Already people are beginning to forget the queer fevers that ran through

the British community in 1913. For example there was the violent unrest

of the women. That may exercise the historian in the future profoundly.

Probably he will question the facts. Right up to the very outbreak of

the war there was not a week passed without some new ridiculous outrage

on the part of the militant suffragettes. Now it was a fine old church

would be burnt, now a well-known country house; now the mania would take

the form of destroying the letters in pillar-boxes, now the attack was

upon the greens of the golf links. Public meetings ceased to be public

meetings because of the endless interruptions by shrill voices crying

“Votes for women!” One great triumph of the insurgents was a raid with

little hammers upon the west-end shop-windows. They burnt the tea

pavilion in Kew Gardens, set fire to unoccupied new buildings,

inaugurated a campaign of picture-slashing at the public exhibitions.

For a time they did much mischief to the cushions and fittings of

railway carriages. Churches had to be locked up and museums closed on

account of them. Poor little Pelham Ford church had had to buy a new

lock against the dangers of some wandering feminist. And so on and so

on. But this revolt of the women was more than a political revolt. That

concentration upon the Vote was the concentration of a vast confused

insurgence of energy that could as yet find no other acceptable means of

expression. New conditions had robbed whole strata of women of any

economic importance, new knowledge had enormously diminished the need

for their domestic services, the birth-rate had fallen, the marriage age

had risen, but the heedless world had made no provision for the vitality

thus let loose. The old ideals of a womanly life showed absurd in the

light of the new conditions. Why be pretty and submissive when nobody

wants you? Why be faithful with no one to be faithful to? Why be devoted

in a world which has neither enough babies nor lovers nor even its old

proportion of helpless invalids to go round? Why, indeed, to come to the

very heart of the old ideal, keep chaste when there is no one to keep

chaste for? Half the intelligent women in that world had stood as Joan

had done, facing their own life and beauty and asking desperately “What

is the Good of it?”

But while the old nets rotted visibly, there were no new nets being

woven. There was everywhere the vague expectation of new nets, of a new

comprehensiveness, a new way of life, but there was no broad movement

towards any new way of life. Everywhere the old traditions and standards

and institutions remained, discredited indeed and scoffed at, but in

possession of life. Energetic women were reaching out in a mood of the

wildest experiment towards they knew not what. It was a time of chaotic

trials. The disposition of the first generation of released women had

been towards an austere sexlessness, a denial of every feminine

weakness, mental and physical, and so by way of Highmorton and hockey to

a spinsterish, bitter competition with men. A few still bolder spirits,

and Aunt Phœbe Stubland was among these pioneers, carried the

destructive “Why not?” still further. Grant Allen’s _Woman Who Did_ and

Arthur’s infidelities were but early aspects of a wide wave of

philoprogenitive and eugenic sentimentality. The new generation carried

“why not?” into the sphere of conduct with amazing effect.

Women are the custodians of manners, and mothers and hostesses who did

not dream of the parallelism of their impulse with militancy, were

releasing the young to an unheard-of extravagance of dress and festival.

Joan could wear clothes at a Chelsea dance that would have shocked a

chorus girl half a century before; she went about London in the small

hours with any casual male acquaintance; so far as appearances went she

might have been the most disreputable of women. She yielded presently to

Huntley’s persistence and began dancing the tango with him. It was the

thing to slip away from a dance in slippers and a wrap, and spend an

hour or so careering about London in a taxi or wandering on Hampstead

Heath. Joan’s escapades fretted the sleeping tramps upon the Thames

Embankment. London, which had hitherto dispersed its gatherings about

eleven and got to bed as a rule by midnight, was aspiring in those days

to become nocturnal. The restaurants were obliged to shut early, but a

club was beyond such regulations. Necessity created the night club,

which awoke about eleven and closed again after a yawning breakfast of

devilled bones.

A number of night clubs were coming into existence, to the particular

delight of young Winterbaum. His boyish ambition for Joan was returning.

He had seen her dance and heard her dancing praised. Vulgar people made

wild vulgar guesses in his hearing at what lay behind her grave and

sometimes sombre prettiness. He pretended to be very discreet about

that. It became the pride of his life to appear at some crowded night

club in possession of Joan; he did not know what people thought of her

or of him but he hoped for the worst. He wore the most beautiful buttons

on his white waistcoat and the most delicate gold chain you can imagine.

In the cloakroom he left a wonderful overcoat and a wonderful cane.

Sometimes he encouraged the ringlets in his hair and felt like Disraeli,

and sometimes he restrained them and felt like a cold, cynical

Englishman of the darker sort. He would sit swelling with pride beside

Joan, and nod to painted women and heavy men; he knew no end of people.

He did not care what sort of people they were so long as he knew them.

It was always his ambition to be seen drinking champagne with Joan. Joan

had no objection in the world, but she could not bring herself to

swallow a drink that tasted, she thought, like weak vinegar mixed with a

packet of pins and that went up your nose and made your brain swing

slowly to and fro on its axis for the rest of the evening. So she just

drank nothing at all.

She would sit at her table with her pretty bare arms folded under her

like the paws of a little cat, with her face, that still had the

delicacy and freshness of a child’s, as intent as any intelligent

child’s can be on the jumble of people before her, and her sombre eyes,

calm and beautiful, looking at smart London trying at last to take its

pleasures gaily. Perhaps some fortunate middle-aged gentleman of

Winterbaum’s circle would be attempting to charm her by brilliant

conversation, as, for instance Sir Joseph Lystrom, with a full-mouthed

German flavour in his voice, in this style: “Pretty cheap here this

evening somehow, eh? _What?_” Somewhere in the back of Sir Joseph’s mind

was the illusion that by barking in this way and standing treat

profusely, lay the road to a girl’s young love. Somewhen perhaps—who

knows?—he may have found justification for that belief. Joan had long

since learnt how to turn a profile to these formal attentions, and

appear to be interested without hearing or answering a word.

Or sometimes it would be Huntley. Huntley had lately taken to dodging

among the night clubs to which he had access, when Joan was in London.

Usually such nights ended in futility, but occasionally he was lucky and

found Joan. Then he would come and talk and suggest ideas to her. He

still remained the most interesting personality in her circle. She

pretended to Winterbaum and herself to be bored by his pursuit, but

indeed she looked for it. Except for Winterbaum and Huntley and

Winterbaum’s transitory introductions, she remained a detached figure in

these places. Sometimes quite good-looking strangers sat a little way

off and sought to convey to her by suitable facial expression the growth

of a passionate interest in her. She conveyed to them in return that

they were totally invisible to her, resisting at times a macabre

disposition to take sights at them suddenly and amazingly or put out her

tongue. Sometimes women of the great Winterbaum circle would make a fuss

of her. They called her a “dear child.” They would have been amazed at

the complete theoretical knowledge a dear child of unrestricted reading

could possess of them and their little ways.

“So this is the life of pleasure,” thought the dear child. “_Well!_”

And then that same question that Peter seemed always to be asking of

Oswald: “Is this _all_?”

When she danced in these places she danced with a sort of contempt. And

the sage, experienced men who looked at her so knowingly never realized

how much they imagined about her and how little they knew.

She would sit and think how indecent it was to be at the same time old

and dissipated. Some of these women here, she perceived, were older than

her aunts Phœbe and Phyllis, years older. Their faces were painted and

done most amazingly—Joan knew all about facial massage and the rest of

it—and still they were old faces. But their poor bodies were not nearly

so old as their faces, that was the tragedy of them. Joan regarded the

tremendous V decolletage of a lively grandmother before her, and the

skin of the back shone as young as her own. The good lady was slapping

the young gentleman next to her with a quite smooth and shapely arm.

Joan speculated whether the old fashion of the masked ball and the

Venetian custom of masks which she had been reading about that day in

Voltaire’s _Princesse de Babylone_, might not have something to do with

that. But—she reverted—only young people ought to make love at all. Her

aunts didn’t; Oswald didn’t. And Oswald was years younger than some of

the men here, and in Joan’s eyes at least far more presentable. He had a

scarred face indeed but a clean skin; some of the old men here had skins

one would shiver to touch, and the expressions of evil gargoyles. She

let her thoughts dwell—not for the first time—on Oswald and a queer

charm he had for her. Never in all her life had she known him do or say

a mean, dishonest, unjust, or unkind thing. In some ways he was oddly

like Peter, but wise and gentle—and not exasperating....

But all this playing with love in London was detestable, all of it. This

was really a shameful place. It was shameful to be here. Love—mixed up

with evening dress and costly clothes and jewellery and nasty laughter

and cigars, strong cigars and drink that slopped about. It was

disgusting. These people made love after their luncheons and dinners and

suppers. Pigs! They were all pigs. They looked like pigs. If ever she

made love it should be in the open air, in some lovely place with blue

mountains in the distance, where there were endless wild flowers, where

one could swim. No man she had ever talked with of love had really

understood anything of the beauty of love and the cleanness of

love—except Mir Jelaluddin. And he had a high-pitched voice and a

staccato accent—and somehow.... One ought not to be prejudiced against a

dark race, but somehow it was unthinkable....

Joan sat in the night club dreaming of a lover, and the men about her

glanced furtively at her face, asking themselves, “Can it be I?” men

with red ears, men with greasy hair, men with unpleasing necks and

clumsy gestures; bald men, fat men, watery-eyed men, cheats, profiteers,

usurers, snobs, toadies, successful old men of every sort and young men

who had done nothing and for the most part never would. “Can it be I?”

they surmised dimly, seeing her pensive eyes. And she was dreaming of a

lithe, white, slender figure, strong and clean. He would hunt among the

mountains, he would swim swift rivers; he would never drink strong drink

nor reek of smoke....

At this moment young Winterbaum became urgent with his beautiful gold

cigarette case. Joan took a cigarette and lighted it, and sat smoking

with her elbows side by side on the table.

“You’re not bored?” said young Winterbaum.

“Oh, no. I’m watching people. I don’t want to talk.”

“Oh! not at all?” said young Winterbaum.

“So long as one has to talk,” he said after reflection and with an air

of cleverness, “one isn’t really friends.”

“Exactly,” said Joan, and blew smoke through her nose.

What was it she had been thinking about? She could not remember, the

thread was broken. She was sorry. She had a vague memory of something

pleasant.... She fell into a fresh meditation upon Jews. All Jews, she

thought, ought to grow beards. At least after they were thirty. They are

too dark to shave, and besides there is a sort of indignity about their

beaked shaven faces. A bearded old Jew can look noble, a moustached old

Jew always looked like an imitation of a Norman gentleman done in

cheaper material. But that of course was exactly what he was....

Why did men of forty or fifty always want to dance with and make love to

flappers? Some of these girls here must be two or three years younger

than herself. What was the interest? They couldn’t talk; they weren’t

beautiful; one could see they weren’t beautiful. And they laughed, good

God! how they laughed! Girls ought to be taught to laugh, or at any rate

taught not to laugh offensively. Laughter ought to be a joyful,

contagious thing, jolly and kind, but these shrieks! How few of these

people looked capable of real laughter! They just made this loud

chittering sound. Only human beings laugh....

In this manner the mind of Joan was running on the evening when she saw

Peter and Hetty come into the club which tried to live up to the name of

“The Nest of the Burning Phœnix.” Some tango experts had just

relinquished the floor and there was a space amidst the throng when

Hetty made her entry. Hetty had made a great effort, she was in full

London plumage, and her effect was tremendous.

About her little bold face was a radiant scheme of peacock’s feathers,

her slender neck carried a disc a yard and a quarter wide; her slender,

tall body was sheathed in black and peacock satin; she wore enormous

earrings and a great barbaric chain. Her arms were bare except for a

score of bangles, and she had bare sandalled feet. She carried her arrow

point of a chin triumphantly. Peter was not her only attendant. There

was also another man in her train whom every one seemed to recognize, a

big, square-faced, handsome man of thirty-five or so who made Peter look

very young and flimsy. “She’s got Fred Beevor!” said Winterbaum with

respect, and dropped the word “Million.” Peter’s expression was stony,

but Joan judged he was not enjoying himself.

There were very few unoccupied chairs and tables, but opposite Joan were

two gilt seats and another disengaged at a table near at hand. Hetty was

too busy with her triumph to note Joan until Beevor had already chosen

this place. With a slight awkwardness the two parties mingled. Young

Winterbaum at least was elated. Beevor after a few civilities to Joan

let it appear that Hetty preoccupied him. Peter was evidently not

enjoying himself at all. Joan found him seated beside her and silent.

Joan knew that it is the feminine rôle to lead conversation, but it

seemed to her rather fun to have to encourage a tongue-tied Peter. A

malicious idea came into her head.

“Well, Petah,” she said; “why don’t you say I oughtn’t to be here?”

Peter regarded her ambiguously. He had an impulse.

“No decent people ought to be here,” he said quietly. “Let’s go home,

Joan.”

Her heart jumped at the suggestion. All her being said yes. And then she

remembered that she had as much right to have a good time as Peter. If

she went back with him it would be like giving in to him; it would be

like admitting his right to order her about. And besides there was

Hetty. He wasn’t really disgusted. All he wanted to do really was to

show off because he was jealous of Hetty. He didn’t want to go home with

Joan. She wasn’t going to be a foil for Hetty anyhow. And finally, once

somewhere he had refused her almost exactly the same request. She

checked herself and considered gravely. A little touch of spite crept

into her expression.

“No,” she said slowly. “No.... I’ve only just come, Petah.”

“Very well,” said Peter. “_I_ don’t mind. If you like this sort of

thing——”

He said no more, sulking visibly.

Joan resolved to dance at the first opportunity, and to dance in a bold

and reckless way—so as thoroughly to exasperate Peter. She looked about

the room through the smoke-laden atmosphere in the hope of seeing

Huntley....

She and Peter sat side by side, feeling very old and experienced and

worldly and up-to-date. But indeed they were still only two children who

ought to have been packed off to bed hours before.

§ 7

The disorder in the world of women, the dissolution of manners and

restraints, was but the more intimate aspect of a universal drift

towards lawlessness. The world of labour was seething also with the same

spirit of almost aimless insurrection. In a world of quickened

apprehensions and increasing stimulus women were losing faith in the

rules of conduct that had sufficed in a less exacting age. Far

profounder and more dangerous to the established order were the

scepticisms of the workers. The pretensions of the old social system

that trade unionism had scarcely challenged were now being subjected

throughout all western Europe to a pitiless scrutiny by a new and more

educated type of employé.

The old British trade unionism had never sought much more than increased

wages and a slightly higher standard of life; its acceptance of

established institutions had been artlessly complete; it had never

challenged the authority nor the profits of the proprietor. It had never

proposed more than a more reasonable treaty with the masters, a fairer

sharing of the good gifts of industry. But infatuated by the evil

teachings of an extreme individualism, a system of thought which was

indeed never more than a system of base excuses dressed up as a

philosophy, the directing and possessing classes had failed altogether

to agree with their possible labour adversary quickly while they were

yet in the way with him. They had lacked the intelligence to create a

sympathetic industrial mentality, and the conscience to establish a

standard of justice. They left things alone until the grit of a formless

discontent had got into every cog of the industrial machinery. Too late,

the employers were now conceding the modest demands that labour had made

in the ’eighties and ’nineties, they were trying to accept the offers of

dead men; they found themselves face to face with an entirely less

accommodating generation. This new labour movement was talking no longer

of shorter hours and higher pay but of the social revolution. It did not

demand better treatment from the capitalist; it called him a profiteer

and asked him to vanish from the body politic. It organized strikes now

not to alter the details of its working conditions as its predecessor

had done, but in order to end the system by making it impossible. In

Great Britain as on the Continent, the younger generation of labour was

no longer asking to have the harness that bound it to the old order made

easier and lighter; it was asking for a new world.

The new movement seemed to men of Oswald’s generation to come as

thunderstorms will sometimes come, as the militant suffragette had

seemed to come, suddenly out of a clear sky. But it was far more ominous

than the suffragette movement, for while that made one simple explicit

demand, this demanded nothing short of a new economic order. It asked

for everything and would be content with nothing. It was demanding from

an old habitual system the supreme feat of reconstruction. Short of that

vague general reconstruction it promised no peace. Higher wages would

not pacify it; shorter hours would not pacify it. It threatened sabotage

of every sort, and a steady, incessant broadening antagonism of master

and man. Peter, half sympathetic and half critical, talked about it to

Oswald one day.

“They all say, ’I’m a Rebel!’” said Peter. “’Rebel’ is their cant word.”

“Yes, but rebel against what?”

“Oh! the whole system.”

“They have votes.”

“They get humbugged, they say. They do, you know. The party system is a

swindle, and everybody understands that. Why don’t we clean it up?

P.R.’s the only honest method. They don’t understand how it is rigged,

but they know it is rigged. When you talk about Parliament they laugh.”

“But they have their Unions.”

“They don’t trust their leaders. They say they are got at. They say they

are old-fashioned and bluffed by the politicians.... They are....”

“Then what do they want?”

“Just to be out of all this. They are bored to tears by their work, by

the world they have to live in, by the pinched mean lives they have to

lead—in the midst of plenty and luxury—bored by the everlasting dulness

and humbug of it all.”

“But how are they going to alter it?”

“That’s all vague. Altogether vague. Cole and Mellor and those Cambridge

chaps preach Guild Socialism to them, but I don’t know how far they take

it in—except that they agree that profit is unnecessary. But the

fundamental fact is just blind boredom and the desire to smash up

things. Just on the off chance of their coming better. The employer has

been free to make the world for them, and this is the world he has made.

Damn him! That’s how they look at it. They are bored by his face, bored

by his automobile, bored by his knighthood, bored by his country house

and his snob of a wife——”

“But what can they do?”

“Make things impossible.”

“They can’t run things themselves.”

“They aren’t convinced of that. Anyhow if they smash up things the

employer goes first, and he’s the chap they seem to be principally

after——”

Peter reflected. Then he gave a modern young Englishman’s view of the

labour conflict. “The employers have been pretty tidy asses not to see

that their workpeople get a better, more amusing life than they do. It

was their business and their interest to do so. It could have been

managed easily. But they’re so beastly disloyal. And so mean. They not

only sweat labour themselves but they won’t stir a finger to save it

from jerry-built housing, bad provisioning, tally-men, general ugliness,

bad investments, rotten insurance companies—every kind of rotten old

thing. Any one may help kill _their_ sheep. They’ve got no gratitude to

their workers. They won’t even amuse them. Why couldn’t they set up

decent theatres for them, and things like that? It’s so stupid of them.

These employers are the most dangerous class in the community. There’s

enough for every one nowadays and over. It’s the first business of

employers to see workpeople get their whack. What good are they if they

don’t do that? But they never have. Labour is convinced now that they

never will. They run about pretending to be landed gentry. They’ve got

their people angry and bitter now, they’ve destroyed public confidence

in their ways, and it serves them jolly well right if the workmen make

things impossible for them. I think they will. I hope they will.”

“But this means breaking up the national industries,” said Oswald.

“Where is this sort of thing going to end?”

“Oh! things want shaking up,” said Peter.

“Perhaps,” he added, “one _must_ break up old things before one can hope

for new. I suppose the masters won’t let go while they think there’s a

chance of holding on....”

He had not a trace left of the Victorian delusion that this might after

all be the best of all possible worlds. He thought that our politicians

and our captains of industry were very poor muddlers indeed. They

drifted. Each one sat in his own works, he said, and ran them for profit

without caring a rap whither the whole system was going. Compared with

Labour even their poverty of general ideas was amazing. Peter, warming

with his subject, walked to and fro across the Pelham Ford lawn beside

Oswald, proposing to rearrange industrialism as one might propose to

reshuffle a pack of cards.

“But suppose things smash up,” said Oswald.

“Smash up,” did not seem to alarm Peter.

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