THE MAN FROM MEDICINE HAT
I sat in that nocturnal sun-parlor of mine, known to the world as
Madison Square, demanding of the quiet night why sleep should be denied
me, and doing my best to keep from thinking of Mary Lockwood. I sat
there with my gaze fixed idly on a girl in black, who, in turn, stared
idly up at _Sagittarius_.
Then I lost interest in the black-clad and seemingly cataleptic
star-gazer. For I was soon busy watching a man in a rather odd-looking
velour hat. My eyes followed him from the moment he first turned
eastward out of Fifth Avenue. They were still on him as he veered
irresolutely southward again into the square where I sat.
The pure aimlessness of his movements arrested my attention. The
figure that drifted listlessly in past the Farragut Statue and wandered
on under the park trees in some way reminded me of my own. I, too,
knew only too well what it was to circle doggedly and sullenly about
like a bell-boy paging the corridors of night for that fugitive known
as Sleep.
So I continued to watch him, quietly and closely. I had lost my
interest in the white-faced girl who sat within twenty paces of me,
looking, silent and still, up at the autumn stars.
It was the man's figure, thereafter, that challenged my attention, for
this man marked the only point of movement in what seemed a city of the
dead. It was, I remembered, once more long past midnight, the hour of
suspended life in the emptied canyons of the lamp-strung streets when
the last taxi had hummed the last reveler home, and the first
milk-wagons had not yet rattled up from the East River ferries.
So I sat there listlessly watching the listlessly moving figure with
the wide hat-brim pulled down over its face. There was something still
youthful about the man, for all the despondent droop to the shoulders.
I asked myself idly who or what he could be. I wondered if, like
myself, he was merely haunted by the curse of wakefulness, if the same
bloodhounds of unrest dogged him, too, through the dark hours of the
night. I wondered if he, too, was trying to escape from the grinding
machinery of thought into some outer passivity.
I saw him thread his indeterminate way along the winding park walks. I
saw him glance wearily up at the massive austerity of the Metropolitan
Tower, and then turn and gaze at the faded Diana so unconcernedly
poised above her stolen Sevillian turrets. I saw him look desolately
about the square with its bench-rows filled with huddled and motionless
sleepers. These sleepers, with their fallen heads and twisted limbs,
with their contorted and moveless bodies, made the half-lit square as
horrible as a battlefield. Clouded by the heavy shadows of the park
trees, they seemed like the bodies of dead men, like broken and sodden
things over which had ground the wheels of carnage. The only murmur or
sound of life was the fountain, with its column of slowly rising and
slowly falling water, like the tired pulse-beat of the tired city.
The man in the velour hat seemed to find something companionable in
this movement, for he slowly drew nearer. He came within three benches
of where I sat. Then he flung himself down on an empty seat. I could
see his white and haggard face as he watched the splashing fountain. I
could see his shadowy and unhappy eyes as he pushed back his hat and
mopped his moist forehead. Then I saw him suddenly bury his head in
his hands and sit there, minute by minute, without moving.
When he made his next movement, it was a startling one. It sent a
tingle of nerves scampering up and down my backbone. For I saw his
right hand go down to his pocket, pause there a moment, and then
suddenly lift again. As it did so my eye caught the white glimmer of
metal. I could see the flash of a revolver as he thrust it up under
the hat-brim, and held the nickeled barrel close against his temple,
just above the lean jaw-bone.
It was so sudden, so unexpected, that I must have closed my eyes in a
sort of involuntary wince. The first coherent thought that came to me
was that I could never reach him in time. Some soberer second thought
was to the effect that even my interference was useless, that he and
his life were his own, that a man once set on self-destruction will not
be kept from it by any outside influence.
Yet even as I looked again at his huddled figure, I heard his little
gasp of something that must have been between fear and defeat. I saw
the arm slowly sink to his side. He was looking straight before him,
his unseeing eyes wide with terror and hazy with indecision.
It was then that I decided to interfere. To do so seemed only my plain
and decent duty. Yet I hesitated for a moment, pondering just how to
phrase my opening speech to him.
Even as I took a sudden, deeper breath of resolution, and was on the
point of crossing to his side, I saw him fling the revolver vehemently
from him. It went glimmering and tumbling along the coppery-green
grass. It lay there, a point of high light against the darkness of the
turf.
Then I looked back to the stranger, and saw his empty hands go up to
his face. It was a quiet and yet a tragic gesture of utter misery.
Each palm was pressed in on the corded cheek-bones, with the
finger-ends hard against the eyeballs, as though that futile pressure
could crush away all inner and all outer vision.
Then I turned back toward the fallen revolver. As I did so I noticed a
figure in black step quietly out and pick up the firearm. It was the
white-faced girl who had sat looking up at the stars. Before I fully
realized the meaning of her movement, she slipped the weapon out of
sight, and passed silently on down the winding asphalt walk, between
the rows of sleepers, toward the east. There was something arresting
in the thin young figure, something vaguely purposeful and appealing in
the poise of the half-veiled head.
I vacillated for a moment, undecided as to which to approach. But a
second glance at the man in the velour hat, crouched there in his utter
and impassive misery, caused me to cross over to him.
I put a hand on his flaccid shoulder, and shook it. He did not move at
first, so I shook him again. Then he directed a slow and resentful
glance at me.
"I want to have a talk with you," I began, puzzled as to how to
proceed. He did not answer me.
"I want to help you if I can," I explained, as I still let my hand rest
on his shoulder.
"Oh, go 'way!" he ejaculated, in utter listlessness, shaking my hand
from his shoulder.
"No, I won't!" I quite firmly informed him. He shrank back and moved
away. Then he turned on me with a resentment that was volcanic.
"For God's sake leave me alone!" he cried.
A sleeper or two on near-by benches sat up and stared at us with their
drowsily indifferent eyes.
"Then why are you making a fool of yourself like this?" I demanded.
"That's my own business," he retorted.
"Then you intend to keep it up?" I inquired.
"No, I don't," he flung back. "_I can't._"
"Then will you be so good as to talk to me?" His sullen anger seemed
strangely removed from that exaltation which tradition imputes to last
moments. It even took an effort to be patient with him.
"No, I won't," was his prompt retort. It dampened all the quixotic
fires in my body. Then he rose to his feet and confronted me. "And if
you don't get out of here, I'll kill you!"
His threat, in some way, struck me as funny. I laughed out loud.
But I did not waste further time on him.
I was already thinking of the other figure, the equally mysterious and
more appealing figure in black.
I swung round and strode on through the trees just in time to see that
somber and white-faced young woman cross Madison Avenue, and pass
westward between a granite-columned church and the towering obelisk of
a more modern god of commerce. I kept my eyes on this street-end as it
swallowed her up. Then I passed out through the square and under the
clock-dial and into Twenty-fourth Street.
By the time I had reached Fourth Avenue I again caught sight of the
black-clad figure. It was moving eastward on the south side of the
street, as unhurried and impassive as a sleep-walker.
When half-way to Lexington Avenue I saw the woman stop, look slowly
round, and then go slowly up the steps of a red-brick house. She did
not ring, I could see, but let herself in with a pass-key. Once the
door had closed on her, I sauntered toward this house. To go farther
at such an hour was out of the question. But I made a careful note of
the street number, and also of the fact that a slip of paper pasted on
the sandstone door-post announced the fact of "Furnished Rooms."
I saw, not only that little was to be gained there, but also that I had
faced my second disappointment. So I promptly swung back to Madison
Square and the fountain where I had left the man in the velour hat. I
ran my eye from bench to bench of sleepers, but he was not among them.
I went over the park, walk by walk, but my search was unrewarded. Then
I circled about into Broadway, widening my radius of inspection. I
shuttled back and forth along the side-streets. I veered up and down
the neighboring avenues. But it was useless. The man in the velour
hat was gone.
Then, to my surprise, as I paced the midnight streets, a sense of
physical weariness crept over me. I realized that I had walked for
miles. I had forgotten my own troubles and that most kindly of all
narcotics, utter fatigue, crept through me like a drug.
So I went home and went to bed. And for the first time that week I
felt the Angel of Sleep stoop over me of her own free will. For the
first time that week there was no need of the bitter lash of chloral
hydrate to beat back the bloodhounds of wakefulness. I fell into a
sound and unbroken slumber, and when I woke up, Benson was waiting to
announce that my bath was ready.
Two hours later I was ringing the bell of a certain old-fashioned
red-brick apartment-house in East Twenty-fourth Street. I knew little
enough about such places, but this was one obviously uninviting, from
the rusty hand-rail to the unwashed window draperies. Equally
unprepossessing was the corpulent and dead-eyed landlady in her faded
blue house-wrapper; and equally depressing did I find the slatternly
and bared-armed servant who was delegated to lead me up through the
musty-smelling halls. The third-floor front, I was informed, was the
only room in the house empty, though its rear neighbor, which, was a
bargain at two dollars and a half a week, was soon to be vacated.
I took the third-floor front, without so much as one searching look at
its hidden beauties. The lady of the faded blue wrapper emitted her
first spark of life as I handed over my four dollars. The listless
eyes, I could see, were touched with regret at the thought that she had
not asked for more. I tried to explain to her, as she exacted a
deposit for my pass-key, that I was likely to be irregular in my hours
and perhaps a bit peculiar in my habits.
These intimations, however, had no ponderable effect upon her. She
first abashed me by stowing the money away in the depths of her open
corsage, and then perplexed me by declaring that all she set out to do,
since her legs went back on her, was to keep her first two floors
decent. Above that, apparently, deportment could look after itself,
the upper regions beyond her ken could be Olympian in their moral
laxities.
As I stood there, smiling over this discovery, a figure in black
rustled down the narrow stairway and edged past us in the half-lit hall.
The light fell full on her face as she opened the door to the street.
It outlined her figure, as thin as that of a medieval saint from a
missal. It was the young woman I had followed from Madison Square.
Of this I was certain--from the moment the light fell on her
thin-cheeked face, where anxiety seemed to have pointed the soft oval
of the chin into something mask-like in its sharpness. About her,
quite beyond the fact that her eyes were the most unhappy eyes I had
ever seen, hung a muffled air of tragedy, the air of a spirit both
bewildered and baffled. But I could see that she was, or that she had
been, a rather beautiful young woman, though still again the
slenderness of the figure made me think of a saint from a missal.
I was still thinking of her as I followed the sullen and slatternly
servant up the dark stairs. Once in my new quarters, I glanced
absently about at the sulphur-yellow wallpaper and the melancholy
antiquities that masqueraded as furniture. Then I came back to the
issue at hand.
"Who is that young woman in black who happened to pass us in the hall?"
I casually inquired.
"_Can_ that!" was the apathetic and quite enigmatic retort of the
bare-armed girl. I turned to inquire the meaning of this obvious
colloquialism.
"Aw, cage the zooin' bug!" said my new-found and cynical young friend.
"She ain't that kind."
"What is she?" I asked, as I slipped a bill into the startled and
somewhat incredulous hand of toil. The transformation was immediate.
"She ain't nothin'!" was the answer. "She's just a four-flush, an
also-ran! And unless she squares wit' the madam by Sat'rday she's
goin' to do her washin' in somebody else's bath-tub!"
Through this sordid quartz of callousness ran one silver streak of
luck. It was plain that I was to be on the same floor with the girl in
black. And that discovery seemed quite enough.
I waited until the maid was lost in the gloom below-stairs and the
house was quiet again. Then I calmly and quietly stepped out into the
little hall, pushed open the door of the rear room, and slipped inside.
I experienced, as I did so, a distinct and quite pleasurable quickening
of the pulse.
I found myself in a mere cell of a room, with two dormer windows facing
a disorderly vista of chimney-pots and brick walls. On the sill of one
window stood an almost empty milk-bottle. Beside the other window was
a trunk marked with the initials "H. W." and the pretty-nearly
obliterated words "Medicine Hat."
About the little room brooded an almost forlorn air of neatness. On
one wall was tacked a picture postcard inscribed "In the Devil's Pool
at Banff." On another was a ranch scene, an unmounted photograph which
showed a laughing and clear-browed girl on a white-dappled pinto. On
the chintz-covered bureau stood a half-filled carton of soda-biscuits.
Beside this, again, lay an empty candy-box. From the mirror of this
bureau smiled down a face that was familiar to me. It was a
magazine-print of Harriet Walter, the young Broadway star who had
reached success with the production of _Broken Ties_, the same Harriet
Walter who had been duly announced to marry Percy Adams, the son of the
Traction Magnate. My own den, I remembered, held an autographed copy
of the same picture.
Beyond this, however, the room held little of interest and nothing of
surprise. Acting on a sudden and a possibly foolish impulse, after one
final look at the room and its record of courageous struggles, I took a
bank-note from my waistcoat pocket, folded it, opened the top drawer of
the bureau and dropped the bill into it. Then I stood staring down
into the still open drawer, for before me lay the revolver which the
girl had carried away the night before from Madison Square.
In a few moments I went back to my own room and sat down in the
broken-armed rocking-chair, and tried desperately to find some key to
the mystery. But no light came to me.
I was still puzzled over it when I heard the sound of steps on the
uncarpeted stairway. They were very slow and faltering steps. As I
stood at the half-opened door listening, I felt sure I heard the sound
of something that was half-way between a sob and a gasp. Then came the
steps again, and then the sound of heavy breathing. I heard the rustle
of paper as the door of the back room was pushed open, and then the
quick slam of the door.
This was followed by a quiet and almost inarticulate cry. It was not a
call, and it was not a moan. But what startled me into sudden action
was the noise that followed. It was a sort of soft-pedaled thud, as
though a body had fallen to the floor.
I no longer hesitated. It was clear that something was wrong. I ran
to the closed door, knocked on it, and a moment later swung it open.
As I stepped into the room I could see the girl lying there, her
upturned face as white as chalk, with bluish-gray shadows about the
closed eyes. Beside her on the floor lay a newspaper, a flaring
head-lined afternoon edition.
I stood staring stupidly down at the white face for a moment or two
before it came to me that the girl had merely fallen in a faint. Then,
seeing the slow beat of a pulse in the thin throat, I dropped on one
knee and tore open the neck of her blouse. Then I got water from the
stoneware jug on the wash-stand and sprinkled the placid and colorless
brow. I could see, as I lifted her up on the narrow white bed, how
bloodless and ill-nurtured her body was. The girl was half starved; of
that there was no shadow of doubt.
She came to very slowly. As I leaned over her, waiting for the
heavy-lidded eyes to open, I let my glance wander back to the newspaper
on the floor. I there read that Harriet Walter, the young star of the
_Broken Ties_ Company, had met with a serious accident. It had
occurred while riding down Morningside Avenue in a touring-car driven
by Percy Alward Adams, the son of the well-known Traction Magnate. The
brake had apparently refused to work on Cathedral Hill, and the car had
collided with a pillar of the Elevated Railway at the corner of
One-hundred-and-ninth Street. Adams himself had escaped with a
somewhat lacerated arm, but Miss Walter's injuries were more serious.
She had been taken at once to St. Luke's Hospital, but a few blocks
away. She had not, however, regained consciousness, and practically
all hope of recovery had been abandoned by the doctors.
I was frenziedly wondering what tie could bind these two strangely
diverse young women together when the girl beside me gave signs of
returning life. I was still sousing a ridiculous amount of water on
her face and neck when her eyes suddenly opened. They looked up at me,
dazed and wide with wonder.
"What is it?" she asked, gazing about the room. Then she looked back
at me again.
"I think you must have fallen," I tried to explain. "But it's all
right; you mustn't worry."
My feeble effort at reassuring her was not effective. I could see the
perplexed movement of her hands, the unuttered inquiry still in her
eyes. She lay there, staring at me for a long time.
"You see, I'm your new neighbor," I told her, "and I heard you from my
room."
She did not speak. But I saw her lips pucker into a little sob that
shook her whole body. There seemed something indescribably childlike
in the movement. It took a fight to keep up my air of bland optimism.
"And now," I declared, "I'm going to slip out for a minute and get you
a little wine."
She made one small hand-gesture of protest, but I ignored it. I dodged
in for my hat, descended the stairs to the street, got Benson on the
wire; and instructed him to send the motor-hamper and two bottles of
Burgundy to me at once. Then I called up St. Luke's Hospital. There,
strangely enough, I was refused all information as to Harriet Walter's
condition. It was not even admitted, in fact, that she was at present
a patient at that institution.
The girl, when I got back, was sitting in a rocking-chair by the
window. She seemed neither relieved nor disturbed by my return. Her
eyes were fixed on the blank wall opposite her. Her colorless face
showed only too plainly that this shock from which she had suffered had
left her indifferent to all other currents of life, as though every
further stroke of fate had been rendered insignificant. She did not
even turn her eyes when I carried the hamper into the room and opened
it. She did not look up as I poured the wine and held a glass of it
for her to drink.
She sipped at it absently, brokenly, reminding me of a bird drinking
from a saucer-edge. But I made her take more of it. I persisted,
until I could see a faint and shell-like tinge of color creep into her
cheeks.
Then she looked at me, for the first time, with comprehending and
strangely grateful eyes. She made a move, as though to speak. But as
she did so I could see the quick gush of tears that came to her eyes
and her gesture of hopelessness as she looked down at the newspaper on
the floor.
"Oh, I want to die!" she cried brokenly and weakly. "I want to die!"
Her words both startled and perplexed me. Here, within a few hours'
time, I was encountering the second young person who seemed tired of
life, who was ready and walling to end it.
"What has happened?" I asked, as I held more of the Burgundy out for
her to drink. Then I picked up the afternoon paper with the flaring
head-lines.
She pointed with an unsteady finger to the paper in my hands.
"Do you know her?" she asked.
'"Yes, I happen to know her," I admitted.
"Have you known her long?" asked the girl.
"Only a couple of years," I answered. "Since she first went with
Frohman."
The possible truth flashed over me. They were sisters. That was the
strange tie that bound them together; one the open and flashing and
opulent, and the other the broken and hidden and hopeless.
"Do you know Harriet Walter?" I asked.
She laughed a little, forlornly, bitterly. The wine, I imagined, had
rather gone to her head.
"I _am_ Harriet Walter!" was her somewhat startling declaration.
She was still shaken and ill, I could see. I took the Burgundy glass
from her hand. I wanted her mind to remain lucid. There was a great
deal for me still to fathom.
"And they say she's going to die?" she half declared, half inquired, as
her eyes searched my face.
"But what will it mean to you?" I demanded.
She seemed not to have heard; so I repeated the question.
"It means the end," she sobbed, "the end of everything!"
"But why?" I insisted.
She covered her face with her hands.
"Oh, I can't tell you!" she moaned. "I can't explain."
"But there must be some good and definite reason why this young woman's
death should end everything for you."
The girl looked about her, like a life-prisoner facing the four blank
walls of a cell. Her face was without hope. Nothing but utter misery,
utter despair, was written on it.
Then she spoke, not directly to me, but more as though she were
speaking to herself.
"_When she dies, I die too!_"
I demanded to know what this meant. I tried to burrow down to the root
of the mystery. But my efforts were useless. I could wring nothing
more out of the unhappy and tragic-eyed girl. And the one thing she
preferred just then, I realized, was solitude. So I withdrew.
The entire situation, however, proved rather too much for me. The more
I thought it over the more it began to get on my nerves. So I
determined on a prompt right-about-face. I decided to begin at the
other end of the line.
My first move was to phone for the car. Latreille came promptly
enough, but with a look of sophistication about his cynical mouth which
I couldn't help resenting.
"St. Luke's Hospital," I told him as I stepped into the car.
At that institution, however, I was again refused all information as to
the condition of Harriet Walter. It was not even admitted, when I
became more insistent, that any such person was in the hospital.
"But I'm a friend of this young lady's," I tried to explain. "And I've
a right to know of her condition."
The calm-eyed official looked at me quite unmoved.
"This young lady seems to have very many friends. And some of them
seem to be very peculiar."
"What do you mean by that?" I demanded. For answer he pointed to a
figure pacing up and down in the open street.
"There's another of these friends who've been insisting on seeing her,"
he explained, with a shrug of extenuation.
The uniformed attendant of that carbolized and white-walled temple of
pain must have seen my start as I glanced out at the slowly pacing
figure. For it was that of a young man wearing a velour hat. It was
the youth I had met the night before in Madison Square.
"Do you happen to know that man's name?" I asked.
"He gave it as Mallory--James Mallory," was the answer.
I wasted no more time inside those depressing walls. I was glad to get
out to the street, to the open air and the clear afternoon sunlight. I
had already decided on my next step.
Whether the man in the velour hat recognized me or not, I could not
say. If he did, he gave no sign of it. Yet I could see that he
resented my addressing him, although he showed no surprise as I did so
by name. It was not until I point-blank asked if he had been inquiring
about Harriet Walter that any trace of interest came into his face.
He replied, with considerable ferocity, that he had. One glimpse of
the unsteady fingers and twitching eyelids showed me the tension under
which he was struggling. I felt genuinely sorry for him.
"I happen to know Miss Walter," I told him, "and if you'll be so good
as to step in my car, I can tell you anything you may want to know."
"Is your name Adams?" the white-faced youth suddenly demanded.
"It is not," I answered, with considerable alacrity, for his face was
not pleasant to look at.
"Then why can you tell me what I want to know?" he asked, still eying
me with open hostility. I struggled to keep my temper. It was a case
where one could afford to be indulgent.
"If we each have a friend in this lady, it's not unreasonable that we
should be able to be friends ourselves," I told him. "So let's clear
the cobwebs by a spin down-town."
"Gasoline won't wash my particular cobwebs away," he retorted. There
was something likable about his audacious young face, even under its
cloud of bitterness.
"Then why couldn't you dine with me, at a very quiet club of mine?" I
suggested. "Or, better still, on the veranda of the Clairemont, where
we can talk together."
He hesitated at first, but under my pressure he yielded, and we both
got in the car and swung westward, and then up Riverside to the
Clairemont. There I secured a corner piazza-table, overlooking the
river. And there I exerted a skill of which I had once been proud, in
ordering a dinner which I thought might appeal to the poignantly
unhappy young man who sat across the table from me. I could see that
he was still looking at me, every now and then, with both revolt and
sullen bewilderment written on his lean young face. It would be no
easy matter, I knew, to win his confidence.
"I suppose you think I'm crazy, like the rest of them?" he suddenly
demanded. I noticed that he had already taken his third drink of wine.
"Why should I think that?"
"I've had enough to make me crazy!" he ejaculated, with that abject
self-pity which marks the last milestone on the avenue of hope.
"Perhaps I could help you," I suggested. "Or perhaps I could advise
you."
"What good's advice when you're up against what I'm up against?" was
his embittered retort.
He was apparently finding relief in the Pommery. I found a
compensating relief in merely beholding that look of haunted and abject
misery going out of his young eyes.
"Then tell me what the trouble is," I said.
He still shook his head. Then he suddenly looked up.
"How long have you known Harriet Walter?" he asked.
"From the time," I told him, after a moment's thought, "when she first
appeared for the Fresh Air Fund at the Plaza. That was about two years
ago--when she first went with Frohman."
"I've known her for twenty years!" was the youth's unexpected
exclamation. "We grew up together, out West."
"Where out West?" I asked.
"In Medicine Hat--that's a Canadian prairie town."
"But she's younger than you?"
"Only two years. She's twenty-two; I'm twenty-four. She changed her
name from Wilson to Walter when she went on the stage."
"Then you are close friends?" I asked, for I could see the wine had
loosened his reticent young tongue.
"Friends!" he scoffed. "I'm the man she promised to marry!"
Here, I told myself, was a pretty kettle of fish. I knew the man
before me was not Adams. Yet it was several weeks now since Harriet
Walter's engagement to young Adams had been officially announced. And
there was nothing unstable or predaceous about the Harriet Walter I had
known.
"Would you mind telling me just when she promised to marry you?" I
asked. "Remember, this is not prying. I'm only trying to get behind
that cobweb."
"She promised me over two years ago," he answered me, quite openly.
"Definitely?" I insisted.
"As definite as pen and ink could make it. Even before she gave in,
before she gave the promise, we'd had a sort of understanding. That
was before I made my British Columbia strike out West. She'd come East
to study for the stage. She always felt she would make a great
actress. We all tried to keep her from it, but she said it was her
career. She'd been having a hard time of it then, those first six
months. So I came through to New York and wanted to take her back, to
get her out of all that sort of thing. But she put me off. She
wouldn't give in to being defeated in her work. She gave me her
promise, but asked for a year's time. When that was up, she'd made her
hit. Then, of course, she asked for one year more. And in the
meantime I made my own hit--in timber limits."
"But hasn't she justified the time you've given her?" I inquired,
remembering the sudden fame that had come to her, the name in electrics
over the Broadway theater, the lithographs in the shop windows, the
interviews in the Sunday papers.
"Justified!" cried the young man across the table from me. "After I'd
waited two years, after she'd given me her promise, she's turned round
and promised to marry this man Adams!"
"And has she never explained?"
"Explained? She won't see me. She had me put out of her hotel. She
went off to Narragansett. She pretended she doesn't even know me."
This sounded very unlike the Harriet Walter I had known. There had
seemed little that was deliberately venal or treacherous in that
artless-eyed young lady's nature.
"And what did you do?" I asked.
"What could I do? I waited and tried again. I felt that if I could
only see her face to face she'd be able to explain, to make the whole
thing seem less like insanity."
"And she wouldn't even see you, meet you?"
"Not once. Something's set her against me; something's changed her.
She never used to be that sort--never!"
"And you insist all this is without rhyme or reason?"
"Without one jot of reason. That's what made it so hopeless. And last
night when I heard of this accident I put my pride in my pocket, and
tried still again. It was the same thing over again. They seemed to
take me for a crank, or paranoeic of some kind, up there at the
hospital. And then I gave up. I felt I'd about reached the end of my
rope. I thought it all over, quite calmly, and decided to end
everything. I walked the streets half the night, then I sat down and
decided to blow my brains out. But I couldn't do it. I was too much
of a coward. I hadn't the courage."
"That would have been very foolish," was my inadequate reply, for at a
bound my thoughts went back to the night before and the scene in the
square.
"Well, what would you have done?" was the prompt and bitter challenge
of the unhappy youth facing me.
I thought for a moment before attempting to answer him.
"Why," I temporized, "I'd have tried to get down to the root of the
mystery. I'd have made some effort to find out the reason for it; for
everything seems to have a reason, you know."
Again I heard him emit his listless little scoff of misery.
"There's no reason," he declared.
"There must be," I maintained.
"Then show me where or what it is," he challenged.
"I will," I said, with sudden conviction. "There's a reason for all
this, and I'm going to find it out!"
He studied my face with his tired and unhappy young eyes as I sat there
trying to fit the edges of the two broken stories together. It was not
easy: it was like trying to piece together a shattered vase of
cloisonne-work.
"And how will you find it out?" he was listlessly inquiring.
Instead of answering him, I looked up, fixed my eyes on him and asked
another question.
"Tell me this: if there is a reason, do you still care for her?"
He resented the question, as I was afraid he would.
"What concern is that of yours?"
"If all this thing's a mistake, it's going to be some concern of
yours," I told him.
He sat there in dead silence for a minute or two.
"I've always cared for her," he said, and I knew what his answer was
going to be before he spoke. "But it's no use. It's all over. It's
over and done with. There's not even a mistake about it."
"There must be. And I'm going to find out where and what it is."
"And how are you going to find that out?" he reiterated.
"Come along with me," I cried a little presumptuously, a little
excitedly, "and by ten o'clock to-night I'll have your reason for you!"
My flash-in-the-pan enthusiasm was shorter lived than I had expected.
The tingling and wine-like warmth soon disappeared. A reaction set in,
once we were out in the cool night air. And in that reaction I began
to see difficulties, to marshal doubts and misgivings.
The suspicion crept over me that, after all, I might have been talking
to a man with a slightly unbalanced mind. Delusions, such as his, I
knew, were not uncommon. There were plenty of amiable cranks who
carried about some fixed conviction of their one-time intimate
association with the great, the settled belief that they are the
oppressed and unrecognized friends of earth's elect.
Yet this did not altogether fill the bill; it could not explain away
everything. There was still the mystery of the girl in the
Twenty-fourth Street rooming-house. There was still the enigma of two
persons claiming to be Harriet Walter.
On my way down to that rooming-house an idea occurred to me. It
prompted me to step in at my club for a minute or two, leaving Mallory
in the car. Then I dodged back to the reading-room, took down from its
shelf a _Who's Who on the Stage_, and turned up the name of Harriet
Walter.
There, to my discomfiture, I read that Harriet Walter's family name was
recorded as "Kellock," and instead of being a Canadian, and born and
brought up in the western town of Medicine Hat, as young Mallory had
claimed, her birthplace was recorded as Lansing, Michigan. She had
been educated at the Gilder Seminary in Boston, and had later studied
one year at the Wheatley Dramatic School in New York. From there she
had gone on the stage, taking small parts, but soon convincing her
management that she was capable of better things. In little over a
year she had been made a star in the _Broken Ties_ production.
The St. Luke's officials, after all, had not been so far wrong. The
young man in the velour hat was clearly off his trolley.
It was, however, too late to turn back. And there was still the other
end of the mystery to unravel. So I ushered young Mallory up the musty
stairs to my third-floor room, and seated him with a cigar and a
magazine between those four bald and depressing walls with their
sulphur-colored paper. Then I stepped outside, and carefully closed
the door after me. Then I crossed the hall to the girl's room and
knocked.
There was no answer, so I opened the door and looked in. The room was
empty. A sense of frustration, of defeat, of helplessness, swept
through me. This was followed by a feeling of alarm, an impression
that I might, after all, be too late.
I crossed the room with a sudden premonition of evil. Then I turned on
the light and pulled open the top drawer of the chintz-covered bureau.
There lay my bank-note. And beside it, I noticed, with a sense of
relief, still lay the revolver.
I took the weapon up and looked it over, hesitating whether or not to
unload it. I still held it in my hand, staring down at it, when I
heard the creak of the door behind me. It was followed by a sudden and
quite audible gasp of fright.
It was the owner of the room herself, I saw, the moment I swung around.
It was not so much terror in her eyes, by this time, as sheer surprise.
"What are you doing here?" she asked, with a quaver of bewilderment.
"I'll answer that when you answer a question of mine," I temporized, as
I held the revolver up before her. "Where did you get this?"
She did not speak for a second or two.
"Why are you spying on me like this?" she suddenly demanded. She sank
into a chair, pulling nervously at her pair of worn gloves.
"You insist on knowing?" I asked.
"I've a right to know."
"Because you are not Harriet Walter," was the answer I sent bullet-like
at her.
She raised her eyes to mine. There was neither anger nor resentment on
her face. All I could see was utter weariness, utter tragedy.
"I know," she said. She spoke very quietly. Something in her voice
sent a stab of pity through me.
"I'm only trying to help you," I told her. "I only want to clear up
this maddening muddle."
"You can't," she said very simply. "It's too late."
"It's not too late!" I blindly persisted.
"What do you know about it?" was her listless and weary retort.
"I know more about it than you imagine," was my answer. "I know where
this revolver came from, just when and where you picked it up, and just
how near you came to using it."
She covered her face with her hands. Then she dropped them to her
side, with a gesture of hopelessness.
"Oh, they'll all know now!" she moaned. "I knew it would come, some
day. And I haven't the strength to face it--I haven't the strength!"
I felt, in some way, that the moment was a climactic one.
"But how did it begin?" I asked more gently, as I gazed down at the
fragile and girlish body huddled together in the chair.
"It began two years ago," she went on in her tired and throaty
monotone. "It began when I saw I was a failure, when I realized that
all was useless, that I'd made a mistake."
"What mistake?" I demanded, still in the dark.
"The mistake I wasn't brave enough to face. I thought it was the life
I was made for, that they'd never understood at home. Even _he_
couldn't understand, I thought. Then they let me come. I worked, oh,
so hard! And when I left the school all I could get was a place in the
chorus. I was ashamed to tell them. I pretended I had a part, a real
part. He kept arguing that I ought to give it up. He kept asking me
to come back. I wasn't brave enough to acknowledge defeat. I still
thought my chance would come; I kept asking for more time."
"And then?" I prompted.
"Then I couldn't even stay at the work I had. It became impossible; I
can't tell you why. Then I did anything, from extra work with moving
pictures to reader in the City Library classes. But I still kept going
to the agencies, to the Broadway offices, trying to get a part. And
things dragged on and on. And then I did this, this awful thing."
"What awful thing?" I asked, trying to bridge the ever-recurring breaks
in her thought. But she ignored the interruption.
"We'd studied together in the same classes at the Wheatley School. And
people had said we looked alike. But she was born for that sort of
life, for success. As I went down, step by step, she went up. He
wrote me that I must be getting famous, for he'd seen my picture on a
magazine-cover. It was hers. I pretended it was mine. I pretended I
was doing the things she was doing. I let them believe I'd taken a new
name, a stage name. I sent them papers that told of her success. I
became a cheat, an impostor, a living lie--I _became Harriet Walter_!"
At last the light had come. I saw everything in a flash. I suddenly
realized the perplexities and profundities of human life. I felt
shaken by a sudden pity for these two bound and unhappy spirits, at
that moment so close together, yet groping so foolishly and perversely
along their mole-like trails.
I was still thinking of the irony of it all, of the two broken and
lonely young lives even at that moment under the same roof, crushed
under the weight of their unseeing and uncomprehending misery, when the
girl in the chair began to speak again.
"It was terrible," she went on, in her passionate resolve to purge her
soul of the whole corroding blight. "I didn't dream what it would lead
to, what it would cause. I dreaded every advance she made. It wasn't
jealousy, it was more than that; it was fear, terror. She seemed to be
feeding on me, day by day, month by month. I knew all the time that
the higher she got the lower I had to sink. And now, in a different
way, she's taken everything from me. Taken everything, without knowing
it!"
"No, you're wrong there," I said. "She hasn't taken everything."
"What is there left?" was her forlorn query.
"Life--all your real life. This has been a sort of nightmare, but now
it's over. Now you can go back and begin over again."
"It's too late!" She clasped her thin hands hopelessly together. "And
there's no one to go to."
"_There's Mallory_," I said, waiting for some start as the name fell on
her ears. But I saw none.
"No," she cried, "he'd hate and despise me."
"But you still care for him?" I demanded.
"I need him," she sobbingly acknowledged. "Yes--yes, I always cared
for him. But he'd never understand. He'd never forgive me. He's
grown away from me."
"He's waiting for you," I said.
I stood looking at the bowed figure for a moment. Then I slipped out
of the room.
I stepped in through my own door and closed it after me. Young
Mallory, with his watch in his hand, swung about from the window and
faced me.
"Well, it's ten o'clock--and nothing's settled!"
"It is settled," was my answer.
I led him across the quiet hall to the half-lit back room.
I saw his startled and groping motion. Then I heard his cry of
"Harrie!" and her answering cry of "Jamie" as the white face, with its
hunger and its happiness, looked up into his.
Then I quietly stepped outside and closed the door, leaving them alone.
From that moment I was an outsider, an intruder. My part was over and
done. But the sight of those two young people, in each other's arms,
made my thoughts turn back to Mary Lockwood and the happiness which had
been lost out of my own life. And I didn't sleep so well that night as
I had hoped to.