Soon I became wholly penetrated and absorbed by the thought that it must

be beyond everything else vital to man's culture and development, to the

sure attainment of his destiny and fulfilment of his vocation, to

distinguish these tendencies accurately and sharply not only in their

separate ascending grades, but also throughout the whole career of life.

Moreover, I made a resolution that for some time I would devote myself

to the study of the higher methods of teaching, so as to fit myself as a

teacher in one of the higher centres of education, as, for example, one

of the universities, if that might be. But it was not long before I

found a double deficiency, which quickly discouraged me in this design.

For, firstly, I wanted a fund of specially learned and classical

culture; and next, I was generally deficient in the preparatory studies

necessary for the higher branches of natural science. The amount of

interest in their work shown by university students was, at the same

time, not at all serious enough to attract me to such a career.

I soon perceived a double truth: first, that a man must be early led

towards the knowledge of nature and insight into her methods--that is,

he must be from the first specially trained with this object in view;

and next, I saw that a man, thus led through all the due stages of a

life-development should in order to be quite sure to accomplish in all

steadiness, clearness, and certainty his aim, his vocation, and his

destiny, be guarded from the very beginning against a crowd of

misconceptions and blunders. Therefore I determined to devote myself

rather to the general subject of the education of man.

Though the splendid lectures I heard on mineralogy, crystallography,

geology, etc., led me to see the uniformity of Nature in her working,

yet a higher and greater unity lay in my own mind. To give an example,

it was always most unsatisfactory to me to see form developed from a

number of various ground-forms. The object which now lay before my

efforts and my thought was to bring out the higher unity underlying

external form in such a self-evident shape that it should serve as a

type or principle whence all other forms might be derived. But as I held

the laws of form to be fixed, not only for crystals, but also just as

firmly for language, it was more particularly a deep philosophical view

of language which eventually absorbed my thoughts. Again, ideas about

language which I had conceived long ago in Switzerland crowded before my

mind. It seemed to me that the vowels _a_, _o_, _u_, _e_, _i_, _ä_,

_au_, _ei_, resembled, so to speak, force, spirit, the (inner) subject,

whilst the consonants symbolised matter, body, the (outer) object. But

just as in life and in nature all opposites are only relatively opposed,

and within every circle, every sphere, both opposites are found to be

contained, so also in language one perceives within the sphere of

speech-tones the two opposites of subject and object. For example, the

sound _i_ depicts the absolute subject, the centre, and the sound _a_

the absolute material object; the sound _e_ serves for life as such, for

existence in general; and _o_ for individual life, for an existence

narrowed to itself alone.

Language, not alone as the material for the expression of thought, but

also as a type or epitome of all forms and manifestations of life,

appeared to me to underlie the universal laws of expression. In order to

learn these laws thoroughly, as exemplified in the teaching of the

classical languages, I now returned again to the study of these latter,

under the guidance of a clever teacher; and I began to strike out the

special path which seemed to me absolutely necessary to be followed in

their acquisition.

From this time onwards I gave all my thoughts to methods of education,

whereto I was also further incited by some keen critical lectures on the

history of ancient philosophy. These again afforded me a clear

conviction of the soundness of my views of Nature and of the laws of

human development.

Through my work at the dynamical, chemical, and mathematical aspects of

Nature I came once more upon the consideration of the laws of number,

particularly as manifested through figures; and this led me to a

perfectly fresh general view of the subject--namely, that number should

be regarded as horizontally related.[84] That way of considering the

subject leads one to very simple fundamental conceptions of arithmetic,

which, when applied in practice, prove to be as accurate as they are

clear. The connection of these (dynamical and arithmetical) phenomena

was demonstrably apparent to me; since arithmetic may be considered,

firstly, as the outward expression of the manifestation of force,

secondly (in its relationship to man), as an example of the laws of

human thought.

On all sides, through nature as well as through history, through life as

well as through science (and as regards the latter through pure science

as well as through the applied branches), I was thus encountered and

appealed to by the unity, the simplicity, and the unalterably necessary

course, of human development and human education. I became impelled by

an irresistible impulse towards the setting forth of that unity and

simplicity, with all the force, both of my pen and of my life, in the

shape of an educational system. I felt that education as well as science

would gain by what I may call a more human, related, affiliated,

connected treatment and consideration of the subjects of education.

I was led to this conviction on another ground, as follows:--Although my

friends Langethal, Middendorff, and Bauer served with me all through the

war in the same corps, and even in the same battalion, we were a great

deal apart towards the close of the campaign, especially at the time we

were quartered in the Netherlands, so that I, at all events, at the

disbanding of the corps, knew not whither the others had gone. It was,

therefore, an unexpected pleasure when, after a while, I found them all

at Berlin again. My friends pursued their theological studies with

earnestness, and I my natural science; therefore, at first we came

little into contact with one another.

So passed several months, when suddenly life threw us closer together

again. This came about through the call to arms in 1815. We all enlisted

again together as volunteers. On account of our previous service, and by

royal favour, we were at once promoted to officer's rank, and each one

was appointed to a regiment. However, there was such a throng of

volunteers that it was not necessary for any State officials to be

called upon to leave their posts, or for students to interrupt their

studies, and we therefore received counter-orders commanding us to stay

at home. Middendorff, who felt sure of his speedy departure for the

army, preferred not to take lodgings for the short time of his stay in

Berlin, and as there was room enough in mine for us both, he came and

stayed with me. Yet we still seemed to draw very little closer together

at first, because of the diversity of our pursuits; but soon a bond of

union wove itself again, which was all the stronger on that very

account. Langethal and Middendorff had endeavoured to secure a

sufficiency for their support at the university by taking private

tutorships in families, making such arrangements as that their

university studies should not be interfered with. In the beginning of

their work all seemed simple and easy, but they soon came upon

difficulties both as regards the teaching and the training of the

children entrusted to them. As our former conversations had so often

turned upon these very subjects they now came to me to consult me,

especially about mathematical teaching and arithmetic, and we set apart

two hours a week, in which I gave them instruction on these matters.

From this moment our mutual interchange of thought again became animated

and continuous.

* * * * *

Here the autobiography breaks off abruptly. Herr Wichard Lange had some

trouble in deciphering it from Froebel's almost unreadable rough draft,

and here and there he had even to guess at a word or so. Froebel had

intended to present this letter to the Duke of Meiningen at the close of

1827, when the negotiations began to be held about a proposed National

Educational Institution at Helba, to be maintained by the duke, after

the similar proposal made to the Prince of Rudolstadt for Quittelsdorf

earlier in the year had broken down. It is not known whether the present

draft was ever finished, properly corrected, and polished into permanent

form, nor whether it was ever delivered to the duke. It is highly

probable that we have here all that Froebel accomplished towards it. It

may be added that soon after Froebel's repeated plans and drafts for the

Helba Institution had culminated in the final extensive well-known plan

of the spring of 1829, the whole scheme fell through, from the jealousy

of the prince's advisers, who feared Froebel's influence too much to

allow him ever to get a footing amongst them.

Another fragment of autobiography, going on to a further period of his

life, occurs in a long letter to the philosopher Krause,[85] dated

Keilhau, 24th March, 1828, in reply to an article written by Krause five

years before (1823) in Oken's journal, the well-known _Isis_[86] in

which article Krause had found fault with Froebel's two explanatory

essays on Keilhau, written in 1822, separately published, and appearing

also in the _Isis_, because Keilhau was there put forward as "an

educational institution for all Germany" (Allgemeine Deutsche

Erziehungs-Anstalt), whereas Krause desired it should rather style

itself "a German institution for universal culture" (Deutsche Anstalt

für Allgemeine menschliche Bildung). The rapid growth of Keilhau gave

Froebel at the time no leisure for controversy. In 1827 began the cruel

persecutions which eventually compelled him to leave Keilhau. Now

whenever Froebel was under the pressure of outward difficulty, he always

sought for help from within, and from his inward contemplation derived

new courage and new strength to face his troubles. Out of such musings

in the present time of adversity the long-awaited reply to Krause at

length emerged. The disputative part, interesting in itself, does not

here concern us. We pass at once to the brief sketch of his life

contained in later parts of the letter, omitting what is not

autobiographical. The earlier of these passages relate more succinctly

the events of the same period already more fully described in the letter

to the Duke of Meiningen; but we think it better to print the passages

in full, in spite of their being to a great extent a repetition of what

has gone before. Certain differences, however, will be found not

unworthy of notice.

The Krause letter succeeded the other and more important letter (to the

Duke of Meiningen) by some few months. Its immediate outcome was a warm

friendship between Krause and Froebel; the latter, with Middendorff as

his companion, journeying to Göttingen to make the philosopher's

personal acquaintance, in the autumn of 1828. Long discussions on

education took place at this interesting meeting, as we know from

Leonhardi, Krause's pupil. Krause made Froebel acquainted with the works

of Comenius, amongst other things, and introduced him to the whole

learned society of Göttingen, where he made a great, if a somewhat

peculiar, impression.

PART OF FROEBEL'S LETTER TO KRAUSE, DATED KEILHAU, 24TH MARCH, 1828.

... You have enjoyed, without doubt, unusual good fortune in having

pursued the strict path of culture. You have sailed by Charybdis without

being swallowed up by Scylla.[87] But my lot has been just the reverse.

As I have already told you in the beginning of this letter, I was very

early impressed with the contradictions of life in word and deed--in

fact, almost as soon as I was conscious of anything, living as a lonely

child in a very narrowed and narrowing circle. A spirit of

contemplation, of simplicity, and of childlike faith; a stern, sometimes

cruel, self-repression; a carefully-fostered inward yearning after

knowledge by causes and effects, together with an open-air life amidst

Nature, especially amidst the world of plants, gradually freed my soul

from the oppression of these contradictions. Thus, in my tenth and

eleventh years, I came to dream of life as a connected whole without

contradictions. Everywhere to find life, harmony, freedom from

contradictions, and so to recognise with a keener and clearer perception

the life-unity after which I dimly groped, was the silent longing of my

heart, the mainspring of my existence. But the way thither through the

usual school course, all made up of separate patches, considering things

merely in their outward aspect, and connected by mere arbitrary

juxtaposition, was too lifeless to attract me; I could not remember

things merely put together without inner connection, and so it came

about that after two of my elder brothers had devoted themselves to

study, and because my third brother showed great capacity for study

also, my own education was narrowed; but so much the more closely did a

loving, guiding providence bind my heart in communion with Nature.[88]

In silent, trustful association with Nature and my mathematics, I lived

for several years after my confirmation. In the latter part of the time

my duties led me towards the study of natural laws, and thus towards the

perception of the unity so often longed for in soul and spirit, and now

at last gradually becoming clear from amidst the outwardly clashing

phenomena of Nature.[89]

At last I could no longer resist the craving for knowledge which I felt

within me. I thrust on one side all the ordinary school-learning which I

utterly failed to appropriate in its customary disconnected state (it

was meant only to be learned by rote, and this I never could recognise

as the exclusive condition of a really comprehensive culture of the

human mind), and I went up in the middle of my eighteenth year to the

University of Jena. As I had been for two years past living completely

with Nature and my mathematics, and dependent upon myself alone for any

culture I might have arrived at, I came to the university much like a

simple plant of nature myself. I was at this time peculiarly moved by a

little knowledge I had picked up about the solar system, including

particularly a general conception of Kepler's laws, whereby the laws of

the spheres appealed to me on the one hand as an all-embracing,

world-encircling whole, and on the other as an unlimited

individualisation into separate natural objects. My own culture had been

hitherto left to myself, and so also now I had to select my own studies

and to choose my courses of lectures for myself. It was to be expected

that the lectures of the professors would produce a singular effect

upon me, and so they did.

I chose as my courses natural history, physics, and mathematics, but I

was little satisfied. I seldom gained what I expected. Everywhere I

sought for a sound method deriving itself from the fundamental principle

lying at the root of the subject in hand, and afterwards summing up all

details into that unity again; everywhere I sought for recognition of

the quickening interconnection of parts, and for the exposition of the

inner all-pervading reign of law. Only a few lectures made some poor

approach to such methods, but I found nothing of the sort in those which

were most important to me, physics and mathematics. Especially repugnant

to me was the piece-meal patchwork offered to us in geometry, always

separating and dividing, never uniting and consolidating.

I was, however, perfectly fascinated with the mathematical rules of

"combination, permutation, and variation," but unhappily I could not

give much time to their study, which I have regretted ever since.

Otherwise, what I learned from the lectures was too slight for what I

wanted, being, unluckily, altogether foreign to my nature, and more

often a mere getting of rules by heart rather than an unfolding of

principles. The theoretical and philosophical courses on various

subjects did not attract me either, something about them always kept me

at a distance; and from what I heard of them amongst my fellow-students,

I could gather that here, too, all was presented in an arbitrary

fashion, unnaturally divided, cut up, so to speak, into lifeless

morsels; so that it was useless for my inner life to seek for

satisfaction in those regions of study. But as I said above, there were

some of the lectures which fostered my interest in the inner connection

of all vital phenomena, and even helped me to trace it with some

certainty in some few restricted circles.

But my financial position did not permit me to remain long at the

university; and as my studies were those which fitted the student for

practical professional life, though they were regarded from a higher

point of view by myself in the privacy of my own thoughts, I had to

return to ordinary every-day work, and use them as a means to earn my

living. Yet, though I lived the outward business life to all appearance,

it remained ever foreign to my nature; I carried my own world within

me, and it was that for which I cared and which I cherished. My

observation of life (and especially that of my own life, which I pursued

with the object of self-culture), joined with the love of Nature and

with mathematics to work creatively upon me; and they united to fill my

little mental world with many varied life-forms, and taught me at the

same time to regard my own existence as one member of the great

universal life. My plan of culture was very simple: it was to seek out

the innermost unity connecting the most diverse and widely-separated

phenomena, whether subjective or objective, and whether theoretical or

practical, to learn to see the spiritual side of their activity, to

apprehend their mutual relations as facts and forms of Nature, or to

express them mathematically; and, on the other hand, to contemplate the

natural and mathematical laws as founded in the innermost depths of my

own life as well as in the highest unity of the great whole, that is

indeed to regard them in their unconditioned, uncaused necessity, as

"absolute things-in-themselves." Thus did I continue without ceasing to

systematise, symbolise, idealise, realise and recognise identities and

analogies amongst all facts and phenomena, all problems, expressions,

and formulas which deeply interested me; and in this way life, with all

its varied phenomena and activities, became to me more and more free

from contradictions, more harmonious, simple, and clear, and more

recognisable as a part of the life universal.

After I had lived for some years the isolated life I have described,

though I was engaged the whole time in ordinary professional pursuits,

all at once there broke upon my soul, in harmony with the seasons of

nature, a springtime such as I had not before experienced; and an

unexpected life and life-aim budded and blossomed in my breast. All my

inner life and life-aims had become narrowed to the circle of

self-culture and self-education. The outer life, my profession, I

carried on as a mere means of subsistence, quite apart from my real

inner self, and my sphere of operation was limited. I was driven

perforce from pillar to post till at last I had arrived where the Main

unites herself with the Rhine.[90] Here there budded and opened to my

soul one lovely bright spring morning, when I was surrounded by Nature

at her loveliest and freshest, this thought, as it were by

inspiration:--That there must exist somewhere some beautifully simple

and certain way of freeing human life from contradiction, or, as I then

spake out my thought in words, some means of restoring to man, himself,

at peace internally; and that to seek out this way should be the

vocation of my life. And yet my life, to all appearance, my studies and

my desires, belonged to my purely external vocation,[91] and to its

external citizenlike relations; and by no means to mankind at large,

either regarded in itself or in its educational needs. Therefore this

idea of mine was in such violent contrast with my actual life that it

utterly surprised me. In fact, and perhaps greatly because of this

contrast, the idea would undoubtedly have been quite forgotten, had not

other circumstances occurred to revive it. On myself and on my life at

the time it seemed to have not the slightest effect, and it soon passed

from my memory. But later on in this same journey,[92] as I climbed down

from the Wartburg, and turned round to look at the castle, there rushed

upon me once more this thought of a higher educational vocation as my

proper life-work; and again, being so far removed from my actual

external life, it only flashed upon me with a momentary effulgence an

instant, and then sank. This, unconsciously to me, and therefore quite

disregarded by me, was the real position of my inner life when I arrived

at the goal of my journey, Frankfurt, from whence my life was so soon to

develop so largely. My energies at the moment were devoted towards

attaining some definite professional position for myself.[93] But in

proportion as I began to examine my profession more closely in its

practical aspect, so did it begin to prove insufficient of itself to

satisfy me as the occupation of my life. Then there came to me the

definite purpose of living and working at my profession rather to use it

as a means to win some high benefit for mankind.[94]

The restlessness of youth, nay, that chance, rather, which has always

lovingly guided me, threw me unexpectedly into relations with a man

whose knowledge of mankind, and whose penetrating glance into my inner

being turned me at our very first interview from the profession of an

architect to that of a teacher and an educator, two spheres of work

which had, never previously occurred to me, still less had appeared to

me as the future objects of my life.[95] But the very first time I found

myself before thirty or forty boys from nine to eleven years old, for

that was the class allotted to me to teach, I felt thoroughly at home.

In fact, I perceived that I had at last found my long-missed life

element; and as I wrote to my brother at the time, I was as well pleased

as the fish in the water, I was inexpressibly happy. Yet here from the

very first moment (and what a number of sacrifices had to be made, what

a wealth of activity was poured out!) I had to give information, advice,

and decisions on matters which hitherto I had not thought it necessary

seriously to consider, and so also here, in my new position, I soon came

to feel myself isolated, to stand alone.

I sought counsel where I had so often found it. I looked within myself

and to Nature for help. Here my plan of culture, hitherto followed only

for my own needs, came opportunely to my assistance. When I was

consulted by others, I looked to Nature for the answer, and let Nature,

life, spirit, and law speak for themselves through me; then the answer

was not merely satisfactory. No! its simple, unhesitating confidence and

youthful freshness gladdened and quickened the inquirer.

This was all well enough when universal human interests were concerned,

but how about matters of instruction? I could, in fact, fairly confess

that in many respects I had no title to call myself a cultured man, for

hitherto all my culture had been fragmentary or imaginative.

Once again I found myself in conflict with my environment; for I could

not possibly torture my scholars with what I myself had refused to be

tortured with--namely, the learning by heart of disconnected rules. I

was therefore compelled to strike out fresh paths for myself, which

indeed my post rendered a delightful task; because I not only had full

liberty accorded me in this matter, but was even urged onwards in that

direction by my duty, since the institution was a model school for the

higher development of teaching. My past self-culture, self-teaching, and

self-development, and my study of Nature and of life now stood me in

good stead.

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