I do not fear bodily suffering; but oh, my God, that I might be spared
the torture of my soul! I am tired of feeling that my name is
scorned--I, so proud, so uplifted, just because my name was above
reproach; I, who had the right to look the whole world in the face. I
live only in the hope of seeing my name soon cleansed from this horrible
stain. You have again given me back my courage. Your noble abnegation,
your heroic devotion, give me renewed strength to bear my terrible
martyrdom.
I shall not tell you that I love you yet more; you know how profound my
love is for you. It is that love that enables me to bear my tortures of
mind. It is the love of all of you for me.
Embrace them all tenderly for me, the members of our two families, your
dear parents, our children, and, for yourself, receive the best, the
tenderest kisses of your devoted husband.