Chapter LVI.

The Monastery.

It being Lady Ruthven's wish that the remains of her brother should be

entombed with his ancestors, preparations were made for the mournful

cavalcade to set forth toward Braemar Castle. The countess, hoping

that Wallace might be induced to accompany them, did not long object to

this proposal, which Lady Ruthven had enforced with tears. Had any one

seen the tow, and been called upon to judge, by their deportment, of

the relationship in which each lady stood to the deceased, he must have

decided that the sister was the widow. At the moment of her husband's

death, Lady Mar had felt a shock; she had long looked for this event,

as to the seal of her happiness; it was the sight of mortality that

appalled her. The man she doted on, nay, even herself, must one day

lie as the object now before her--dead!-insensible to all earthly joys,

or pains! but awake, perhaps, fearfully awake, to the judgments of

another world! This conviction caused her shrieks, when she saw Lord

Mar expire. Every obstacle between her and Wallace she now believed

removed. Her husband was dead; Helen was carried away by a man

devotedly enamored of her; and most probably was at that time his wife.

The specters of conscience passed from her eyes; she no longer thought

of death and judgment; and, under a pretense that her feelings could

not bear the sight of her husband's bier, she determined to seclude

herself in her own chamber, till the freshness of Wallace's grief for

his friend should have passed away. But when she heard, from the

indignant Edwin, of the rebellious conduct of the young Lord Badenoch,

and that the regent had abdicated, her consternation superseded all

caution. "I will soon humble that proud boy," exclaimed she; "and let

him know, that in opposing the elevation of Sir William Wallace, he

treads down his own interest. You are beloved by the regent, Edwin!"

cried she, interrupting herself, and clasping his hand with

earnestness; "teach his enthusiastic heart the true interests of his

country! I am the first woman of the house of Cummin; and is not that

family the most powerful** in the kingdom? By the adherence of one

branch to Edward, the battle of Falkirk was lost; by the rebellion of

another, the regent of Scotland is obliged to relinquish that dignity?

It is in my power to move the whole race at my will; and if Wallace

would mingle his blood with theirs, would espouse me (an overture which

the love I bear my country impels me to make), every nerve would then

be strained to promote the elevation of their nearest kinswoman.

Wallace would reign in Scotland, and the whole land lie at peace."

**The family of Cummin was so powerful and numerous, that an incredible

number of chieftains of that name attended the first parliament which

Robert I. Held at Dunstaffnage Castle. The relationship between the

heiress of Stratheaarn and that family was very near, her paternal

grandmother having been the daughter of a Lord Badenoch.--(1809.)

Edwin eyed her with astonishment while she spoke. All her late conduct

to his cousin Helen, to his uncle, and to Wallace, was now explained;

and he saw in her flushed cheek, that it was not the patriot who

desired this match, but the enamored woman.

"You do not answer," said she; "have you any apprehension that Sir

William Wallace would reject the hand which would give him a crown?

which would dispense happiness to many thousand people?"

"No," replied he; "I believe that, much as he is devoted to the memory

of her, whom alone he can ever love, could he purchase true happiness

to Scotland by the sacrifice, he would espouse any virtuous woman who

could bring him so blessed a dowry. But in your case, my honored aunt,

I can see no probability of such a consequence. In the first place, I

know, that now the virtuous Earl of Badenoch is no more, he neither

respects nor fears the Cummins; and that he would scorn to purchase a

crown or even the people's happiness, by baseness in himself. To rise

by their means, who, you have seen, will at any time immolate all that

is sacred to man to their own caprice, or fancied interests, would be

unworthy of him; therefore, I am sure, if you wish to marry Sir William

Wallace, you must not urge the use he may make of the Cummins as an

argument. He need not stoop to cajole the men he may command. Did he

not drive the one-half of their clan, with the English host to boot, to

seek any shelter from his vengeance? And for them in the citadel, had

he chosen to give the word, they would now be all numbered with the

dust! Aunt! he has a Divine Master, whose example he follows, though

in deep humility! He lays down his power; it is not taken from him.

Earthly crowns are dross to him who looks for a heavenly one.

Therefore, honored lady, believe it no longer necessary to wound your

delicacy, by offering him a hand, which cannot produce the good you

meditate!"

The complexion of the countess varied a thousand times during this

answer. Her reason assented to many parts of it; but the passion she

could not acknowledge to her nephew, urged her to persist. "You may be

right, Edwin," she replied; "but still, as there is nothing very

repugnant in me, the project is surely worth trying! At any rate, even

setting the Cummins aside, a marriage with the daughter of Strathearn,

by allying your noble friend to every illustrious house in the kingdom,

would make his interest theirs, and all must unit in retaining to him

the regency. Scotland will be wrecked should he leave the helm; and,

sweet Edwin, though your young heart is yet unacquainted with the

strange inconsistencies of the tenderest passion, I must whisper you

that your friend will never be happy till he again live in the bosom of

domestic affection."

"Ah! but where is he to find it?" cried Edwin, "what will ever restore

his Marion to his arms?"

"I," cried she-"I will be more than ever Marion was to him! She knew

not--O! she could not--the boundless love that fills my heart for him!"

Edwin's blushes at this wild declaration told her how far she had

betrayed herself. She attempted to palliate what she could no longer

conceal, and, covering her face with her hand, exclaimed, "You, who

love Sir William Wallace, cannot be surprised that all who adore human

excellence should participate in that sentiment. How could I see him,

the benefactor of my family, the blessing to all Scotland, and not love

him?"

"True," replied Edwin; "but not as a wife would love her husband! You

were married. And was it possible you could feel thus when my uncle

lived? So strong a passion cannot have grown in your breast since he

died; for surely, love should not enter a widow's heart at the side of

an unburied husband!"

"Edwin!" replied she, "you, who never felt the throbs of this tyrant,

judge with a severity you will one day regret. When you love, and

struggle with a passion that drinks your very life, you will pity

Joanna of Mar, and forgive her!"

"I pity you now, aunt," replied he; "but you bewilder me. I cannot

understand the possibility of a virtuous married woman suffering any

passion of this kind to get such domination over her as to cause her

one guilty sigh; for guilty must every wish be that militates against

the duty of her marriage vow. Surely, love comes not in a whirlwind,

to seize the soul at once; but grows by degrees, according to the

development of the virtues of the object, and the freedom we give

ourselves in their contemplation--and, if it be virtue that you love in

Sir William Wallace, had you not virtue in your noble husband?"

The countess perceived by the remarks of Edwin than he was deeper read

in the human heart than she had suspected; that he was neither ignorant

of the feelings of the passion, nor of what ought to be its source; and

therefore, with a deep blush, she replied:

"Think for a moment before you condemn me. I acknowledge every good

quality that your uncle possessed--but oh! Edwin, he had frailties that

you know not of--frailties that reduced me to be, what the world never

saw, the most unhappy of women."

Edwin turned pale at this charge against his uncle; and, while he

forbore to draw aside the veil which covered the sacred dead, little

did he think that the artful woman meant a frailty to which she had

equally shared, and the consequences of which dangerous vanity had

constrained her to become his wife. She proceeded:

"I married your uncle when I was a girl, and knew not that I had a

heart. I saw Wallace; his virtues stole me from myself, and I found--

In short, Edwin, your uncle became of too advanced an age to sympathize

with my younger heart. How could I, then, defend myself against the

more congenial soul of your friend? He was reserved during Mar's life!

but he did not repulse me with unkindness. I therefore hope; and do

you, my Edwin, gently influence him in my favor, and I will forever

bless you."

"Aunt," answered he, looking at her attentively, "can you, without

displeasure, hear me speak a few, perhaps ungrateful, truths?"

"Say what you will," said she, trembling; "only be my advocate with the

noblest of human beings, and I can take naught amiss."

"Lady Mar," resumed he, "I answer you with unqualified sincerity,

because I love you, and venerate the memory of my uncle, whose

frailties, whatever they might be, were visible to you alone. I answer

you with sincerity, because I would spare you much future pain, and Sir

William Wallace a task that would pierce him to the soul. You confess

that he already knows you love him--that he has received such

demonstrations with coldness. Recollect what it is you love him for,

and then judge if he could do otherwise. Could he approve affections

which a wife transferred to him from her husband, and that husband his

friend?"

"Ah! but he is now dead!" interrupted she; "that obstacle is removed."

"But the other, which you raised yourself!" replied Edwin; "while a

wife, you showed to Sir William Wallace that you could not only indulge

yourself in wishes hostile to your nuptial faith, but divulge them to

him. Ah! my aunt, what could you look for as the consequence of this?

My uncle yet lived when you did this! And that act, were you youthful

as Hebe, and more tender than ever was fabled the queen of love, I am

sure, the virtue of Wallace would never pardon. He never could pledge

his faith to one whose passions had so far silenced her sense of duty;

and did he even love you, he would not, for the empire of the world,

repose his honor in such keeping."

"Edwin!" cired she, at last summoning power to speak, for during the

latter part of this address she had sat gasping from unutterable

disappointment and rage; "are you not afraid to breathe all this to me?

I have given you my confidence and do you abuse it? Do you stab me,

when I ask you to heal?"

"No, my dear aunt," replied he; "I speak the truth to you, ungrateful

as it is, to prevent you hearing it in perhaps a more painful form from

Wallace himself."

"Oh, no!" cried she, with contemptuous haughtiness; "he is a man, and

he knows how to pardon the excesses of love! Look around you, foolish

boy, and see how many of our proudest lords have united their fates

with women who not only loved them while their husbands lived, but left

their homes and children to join their lovers! And what is there in

me, a princess of the crowns of Scotland and of Norway--a woman who has

had the nobles of both kingdoms at her feet, and frowned upon them

all-that I should now be contemned? Is the ingrate for whom alone I

ever felt a wish of love--is he to despise me for my passion? You

mistake, Edwin; you know not the heart of man."

"Not of the common race of men, perhaps," replied he; "but certainly

that of Sir William Wallace. Purity and he are too sincerely one for

personal vanity to blind his eyes to the deformity of the passion you

describe. And mean as I am when compared with him, I must aver that,

were a married woman to love me, and seek to excuse her frailty, I

should see alone her contempt of the principles which are the only

impregnable bulwarks of innocence, and shrink from her as I would from

pollution."

"Then you declare yourself my enemy, Edwin?"

"No," replied he; "I speak to you as a son; but if you are determined

to avow to Sir William Wallace what you have revealed to me, I shall

not even observe on what has passed, but leave you, unhappy lady, to

the pangs I would have spared you."

He rose. Lady Mar wrung her hands in a paroxysm of conviction that

what he said was true.

"Then, Edwin, I must despair?"

He looked at her with pity.

"Could you abhor the dereliction that your soul has thus made from

duty, and leave him, whom your unwidowed wishes now pursue, to seek

you; then I should say that you might be happy; for penitence appeases

God, and shall it not find grace with man?"

"Blessed Edwin," cried she, falling on his neck, and kissing him;

"whisper but my penitence to Wallace; teach him to think I hate myself.

Oh, make me that in his eyes which you would wish, and I will adore

you on my knees?"

The door opened at this moment, and Lord Ruthven entered. The tears

she was profusely shedding on the bosom of his son, he attributed to

some conversation she might be holding respecting her deceased lord,

and taking her hand, he told her he came to propose her immediate

removal from the scene of so many horrors.

"My dear sister," said he, "I will attend you as far as Perth. After

that, Edwin shall be your guard to Braemar, and my Janet will stay with

you there till time has softened your griefs."

Lady Mar looked at him.

"And where will be Sir William Wallace?"

"Here," answered Ruthven. "Some considerations, consequent to his

receiving the French dispatches, will hold him some time longer south

of the Forth."

Lady Mar shook her head doubtfully, and reminded him that the chiefs in

the citadel had withheld the dispatches.

Lord Ruthven then informed her that, unknown to Wallace, Lord Loch-awe

had summoned the most powerful of his friends then near Stirling, and

attended by them, was carried on a littler into the citadel. It

entered the council-hall, and from that bed of honorable wounds, he

threatened the assembly with instant vengeance from his troops without,

unless they would immediately swear fealty to Wallace, and compel

Badenoch to give up the French dispatches. Violent tumults were the

consequence; but Loch-awe's litter being guarded by a double rank of

armed chieftains, and the keep being hemmed round by his men prepared

to put to the sword every Scot hostile to the proposition of their

lord, the insurgents at last complied, and forced Badenoch to

relinquish the royal packet. This effected, Loch-awe and his train

returned to the monastery. Wallace refused to resume the dignity he

had resigned, the reinvestment of which had been extorted from the

lords in the citadel.

"No," said he to Loch-awe; "it is indeed time that I should sink into

shades where I cannot be found, since I am become a word of contention

amongst my countrymen."

"He was not to be shaken," continued Ruthven; "but seeing matter in the

French dispatches that ought to be answered without delay, he yet

remains a few days at Falkirk."

"Then we will await him here," cried the countess.

"That cannot be," answered Ruthven, "it would be against ecclesiastical

law to detain the sacred dead so long from the grave. Wallace will

doubtless visit Braemar, therefore I advise that to-morrow you leave

Falkirk."

Edwin seconded this counsel; and fearing to make further opposition,

she silently acquiesced. But her spirit was not so quiescent. At

night when she went to her cell, her ever wakeful fancy aroused a

thousand images of alarm. She remembered the vow that Wallace had made

to seek Helen. He had already given up the regency--an office which

might have detained him from such a pursuit; and might not a passion

softer than indignation against the ungrateful chieftains have dictated

this act? "Should he love Helen, what is there not to fear?" cried

she; "and should he meet her, I am undone?" Racked by jealousy, and

goaded by contradicting expectations, she rose from her bed and paced

the room in wild disorder. One moment she strained her mind to

recollect every gracious look or word from him, and then her

imagination glowed with anticipated delight. Again she thought of his

address to Helen, of his vow in her favor, and she was driven to

despair. All Edwin's kind admonitions were forgotten; passion alone

was awake; and forgetful of her rank and sex, and of her situation, she

determined to see Wallace, and appeal to his heart for the last time.

She knew that he slept in an apartment at the other end of the

monastery; and that she might pass thither unobserved, she glided into

an opposite cell belonging to a sick monk, and stealing away his cloak,

threw it over her, and hurried along the cloisters.

The chapel doors were open. In passing, she saw the bier of her lord

awaiting the hour of its removal, surrounded by priests, singing

anthems for the repose of his soul. No tender recollections, no

remorse, knocked at the heart of Lady mar as she sped along. Abandoned

all to thoughts of Wallace, she felt not that she had a soul; she

acknowledged not that she had a hope, but what centered in the smiles

of the man she was hastening to seek.

His door was fastened with a latch; she gently opened it, and found

herself in his chamber. She trembled--she scarcely breathed; she

looked around; she approached his bed--but he was not there.

Disappointment palsied her heart, and she sunk upon a chair. "Am I

betrayed?" said she to herself: "Has that youthful hypocrite warned him

hence?" And then again she thought, "But how should Edwin guess that I

should venture here? Oh, no, my cruel stars alone are against me!"

She now determined to await his return, and nearly three hours she had

passed there, enduring all the torments of guilt and misery; but he

appeared not. At last, hearing the matinbell, she started up, fearful

that her maids might discover her absence. Compelled by some regard to

reputation, with an unwilling mind she left the shrine of her idolatry,

and once more crossed the cloisters. While again drawing toward the

chapel, she saw Wallace himself issue from the door, supporting on his

bosom the fainting head of Lady Ruthven. Edwin followed them. Lady

Mar pulled the monk's cowl over her face and withdrew behind a pillar.

"Ah!" thought she, "absenting myself from my duty, I fled from thee!"

She listened with breathless attention to what might be said.

Lord Ruthven met them at that instant. "This night's watching by the

bier of her brother," said Wallace, "has worn out your gentle lady; we

strove to support her through these sad vigils, but at last she sunk."

What Ruthven said in reply, when he took his wife in his arms, the

countess could not hear; but Wallace answered, "I have not seen her."

"I left her late in the evening drowned in tears," replied Ruthven, in

a more elevated tone, "I therefore suppose that in secret she offers

those prayers for her deceased husband, which my tender Janet pours

over his grave."

"Such tears," replied Wallace, "are Heaven's own balm; I know they

purify the heart whence they flow. Yes; and the prayers we breathe for

those we love, unite our souls the closer to theirs. Look up, dear

Lady Ruthven," said he, as she began to revive, "look up and hear how

you may, while still on earth, retain the society of your beloved

brother! Seek his spirit at the footstool of God. 'Tis thus I live,

sister of my most venerated friend! My soul is ever on the wing of

heaven, whether in the solitary hour, in joy, or in sorrow, for theeere

my treasure lives!"

"Wallace! Wallace," cried Lady Ruthven, looking on his animated

countenance with wondering rapture; "and art thou a man of earth and of

the sword? Oh! rather say, an angel; lent us here a little while to

teach us to live and to die!"

A glowing blush passed over the pale but benign cheek of Wallace.

"I am a soldier of Him who was, indeed, brought into the world to show

us, by his life and death, how to be virtuous and happy. Know me, by

my life, to be his follower; and David himself wore not a more glorious

title!"

Lady mar, while she contemplated the matchless form before her,

exclaimed to herself, "Why is it animated by as faultless a soul? Oh,

Wallace! wert thou less excellent, I might hope; but hell is in my

heart, and heaven in thine!"

She tore her eyes from a view which blasted while it charmed her, and

rushed from the cloisters.

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