This and other tales, that knight of St. Louis, our fellow-boarder,

knew how to tell with passion and animation, for which reason I was

fond of accompanying him in his walks, unlike the others, who avoided

such invitations, and left me alone with him. As with new acquaintances

I generally suffered myself to go on for a long time without thinking

much about them or the effect which they were exercising upon me,

so I only remarked gradually that his stories and opinions rather

unsettled and confused, than instructed and enlightened me. I never

knew what to make of him, although the riddle might easily have been

solved. He belonged to the many to whom life offers no results, and

who therefore, from first to last, exert themselves on individual

objects. Unfortunately he had, with this, a decided desire, nay, even

passion for meditating, without having any capacity for thinking; and

in such men a particular notion easily fixes itself fast, which may

be regarded as a mental disease. To such a fixed view he always came

back again, and was thus in the long-run excessively tiresome. He used

bitterly to complain of the decline of his memory, especially with

regard to the latest events, and maintained by a logic of his own, that

all virtue springs from a good memory, and all vice, on the contrary,

from forgetfulness. This doctrine he contrived to carry out with much

acuteness; as, indeed, everything can be maintained when one permits

oneself to use words altogether vaguely, and to employ and apply them

in a sense now wider, now narrower, now closer, now more remote.

At first it was amusing to hear him; nay, his persuasiveness even

astonished us. We fancied we were standing before a rhetorical sophist,

who for jest and practice knew how to give a fair appearance to the

strangest things. Unfortunately this first impression blunted itself

but too soon; for at the end of every discourse, manage the thing as

I would, the man came back again to the same theme. He was not to be

held fast to older events, although they interested him,---although he

had them present to his mind with their minutest circumstances. Indeed

he was often, by a small circumstance, snatched out of the middle of

a wild historical narrative, and thrust into his detestable favourite

thought.

One of our afternoon walks was particularly unfortunate in this

respect; the account of it may stand here instead of similar cases,

which might weary, if not vex the reader.

On the way through the city we were met by an old female mendicant, who

by her beggings and importunities disturbed him in his story. "Pack

yourself off, old witch!" said he, and walked by. She shouted after

him the well-known retort, only somewhat changed, since she saw well

that the unfriendly man was old himself,--"If you did not wish to be

old, you should have had yourself hanged in your youth!" He turned

round violently, and I feared a scene. "Hanged!" cried he, "have myself

hanged! No, that could not have been; I was too honest a fellow for

that; but hang myself--hang up my own self--that is true--that I should

have done; I should have turned a charge of powder against myself, that

I might not live to see that I am not even worth that any more." The

woman stood as if petrified; but he continued, "You have said a great

truth, witch-mother! and as they have neither drowned nor burned you

yet, you shall be paid for your proverb." He handed her a _büsel_, a

coin not usually given to a beggar.

We had crossed over the first Rhine-bridge, and were going to the

inn where we meant to stop, and I was trying to lead him back to our

previous conversation, when, unexpectedly, a very pretty girl met us

on the pleasant foot-path, remained standing before us, bowed prettily

and cried: "Eh, eh! captain, where are you going?" and whatever else

is usually said on such an occasion. "Mademoiselle," replied he,

somewhat embarrassed, "I know not----" "How?" said she, with graceful

astonishment, "do you forget your friends so soon?" The word "forget"

fretted him; he shook his head and replied, peevishly enough, "Truly,

mademoiselle, I did not know----!" She now retorted with some humour,

yet very temperately: "Take care, captain, I may mistake you another

time!" And so she hurried past, taking huge strides, without looking

round. At once my fellow-traveller struck his forehead with both his

fists: "O what an ass I am!" exclaimed he, "what an old ass I am!

Now, you see whether I am right or not." And then, in a very violent

manner, he went on with his usual sayings and opinions, in which this

case still more confirmed him. I cannot and would not repeat what a

philippic discourse he held against himself. At last he turned to me

and said: "I call you to witness! You remember that small-ware woman at

the corner, who is neither young nor pretty? I salute her every time we

pass, and often exchange a couple of friendly words with her; and yet

it is thirty years ago since she was gracious to me. But now I swear it

is not four weeks since this young lady showed herself more complaisant

to me than was reasonable, and yet I will not recognise her, but insult

her in return for her favours! Do I not always say that ingratitude is

the greatest of vices, and no man would be ungrateful if he were not

forgetful!"

"We went into the inn, and nothing but the tippling, swarming crowd

in the ante-rooms stopped the invectives which he rattled off against

himself and his contemporaries. He was silent, and I hoped pacified,

when we stepped into an upper chamber, where we found a young man

pacing up and down alone, whom the captain saluted by name. I was

pleased to become acquainted with him; for the old fellow had said much

good of him to me, and had told me that this young man, being employed

in the war-bureau, had often disinterestedly done him very good service

when the pensions were stopped. I was glad that the conversation took

a general turn, and while we were carrying it on we drank a bottle of

wine. But here, unluckily, another infirmity which my knight had in

common with obstinate men, developed itself. For as, on the whole,

he could not get rid of that fixed notion, so did he stick fast to a

disagreeable impression of the moment, and suffer his feelings to run

on without moderation. His last vexation about himself had not yet died

away, and now was added something new, although of quite a different

kind. He had not long cast his eyes here and there before he noticed on

the table a double portion of coffee and two cups, and might besides,

being a man of gallantry, have traced some other indication that the

young man had not been so solitary all the time. And scarcely had the

conjecture arisen in his mind, and ripened into a probability, that

the pretty girl had been paying a visit here, than the most outrageous

jealousy added itself to that first vexation, so as completely to

perplex him.

[Side-note: The Knight of St. Louis.]

Now before I could suspect anything, for I had hitherto been conversing

quite harmlessly with the young man, the captain, in an unpleasant

tone, which I well knew, began to be satirical about the pair of cups,

and about this and that. The young man, surprised, tried to turn it off

pleasantly and sensibly, as is the custom among men of good-breeding;

but the old fellow continued to be unmercifully rude, so that there was

nothing left for the other to do but to seize his hat and cane, and at

his departure to leave behind him a pretty unequivocal challenge. The

fury of the captain now burst out the more vehemently, as he had in the

interim drunk another bottle of wine almost by himself. He struck the

table with his fist, and cried more than once: "I strike him dead!"

It was not, however, meant quite so badly as it sounded, for he often

used this phrase when any one opposed or otherwise displeased him. Just

as unexpectedly the business grew worse on our return: for I had the

want of foresight to represent to him his ingratitude towards the young

man, and to remind him how strongly he had praised to me the ready

obligingness of this official person. No! such rage of a man against

himself I never saw again; it was the most passionate conclusion to

that beginning to which the pretty girl had given occasion. Here I

saw sorrow and repentance carried into caricature, and as all passion

supplies the place of genius, to a point really genius-like. He then

went over all the incidents of our afternoon ramble again, employed

them rhetorically for his own self-reproach, brought up the old witch

at last before him once more, and perplexed himself to such a degree,

that I could not help fearing** he would throw himself into the Rhine.

Could I have been sure of fishing him out again quickly, like Mentor

his Telemachus, he might have made the leap, and I should have brought

him home cooled down for this occasion.

I immediately confided the affair to Lerse, and we went the next

morning to the young man, whom my friend in his dry way set laughing.

We agreed to bring about an accidental meeting, where a reconciliation

should take place of itself. The drollest thing about it was, that this

time the captain too had slept off his rudeness, and found himself

ready to apologize to the young man, to whom petty quarrels were of

some consequence. All was arranged in one morning, and, as the affair

had not been kept quite secret, I did not escape the jokes of my

friends, who might have foretold me, from their own experience, how

troublesome the friendship of the captain could become upon occasion.

But now, while I am thinking what should be imparted next, there

comes again into my thoughts, by a strange play of memory, that

reverend minster-building, to which in those days I devoted particular

attention, and which, in general, constantly presents itself to the eye

both in the city and in the country.

The more I considered the _façade_, the more was that first impression

strengthened and developed, that here the sublime has entered into

alliance with the pleasing. If the vast, when it appears as a mass

before us, is not to terrify; if it is not to confuse, when we seek to

investigate its details, it must enter into an unnatural, apparently

impossible connexion, it must associate to itself the pleasing. But

now, since it will be impossible for us to speak of the impression of

the minster except by considering both these incompatible qualities as

united, so do we already see, from this, in what high value we must

hold this ancient monument, and we begin in earnest to describe how

such contradictory elements could peaceably interpenetrate and unite

themselves.

[Side-note: Strasburg Minster.]

First of all, without thinking of the towers, we devote our

considerations to the _façade_ alone, which powerfully strikes the eye

as an upright, oblong parallelogram. If we approach it at twilight,

in the moonshine, on a starlight night, when the parts appear more or

less indistinct and at last disappear, we see only a colossal wall,

the height of which bears an advantageous proportion to the breadth. If

we gaze on it by day, and by the power of the mind abstract from the

details, we recognise the front of a building which not only incloses

the space within, but also covers much in its vicinity. The openings

of this monstrous surface point to internal necessities, and according

to these we can at once divide it into nine compartments. The great

middle door, which opens into the nave of the church, first meets

the eye. On both sides of it lie two smaller ones, belonging to the

cross-ways. Over the chief door our glance falls upon the wheel-shaped

window, which is to spread an awe-inspiring light within the church

and its vaulted arches. At its sides appear two large, perpendicular,

oblong openings, which form a striking contrast with the middle one,

and indicate that they belong to the base of the rising towers. In

the third story are three openings in a row, which are designed for

belfries and other church necessities. Above them one sees the whole

horizontally closed by the balustrade of the gallery, instead of a

cornice. These nine spaces described, are supported, enclosed, and

separated into three great perpendicular divisions by four pillars

rising up from the ground.

Now as one cannot deny to the whole mass a fine proportion of height

to breadth, so also in the details it maintains a somewhat uniform

lightness by means of these pillars and the narrow compartments between

them.

But if we keep to our abstraction, and imagine to ourselves this

immense wall without ornaments, with firm buttresses, with the

necessary openings in it, but only so far as necessity requires

them, we even then must allow that these chief divisions are in good

proportion: thus the whole will appear solemn and noble indeed, but

always heavily unpleasant, and, being without ornament, unartistical.

For a work of art, the whole of which is conceived in great, simple,

harmonious parts, makes indeed a noble and dignified impression, but

the peculiar enjoyment which the pleasing produces can only find place

in the consonance of all developed details.

And it is precisely here that the building which we are examining

satisfies us in the highest degree: for we see all the ornaments fully

suited to every part which they adorn; they are subordinate to it, they

seem to have grown out of it. Such a manifoldness always gives great

pleasure, since it flows of its own accord from the suitable, and

therefore at the same time awakens the feeling of unity. It is only in

such cases that the execution is prized as the summit of art.

By such means, now, was a solid piece of masonry, an impenetrable wall,

which had moreover to announce itself as the base of two heaven-high

towers, made to appear to the eye as if resting on itself, consisting

in itself, but at the same time light and adorned, and, though pierced

through in a thousand places, to give the idea of indestructible

firmness.

This riddle is solved in the happiest manner. The openings in the wall,

its solid parts, the pillars, everything has its peculiar character,

which proceeds from its particular destination; this communicates

itself by degrees to the subdivisions; hence everything is adorned

in proportionate taste, the great as well as the small is in the

right place, and can be easily comprehended, and thus the pleasing

presents itself in the vast. I would refer only to the doors sinking in

perspective into the thickness of the wall, and adorned without end in

their columns and pointed arches; to the window with its rose springing

out of the round form, to the outline of its frame-work, as well as

to the slender reedlike pillars of the perpendicular compartments.

Let one represent to himself the pillars retreating step by step,

accompanied by little, slender, light-pillared, pointed structures,

likewise striving upwards, and furnished with canopies to shelter the

images of the saints, and how at last every rib, every boss, seems

like a flower-head and row of leaves, or some other natural object

transformed into stone. One may compare, if not the building itself,

yet representations of the whole and of its parts, for the purpose of

reviewing and giving life to what I have said. It may seem exaggerated

to many, for I myself, though transported into love for this work at

first sight, required a long time to make myself intimately acquainted

with its value.

Having grown up among those who found fault with Gothic architecture,

I cherished my aversion from the abundantly overloaded,complicated

ornaments which, by their capriciousness, made a religious, gloomy

character highly adverse. I strengthened myself in this repugnance,

since I had only met with spiritless works of this kind, in which

one could perceive neither good proportions nor a pure consistency.

But here I thought I saw a new revelation of it, since what was

objectionable by no means appeared, but the contrary opinion rather

forced itself upon my mind.

[Side-note: Strasburg Minster.]

But the longer I looked and considered, I all the while thought

I discovered yet greater merits beyond that which I have already

mentioned. The right proportion of the larger divisions, the

ornamental, as judicious as rich, even to the minutest, were found

out; but now I recognised the connexion of these manifold ornaments

amongst each other, the transition from one leading part to another,

the enclosing of details, homogeneous indeed, but yet greatly varying

in form, from the saint to the monster, from the leaf to the dental.

The more I investigated, the more I was astonished; the more I amused

and wearied myself with measuring and drawing, so much the more did my

attachment increase, so that I spent much time, partly in studying what

actually existed, partly in restoring, in my mind and on paper, what

was wanting and unfinished, especially in the towers.

Since now I found that this building had been based on old German

ground, and grown thus far in genuine German times, and that the name

of the master, on his modest gravestone, was likewise of native sound

and origin, I ventured, being incited by the worth of this work of art,

to change the hitherto decried appellation of "Gothic architecture,"

and to claim it for our nation as "German architecture;" nor did I fail

to bring my patriotic views to light, first orally, and afterwards in a

little treatise, dedicated to the memory of Ervinus a Steinbach.

If my biographical narrative should come down to the epoch when the

said sheet appeared in print, which Herder afterwards inserted in

his pamphlet: _Von Deutscher Art und Kunst_, (_Of German Manner and

Art_,) much more will be said on this weighty subject. But before I

turn myself away from it this time, I will take the opportunity to

vindicate the motto prefixed to the present volume, with those who may

have entertained some doubt about it. I know indeed very well, that

in opposition to this honest, hopeful old German saying: "Whatever

one wishes in youth, one has abundance in old age!" many would quote

contrary experience, and many trifling comments might be made; but much

also is to be said in its favour, and I will explain my own thoughts on

the matter.

Our wishes are presentiments of the capabilities which lie within us,

and harbingers of that which we shall be in a condition to perform.

Whatever we are able and would like to do, presents itself to our

imagination, as without us and in the future; we feel a longing

after that which we already possess in secret. Thus a passionate

anticipating grasp changes the truly possible into a dreamed reality.

Now if such a bias lies decidedly in our nature, then, with every step

of our development will a part of the first wish be fulfilled--under

favourable circumstances in the direct way, under unfavourable in

the circuitous way, from which we always come back again to the

other. Thus we see men by perseverance attain to earthly wealth; they

surround themselves with riches, splendour, and external honour. Others

strive yet more certainly after intellectual advantages, acquire for

themselves a clear survey of things, a peacefulness of mind, and a

certainty for the present and the future.

But now there is a third direction, which is compounded of both, and

the issue of which must be the most surely successful. When, namely,

the youth of a man falls into a pregnant time, when production

overweighs destruction, and a presentiment is early awakened within

him as to what such an epoch demands and promises, he will then, being

forced by outward inducements into an active interest, take hold now

here, now there, and the wish to be active on many sides will be lively

within him. But so many accidental hindrances are associated with human

limitation, that here a thing, once begun, remains unfinished, there

that which is already grasped falls out of the hand, and one wish

after another is dissipated. But had these wishes sprung out of a pure

heart, and in conformity with the necessities of the times, one might

composedly let them lie and fall right and left, and be assured that

these must not only be found out and picked up again, but that also

many kindred things, which one has never touched and never even thought

of, will come to light. If now, during our own lifetime, we see that

performed by others, to which we ourselves felt an earlier call, but

had been obliged to give it up, with much besides; then the beautiful

feeling enters the mind, that only mankind together is the true man,

and that the individual can only be joyous and happy when he has the

courage to feel himself in the whole.

[Side-note: Study of German Architecture.]

This contemplation is here in the right place: for when I reflect

on the affection which drew me to these antique edifices, when I

reckon up the time which I devoted to the Strasburg minster alone,

the attention with which I afterwards examined the cathedral at

Cologne, and that at Freyburg, and more and more felt the value of

these buildings, I could even blame myself for having afterwards lost

sight of them altogether, nay, for having left them completely in the

background, being attracted by a more developed art. But when I now,

in the latest times, see attention again turned to those objects, when

I see affection and even passion for them appearing and flourishing,

when I see able young persons seized with this passion, recklessly

devoting powers, time, care, and property, to these memorials of a past

world, then am I reminded with pleasure that what I formerly would and

wished had a value. With satisfaction I see that they not only know

how to prize what was done by our forefathers, but that from existing

unfinished beginnings they try to represent, in pictures at least, the

original design, so as thus to make us acquainted with the thought,

which is ever the beginning and end of all undertakings; and that

they strive with considerate zeal to clear up and vivify what seems

to be a confused past. Here I especially applaud the gallant Sulpiz

Boisserée, who is indefatigably employed in a magnificent series of

copper-plates to exhibit the cathedral of Cologne as the model of those

vast conceptions, the spirit of which, like that of Babel, strove up

to heaven, and which were so out of proportion to earthly means, that

they were necessarily stopped fast in their execution. If we have been

hitherto astonished that such buildings proceeded only so far, we shall

learn with the greatest wonder what was really designed to be done.

May the literary-artistical undertakings of this kind be duly

patronized by all who have power, wealth, and influence, that the

great and gigantic views of our forefathers may be presented to our

contemplation, and that we may be able to form a conception of what

they dared to desire. The insight resulting from this will not remain

fruitless, and the judgment will, for once at least, be in a condition

to exercise itself on these works with justice. Nay, this will be done

most thoroughly, if our active young friend, besides the monograph

devoted to the cathedral of Cologne, follows out in detail the history

of our mediæval architecture. When whatever is to be known about the

practical exercise of this art is further brought to light, when the

art is represented in all its fundamental features by a comparison

with the Græco-Roman and the oriental Egyptian, little can remain to

be done in this department. And I, when the results of such patriotic

labours lie before the world, as they are now known in friendly private

communications, shall be able, with true content, to repeat that motto

in its best sense: "Whatever one wishes in youth, in old age one has

abundance."

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