GONE.
Laurence Thorndyke strode rapidly back over the sands to where Norine
stood. She had not gone into the house, she was leaning against a green
mound, her hands hanging listlessly before her, the white, startled
change on her face still. Laurence was going away--in an aimless sort of
manner she kept repeating these words over and over, Laurence was going
away!
"I've made a devil of a mess of it," thought Mr. Thorndyke, gnawing his
mustache with gloomy ferocity. "What an unmitigated ass I have been in
this business! Liston's right--a mock marriage is no joke. I can make my
escape from her now, but the truth's got to be told, and that soon. And
what is to hinder her taking her revenge and blowing me sky-high, as I
deserve? One whisper of this affair, and Darcy disinherits me, Helen
jilts me, and then--good Heaven above! what a fool I have been."
Yes, Mr. Thorndyke had been a fool, and was repenting in sackcloth and
ashes. To gratify a passing fancy for a pretty face may be a very
pleasing thing--to take revenge upon a man who has interfered with one's
little plans, may also be a pleasing thing, but to cut off one's own
nose to spite one's own face, is something one is apt to regret
afterwards. It was Mr. Thorndyke's case. He had taken Richard Gilbert's
bride from him at the very altar, as one may say, and he had gloated
over his vengeance, but what was to hinder Norine Bourdon from rising,
strong in her wrongs and betrayal, and ruining him for life? She was the
gentlest, the most yielding of human beings now, and she loved him; but
is it not those whom we have once loved best, we learn afterwards to
hate most bitterly? He had cruelly, shamefully wronged and deceived
her--what right had he to look for mercy in return? As he had sown, so
must he reap.
She scarcely turned at his approach. How pale she was, and the large
dark eyes she lifted were full of a child's startled terror.
"Norine," he abruptly began, "there is no help for it--I must go to New
York to-morrow."
Her lips trembled a little.
"To-morrow," she repeated, under her breath---"so soon!"
"Rather short notice, I admit, but then you see it--it isn't for a
lifetime. All husbands and wives part once in a while and survive it.
Come, Norine," with irritated impatience, "don't wear that woe-begone
face! I'm not to blame, I can't help it. You don't suppose I want to
leave you. But here's Liston--my uncle's man. You heard him yourself.
You saw the letter commanding my return."
"The letter," she repeated, looking at him; "there were two!"
"Ah--yes--two, so there were. But the other was merely a note from a
friend. I leave at noon to-morrow, so see that my valise is packed, and
everything all right, that's a good child. And do try to get rid of that
white, reproachful face, unless you want it to haunt me like the face of
a ghost."
He spoke with irritated petulance--at war with her, with himself, and
his smouldering ill-temper breaking forth. It was the first time he had
ever spoken sharply to her. A faint flush rose to her cheeks. She
clasped both hands around his arm and looked up in his moody,
discontented face with piteous imploring eyes.
"Don't be vexed, Laurence; I don't mean to reproach you, indeed, and I
know you cannot help it. Only, dear, I love you so much, and--and it is
our first parting, and I have been so happy here--so happy here--"
For a minute her voice broke, and she laid her face against his
shoulder.
Mr. Thorndyke smothered a suppressed groan.
"O Jupiter! here it is! Tears, and scenes and hysterics. I knew how it
would be, they all will do it, every chance. Norine!"--aloud and still
impatient--"for pity's sake, don't cry--it's something I can't stand.
Here! I'll throw my uncle, his fortune and favor, and all the hopes and
ambitions of my life to the winds, and stay here, and bill and coo, all
the rest of my life. If I can't go in peace I won't go at all."
She lifted her head as if he had struck her. Something in his tone, in
his words, in his face, dried her tears effectually, at once and
forever.
"I beg your pardon, Laurence," she said, suddenly, in an altered voice.
"I won't cry any more. Shall I go and pack your valise now or leave it
until to-morrow morning?"
He glanced at her uneasily. The dark, soft eyes looked far away seaward,
the delicate lips had ceased to tremble, the small handsome face had
grown resolutely still. What manner of woman he wondered, was this girl
going to make?
"Norine! You are not offended?"
"Offended--with you, Laurence? No, that is not possible."
"You love me so much, Norine?"
"I have given you proof whether I love you or no. I am your wife."
"Yes, of course, of course!" hastily; "but Norine--see here--suppose in
the future I did some great wrong--deserted you for instance--no, no!
don't look at me like that--this is only a suppositious case, you know!"
The large dark eyes were fixed full upon him. He laughed in rather a
flurried way, and his own shifted and fell.
"Go on," she said.
"Suppose I deserted you, and it was in your power to take revenge, you
would hate me and take it--would you not?"
Into the dark, tender eyes there leaped a light--into the youthful,
gentle face there came a glow--around the soft-cut, childlike mouth
there settled an expression entirely new to Laurence Thorndyke. One
little hand clenched unconsciously--she caught her breath for a second,
hard.
"Yes," she said, "I would!"
The answer staggered him--literally and truly staggered him. He had not
expected it--he had looked for some outbreak of love, some tender,
passionate protest.
"Norine!" he cried, "you would! Do you know what you are saying? You
would hate me, and ruin me for life if you could?"
She looked at him full.
"If you deserted me, would you not hate me? Would I not be ruined for
life? And does not the Book of books say: 'An eye for an eye, a tooth
for a tooth, a life for a life.' Yes, Laurence--if I did not go mad and
die, I would hate you more then I love you now, and be revenged if I
could!"
Then there was a silence. He had grown pale as herself, and stood quite
motionless looking at the sea. He knew what he had to expect at last.
Norine was still clinging to his arm. He disengaged it abruptly, and
without a word or look, walked away from her. A moment she stood--then
two little hands clasped the arm once more, a pleading voice spoke, and
the sweet, tender face of Norine looked imploringly up at him.
"Laurence--dearest Laurence! I have angered you again. But you asked me
a question and I had to answer it. Forgive me."
He turned away from her resolutely.
"There is no forgiveness needed, Norine. I admire your truthful and
plain-spoken spirit. Only you see I thought Norine Bourdon a loving,
gentle, forgiving little soul, who cared for me so much that she was
ready to forgive me seventy-times-seven, and I find, according to her
own showing, she is a strong-minded woman, ready to wreak vengeance for
the first wrong done her--ready for love or hatred at a moment's notice.
It is well you told me--it is always best to understand one another. No,
we won't have any tender scenes, if you please, Mrs. Laurence--I have
found out exactly what they are worth." He pulled out his watch. "I have
business over in Boston, and as it is growing late I will be off at
once. If I am very late--as is likely--I must beg you will not sit up
for me. Good-afternoon."
He lifted his hat ceremoniously, as to an indifferent acquaintance, and
walked deliberately away.
She stood stock still where he had left her, and watched the tall,
active figure out of sight. Then she sat down, feeling suddenly weak and
faint, and lay back against the green mound. For a moment sea, and sky,
and sands swam before her in a hot mist, and then the faintness passed
away, leaving her tearless and trembling.
What did he mean?
He had talked of deserting her? Did he mean it? A hand of ice seemed to
clutch her heart at the thought. No no, no! he had only been trying
her--proving what her love was worth. And she had answered him like that
she would hate him and be revenged. He had called her a "strong-minded
woman,"--a term of bitter reproach--and no wonder. No wonder he was
angry, hurt, outraged. Why had she said such a horrible thing? She
hardly knew herself--the words seemed to have come to her instinctively.
Were they true? She did know that either--just now she knew nothing but
that Laurence had left her in anger for the first time, that he would
probably not return until to-morrow morning, the fateful to-morrow that
was to take him from her for--how long?
She broke down then, and laying her face against the soft, cool grass,
gave way to a storm of impassioned weeping, that shook her like a reed.
"The strong-minded woman" was gone, and only a child that had done wrong
and is sorry--a weak girl weeping for her lost lover, remained.
The afternoon waned, the twilight fell, the wind arose chilly from the
sea. And pallid as a spirit, shivering in the damp air, silent and
spiritless, the younger Miss Waddle found her when she came to call her
in to supper.
She drank her tea thirstily, but she could eat nothing. Immediately
after the lonely meal, she hastened to her room, and throwing a shawl
around her, sat down in the easy chair by the window to watch and wait.
He had told her not to sit up for him--it would annoy him probably to be
disobeyed, but she could not go to bed, for in the darkness and the
quiet, lying down, she knew how she would toss wakefully about until she
had thought herself into a fever.
Night fell. Outside the sea spread black, away until it melted into the
blacker sky. The wind sighed fitfully, the stars shone frostily bright.
Inside, the little piano in the parlor, played upon by the elder Miss
Waddle, after her day's teaching, made merry music. In the intervals,
when it was silent, the younger Miss Waddle read chapters aloud from her
latest novel. Ten, eleven struck, then the parlor lights went out, doors
were locked, and the Misses Waddle went up stairs to their maiden
slumbers.
The pale little watcher by the window sat on, hoping against hope. He
might come, and be it late or early she must be awake and waiting, to
throw herself into his manly arms and implore his lordly pardon. She
could never sleep more until she had sobbed out her penitence and been
forgiven. But the long, dark, dragging, lonely hours wore on. One, two,
three, four, and the little, white, sad face lay against the cold glass,
the dark, mournful eyes strained themselves through the murky gloom to
catch the first glimpse of their idol. Five! the cold gray dawn of
another day crept over sea and woodland, and worn out with watching,
chilled to the bone, the child's head fell back, the heavy eyelids
swayed and drooped, and she lay still.
So, when two hours later Mr. Laurence Thorndyke, smelling stronger than
ever of cigars and brandy, as the younger Miss Waddle's disgusted nose
testified, came into the silent chamber, he found her. The pretty head,
with all its dark, rippling ringlets, lay against the back of the chair,
the small face looked deathly in its spent sleep. She had watched and
waited for him here all night. And remembering how, over the card table
and the wine bottle, his night had been passed, utterly forgetful of
her, the first pang of real unselfish remorse this young gentleman had
ever felt, came to him then.
"Poor little heart!" he thought; "poor little, pretty Norine. I wish to
Heaven I had never heard of Gilbert's projected marriage--I wish I had
never gone back to Kent Farm."
Five hours later, and white and tearless, Norine is clinging to him in
the speechless pain of parting. Is there some presentiment, that she
herself cannot understand, even now in her heart, that it is forever?
"Don't--_don't_ look so white and wild, Norry," he is saying hurriedly.
"I wish, I wish I need not leave you. Little one--little Norry, whatever
happens, you--you'll try and forgive me, won't you? Don't hate me if you
can help it."
She does not understand him--she just clings to him, as though death
were easier than to let him go.
"Time's up, Mr. Laurence!" calls out the sharp voice of little Mr.
Liston, sitting in the light wagon at the door; "if you linger five
minutes more we'll lose our train."
"Good-by, Norine--good-by!"
He is glad to be called, glad to break away from the gentle arms that
would hold him there forever. He kisses her hurriedly, frees himself
from her clasp, and leaves her standing stricken and speechless in the
middle of the floor.
"Thank Heaven that's over!" he says, almost savagely, "drive like the
devil, Liston! I won't breath freely until I am out of sight of the
house."
Mr. Liston obeys.
She stands where he has left her, rigid, tearless, white, listening to
the rapid roll of the wheels over the gravel, over the road, growing
faint and fainter, and dying out far off. Then she sinks down, and she
and her lover have parted forever.