CHAPTER XX

"VEILED WOOING"

"Graydon, when do you think I can have my first ride?" Madge asked at

dinner, with sparkling eyes.

"At about five this afternoon. I have found a saddle that I can borrow

in case yours does not come till the late train."

"Oh, I'm so glad that I've lost my appetite! You can't know how much

a horse means to me. It was after I began to ride that I grew strong

enough to hope."

"Why, Madge, were you so discouraged as that?" he asked, feelingly.

"I had reason to be discouraged," she replied, in a low tone. Then she

threw back her head, proudly. "You men little know," she continued,

half defiantly. "You think weakness one of our prerogatives, and like

us almost the better for it. We are meekly to accept our fate, and

from soft couches lift our languid eyes in pious resignation. I won't

do it; and when a powerful horse is beneath me, carrying me like the

wind, I feel that his strength is mine, and that I need not succumb to

feminine imbecility or helplessness in any form."

"Brava, Madge!" cried Henry Muir.

"You were born a knight," added Graydon, "and have already made more

and better conquests than many celebrated in prose and poetry."

"Oh, no," cried Madge, lifting her eyebrows in comic distress. "I was

born a woman to my finger-tips, and never could conquer even myself. I

have an awful temper. Graydon, you have already found that out."

"I have found that I had better accept just what you please to be,

and fully admit your right to be just what you please," he answered,

ruefully.

"What a lovely and reasonable frame of mind!" Mrs. Muir remarked.

"Truly, Miss Wildmere is to be congratulated. You have only to stick

to such a disposition, and peace will last longer than the moon."

"Oh, Miss Wildmere will prove a rose without a thorn," Madge added,

laughing, while under Mr. Muir's eye her face paled perceptibly.

"There will never be anything problematical in her single-minded

devotion. She has been well and discreetly brought up, and finished

by the best society, while poor me!--I had to fly in the face of fate

like a virago, and scramble up the best I could in Western wilds. Oh,

well, Graydon, don't be alarmed. I'll be a good fellow if you'll take

me out riding occasionally."

He began to laugh, and she continued: "I saw you frown when I began

my wicked speech. We'll tick off tabooed subjects, and make an _index

expurgatorius_, and then we'll get on famously."

"No need of that," he said. "As far as _I_ am concerned, please

consider _me_ fair game."

"Consider you fair game?" she said, with her head archly on one side.

"That would be arrant poaching. Don't fear, Graydon, I shall never

regard any man as game, not even if I should become a fat dowager with

a bevy of plain daughters and a dull market."

Grave and silent Mr. Muir leaned back in his chair and laughed so

heartily that he attracted attention at the Wildmere table across the

room.

"That man doesn't act as if on the brink of failure," thought Miss

Wildmere. "It's all a conspiracy of Arnault with papa."

"You are making game of me in one sense very successfully," Graydon

admitted, laughing a little uneasily.

"Oh, in that sense, all men are legitimate game, and I shall chaff as

many as possible, out of spite that I was not a man."

"You would make a good one--you are so devoid of sentiment and so

independent."

"And yet within a week I think a certain gentleman was inclined to

think me sentimental, aesthetic, intense, a victim of ideals and

devotional rhapsodies."

"Oh, ye gods! Here, waiter, bring me my dessert, and let me escape,"

cried Graydon.

"Did you say I was to be ready at five?" she asked, sweetly.

"Yes, and bring down articles of a truce, and we'll sign them in red

ink."

An hour later she heard the gallop of a horse, and saw him riding

away. "She shan't mount the animal," he had thought, "till I learn

more about him and give him all the running he wants to-day. She has

a heavy enough score against me as it is, and I'll not employ another

brute to make things worse."

He learned more fully what he had discovered before, that she would

have her hands full in managing the horse, and he gave him a run that

covered him with foam and tested his breathing. At four he galloped

back to the station to see if the saddle had arrived, but found that

even his skill and strength were not sufficient to make the animal

approach the engine. Shouting to the baggage-man to bring the expected

articles to the stable, he was soon there and made another experiment.

A hostler brought him a blanket, which he strapped around his waist,

and mounted again in a lady's style. It was at once evident that the

horse had never been ridden by a woman. He reared, kicked, and plunged

around frightfully, and Graydon had to clutch the mane often to keep

his seat. Madge had speedily joined him, and looked with absorbed

interest, at times laughing, and again imploring Graydon to dismount.

This he at last he did, the perspiration pouring from his face.

Resigning the trembling and wearied horse to a stable-boy, he came

toward the young girl, mopping his brow and exclaiming: "It will never

do at all. He is ugly as sin. No woman should ride him, not even a

squaw."

"Bah, Graydon! he did not throw you, although he had you at every

disadvantage. I'm not in the least afraid. Has the saddle come?"

"Yes; but I protest, Madge. Here, Dr. Sommers" (who was approaching),

"lay your commands on this rash girl."

"If Dr. Sommers says I'm rash he doesn't understand my case, and I

refuse to employ him," cried Madge. Then she added, sweetly: "If

I break any bones, doctor, I'll be your very humble and obedient

servant. It's half-past four, and I'll be ready as soon as you are,

Graydon. No backing out. You might as well warn me against the peril

of a rocking-chair;" and she went to put on her habit.

"Heaven help us!" said Graydon to the doctor. "We're in a scrape.

She's so resolute that I believe she would go alone. What would you

do? Hang it all! the people of the house have got an inkling of what's

up; some are gathering near, and the windows are full of heads."

"Put the saddle on one of the quiet livery horses, and you ride this

brute," said the doctor.

"You don't know her. She wouldn't stand that at all."

"Then give her her head. After yesterday I believe she can do what

she undertakes. You have tired the horse out pretty thoroughly, and I

guess she'll manage him."

Leaving orders to have Madge's horse sponged off and dried, and the

best animal in the stable prepared for himself, he said, "Well then,

doctor, be on hand to repair damages," and went to his room to change

his dress.

The doctor did more. He saw that Madge's horse was saddled carefully,

meanwhile admiring the beautiful equipment that Graydon had ordered.

He also insured that Graydon had a good mount.

When at last the young man tapped at Madge's door she came out looking

most beautiful in her close-fitting habit and low beaver, with its

drooping feather. Mary followed her, protesting and half crying, and

Mr. Muir looked very grave.

"Madge," said Graydon, earnestly, "I should never forgive myself if

any harm came to you. That horse is not fit for you to ride."

"Good people, see here," said Madge, turning upon them; "I am not a

reckless child, nor am I making a rash experiment. Even if I did not

fear broken bones, do you think I would give you needless anxiety?

Graydon has kindly obtained for me a fine horse, and I must make a

beginning to show you and him that I can ride. If Mr. and Mrs. Wayland

were here they would laugh at you. Don't come out to see me off, Mary.

Others would follow, and I don't want to be conspicuous. I do wish

people would mind their own business."

"No danger of my coming out. I don't want to see you break your neck,"

cried Mary, re-entering her room.

"You must let me go, Madge," said Mr. Muir, firmly. "I may have to

interpose my authority."

"Yes, do come, for Heaven's sake!" said Graydon.

"Very well," laughed Madge. "If I once get on, you and the horse may

both find it hard to get me off. Where are the horses?" she asked,

upon reaching the door.

"You must yield one point and mount near the stable," said Graydon,

resolutely.

"Oh, certainly, I'll yield everything except my ride."

Madge's horse stood pawing the ground, showing how obdurate and

untamable was his spirit. She exclaimed at the beauty of the saddle

and its housings, and said, "Thank you, Graydon," so charmingly that

he anathematized himself for giving her a brute instead of a horse. "I

should have satisfied myself better about him," he thought, "and have

looked further."

In a moment she had the animal by the head, and was patting his neck,

while he turned an eye of fire down upon her, and showed no relenting

in his chafed and excited mood. Graydon meanwhile examined everything

carefully, and saw that the bridle had a powerful curb.

"Well," said he, ruefully, "if you will, you will."

"Yes; in no other way can I satisfy you," was her quiet reply.

"Let us get away, then; spectators are gathering. You should be able

to hold him with this rein. Come."

She put her foot in his hand, and was mounted in a second, the reins

well in hand. The horse reared, but a sharp downward pull to the right

brought him to his feet again. Then he plunged and kicked, but she sat

as if a part of him, meanwhile speaking to him in firm, gentle tones.

His next unexpected freak was to run backward in a way that sent the

neighboring group flying. Instantly Madge gave him a stinging blow

over the hind quarters, and he fairly sprang into the air.

"Get off, Madge," cried Mr. Muir, authoritatively, but the horse was

speeding down the road toward the house, and Graydon, who had looked

on breathlessly, followed. Before they reached the hotel she had

brought him up with the powerful curb, and prancing, curvetting,

straining side-wise first in one direction, then in the other,

meanwhile trembling half with anger, half with terror, the mastered

brute passed the piazza with its admiring groups. Graydon was at her

side. He did not see Miss Wildmere frowning with vexation and envy,

or Arnault's complacent observance. With sternly compressed lips and

steady eye he watched Madge, that, whatever emergency occurred, he

might do all that was possible. The young girl herself was a presence

not soon to be forgotten. Her lips were slightly parted, her eye

glowing with a joyous sense of power, and her pose, flexible to the

eccentric motions of the horse, grace itself. They passed on down the

winding carriage-drive, out upon the main street, and then she turned,

waved her handkerchief to Mr. Muir, and with her companion galloped

away.

Several of Mr. Muir's acquaintances came forward, offering

congratulations, which he accepted with his quiet smile, and then went

up to reassure his wife, who, in spite of her words to the contrary,

had kept her eyes fastened upon Madge as long as she was in sight.

"Well," she exclaimed, "did you ever see anything equal to that?"

"No," said her husband, "but I have seen nothing wonderful or

unnatural; she did not do a thing that she had not been trained and

taught to do, and all her acts were familiar by much usage."

"I think she's a prodigy," exclaimed Mrs. Muir.

"Nothing of the kind. She is a handsome girl, with good abilities,

who has had the sense to make the most and best of herself instead of

dawdling."

After an easy gallop of a mile, in which Madge showed complete power

to keep her horse from breaking into a mad run, she drew rein and

looked at Graydon with a smile. He took off his hat and bowed,

laughingly.

"Oh, Graydon," she said, "it was nice of you to let me have my own

way!"

"I didn't do it very graciously. I have seldom been more worried in my

life."

"I'm glad you were a little worried," she said. "It recalls your look

and tone at the time of our parting, when you said, 'Oh, Madge, do get

well and strong!' Haven't I complied with your wish?"

"Had my wish anything to do with your compliance?"

"Why not?"

"What an idiot I've been! I fear I have been misjudging you absurdly.

I've had no end of ridiculous thoughts and theories about you."

"Indeed! Apparently I had slight place in your thoughts at all, but I

made great allowances for a man in your condition."

"That was kind, but you were mistaken. Why, Madge, we were almost

brought up together, and I couldn't reconcile the past and the

present. The years you spent in the far West, and their result, are

more wonderful than a fairytale. I wish you would tell me about them."

"I will. Friends should be reasonably frank. What's more, I wish to

show you how natural and probable the result, as you call it, has

been. Your wondering perplexity vexes me. You know what I was when we

parted."

"No, I don't believe I do, or you couldn't be what you are now."

"Well, I can tell you: I had weak lungs, a weak body, and a weak,

uncultured mind. I was weak in all respects, but I discovered that I

had a will, and I had sense enough, as Henry says, to know that if I

was ever going to be more than a ghost it was time I set about it. I

knew of Mrs. Wayland's restoration to health in the climate of Santa

Barbara, and I determined to try it myself. I couldn't have had better

friends or advantages than the place afforded. But oh, Graydon, I was

so weak and used up when I reached there that I could scarcely do more

than breathe. But I had made up my mind either to get well or to die.

I rested for days, until I could make a beginning, and then, one step

at a time, as it were, I went forward. Take two things that you have

seen me do, for example. One can bathe in the sea at Santa Barbara

almost throughout the year. At first I was as timid as a child,

and scarcely dared to wet my feet; but Mr. Wayland was a sensible

instructor, and led me step by step. The water was usually still, and

I gradually acquired the absolute confidence of one who can swim, and

swims almost every day. So with a horse. I could hardly sit on one

that was standing still, I was so weak and frightened; but with muscle

and health came stronger nerves and higher courage. After a few months

I thought nothing of a ten-mile gallop on the beach or out to the

cañons. I took up music in the same way, and had a thoroughly good

teacher. He did the best he could for me, which wasn't so very much. I

never could become a scientist in anything, but I was determined to be

no sham within my limitations. I have tried to do some things as well

as I could and let the rest go. Now you see how easily I can explain

myself, and I only seem wonderful because of contrast with what I

was."

"But where do I come in?" he asked, eagerly.

"Did you not say, 'Please get well and strong?' I thought it would

gratify you and Mary and Henry. You used to call me a ghost, and I

did not want to be a ghost any longer. I saw that you enjoyed your

vigorous life fully, and felt that I might enjoy life also; and as I

grew strong I did enjoy everything more and more. Two things besides,

and I can say, 'All present or accounted for.' Mr. Wayland is a

student, and has a splendid library. He coached me--that was your old

college jargon--on books, and Mrs. Wayland coached me on society. So

here I am, weighing a hundred and twenty pounds, more or less, and

ready for another gallop;" and away she went, the embodiment of

beautiful life.

"One more question, Madge," he said, as they slackened pace again.

"Why wouldn't you write to me oftener?"

"I don't like to write letters. Mine to Mary were scarcely more than

notes. Ask her. Are you satisfied now? Am I a sphinx--a conundrum--any

longer?"

"No; and at last I am more than content that you are not little

Madge."

"Why, this is famous, as Dr. Sommers says. When was a man ever known

to change his mind before?"

"I've changed mine so often of late that I'm fairly dizzy. You are

setting me straight at last."

Madge laughed outright, and after a moment said, "Now account for

yourself. What places did you visit abroad?"

He began to tell her, and she to ask questions that surprised him,

showing that she had some idea of even the topography and color of

the region, and a better knowledge of the history and antiquities

than himself. At last he expressed his wonder. "What nonsense!" she

exclaimed. "You don't remember the little I did write you. As I said

before, did you not at my request--very kindly and liberally, too,

Graydon--send me books about the places you expected to see? A child

could have read them and so have gained the information that surprises

you."

They talked on, one thing leading to another, until he had a conscious

glow of mental excitement. She knew so much that he knew, only in

a different way, and her thoughts came rippling forth in piquant,

musical words. Her eyes were so often full of laughter that he saw

that she was happy, and he remembered after their return that she had

not said an ill-natured word about any one. It was another of their

old-time, breezy talks, only larger, fuller, complete with her rich

womanhood. He found himself alive in every fibre of his body and

faculty of his mind.

As they turned homeward the evening shadows were gathering, and at

last the dusky twilight passed into a soft radiance under the rays of

the full-orbed moon.

"Oh, don't let us hasten home," pleaded poor Madge, who felt that this

might be her only chance to throw about him the gossamer threads which

would draw the cord and cable that could bind him to her. "What is

supper to the witchery of such a night as this?"

"What would anything be to the witchery of such a girl as this, if

one were not fortified?" he thought. "This is not the comradeship of

a good fellow, as she promised. It is the society of a charming woman,

who is feminine in even her thoughts and modes of expression--who is

often strangely, bewilderingly beautiful in this changing light. When

we pass under the shadow of a tree her eyes shine like stars; when the

rays of the moon are full upon her face it is almost as pure and white

as when it was illumined by the electric flash. Did I not love another

woman, I could easily imagine myself learning to love her. Confound

it! I wish Stella had more of Madge's simple loftiness of character.

She would compel different business methods in her father. She would

work for him, suffer for him, but would not play diplomat. I like that

Arnault business to-night less than ever."

Mr. and Mrs. Muir were anxiously awaiting them on the piazza as they

trotted smartly up the avenue. "It's all right," cried Graydon.

"The horse has learned to know his mistress, and will give no more

trouble."

"I wish you had as much sense," growled Muir, in his mustache; then

added, aloud, "Come to supper. Mary could not eat anything till

assured of your safety."

"Yes, Henry, I won't keep you waiting a moment, but go in with my

habit on. I suppose the rest are all through, and I'm as ravenous as a

wolf."

They were soon having the merriest little supper, full of laughing

reminiscence, and Henry rubbed his hands under the table as he

thought, "Arnault is off mooning with the speculator, and Graydon

doesn't look as if the green-eyed monster had much of a grip upon

him."

Miss Wildmere's solicitude would not permit her to prolong her walk

with Arnault, and she returned to the parlor comparatively early in

the evening. She found Graydon awaiting her, and he was as quietly

devoted as ever. She looked at him a little questioningly, but he met

her eyes with his quiet and assured look. When she danced with Arnault

and other gentlemen he sought a partner in Madge or some other lady;

and once, while they were walking on the piazza, and Miss Wildmere

said, "You must have enjoyed yourself immensely with Miss Alden to

have been out so long," he replied, "I did. I hope you passed your

time as agreeably."

She saw that her relations with Arnault gave him an advantage and a

freedom which he proposed to use--that she had no ground on which to

find fault--and that he was too proud to permit censure for a course

less open to criticism than her own.

Before she slept she thought long and deeply, at last concluding that

perhaps affairs were taking the right turn for her purpose. Graydon

was tolerating as a disagreeable necessity what he regarded as her

filial diplomacy with Arnault. He was loyally and quietly waiting

until this necessity should cease, and was so doing because he

supposed it to be her wish. If she could keep him in just this

attitude it would leave her less embarrassed, give her more time, than

if he were an ardent and jealous suitor. She was scarcely capable of

love, but she admired him more than ever each day. She saw that he was

the superior of Arnault in every way, and was so recognized by all in

the house; therefore one of her strongest traits--vanity--was enlisted

in his behalf. She saw, also, that he represented a higher type of

manhood than she had been accustomed to, and she was beginning to

stand in awe of him also, but for reasons differing widely from those

which caused her fear of Arnault. She dreaded the latter's pride, the

resolute selfishness of his scheme of life, which would lead him to

drop her should she interfere with it. She was learning to dread

even more Graydon's high-toned sense of honor, the final decisions he

reached from motives which had slight influence with her. What if she

should permit both men to slip from her grasp, while she hesitated?

She fairly turned cold with horror at the thought of this and of the

poverty which might result.

Thus, from widely differing motives, two girls were sighing for time;

and Graydon Muir, strong, confident, proud of his knowledge of society

and ability to take care of himself, was walking blindly on, the

victim of one woman's guile, the object of another woman's pure,

unselfish love, and liable at any hour to be blasted for life by the

fulfilment of his hope and the consummation of his happiness.

Sweet Madge Alden, hiding your infinite treasure, deceiving all and

yet so true, may you have time!

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