As I have already said, I had almost forgotten Sarajevo. The illustrated
papers had shown us a large coffin raised high and a small one set low,
telling us of unequal rank, even at the Great White Throne. I had a
thought for that from time to time; but otherwise Franz Ferdinand and
Sophie Chotek were less to me than Caesar or Napoleon.
But toward the end of July there was a sudden rumbling. It was like that
first disquieting low note of the "Rheingold," rising from elemental
depths, presaging love and adventure and war and death and defeat and
triumph, and the end of the old gods and the burning of their Valhalla.
I cannot say that any of us knew its significance; but it was arresting.
"What does it mean?"
I think Cissie Boscobel was the first to ask me that question, to which
I could only reply by asking it in my own turn. What did it mean--this
ultimatum from Vienna to Belgrade? Did it mean anything? Could it
possibly mean what dinner-table diplomats hinted at between a laugh and
a look of terror?
Hugh and I were descending the Rossiter lawn on a bright afternoon near
the end of July. Cissie, who was passing with some of the Burkes, ran
over the grass toward us. Had we seen the papers? Had we read the
Austrian note? Could we make anything out of it?
I recall her as an extraordinarily vivid picture against the background
of blue sea, in white, with a green-silk tunic embroidered in peacock's
feathers, with long jade ear-rings and big jade beads, and a
jade-colored plume in a black-lace hat cocked on her flaming hair as she
alone knew how to cock it. I merely want to point out here that to
Cissie Boscobel and me the questions she asked already possessed a
measure of life-and-death importance; while to Hugh they had none at
all.
I remember him as he stood aloof from us, strong and stocky and
summer-like in his white flannels, a type of that safe and separated
America which could afford to look on at Old World tragedies and feel
them of no personal concern. To him Cissie Boscobel and I, with anxiety
in our eyes and something worse already clutching at our hearts, were
but two girls talking of things they didn't understand and of no great
interest, anyway.
"Come along, little Alix!" he interrupted, gaily. "Cissie will excuse
us. The madam is waiting to motor us over to South Portsmouth, and I
don't want to keep her waiting. You know," he explained, proudly, "she
thinks this little girl is a peach!"
Cissie ran back to join the Burkes and we continued our way along the
Cliff Walk to Mr. Brokenshire's. Hugh had come for me in order that we
might have the stroll together.
I gave him my view of the situation as we went along, though in it there
was nothing original.
"You see, if Austria attacks Serbia, then Russia must attack Austria; in
which case Germany will attack Russia, and France will attack Germany.
Then England will certainly have to pitch in."
"But we won't. We shall be out of it."
The complacency of his tone nettled me.
"But I sha'n't be out of it, Hugh."
He laughed.
"You? What could you do, little lightweight?"
"I don't know; but whatever it was I should want to be doing it."
This joke might have been characterized as a screamer. He threw back his
head with a loud guffaw.
"Well, of all the little spitfires!" Catching me by the arm, he hugged
me to him, as we were hidden in a rocky nook of the path. "Why, you're a
regular Amazon! A soldier in your way would be no more than a ninepin in
a bowling-alley."
I didn't enter into the spirit of this pleasantry. On the contrary, I
concealed my anger in endeavoring to speak with dignity.
"And, what's more, Hugh, than not being out of it myself, I don't see
how I could marry a man who was. Of course, no such war will come to
pass. It couldn't! The world has gone beyond that sort of madness. We
know too well the advantages of peace. But if it should break out--"
"I'll buy you a popgun with the very first shot that's fired."
But in August, when the impossible had happened, when Germany had
invaded Belgium, and France had moved to her eastern frontier, and
Russia was pouring into Prussia, and English troops were on foreign
continental soil for the first time in fifty years, Hugh's indifference
grew painful. He was perhaps not more indifferent than any one else with
whom I was thrown, but to me he seemed so because he was so near me. He
read the papers; he took a sporting interest in the daily events; but it
resembled--to my mind at least--the interest of an eighteenth-century
farmer's lad excited at a cockfight. It was somewhat in the spirit of
"Go it, old boy!" to each side indifferently.
If he took sides at all it was rather on that to which Cissie Boscobel
and I were nationally opposed; but this, we agreed, was to tease us. So
far as opinions of his own were concerned, he was neutral. He meant by
that that he didn't care a jot who lost or who won, so long as America
was out of the fray and could eat its bread in safety.
"There are more important things than safety," I said to him,
scornfully, one day.
"Such as--"
But when I gave him what seemed to me the truisms of life he was
contented to laugh in my face.
Cissie Boscobel was more patient with him than I was. I have always
admired in the English that splendid tolerance which allows to others
the same liberty of thinking they claim for themselves; but in this
instance I had none of it. Hugh was too much a part of myself. When he
said, as he was fond of saying, "If Germany gets at poor degenerate old
England she'll crumple her up," Lady Cissie could fling him a pitying,
confident smile, with no venom in it whatever, while I became bitter or
furious.
Fortunately, Mr. Brokenshire was called to New York on business
connected with the war, so that his dear Alexandra was delivered for a
while from his daily condescensions. Though Hugh didn't say so in actual
words, I inferred that the struggle would further enrich the house of
Meek & Brokenshire. Of the vast sums it would handle a commission would
stick to its fingers, and if the business grew too heavy for the usual
staff to deal with Hugh's own energies were to be called into play. His
father, he told me, had said so. It would be an eye-opener to Cousin
Andrew Brew, he crowed, to see him helping to finance the European War
within a year after that slow-witted nut had had the hardihood to refuse
him!
In the Brokenshire villa the animation was comparable to a suppressed
fever. Mr. Brokenshire came back as often as he could. Thereupon there
followed whispered conferences between him and Jack, between him and Jim
Rossiter, between him and kindred magnates, between three and four and
six and eight of them together, with a ceaseless stream of telegrams, of
the purport of which we women knew nothing. We gave dinners and lunches,
and bathed at Bailey's, and played tennis at the Casino, and lived in
our own little lady-like Paradise, shut out from the interests
convulsing the world. Knitting had not yet begun. The Red Cross had
barely issued its appeals. America, with the speed of the
Franco-Prussian War in mind, was still under the impression that it
could hardly give its philanthropic aid before the need for it would be
over.
Of all our little coterie Lady Cissie and I alone perhaps took the sense
of things to heart. Even with us, it was the heart that acted rather
than the intelligence. So far as intelligence went, we were convinced
that, once Great Britain lifted her hand, all hostile nations would
tremble. That was a matter of course. It amazed us that people round us
should talk of our enemy's efficiency. The word was just coming into
use, always with the implication that the English were inefficient and
unprepared.
That would have made us laugh if those who said such things hadn't said
them like Hugh, with detached, undisturbed deliberation, as a matter
that was nothing to them. Many of them hoped, and hoped ardently, that
the side represented by England, Russia, and France would be victorious;
but if it wasn't, America would still be able to sit down to eat and
drink, and rise up to play, as we were doing at the moment, while
nothing could shake her from her ease.
Owing to our kinship in sentiment, Lady Cissie and I drew closer
together. We gave each other bits of information in which no one else
would have had an interest. She was getting letters from England; I from
England and Canada. Her brother Leatherhead had been ordered to France
with his regiment--was probably there. Her brother Rowan, who had been
at Sandhurst, had got his commission. The young man her sister Janet was
engaged to had sailed with the Rangers for Marseilles and would go at
once to the front instead of coming home. If he could get leave the
young couple would be married hastily, after which he would return to
his duty. My sister Louise wrote that her husband's ship was in the
North Sea and that her news of him was meager. The husband of my sister
Victoria, who had had a staff appointment at Gibraltar, had been ordered
to rejoin his regiment; and he, too, would soon be in Belgium.
From Canada I heard of that impulse toward recruiting which was
thrilling the land from the Island of Vancouver, in the Pacific, to that
of Cape Breton, in the Atlantic, and in which the multitudes were of one
heart and one soul. Men came from farms, factories, and fisheries; they
came from banks and shops and mines. They tramped hundreds of miles,
from the Yukon, from Ungava, and from Hudson Bay. They arrived in troops
or singly, impelled by nothing but that love which passes the love of
women--the love of race, the love of country, the love of honor, the
love of something vast and intangible and inexplicable, that comes as
near as possible to that love of man which is almost the love of God.
I can proudly say that among my countrymen it was this, and it was
nothing short of this. They were as far from the fray as their neighbors
to the south, and as safe. Belgium and Serbia meant less to most of them
than to the people of San Francisco, Chicago, and New York; but a great
cause, almost indefinable to thought, meant everything. To that cause
they gave themselves--not sparingly or grudgingly, but like Araunah the
Jebusite to David the son of Jesse, "as a king gives unto a king."
Men are wonderful to me--all men of all races. They face hardship so
cheerfully and dangers so gaily, and death so serenely. This is true of
men not only in war, but in peace--of men not only as saints, but as
sinners. And among men it seems to me that our Colonial men are in the
first rank of the manliest. Frenchman, German, Austrian, Italian,
Russian, Englishman, and Turk had each some visible end to gain. They
couldn't help going. They couldn't help fighting. Our men had nothing to
gain that mortal eyes could see. They have endured, "as seeing Him who
is invisible."
They have come from the far ends of the earth, and are still
coming--turning their backs on families and business and pleasure and
profit and hope. They have counted the world well lost for love--for a
true love--a man's love--a redemptive love if ever there was one; for
"greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for
his friends."
But when, with my heart flaming, I spoke of this to Lady Cecilia, she
was cold. "Fancy!" was the only comment she ever made on the subject.
Toward my own intensity of feeling she was courteous; but she plainly
felt that in a war in which the honors would be to the professional
soldier, and to the English professional soldier first of all, Colonials
were out of place. It was somewhat presumptuous of them to volunteer.
She was a splendid character--with British limitations. Among those
limitations her attitude toward Colonials was, as I saw things, the
first. She rarely spoke of Canadians or Australians; it was always of
Colonials, with a delicately disdainful accent on the word impossible to
transcribe. Geography, either physical or ethnic, was no more her strong
point than it is that of other women; and I think she took Colonials to
be a kind of race of aborigines, like the Maoris or the Hottentots--only
that by some freak of nature they were white. So, whenever my heart was
so hot that I could contain myself no longer, and I poured out my
foolish tales of the big things we hoped to do for the empire and the
world, the dear thing would merely utter her dazed, "Fancy!" and strike
me dumb.
And it all threw me back on the thought of Larry Strangways. Reader, if
you suppose that I had forgotten him you are making a mistake.
Everything made my heart cry out for him--Hugh's inanity; his father's
lumbering dignity; Mildred's sepulchral apothegms, which were deeper
than I could fathom and higher than I could scale; Cissie Boscobel's
stolid scorn of my country; and Newport's whole attitude of taking no
notice of me or mine. Whenever I had minutes of rebellion or stress it
was on Larry Strangways I called, with an agonized appeal to him to come
to me. It was a purely rhetorical appeal, let me say in passing. As it
would never reach him, he could not respond to it; but it relieved my
repressed emotions to send it out on the wings of the spirit. It was
the only vehicle I could trust; and even that betrayed me--for he came.
He came one hot afternoon about the 20th of August. His card was brought
to me by the rosebud Thomas as I was taking a siesta up-stairs.
"Tell Mr. Strangways I shall come down at once," I said to my footman
knight; but after he had gone I sat still.
I sat still to estimate my strength. If Larry Strangways made such an
appeal to me as I had made to him, should I have the will-power to
resist him? I could only reply that I must have it! There was no other
way. When Hugh had been so true to me it was impossible to be other than
true to him. It was no longer a question of love, but of right: and I
couldn't forsake my maxim.
Nevertheless, when I threw off my dressing-gown instinct compelled me to
dress at my prettiest. To be sure, my prettiest was only a flowered
muslin and a Leghorn hat, in which I resembled the vicar's daughter in a
Royal Academy picture; but if I was never to see Larry Strangways again
I wanted the vision in his heart to be the most decent possible. As I
dressed I owned to myself that I loved him. I had never done so before,
because I had never known it--or rather, I had known it from that
evening on the train when I had seen nothing but his traveling-cap; only
I had strangled the knowledge in my heart. I meant to strangle it again.
I should strangle it the minute I went down-stairs. But for this little
interval, just while I was fastening my gown and pinning on my hat, it
seemed to me of no great harm to let the unfortunate passion come out
for a breath in the sunlight.
And yet, after having rehearsed all the romantic speeches I should make
in giving him up forever, he never mentioned love to me at all. On the
contrary, he had on that gleaming smile which, from the beginning of our
acquaintance, was like the flash of a sword held up between him and me.
When he came forward from a corner of the long, dim drawing-room all the
embarrassment was on my side.
"I suppose you wonder what brings me," were the words he uttered when
shaking hands.
I tried to murmur politely that, whatever it was, I was glad to see
him--only the words refused to form themselves.
"Can't we go out?" he asked, as I cast about me for chairs. "It's so
stuffy in here."
I led the way through the hall, picking up a rose-colored parasol of
Mrs. Rossiter's as we passed the umbrella-stand.
"How much money have you got?" he asked, abruptly, as soon as we were on
the terrace.
I made an effort to gather my wits from the far fields into which they
had wandered.
"Do you mean in ready cash? Or how much do I own in all?"
"How much in all?"
I told him--just a few thousand dollars, the wreckage of what my father
had left. My total income, apart from what I earned, was about four
hundred dollars a year.
"I want it," he said, as we descended the steps to the lower terrace.
"How soon could you let me have it?"
I made the reckoning as we went down the lawn toward the sea. I should
have to write to my uncle, who would sell my few bonds and forward me
the proceeds. Mr. Strangways himself said that would take a week.
"I'm going to make a small fortune for you," he laughed, in explanation.
"All the nations of the earth are beginning to send to us for munitions,
and Stacy Grainger is right on the spot with the goods. There'll be a
demand for munitions for years to come--"
"Oh, not for years to come!" I exclaimed. "Only till the end of the
war."
"'But the end is not by and by,'" he quoted from the Bible. "It's a long
way off from by and by--believe me! We're up against the struggle
mankind has been getting ready for ever since it's had a history. I
don't want just to make money out of it; but, since money's to be
made--since we can't help making it--I want you to be in on it."
I didn't thank him, because I had something else on my mind.
"Perhaps you don't know that I'm engaged to Hugh Brokenshire. We're to
be married before we move back to New York."
"Yes, I do know it. That's the reason I'm suggesting this. You'll want
some money of your own, in order to feel independent. If you don't have
it the Brokenshire money will break you down."
I don't know what I said, or whether I was able to say anything. There
was something in this practical care-taking interest that moved me more
than any love declaration he could have made. He was renouncing me in
everything but his protection. That was going with me. That was watching
over me. There was no one to watch over me in the whole world with just
this sort of devotion.
I suppose we talked. We must have said something as we descended the
slope; I must have stammered some sort of appreciation. All I can
clearly remember is that, as we reached the steps going down to the
Cliff Walk, Hugh was coming up.
I had forgotten that this sort of encounter was possible. I had
forgotten Hugh. When I saw his innocent, blank face staring up at us I
felt I was confronting my doom.
"Well!" he ejaculated, as though he had caught us in some criminal
conspiracy.
As it was for me to explain, I said, limply:
"Mr. Strangways has been good enough to offer to make some money for me,
Hugh. Isn't that kind of him?"
Hugh grew slowly crimson. His voice shook with passion. He came up one
step.
"Mr. Strangways will be kinder still in minding his own business."
"Oh, Hugh!"
"Don't be offended, Mr. Brokenshire," Larry Strangways said, peaceably.
"I merely had the opportunity to advise Miss Adare as to her
investments--"
"I shall advise Miss Adare as to her investments. It happens that she's
engaged to me!"
"But she's not married to you. An engagement is not a marriage; it's
only a preliminary period in which two persons agree to consider whether
or not a marriage between them would be possible. Since that's the
situation at present, I thought it no harm to tell Miss Adare that if
she puts her money into some of the new projects for ammunition that I
know about--"
"And I'm sure she's not interested."
Mr. Strangways bowed.
"That will be for her to decide. I understood her to say--"
"Whatever you understood her to say, sir, Miss Adare is not interested!
Good afternoon." He nodded to me to come down the steps. "I was just
coming over for you. Shall we walk along together?"
I backed away from him toward the stone balustrade.
"But, Hugh, I can't leave Mr. Strangways like this. He's come all the
way from New York on purpose to--"
"Then I shall defray his expense and pay him for his time; but if we're
going at all, dear--"
At a sign of the eyes from Larry Strangways I mastered my wrath at this
insolence, and spoke meekly:
"I didn't know we were going anywhere in particular."
"And you'll excuse me, Mr. Brokenshire," our visitor interrupted, "if I
say that I can't be dismissed in this way by any one but Miss Adare
herself. You must remember she isn't your wife--that she's still a free
agent. Perhaps, if I explain the matter a little further--"
Hugh put up his hand in stately imitation of his father.
"Please! There's no need of that."
"Oh, but there is, Hugh!"
"You see," Mr. Strangways reasoned, "it's more than a question of making
money. We shall make money, of course; but that's only incidental. What
I'm really asking Miss Adare to do is to help one of the most glorious
causes to which mankind has ever given itself--"
I started toward him impulsively.
"Oh! Do you feel like that?"
"Not like that; that's all I feel. I live it! I've no other thought."
It was curious to see how the force of this all-absorbing topic swept
Hugh away from the merely personal standpoint.
"And you call yourself an American?" he demanded, hotly.
"I call myself a man. I don't emphasize the American. This thing
transcends what we call nationality."
Hugh shouted, somewhat in the tone of a man kicking against the pricks:
"Not what I call nationality! It's got nothing to do with us."
"Ah, but it will have something to do with us! It isn't merely a
European struggle; it's a universal one. Sooner or later you'll see
mankind divided into just two camps."
Hugh warmed to the discussion.
"Even if we do, it still doesn't follow that we'll all be in your camp."
"That depends on whether we're among those driving forward or those
kicking back. The American people has been in the first of these classes
hitherto; it remains to be seen whether or not it's there still. But if
it isn't as a nation I can tell you that some of us will be there as
individuals."
Hugh's tone was one of horror.
"You mean that you'd go and fight?"
"That's about the size of it."
"Then you'd be a traitor to your country for getting her into trouble."
"If I had to choose between being a traitor to my country and a traitor
to my manhood I'd take the first. Fortunately, no such alternative will
be thrust upon us. Miss Adare pointed out to me once that there couldn't
be two right courses, each opposed to the other. Right and rights must
be harmonious. If I'm true to myself I'm true to my country; and I can't
be true to my country unless I do my 'bit,' as the phrase begins to go,
for the good of the human race."
"And you're really going?" I asked, breathlessly.
"As soon as I can arrange things with Mr."--but he remembered he was
speaking to a Brokenshire--"as soon as I can arrange things with--with
my boss. He's willing to let me go, and to keep my job for me if I come
back. He'll take charge of my small funds and of any Miss Adare
intrusts to me. He asked me to give her that message. When it's settled
I shall start for Canada."
"That'll do you no good," Hugh stated, triumphantly. "They won't enlist
Americans there."
Larry Strangways smiled.
"Oh, there are ways! If there's nothing else for it I'll swear in as a
Canadian."
"You'd do that!" In different tones the exclamation came from Hugh and
me, simultaneously.
I can still see Larry Strangways with his proud, fair head held high.
"I'd do anything rather than not fight. My American birthright is as
dear to me as it is to any one; but we've reached a time when such
considerations must go by the board. For the matter of that, the more
closely we can now identify the Briton and the American, the better it
will be for the world."
He explained this at some length. The theme was so engrossing that even
Hugh was willing to listen to the argument. People were talking already
of a world federation which would follow the war and unite all the
nations in approximate brotherhood. Larry Strangways didn't believe in
that as a possibility; at least he didn't believe in it as an immediate
possibility. There were just two nations fitted to understand each other
and act together, and if they couldn't fraternize and sympathize it was
of no use to expect that miracle from races who had nothing in common.
Get the United States and the British Empire to stand shoulder to
shoulder, and sooner or later the other peoples would line up beside
them.
But you must begin at the beginning. Unless you started as an acorn you
couldn't be an oak; if you were not willing to be a baby you could
never become a man. There must be no more Hague conferences, with their
vast programs and ineffective means. The failure of that dream was
evident. We must be practical; we mustn't soar beyond the possible. The
possible and the practical lay in British and American institutions and
commonly understood principles. The world had an asset in them that had
never been worked. To work it was the task not primarily of governments,
but, first and before everything, of individuals. It was up to the
British and American man and woman in their personal lives and opinions.
I interrupted to say that it was up to the American man and woman first
of all; that British willingness to co-operate with America was far more
ready than any similar sentiment on the American side.
Hugh threw the stress on efficiency. America was so thorough in her
methods that she couldn't co-operate with British muddling.
"What is efficiency?" Larry Strangways asked. "It's the best means of
doing what you want to do, isn't it? Well, then, efficiency is a matter
of your ambitions. There's the efficiency of the watch-dog who loves his
master and guards the house, and there's the efficiency of the tiger in
the jungle. One has one's choice."
It was not a question, he continued to reason, as to who began this
war--whether it was a king or a czar or a kaiser. It was not a question
of English and German competition, or of French or Russian aggression,
or fear of it. The inquiry went back of all that. It went back beyond
modern Europe, beyond the Middle Ages, beyond Rome and Assyria and
Egypt. It was a battle of principles rather than of nations--the last
great struggle between reason and force--the fight between the instinct
of some men to rule other men and the contrary instinct, implanted more
or less in all men, that they shall hold up their heads and rule
themselves.
It was part of the impulse of the human race to forge ahead and upward.
The powers that worked against liberty had been arming themselves, not
merely for a generation or a century, but since the beginning of time,
for just this trial of strength. The effort would be colossal and it
would be culminating; no human being would be spared taking part in it.
If America didn't come in of her own accord she would be compelled to
come in; and meantime he, Larry Strangways, was going of free will.
He didn't express it in just this way. He put it humbly, colloquially,
with touches of slang.
"I've got to be on the job, Miss Adare, and there are no two ways about
it," were the words in which he ended. "I've just run down from New York
to speak about--about the money; and--and to bid you good-by." He
glanced toward Hugh. "Possibly, in view of the fact that I'm so soon to
be off--and may not come back, you know," he added, with a laugh--"Mr.
Brokenshire won't mind if--if we shake hands."
I can say to Hugh's credit that he gave us a little while together.
Going down the steps he had mounted, he called back, over his shoulder:
"I'm going off for a walk, dear. I shall return in exactly fifteen
minutes; and I expect you to be ready for me then."
But when we were alone we had little or nothing to say. I recall that
quarter of an hour as a period of emotional paralysis. I knew and he
knew that each second ticked off an instant that all the rest of our
lives we should long for in vain; and yet we didn't know how to make use
of it.
We began to wander slowly up the slope. We did it aimlessly, stopping
when we were only a few yards away from the steps. We talked about the
money. We talked about his going to Canada. We talked about the breaking
off, so far as we knew, of all intercourse between Mr. Grainger and Mrs.
Brokenshire. But we said nothing about ourselves. We said nothing about
anything but what was superficial and trite and lame.
Once or twice Larry Strangways took out his watch and glanced at it, as
if to underscore the fact that the sands were slipping away. I kept my
face hidden as much as possible beneath the rose-colored parasol. So far
as I could judge, he looked over my head. We still had said
nothing--there was still nothing we could say--when, beneath the bank of
the lawn, and moving back in our direction, we saw the crown of Hugh's
Panama.
"Good-by!" Larry Strangways said, then.
"Good-by!"
My hand rested in his without pressure; without pressure his had taken
mine. I think his eyes made one last wild, desperate appeal to me but if
so I was unable to respond to it.
I don't know how it happened that he turned his back and walked firmly
up the lawn. I don't know how it happened that I also turned and took
the necessary steps toward Hugh. All I can say is--and I can say it only
in this way--all I can say is, I felt that I had died.
That is, I felt that I had died except for one queer, bracing echo which
suddenly come back to me. It was in the words Mildred Brokenshire had
used, and which, at the time, I had thought too deep for me to
understand:
"Life is not a blind impulse working blindly. It is a beneficent
rectifying power."