VI

Next day he put his work aside and devoted himself whole-heartedly to

the lonely child. It was not only duty now. She had stirred his love

and pity from the first. They would get on together. Unconsciously, by

saying the very thing to win him--‘Uncle, _how_ the Place must love

you!’--she had struck the fundamental tone that made the three of them

in harmony, and set the whole place singing. The sense of an intruding

trespasser had vanished. The Place accepted her.

It was only later that he realised this completely and in detail,

though on looking back he saw clearly that the verdict had been given

instantly. For no revision changed it. ‘I’m all right here with

Uncle,’ was the child’s quick intuition, meeting his own halfway:--‘We

three are all right here together.’ For she leaped upon his beloved

dream-estate and made it seem twice as wild and living as before. She

delighted in its loneliness and mystery. She clapped her hands and

laughed, pointed and asked questions, made her eyes round with wonder,

and, in a word, put her own feelings from the start into each nook

and corner where he took her. There was no shyness, no confusion; she

made herself at home with a little air of possession that, instead of

irritating as it might have done, was utterly enchanting. It was like

the chorus of approval that increases a man’s admiration for the woman

he has chosen.

She brought her own interpretations, too, yet without destroying his

own. They even differed from his own, yet only by showing him points

and aspects he had not realised. The child saw things most oddly from

another point of view. From the very first she began to say astonishing

things. They piqued and puzzled him to the end, these things she said.

He felt they unravelled something. In his own mind the personality of

the Place and the memory of his wife had become confused and jumbled,

as it were. Mánya’s remarks and questions disentangled something. Her

child’s divination cleared his perceptions with a singular directness.

She had strong in her that divine curiosity of children which is as far

removed from mere inquisitiveness as gold-dust from a vulgar-finished

ornament. Wonder in her was vital and insatiable, and some of these

questions that he could not answer stirred in him, even on that first

day of acquaintance, almost the sense of respect.

Morning and afternoon they spent together in visiting every corner

of the woods and valleys; no inch was left without inspection; they

followed the stream from the moorlands to the Mill, plunged through

the bracken, leaped the high tufts of heather, and scrambled together

down the precipitous sand-pits. She did not jump as well as he did,

but showed equal recklessness. And the depths of shadowy pinewood made

her hushed and silent like himself. In her childish way she _felt_ the

wild charm of it all deeply. Not once did she cry ‘How lovely’ or ‘How

wonderful’; but showed her happiness and pleasure by what she did.

‘Better than yesterday, eh?’ he suggested once, to see what she would

answer, yet sure it would be right.

She darted to his side. ‘That was all stuffed,’ she said, laconically

as himself, and making a wry face. And then she added with a grave

expression, half anxious and half solemn, ‘Fancy, if _that_ got in! Oh,

Uncle!’

‘Couldn’t,’ he comforted himself and her, delighted secretly.

But it was on their way home to tea in the dusk, feeling as if they

had known one another all their lives, so quickly had friendship been

cemented, that she said her first genuinely strange thing. For a long

time she had been silent by his side, apparently tired, when suddenly

out popped this little criticism that showed her mind was actively

working all the time.

‘Uncle, you _have_ been busy--keeping it so safe. I suppose you did

most of it at night.’

He started. His own thoughts had been travelling in several directions

at once.

‘I don’t walk in my sleep,’ he laughed.

‘I mean when the stars are shining,’ she said. She felt it as

delicately as that, then! She felt the dream quality in it. ‘I mean, it

loves you best when the sun has set and it comes out of its hole,’ she

added, as he said nothing.

‘Mánya, it loves you too--already,’ he said gently.

Then came the astonishing thing. The voice was curious; the words

seemed to come from a long way off, taking time to reach him. They took

time to reach her too, as though another had first whispered them. It

almost seemed as though she listened while she said them. A sense of

the uncanny touched him here in the shadowy dark wood:

‘It’s a woman, you see, really, and that’s why you’re so fond of it.

That’s why it likes me too, and why I can play with it.’

The amazing judgment gave him pause at once, for he felt no child

ought to know or say such things. It savoured of precociousness, even

of morbidity, both of which his soul loathed. But reflection brought

clearer judgment. The sentence revealed something he had already been

very quick to divine, namely, that while the ordinary mind in her was

undeveloped, backward, almost stunted, by her bringing up, another part

of her was vividly aware. And this other part was taught of Nature;

it was the fairy thing that children had the right to know. She stood

close to the earth. Landscape and scenery brought her vivid impressions

that fairy-tales, rather stupidly, translate into princes and

princesses, ogres, giants, dragons. Mánya, having been denied the fairy

books, personified these impressions after her own fashion. What was

it after all but the primitive instinct of early races that turned the

moods of Nature into beings, calling them gods, or the instinct of a

later day that personified the Supreme, calling it God? He himself had

‘felt’ in very imaginative moments that bits of scenery, as with trees

and even the heavenly bodies, could actually express such differences

of temperament, seem positive or negative, almost male or female. And

perhaps, in her original, child’s fashion, she felt it too.

Then Mánya interrupted his reflections with a further observation that

scattered his philosophising like an explosion. Something, as he heard

it, came up close and brushed him. It made him start.

‘In some places, you see, Uncle, I feel shy all over. But here I could

run about naked. I could undress.’

He burst out laughing. Instinctively he felt this was the best thing he

could do. A sympathetic answer might have meant too much, yet silence

would have made her feel foolish. His laughter turned the idea in her

little mind all wholesome and natural.

‘Play here to your heart’s content, for there’s no one to disturb

you,’ he cried. ‘And when I’m too busy,’ he added, thinking it a happy

inspiration, ‘Mrs. Coove can----’

‘Oh,’ she interrupted like a flash, ‘but she’s too bulgey. She could

never jump like you, for one thing.’

‘True.’

‘Or play hide-and-seek. She couldn’t fit in anywhere. She’d never be

able to hide, you see.’

And so they reached the house, like two friends who had found suddenly

a new delight in life, and sat down to an enormous tea, with jam,

buttered muffins, and a stodgy indigestible cake straight from the

oven. His tea hitherto had consisted of one cup and two pieces of thin

bread and butter. But the appetite of twenty-five had come back again.

A new joy of life had come back with it. After so many years of

brooding, dreaming, solitary working, he had grown over solemn, the

sense of fun and humour atrophying. He had erected barriers between

himself and all his kind, hedged himself in too much. The arrival of

this child brought new impetus into the enclosure. Without destroying

what imagination had prized so long, she shifted the old values into

slightly different keys. Already he caught his thoughts running forward

to construct her future--what she might become, how he might help her

to develop spiritually and materially--yes, materially as well. His

thoughts had hitherto run chiefly backwards.

This need not, indeed could not, involve being unfaithful to the past.

But it did mean looking ahead instead of always looking back. It was

more wholesome.

Yet what dawned upon him--rather, what chiefly struck him out of his

singular observations perhaps, was this: not only that the Place had

whole-heartedly accepted her, but that she had instantly established

some definite relation with it that was different to his own. It was

even deeper, truer, more vital than his own; for it was somehow more

natural. It had been discovered, though already there; and it was not,

like his own, built up by imaginative emotion. Hence came his notion

that she disentangled something; hence the respect he felt for her from

the start; hence, too, the original, surprising things she sometimes

said.

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