CHAPTER XI

This our earth produces not only a sufficiency a superabundance, but in

one year pours a cornucopia of good things forth, enough to fill us for

many years in succession. The only reason we do not enjoy it is the

want of rational organisation. I know, of course, and all who think

know, that some labour or supervision will always necessary, since the

plough must travel the furrow and the seed must must be sown; but I

maintain that a tenth, nay, a hundredth, part of the labour and slavery

now gone through will be sufficient, and that in the course of time, as

organisation perfects itself and discoveries advance, even that part

will diminish. For the rise and fall of the tides alone furnish forth

sufficient power to do automatically all the labour that is done on the

earth. Is ideal man, then, to be idle? I answer that, if so, I see no

wrong, but a great good. I deny altogether that idleness is an evil, or

that it produces evil, and I am well aware why the interested are so

bitter against idleness—namely, because it gives time for thought, and

if men had time to think their reign would come to an end.

Idleness—that is, the absence of the necessity to work for

subsistence—is a great good.

I hope succeeding generations will be able to be ideal. I hope that

nine-tenths of their time will be leisure time; that they may enjoy

their days, and the earth, and the beauty of this beautiful world; that

they may rest by the sea and dream; that they may dance and sing, and

eat and drink. I will work towards that end with all my heart. If

employment they must have—and the restlessness of the mind will insure

that some will be followed—then they will find scope enough in the

perfection of their physical frames, in the expansion of the mind, and

in the enlargement of the soul. They shall not work for bread, but for

their souls. I am willing to divide and share all I shall ever have for

this purpose, though I think the end will rather be gained by

organisation than by sharing alone.

In these material things, too, I think that we require another circle

of ideas, and I believe that such ideas are possible, and, in a manner

of speaking, exist. Let me exhort every one to do their utmost to think

outside and beyond our present circle of ideas. For every idea gained

is a hundred years of slavery remitted. Even with the idea of

organisation which promises most I am not satisfied, but endeavour to

get beyond and outside it, so that the time now necessary may be

shortened. Besides which, I see that many of our difficulties arise

from obscure and remote causes—obscure like the shape of bones, for

whose strange curves there is no familiar term. We must endeavour to

understand the crookedness and unfamiliar curves of the conditions of

life. Beyond that still there are other ideas. Never, never rest

contented with any circle of ideas, but always be certain that a wider

one is still possible. For my thought is like a hyperbola that

continually widens ascending.

For grief there is no known consolation. It is useless to fill our

hearts with bubbles. A loved one gone is gone, and as to the

future—even if there is a future—it is unknown. To assure ourselves

otherwise is to soothe the mind with illusions; the bitterness of it is

inconsolable. The sentiments of trust chipped out on tombstones are

touching instances of the innate goodness of the human heart, which

naturally longs for good, and sighs itself to sleep in the hope that,

if parted, the parting is for the benefit of those that are gone. But

these inscriptions are also awful instances of the deep intellectual

darkness which presses still on the minds of men. The least thought

erases them. There is no consolation. There is no relief. There is no

hope certain; the whole system is a mere illusion. I, who hope so much,

and am so rapt up in the soul, know full well that there is no

certainty.

The tomb cries aloud to us—its dead silence presses on the drum of the

ear like thunder, saying, Look at this, and erase your illusions; now

know the extreme value of human life; reflect on this and strew human

life with flowers; save every hour for the sunshine; let your labour be

so ordered that in future times the loved ones may dwell longer with

those who love them; open your minds; exalt your souls; widen the

sympathies of your hearts; face the things that are now as you will

face the reality of death; make joy real now to those you love, and

help forward the joy of those yet to be born. Let these facts force the

mind and the soul to the increase of thought, and the consequent

remission of misery; so that those whose time it is to die may have

enjoyed all that is possible in life. Lift up your mind and see now in

this bitterness of parting, in this absence of certainty, the fact that

there is no directing intelligence; remember that this death is not of

old age, which no one living in the world has ever seen; remember that

old age is possible, and perhaps even more than old age; and beyond

these earthly things-what? None know. But let us, turning away from the

illusion of a directing intelligence, look earnestly for something

better than a god, seek for something higher than prayer, and lift our

souls to be with the more than immortal now.

A river runs itself clear during the night, and in sleep thought

becomes pellucid. All the hurrying to and fro, the unrest and stress,

the agitation and confusion subside. Like a sweet pure spring, thought

pours forth to meet the light, and is illumined to its depths. The dawn

at my window ever causes a desire for larger thought, the recognition

of the light at the moment of waking kindles afresh the wish for a

broad day of the mind. There is a certainty that there are yet ideas

further, and greater—that there is still a limitless beyond. I know at

that moment that there is no limit to the things that may be yet in

material and tangible shape besides the immaterial perceptions of the

soul. The dim white light of the dawn speaks it. This prophet which has

come with its wonders to the bedside of every human being for so many

thousands of years faces me once again with the upheld finger of light.

Where is the limit to that physical sign?

From space to the sky, from the sky to the hills, and the sea; to every

blade of grass, to every leaf, to the smallest insect, to the million

waves of ocean. Yet this earth itself appears but a mote in that

sunbeam by which we are conscious of one narrow streak in the abyss. A

beam crosses my silent chamber from the window, and atoms are visible

in it; a beam slants between the fir-trees, and particles rise and fall

within, and cross it while the air each side seems void. Through the

heavens a beam slants, and we are aware of the star-stratum in which

our earth moves. But what may be without that stratum? Certainly it is

not a void. This light tells us much, but I think in the course of time

yet more delicate and subtle mediums than light may be found, and

through these we shall see into the shadows of the sky. When will it be

possible to be certain that the capacity of a single atom has been

exhausted? At any moment some fortunate incident may reveal a fresh

power. One by one the powers of light have been unfolded.

After thousands of years the telescope opened the stars, the prism

analysed the substance of the sun, the microscope showed the minute

structure of the rocks and the tissues of living bodies. The winged men

on the Assyrian bas-reliefs, the gods of the Nile, the chariot-borne

immortals of Olympus, not the greatest of imagined beings ever

possessed in fancied attributes one-tenth the power of light. As the

swallows twitter, the dim white finger appears at my window full of

wonders, such as all the wise men in twelve thousand precedent years

never even hoped to conceive. But this is not all—light is not all;

light conceals more than it reveals; light is the darkest shadow of the

sky; besides light there are many other mediums yet to be explored. For

thousands of years the sunbeams poured on the earth, full as now of

messages, and light is not a hidden thing to be searched out with

difficulty. Full in the faces of men the rays came with their

intelligence from the sun when the papyri were painted beside the

ancient Nile, but they were not understood.

This hour, rays or undulations of more subtle mediums are doubtless

pouring on us over the wide earth, unrecognised, and full of messages

and intelligence from the unseen. Of these we are this day as ignorant

as those who painted the papyri were of light. There is an infinity of

knowledge yet to be known, and beyond that an infinity of thought. No

mental instrument even has yet been invented by which researches can be

carried direct to the object. Whatever has been found has been

discovered by fortunate accident; in looking for one thing another has

been chanced on. A reasoning process has yet to be invented by which to

go straight to the desired end. For now the slightest particle is

enough to throw the search aside, and the most minute circumstance

sufficient to conceal obvious and brilliantly shining truths. One

summer evening sitting by my window I watched for the first star to

appear, knowing the position of the brightest in the southern sky. The

dusk came on, grew deeper, but the star did not shine. By-and-by, other

stars less bright appeared, so that it could not be the sunset which

obscured the expected one. Finally, I considered that I must have

mistaken its position, when suddenly a puff of air blew through the

branch of a pear-tree which overhung the window, a leaf moved, and

there was the star behind the leaf.

At present the endeavour to make discoveries is like gazing at the sky

up through the boughs of an oak. Here a beautiful star shines clearly;

here a constellation is hidden by a branch; a universe by a leaf. Some

mental instrument or organon is required to enable us to distinguish

between the leaf which may be removed and a real void; when to cease to

look in one direction, and to work in another. Many men of broad brow

and great intellect lived in the days of ancient Greece, but for lack

of the accident of a lens, and of knowing the way to use a prism, they

could but conjecture imperfectly. I am in exactly the position they

were when I look beyond light. Outside my present knowledge I am

exactly in their condition. I feel that there are infinities to be

known, but they are hidden by a leaf. If any one says to himself that

the telescope, and the microscope, the prism, and other discoveries

have made all plain, then he is in the attitude of those ancient

priests who worshipped the scarabaeus or beetle. So, too, it is with

thought; outside our present circle of ideas I believe there is an

infinity of idea. All this that has been effected with light has been

done by bits of glass—mere bits of shaped glass, quickly broken, and

made of flint, so that by the rude flint our subtlest ideas are gained.

Could we employ the ocean as a lens, and force truth from the sky, even

then I think there would be much more beyond.

Natural things are known to us only under two conditions—matter and

force, or matter and motion. A third, a fourth, a fifth—no one can say

how many conditions—may exist in the ultra-stellar space, and such

other conditions may equally exist about us now unsuspected. Something

which is neither matter nor force is difficult to conceive, yet, I

think, it is certain that there are other conditions. When the mind

succeeds in entering on a wider series, or circle of ideas, other

conditions would appear natural enough. In this effort upwards I claim

the assistance of the soul—the mind of the mind. The eye sees, the mind

deliberates on what it sees, the soul understands the operation of the

mind. Before a bridge is built, or a structure erected, or an

interoceanic canal made, there must be a plan, and before a plan the

thought in the mind. So that it is correct to say the mind bores

tunnels through the mountains, bridges the rivers, and constructs the

engines which are the pride of the world.

This is a wonderful tool, but it is capable of work yet more wonderful

in the exploration of the heavens. Now the soul is the mind of the

mind. It can build and construct and look beyond and penetrate space,

and create. It is the keenest, the sharpest tool possessed by man. But

what would be said if a carpenter about to commence a piece of work

examined his tools and deliberately cast away that with the finest

edge? Such is the conduct of those who reject the inner mind or psyche

altogether. So great is the value of the soul that it seems to me, if

the soul lived and received its aspirations it would not matter if the

material universe melted away as snow. Many turn aside the instant the

soul is mentioned, and I sympathise with them in one sense; they fear

lest, if they acknowledge it, they will be fettered by mediæval

conditions. My contention is that the restrictions of the mediæval era

should entirely be cast into oblivion, but the soul recognised and

employed. Instead of slurring over the soul, I desire to see it at its

highest perfection.

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