THE TRUTH.
A bleak autumnal afternoon, a gray, fast-drifting sky overhead, a raw
wind sweeping up from the shore, the sea itself all blurred and blotted
out in the chilly, creeping fog. At the parlor-window of Sea View
Cottage, Norine stands looking wistfully, wearily out. Three weeks have
passed since her husband left her--it is seven weeks altogether since
the memorable night of her elopement. These last three, lonely weeks
have wrought their sad, inevitable change. The small face has grown
smaller the large dark eyes seem unnaturally large for the wan face. A
sad, patient light fills them. The slight form has grown fragile, the
hands that hang loosely clasped before her are almost transparent. As
she stands here watching, waiting, she slips, unconsciously, her wedding
ring up and down her finger. So thin that finger has grown that every
now and then the ring drops loosely off altogether. Within, it is
pleasant enough. A fire burns brightly in the grate, Miss Waddle's
canaries bask in the heat, singing blithely, and the younger Miss Waddle
sits at her desk immersed as usual, fathoms deep in ink, and romance.
The inspiration of genius is evidently strong upon the younger Miss
Waddle this afternoon, for her pen rushes madly along the paper, her
hair is uncombed and twisted in a tight knot at the back of her head.
Profound stillness reigns, the ticking of the clock the purring of puss
on the rug, the chirping of the canaries, the light fall of the cinders,
the sighing of the fitful wind, and the monotonous scrape, scrape,
scrape, of the literary lady's pen--that is all.
At last--
"There!" cries the younger Miss Waddle, drawing a deep, intense breath
of relief, "I've done with you for one day! Let the printer's devil come
when he likes, I'm ready for him."
She nods at the blotted and scratched pile of MSS., wipes her pen in her
hair, falls back in her chair, and looks at the clock.
"Half-past five, as I'm a sinner, and the kitchen fire not lit yet.
'Lizabeth will be home to her tea at six, as hungry as a bear. A minute
ago I was writing up the sayings and doings of dukes and duchesses, now
I must go and kindle the kitchen stove. Such is life--with authoresses,
but a step from the sublime to the ridiculous. Mrs. Laurence, my dear
child, it's of no use your straining the eyes out of your head. Whether
there's a letter for you or not, my sister won't be here with it for the
next half hour."
Norine clasped her hands.
"Oh!" she said, "surely, there will be a letter for me to-day."
"I hope so, I'm sure. It's uncommonly odd Mr. Laurence doesn't write,
but then, as a rule, I believe men hate letter writing. Maybe he's on
his way here and doesn't think it worth while--it will come out all
right, depend upon it. So cheer up, Mrs. Laurence, my dear, and don't
wear that woful face. You've grown as thin as a shadow during the last
two weeks. You must take care or your handsome husband will be
disenchanted when he sees that pallid countenance. Tell you what, Mrs.
Laurence, you ought to have something to do."
"Something to do?" Norine said faintly.
"Something to do, my dear--sewing, drawing, playing, reading,
writing--anything but moping about this way--waiting, waiting, waiting,
and getting the horrors. It doesn't fetch him any the sooner, nor a
letter from him either, and it is just killing you by inches. What a
pity now," said the younger Miss Waddle, gathering up her manuscript in
a heap, "that you couldn't write a story. You couldn't, I suppose?"
"I am afraid not," Norine replied, smiling. "I am not at all clever in
any way. I only wish I could write stories and earn money as you do."
"Yes, it's very nice and handy," said the younger Miss Waddle, "when
you're not 'respectfully declined.' _I_ have been 'respectfully
declined' oftener than I like to think of. But I am going to make a hit
this time, if I die for it."
"Yes," said Norine, gazing in respectful awe at the smeary looking pile
of writing; "what do you call it?"
"This," said the authoress, slapping her hand on the heap, "is my first
novel, to run in serial form in the _Flag of the Free_. Its name is the
'Demon Dentist; or the Mystery of the Double Tooth!' What do you think
of that?"
"The Demon--_what_?" asked Mrs. Laurence, rather aghast.
"'The Demon Dentist.' The title is rather a striking one, I think, and
Sir Walter Scott says a good name is half the battle. And, I flatter
myself, the plot is as original as the title. Lord Racer, only son of
the Earl of Greenturf, the hero of the story, steals the Lemon stone,
the magnificent family diamond, and hides it--where do you think? Why he
goes to the Demon Dentist, gets his wisdom tooth excavated, buries it in
the cavernous depths of the molar, has it cemented up again, and there
it is! Search is made, but no one thinks of looking in Lord Racer's
lower jaw, of course. Wilkie Collins has written a novel about a man who
steals a diamond in his sleep, but I rather think my idea is a step
ahead of Mr. Wilkie Collins. Finally the Demon Dentist murders Lord--oh
gracious me! here's 'Lizabeth, and tea not ready."
Miss Waddle the younger jumped up in consternation, scuttled the "_Demon
Dentist_," headforemost, into her desk, and made a rush for the kitchen,
as Miss Waddle the elder opened the parlor door.
Norine took a step forward, her face flushing, her eyes kindling with
eager hope, her breath coming quick. She did not speak a word, and one
glance into Miss Waddle's pitying face answered that breathless look.
"No letter yet, Mrs. Laurence," she said very gently. "I waited for the
mail."
She did not speak a word. She sat down suddenly, sick--sick to the very
heart with the bitter sense of the disappointment. The flush faded from
her face, the light from her eyes; she drew a long, dry, sobbing breath,
folded her arms on the table and laid her face upon them.
"Poor little soul!" thought the elder Miss Waddle looking at her in
silent compassion. "What brutes men are."
Miss Waddle's experience of the nobler sex was limited, but her
sentiment in the main was a correct one. It was peculiarly correct in
the present instance, for since that morning three weeks ago, when
Laurence Thorndyke had left Sea View Cottage, not a word, not a message,
not a letter had come from him. How the lonely, longing girl left in the
dull little house, watched and waited, and prayed, and grew sick to the
soul, as now, with disappointment, only those who have watched and
waited in vain, for the one they love best on earth, can know.
Was he sick--was he dead--was he faithless. Why, why, _why_ did he not
write?
They were the two questions that never left the girl's mind. She lost
the power to sleep or eat, a restless fever held her. She spent her
days, the long, vapid, sickening days, gazing down the road he must
come, the nights in wakeful, frightened thought. The one event of the
twenty-four dreary hours, was the coming home of the elder Miss Waddle
from Chelsea; the one hope that upheld her, the hope that each day she
would bring her a letter. All this long, bleak day she had lived on that
one feverish hope, and now she was here, and there was none--none!
The moments wore on. She lay there prostrate, crushed, never moving or
lifting her head. Miss Waddle the elder bent over her with tears of
compassion and indignation in her kindly, spinster eyes.
"Dear child," she said, "don't take on like this. Who knows what
to-morrow may bring? And if it brings nothing, there isn't a man on
earth worth breaking your poor heart for, as you're doing. They're a set
of selfish, heartless wretches, every one--every blessed one!" said the
elder Miss Waddle, vindictively; "so come along and have a cup of tea,
and don't pine yourself to death for him. I daresay, if the truth were
known, he's not pining much for you."
Norine lifted her face--such a sad, pathetic, patient little face.
"Don't, Miss Waddle," she said, "you mean well, I am sure, but I can't
bear it. He does not intend to forget or neglect me. He is ill--I know
that. He is ill, and I don't know where he is, or how to go to him. No,
I don't wish any tea, a mouthful of food would choke me, I think. I will
go down to the beach instead. I--I would rather be alone."
The gentle lips quivered, the gentle voice trembled over the loyal,
wifely words. Not neglectful, not faithless, only ill, and unable to
write--she crushed every other thought out of her heart but that. She
rose, took her hat, and quitted the room. Miss Waddle looked after her,
and shook her head dismally.
"Poor dear!" she thought, "only ill, indeed! Mr. Laurence, if that be
his name, is a very good-looking young man, and there, it's my opinion,
the young man's goodness begins and ends. He may not have deserted her,
but it looks uncommonly like it. Why, he was tired of her before they
were here a week."
Then Miss Waddle, the elder, went and took "tired Nature's sweet
restorer, balmy"--tea, and Mrs. Laurence, with all hope and life crushed
out of her fair young face, went down along the sands, where so often in
the first happy days they had wandered together. Only seven weeks ago
since she had left all for him--friends, home, lover, truth and
honor--why, it seemed years to look back upon. She felt old and worn and
tired--a horrible creeping fear clutched her heart. Why did he not
write--why did he not come?
She reached the little grassy hillock and sat down, too weak and
spiritless, even to walk on. Cold and gray, the twilight was falling,
cold and gray spread the low lying twilight sky, cold and gray the dim
sea melted into it in the distance, cold and gray like her life. It was
very lonely, no human being besides herself was to be seen, not even a
sea bird skimmed the sullen waters. With her hands folded in her lap,
her sad, yearning eyes fixed on the dreary sea, she sat still, thinking,
thinking. Why did he not write--why did he not come?
Suddenly, coming as if from the cottage, a figure appeared in view, the
solitary figure of a man, moving rapidly toward her over the sands. She
looked up quickly, uttered a faint cry of recognition and hope. As he
had come abruptly upon them once before, Mr. Liston came abruptly upon
her again. Then it had been to bear her darling away from her--now it
was to bring her news of him, she knew.
She did not rise to meet him. Her heart beat so fast with alternate hope
and fear that for an instant she turned faint. In that instant he was
beside her. He lifted his hat.
"Mrs. Laurence?" he said, interrogatively, "they told me at the house I
should find you here. They wished to call you in, but this is a better
place for our meeting, so I sought you out."
She made a breathless, impatient gesture.
"You have a letter for me?" she said, hurriedly; "he sent you--he is
well?"
"He sent me--yes. And he is well--oh, yes. I have a note for you, too,
from him, but I will not show it to you just yet, if you will allow me.
My dear young lady, I have come--he has sent me on a very hard and
embarrassing errand, indeed."
Something in the man's face, in the man's tone, even more than his
words, made her look quickly up. To his dying day, James Liston never
forgot the haunted, terrified look in those dilating, dark eyes. She
laid her hand over her fast beating heart, and spoke with an effort.
"He is well, you say?" she panted.
"He is well, Mrs. Laurence. It were better for you he were dead."
"Sir!" she cried, the light leaping to her eyes, the flush to her face;
"how dare you! He is my husband--how dare you say such a thing to me!"
"He is not your husband."
The low, level, monotonous voice spoke the dreadful words, the small,
light, glimmering eyes were fixed immovably upon her with a look,
half-contemptuous, half-compassionate, in their depths.
She rose slowly to her feet, and stood blankly staring at him. Was the
man mad?
"Not my--" she paused irresolute. Should she run away from this madman
or stand her ground. "Give me my letter!" she said, angrily; "I have
nothing more to say to _you_!"
"Because I tell you Laurence Thorndyke is not your husband? My child, it
is true."
His tone was solemn--his face full of compassion. What a child she was,
he was thinking; how she loved him. What was there about this young
fellow that women should give up all that made their lives most dear,
for his sake?
"I told you, Mrs. Laurence, I have been sent here on a hard and painful
errand. He sent me. 'Conscience makes cowards of us all.' He is a coward
as well as a villain, and he had not the courage to face you himself.
You have been watching and waiting for his return, I know. Watch and
wait no longer; you will never see Laurence Thorndyke again."
A cry broke from her lips--a cry that rang in his ears his life long--a
cry not loud, but exceedingly bitter.
"In Heaven's name, speak and tell me what is it you mean?"
"_This_: You are not a wife--Laurence Thorndyke never married you. He
deceived and betrayed you from the first; he has deserted you forever at
the last. That is the task he has set me. I am but a poor diplomat to
break bad news, as they call it, to any one, so I blurt out the truth at
once. After all, it is the same in the end. He never meant to marry
you--he never cared for you enough. He hated Richard Gilbert--that was
the beginning and end of it. He hated Gilbert, Gilbert loved you, and
was about to make you his wife; to revenge himself on Gilbert, he went
back to Kent Hill and carried you off. He knew you loved him, and it
would not be a difficult task. It seems easy enough for all women to
love Laurence Thorndyke."
The last words, spoken more to himself than to her, were full of
bitterness. A great stillness had fallen upon her--her eyes were fixed
on his face, her own strained and fixed.
"Go on," she said, her teeth set hard.
"He took you away--how, you know best, and in Boston that mockery of
marriage was gone through. Miss Bourdon the man Maggs was an actor, not
a clergyman, a besotted drunkard, whom fifty dollars at any time would
buy, rotten body and a filthy soul. 'She is as green as the fields she
came from'; that is what Thorndyke said to Maggs, 'as innocent as her
native daisies. She'll never know the difference, but she's one of the
sort that will love a fellow to desperation, and all that sort of thing,
and cry like a water-spout at parting, but who won't listen to a word
without her wedding ring. Let her have her wedding ring--always take a
short cut on a journey if you can.' So you got your wedding ring, and
without license or witnesses, and by a half-drunken actor a sham
ceremony was gone through. You were married to the scoundrel, for the
sake of whose handsome face you gave up home and friends, and the love
and honor of such a man as Richard Gilbert--one of the best and noblest
men America holds to-day!"
The hand, pressed over her heart, clutched it tighter, as if in a spasm
of uncontrollable pain.
"Go on," she said again.
"There's not much to tell. He brought you here, and in a week was bored
to death and sick of it all. He was only too glad of the chance to go,
and--he will never come back. Here is his note--read it--here is the
money he gave me, to pay your board and take you back to your home in
Maine. He thinks it is the best thing you can do."
With all the color stricken out of her face--dumb, still, white,
tearless, and rigid, she had been standing in her awful despair. But at
these last words she came back suddenly as it were from the dead.
"He said _that_?" she asked hoarsely. "He told you to take me back
there--like this?"
"He did."
"My curse upon him--my curse follow him through life!"
The man before her actually recoiled. She had uplifted one arm, and in
the gathering darkness of the night, she stood before him white and
terrible. So, for a second--then she came back to herself, and tore open
the note. Only half a dozen brief lines--the tragedies of life are ever
quickly written.
"Believe all that Liston tells you. I have been the greatest scoundrel
on earth to you, my poor Norine. I don't ask you to forgive me--that
would not be human, I only ask you to go and--if you can--forget."
"L. T."
No more. She looked up--out over the creeping night, on the sea, over
the lonely, white sands, and stood fixed and mute. The letter she had
looked for, longed for, prayed for, she had got at last!
In the dead stillness that followed, Mr. Liston felt more uncomfortable,
perhaps, then he had ever felt before in the whole course of his life.
In sheer desperation he broke it.
"You are not angry with me, I hope, Mrs. Laurence; I am but his uncle's
servant--when I am ordered I must obey. He was afraid to write all this;
it would be a very damaging confession to put on paper, so he sent me.
You are not angry with me?"
She put her hand to her head in a lost, dazed sort of way.
"Angry with you? Oh, no--why should I be? My head feels
strange--dizzy,--I don't want to hear any more to-night. I think I will
go home."
She turned slowly. He stood watching her with an anxious face. What he
knew would come, came. She had walked some dozen yards, then
suddenly--without warning, word or sound, she fell heavily, face
downward, like a stone.