ONE day a friend of mine was making a sketch of my Knight of the Sheep.
The old man’s daughter was sitting by, and, when the conversation
drifted to love and love-making, she said, ‘Oh, father, tell him
about your love affair.’ The old man took his pipe out of his mouth,
and said, ‘Nobody ever marries the woman he loves,’ and then, with
a chuckle, ‘there were fifteen of them I liked better than the
woman I married,’ and he repeated many women’s names. He went on to
tell how when he was a lad he had worked for his grandfather, his
mother’s father, and was called (my friend has forgotten why) by his
grandfather’s name, which we will say was Doran. He had a great friend,
whom I shall call John Byrne; and one day he and his friend went to
Queenstown to await an emigrant ship, that was to take John Byrne
to America. When they were walking along the quay, they saw a girl
sitting on a seat, crying miserably, and two men standing up in front
of her quarrelling with one another. Doran said, ‘I think I know what
is wrong. _That_ man will be her brother, and _that_ man will be her
lover, and the brother is sending her to America to get her away from
the lover. How she is crying! but I think I could console her myself.’
Presently the lover and brother went away, and Doran began to walk up
and down before her, saying, ‘Mild weather, Miss,’ or the like. She
answered him in a little while, and the three began to talk together.
The emigrant ship did not arrive for some days; and the three drove
about on outside cars very innocently and happily, seeing everything
that was to be seen. When at last the ship came, and Doran had to break
it to her that he was not going to America, she cried more after him
than after the first lover. Doran whispered to Byrne as he went aboard
ship, ‘Now, Byrne, I don’t grudge her to you, but don’t marry young.’
When the story got to this, the farmer’s daughter joined in mockingly
with, ‘I suppose you said that for Byrne’s good, father.’ But the
old man insisted that he _had_ said it for Byrne’s good; and went
on to tell how, when he got a letter telling of Byrne’s engagement
to the girl, he wrote him the same advice. Years passed by, and he
heard nothing; and though he was now married, he could not keep from
wondering what she was doing. At last he went to America to find out,
and though he asked many people for tidings, he could get none. More
years went by, and his wife was dead, and he well on in years, and a
rich farmer with not a few great matters on his hands. He found an
excuse in some vague business to go out to America again, and to begin
his search again. One day he fell into talk with an Irishman in a
railway carriage, and asked him, as his way was, about emigrants from
this place and that, and at last, ‘Did you ever hear of the miller’s
daughter from Innis Rath?’ and he named the woman he was looking for.
‘Oh yes,’ said the other, ‘she is married to a friend of mine, John
MacEwing. She lives at such-and-such a street in Chicago.’ Doran went
to Chicago and knocked at her door. She opened the door herself, and
was ‘not a bit changed.’ He gave her his real name, which he had taken
again after his grandfather’s death, and the name of the man he had
met in the train. She did not recognize him, but asked him to stay to
dinner, saying that her husband would be glad to meet anybody who knew
that old friend of his. They talked of many things, but for all their
talk, I do not know why, and perhaps he did not know why, he never told
her who he was. At dinner he asked her about Byrne, and she put her
head down on the table and began to cry, and she cried so he was afraid
her husband might be angry. He was afraid to ask what had happened to
Byrne, and left soon after, never to see her again.
When the old man had finished the story, he said, ‘Tell that to Mr.
Yeats, he will make a poem about it, perhaps.’ But the daughter said,
‘Oh no, father. Nobody could make a poem about a woman like that.’
Alas! I have never made the poem, perhaps because my own heart which
has loved Helen and all the lovely and fickle women of the world, would
be too sore. There are things it is well not to ponder over too much,
things that bare words are the best suited for.
1902.