see, Melissa, I am prepared for the event.]
Alida remained silent. "I have mentioned before," resumed Theodore,
"that whatever may be your decision, no impropriety can attach to you.
I might add, indeed, from various circumstances, and from the
information I possess, I perhaps should not have given you further
trouble on the occasion, had it not been from your own direction. And I
am now willing to retire without further explanation, without giving you
the pain of an express decision, if you think the measure expedient.
Your declaration can only be a matter of form, the consequence of which
I know, and my proposition may save your feelings."
[_A&M_:
(She was silent.)
Al. I have mentioned before, that, whatever be your decision, no
impropriety can attach to you. I might not, indeed, from various
circumstances, and from the information I possess, I perhaps should
not, have given you farther trouble on the occasion, had it not been
from your own direction and appointment. And I am now willing to
retire without further explanation, without giving you the pain of
an express decision, if you think the measure expedient. Your
declaration can only be a matter of form, the consequence of which
I know, and my proposition may save your feelings.]
"No, Theodore," replied she, "my reputation depends on my adherence
to my first determination; justice to yourself and to Bonville also
demand it. After what has passed, I should be considered as acting
capriciously, and inconsistently, should I depart from it. Bonville will
be here to-morrow, and you must consent to stay with us until that time;
the matter shall then be decided." "Yes," said Theodore, "it shall be as
you say, madam. Make your arrangements as you please."
[_A&M_:
Mel. No, Alonzo; my reputation depends on my adherence to my first
determination; justice to yourself and to Beauman, also demand it.
After what has passed, I should be considered as acting capriciously
and inconsistently should I depart from it. Beauman will be here
to-morrow, and----
Al. To-morrow, madam?
Mel. He will be here to-morrow, and you must consent to stay with us
until that time; the matter shall then be decided.
Al. I--yes--it shall be as you say, madam. Make your arrangements as
you please.]
Evening came on, and spread around her sombre shades;--the breeze's
rustling wing was in the tree:--the sound of the low, murmuring brooks,
and the far-off waterfall, were faintly heard;--the frequent lights in
the village darted their pale lustre through the gloom:--the solitary
whip-poor-wills stationed themselves along the woody glens, the groves
and rocky pastures, and sung a requiem to departed summer;--a dark cloud
was rising in the west, across whose gloomy front the vivid lightning
bent its forky spires.
[_A&M_:
Evening had now spread her dusky mantle over the face of nature.
The breeze's rustling wing was in the tree. The "stilly sound" of
the low murmuring brook, and the far off water fall, were faintly
heard. The twinkling fire fly arose from the surrounding verdure
and illuminated the air with a thousand transient gleams. The
mingling discordance of curs and watch-dogs echoed in the distant
village, from whence the frequent lights darted their pale lustre
through the gloom.--The solitary whipperwills stationed themselves
along the woody glens, the groves and rocky pastures, and sung a
requiem to departed summer. A dark cloud was rising in the west,
across whose gloomy front the vivid lightning bent its forky
spires.]
[[The middle of this paragraph was used earlier in _Alida_.]]
Theodore and Alida moved slowly towards home; she appeared enraptured
with the melancholy splendours of the evening, but another subject
engaged the mental attention of Theodore.
[_A&M_:
Alonzo and Melissa moved slowly to the village; she appeared
enraptured with the melancholy splendors of the evening, but the
other subject engaged the mental attention of Alonzo.]
Bonville arrived the next day. He gave his hand to Theodore with seeming
warmth of friendship. If it was reciprocated, it must have been
affected. There was no alteration in the manners and conversation of
Alida; her discourse, as usual, was sprightly and interesting. After
dinner she retired, and her father requested Theodore and Bonville to
withdraw with him to a private room. After they were seated, the old
gentleman thus addressed them:
[_A&M_:
Beauman arrived the next day. He gave his hand to Alonzo with
seeming warmth of friendship. If it was reciprocated, it must have
been affected. There was no alteration in the manners and
conversation of Melissa; her conversation as usual, was sprightly
and interesting. After dinner she retired, and her father requested
Alonzo and Beauman to withdraw with him to a private room. After
they were seated the old gentleman thus addressed them:--]
"I have called you here, gentlemen, to perform my duty as a parent to my
daughter, and as a friend to you. You have both addressed Alida; while
your addresses were merely formal, they were innocent; but when they
became serious, they were dangerous. Your pretensions I consider equal,
and between honourable pretenders, who are worthy of my daughter,
I shall not attempt to influence her choice. That choice, however, can
rest only on one; she has engaged to decide between you. I am come, to
make in her name this decision. The following are my terms: no
difficulty shall arise between you, gentlemen, in consequence of her
determination; nothing shall go abroad respecting the affair; it shall
be settled under my roof. As soon as I have pronounced Alida's
declaration, you shall both depart, and absent my house for at least two
weeks, as it would be improper for my daughter to see either of you at
present; after that period I shall be happy to receive your visits."
Theodore and Bonville pledged their honour to abide implicitly by these
injunctions.
[_A&M_:
"I have called you here, gentlemen, to perform my duty as a parent
to my daughter, and as a friend to you. You are both suitors to
Melissa; while your addresses were merely formal, they were
innocent; but when they became serious they were dangerous. Your
pretensions I consider equal, and between honorable pretenders, who
are worthy of my daughter, I shall not attempt to influence her
choice. That choice, however, can rest only on one: she has engaged
to decide between you. I am come, to make in her name, this
decision.--The following are my terms: No quarrel or difficulty
shall arise between you, gentlemen, in consequence of her
determination. Nothing shall go abroad respecting the affair; it
shall be ended under my roof. As soon as I have pronounced her
declaration, you shall both depart and absent my house, for, at
least, two weeks, as it would be improper for my daughter to see
either of you at present--after that period I shall be happy to
receive your visits." Alonzo and Beauman pledged their honor to
abide implicitly by these injunctions.]
He then further observed: "This, gentlemen, is all I require. I have
said that I considered your pretensions equal; so has my daughter
treated them. You have both made professions to her; she has appointed a
time to answer you. That time has now arrived, and I now inform
you--that she has decided in favour of Theodore."
[_A&M_:
Her father then observed--"This, gentlemen, is all I require. I have
observed that I considered your pretensions equal--so has my
daughter treated them. You have both made professions to her: she
has appointed a time to answer you. That time has now arrived, and I
now inform you that she has decided in favor of--Alonzo."]
These words from Alida's father, burst upon the mental powers of
Bonville like sudden and tremendous thunder on the deep and sullen
silence of night. Unaccustomed to disappointment, he had calculated on
assured success. His addresses to the ladies generally had been
honourably received. Alida was the first whose charms were capable of
rendering them sincere. He was not ignorant of Theodore's attentions to
her; it gave him, however, but little uneasiness. He believed that his
superior acquired graces would eclipse the pretensions of his rival. He
considered himself a connoisseur in character, especially in that of the
ladies. He conformed to their taste; he flattered their foibles, and
obsequiously bowed to the minutia of female volatility. He considered
himself skilled in the language of the heart; and he trusted that from
his pre-eminent powers in the science of affection, he had only to see,
to make use of, and to conquer.
[_A&M_:
The declaration of Melissa's father burst upon the mental powers of
Beauman, like a sudden and tremendous clap of thunder on the deep
and sullen silence of night. Unaccustomed to disappointment, he had
calculated on success. His addresses to the ladies had ever been
honorably received.
Melissa was the first whose charms were capable of rendering them
sincere. He was not ignorant of Alonzo's attention to her; it gave
him however but little uneasiness. He believed that his superior
qualifications would eclipse the pretensions of his rival. He
considered himself a connoisseur in character, especially in the
character of the ladies. He conformed to their taste; he flattered
their foibles and obsequiously bowed to the minutia of female
volatility. He considered himself skilled in the language of the
heart; and he trusted that from his pre-eminent powers in the
science of affection, he had only to see, to sue and to conquer.]
He had frankly offered his hand to Alida, and pressed her for a decisive
answer. This from time to time she suspended, and finally named a day in
which to give him and Theodore a determinate one, though neither knew
the arrangements made with the other. Alida finding, however, the
dilemma in which she was placed, and she had previously consulted her
father. He had no objections to her choosing between two persons of
equal claims to affluence and respectability. This choice she had made,
and her father was considered the most proper person to pronounce it.
[_A&M_:
He had frankly offered his hand to Melissa, and pressed her for a
decisive answer. This from time to time she suspended, and finally
appointed a day to give him and Alonzo a determinate answer, though
neither knew the arrangements made with the other.
Finding, however, the dilemma in which she was placed, she had
previously consulted her parents. Her father had no objection to her
choosing between two persons of equal claims to affluence and
reputation; this choice she had made, and her father was considered
the most proper person to pronounce it.]
When Bonville had urged Alida to answer him decidedly, he supposed that
her hesitation, delay and suspensions, were only the effect of
diffidence. He had no suspicion of her ultimate conclusion, and when she
finally named the day to decide, he was confident her voice would be in
his favour. These sentiments he had communicated to the person who had
written to Theodore, intimating that Alida had fixed a time which was to
crown his sanguine wishes. He had listened, therefore, attentively to
the words of her father, momentarily expecting to hear himself declared
the favourite choice of the fair. What then must have been his
disappointment when the name of Theodore was pronounced instead of his
own! The highly-finished scene of pleasure and future happy prospects
which his ardent imagination had depicted, now vanished in a moment. The
bright sun of his early hopes was veiled in darkness at this unexpected
decision.
[_A&M_:
When Beauman had urged his suit to Melissa, he supposed that her
hesitations, delays and suspensions, were only the effects of maiden
diffidence and timidity. He had no suspicions of her ultimately
rejecting it; and when she finally named the day of decision, he was
confident she would decide in his favor. These sentiments he had
communicated to the person who had written to Alonzo, intimating
that Melissa had fixed a time which was to crown his happiest
wishes.
He had listened, therefore, attentively to the words of Melissa's
father, momentarily expecting to hear himself declared the favorite
choice of the fair.
What then must have been his disappointment when the name of Alonzo
was pronounced instead of his own! The highly finished scene of
pleasure and future prosperity which his ardent imagination had
depicted, had vanished in a moment. The rain-bow glories which
gilded his youthful horizon, had faded in an instant--the bright sun
of his early hopes, had set in mournful darkness.]
Very different were the sensations which inspired the bosom of Theodore.
He had not even calculated on a decision in his favour; he believed that
Bonville would be the choice of Alida. She had told him, that the form
of deciding was necessary to save appearances; with this form he
complied, because she desired it, not because he expected the result
would be in his favour. He had not, therefore, attended to the words of
Alida's father with that eagerness which favourable anticipations
commonly produce.
[_A&M_:
Very different were the sensations which inspired the bosom of
Alonzo. He had not even calculated on a decision in his own favor.
He believed that Beauman would be the choice of Melissa. She had
told him that the form of decision was necessary to save
appearances--with this form he complied because she desired it, not
because he expected the result would be in his favor. He had not
therefore attended to the words of Melissa's father with that
eagerness which favorable anticipations commonly produce.]
But when his name was mentioned; when he found that he was the choice,
the happy favourite of Alida's affection, every ardent feeling of his
soul became interested, and was suddenly aroused to the refinements of
sensibility. Like an electric shock it re-animated his existence, and
the bright morning of joy quickly dissipated the gloom which hung over
his mind.
[_A&M_:
But when his name was mentioned--when he found he was the
choice--the happy favorite of Melissa's affection--every tender
passion of his soul became interested, and was suddenly aroused to
the refinements of sensibility. Like an electric shock, it
reanimated his whole frame, and vibrated every nerve of his heart.
The glooms which hung about his mind were dissipated, and the bright
morning of joy broke in upon his soul.]