CHAPTER II--A LIGHT SHINING IN DARKNESS

IN the rear of Mrs. Gaston’s place, there stood in the midst of an

orchard a log house of two rooms, with hallway between them. There was

a mud-thatched wooden chimney at each end, and from the back of the

hallway a kitchen extension of the same material with another mud

chimney. The house stood in the middle of a ten acre lot, and a woman

was busy in the garden with a little girl, planting seed.

“Hurry up Annie, less finish this in time to fix up a fine dinner er

greens and turnips an’taters an a chicken. Yer Pappy’ll get home

to-day sure. Colonel Gaston’s Nelse come last night. Yer Pappy was in

the Colonel’s regiment an’ Nelse said he passed him on the road comin’

with two one-legged soldiers. He ain’t got but one leg, he says. But,

Lord, if there’s a piece of him left we’ll praise God an’ be thankful

for what we’ve got.”

“Maw, how did he look? I mos’ forgot--’s been so long sence I seed

him?” asked the child.

“Look! Honey! He was the handsomest man in Campbell county! He had a

tall fine figure, brown curly beard, and the sweetest mouth that was

always smilin’ at me, an’ his eyes twinklin’ over somethin’ funny he’d

seed or thought about. When he was young ev’ry gal around here was crazy

about him. I got him all right, an’ he got me too. Oh me! I can’t help

but cry, to think he’s been gone so long. But he’s comin’ to-day! I jes

feel it in my bones.”

“Look a yonder, Maw, what a skeer-crow ridin’ er ole hoss!” cried the

girl, looking suddenly toward the road.

“Glory to God! It’s Tom!” she shouted, snatching her old faded

sun-bonnet off her head and fairly flying across the field to the gate,

her cheeks aflame, her blond hair tumbling over her shoulders, her eyes

wet with tears.

Tom was entering the gate of his modest home in as fine style as

possible, seated proudly on a stack of bones that had once been a horse,

an old piece of wool on his head that once had been a hat, and a wooden

peg fitted into a stump where once was a leg. His face was pale and

stained with the red dust of the hill roads, and his beard, now iron

grey, and his ragged buttonless uniform were covered with dirt. He was

truly a sight to scare crows, if not of interest to buzzards. But to the

woman whose swift feet were hurrying to his side, and whose lips were

muttering half articulate cries of love, he was the knightliest figure

that ever rode in the lists before the assembled beauty of the world.

“Oh! Tom, Tom, Tom, my ole man! You’ve come at last!” she sobbed as

she threw her arms around his neck, drew him from the horse and fairly

smothered him with kisses.

“Look out, ole woman, you’ll break my new leg!” cried Tom when he could

get breath.

“I don’t care,--I’ll get you another one,” she laughed through her

tears.

“Look out there again you’re smashing my game shoulder. Got er Minie

ball in that one.”

“Well your mouth’s all right I see,” cried the delighted woman, as she

kissed and kissed him.

“Say, Annie, don’t be so greedy, give me a chance at my young one.”

Tom’s eyes were devouring the excited girl who had drawn nearer.

“Come and kiss your Pappy and tell him how glad you are to see him!”

said Tom, gathering her in his arms and attempting to carry her to the

house.

He stumbled and fell. In a moment the strong arms of his wife were about

him and she was helping him into the house.

She laid him tenderly on the bed, petted him and cried over him. “My

poor old man, he’s all shot and cut to pieces. You’re so weak, Tom--I

can’t believe it. You were so strong. But we’ll take care of you. Don’t

you worry. You just sleep a week and then rest all summer and watch us

work the garden for you!”

He lay still for a few moments with a smile playing around his lips.

“Lord, ole woman, you don’t know how nice it is to be petted like that,

to hear a woman’s voice, feel her breath on your face and the touch of

her hand, warm and soft after four years sleeping on dirt and living

with men and mules, and fightin’ and runnin’ and diggin’ trenches like

rats and moles, killin’ men, buryin’ the dead like carrion, holdin’ men

while doctors sawed their legs off, till your turn came to be held and

sawed! You can’t believe it, but this is the first feather bed I’ve

touched in four years.”

“Well, well!--Bless God it’s over now,” she cried. “S’long as I’ve got

two strong arms to slave for you--as long as there’s a piece of you left

big enough to hold on to--I’ll work for you,” and again she bent low

over his pale face, and crooned over him as she had so often done over

his baby in those four lonely years of war and poverty.

Suddenly Tom pushed her aside and sprang up in bed.

“Geemimy, Annie, I forgot my pardners--there’s two more peg-legs out at

the gate by this time waiting for us to get through huggin’ and carryin’

on before they come in. Run, fetch’em in quick!”

Tom struggled to his feet and met them at the door.

“Come right into my palace, boys. I’ve seen some fine places in my time,

but this is the handsomest one I ever set eyes on. Now, Annie, put the

big pot in the little one and don’t stand back for expenses. Let’s have

a dinner these fellers’ll never forget.”

It was a feast they never forgot. Tom’s wife had raised a brood of early

chickens, and managed to keep them from being stolen. She killed four of

them and cooked them as only a Southern woman knows how. She had sweet

potatoes carefully saved in the mound against the kitchen chimney. There

were turnips and greens and radishes, young onions and lettuce and hot

corn dodgers fit for a king; and in the centre of the table she deftly

fixed a pot of wild flowers little Annie had gathered. She did not tell

them that it was the last peck of potatoes and the last pound of meal.

This belonged to the morrow. To-day they would live.

They laughed and joked over this splendid banquet, and told stories of

days and nights of hunger and exhaustion, when they had filled their

empty stomachs with dreams of home.

“Miss Camp, you’ve got the best husband in seven states, did you know

that?” asked one of the soldiers, a mere boy.

“Of course she’ll agree to that, sonny,” laughed Tom.

“Well it’s so. If it hadn’t been for him, M’am, we’d a been peggin’

along somewhere way up in Virginny ‘stead o’ bein’ so close to home. You

see he let us ride his hoss a mile and then he’d ride a mile. We took it

turn about, and here we are.”

“Tom, how in this world did you get that horse?” asked his wife.

“Honey, I got him on my good looks,” said he with a wink. “You see I was

a settin’ out there in the sun the day o’ the surrender. I was sorter

cryin’ and wonderin’ how I’d get home with that stump of wood instead

of a foot, when along come a chunky heavy set Yankee General, looking as

glum as though his folks had surrendered instead of Marse Robert. He saw

me, stopped, looked at me a minute right hard and says, ‘Where do you

live?’”

“Way down in ole No’th Caliny,” I says, “at Ham-bright, not far from

King’s Mountain.”

“How are you going to get home?” says he.

“God knows, I don’t, General. I got a wife and baby down there I ain’t

seed fer nigh four years, and I want to see ’em so bad I can taste

’em. I was lookin’ the other way when I said that, fer I was purty

well played out, and feelin’ weak and watery about the eyes, an’ I

didn’t want no Yankee General to see water in my eyes.”

“He called a feller to him and sorter snapped out to him, ‘Go bring the

best horse you can spare for this man and give it to him’.”

“Then he turns to me and seed I was all choked up and couldn’t say

nothin’ and says:

“I’m General Grant. Give my love to your folks when you get home. I’ve

known what it was to be a poor white man down South myself once for

awhile.”

“God bless you, General. I thanks you from the bottom of my heart,” I

says as quick as I could find my tongue, “if it had to be surrender I’m

glad it was to such a man as you.”

“He never said another word, but just walked slow along smoking a big

cigar. So ole woman, you know the reason I named that hoss, ‘General

Grant.’ It may be I have seen finer hosses than that one, but I couldn’t

recollect anything about ’em on the road home.”

Dinner over, Tom’s comrades rose and looked wistfully down the dusty

road leading southward.

“Well, Tom, ole man, we gotter be er movin’,” said the older of the

two soldiers. “We’re powerful obleeged to you fur helpin’ us along this

fur.”

“All right, boys, you’ll find yer train standin’ on the side o’ the

track eatin’ grass. Jes climb up, pull the lever and let her go.”

The men’s faces brightened, their lips twitched. They looked at Tom, and

then at the old horse. They looked down the long dusty road stretching

over hill and valley, hundreds of miles south, and then at Tom’s wife

and child, whispered to one another a moment, and the elder said:

“No, pardner, you’ve been awful good to us, but we’ll get along

somehow--we can’t take yer hoss. It’s all yer got now ter make a livin’

on yer place.”

“All I got?” shouted Tom, “man alive, ain’t you seed my ole woman, as

fat and jolly and han’some as when I married her ’leven years ago?

Didn’t you hear her cryin’ an’ shoutin’ like she’s crazy when I got

home? Didn’t you see my little gal with eyes jes like her daddy’s? Don’t

you see my cabin standin’ as purty as a ripe peach in the middle of the

orchard when hundreds of fine houses are lyin’ in ashes? Ain’t I got ten

acres of land? Ain’t I got God Almighty above me and all around me, the

same God that watched over me on the battlefields? All I got? That old

stack o’ bones that looks like er hoss? Well I reckon not!”

“Pardner, it ain’t right,” grumbled the soldier, with more of cheerful

thanks than protest in his voice.

“Oh! Get off you fools,” said Tom good-naturedly, “ain’t it my hoss?

Can’t I do what I please with him?” So with hearty hand-shakes they

parted, the two astride the old horse’s back. One had lost his right

leg, the other his left, and this gave them a good leg on each side to

hold the cargo straight.

“Take keer yerself, Tom!” they both cried in the same breath as they

moved away.

“Take keer yerselves, boys. I’m all right!” answered Tom, as he stumped

his way back to the home. “It’s all right, it’s all right,” he muttered

to himself. “He’d a come in handy, but I’d a never slept thinkin’ o’

them peggin’ along them rough roads.”

Before reaching the house he sat down on a wooden bench beneath a tree

to rest. It was the first week in May and the leaves were not yet grown.

The sun was pouring his hot rays down into the moist earth, and the heat

began to feel like summer. As he drank in the beauty and glory of the

spring his soul was melted with joy. The fruit trees were laden with

the promise of the treasures of the summer and autumn, a cat-bird was

singing softly to his mate in the tree over his head, and a mocking-bird

seated in the topmost branch of an elm near his cabin home was leading

the oratorio of feathered songsters. The wild plum and blackberry briars

were in full bloom in the fence comers, and the sweet odour filled the

air. He heard his wife singing in the house.

“It’s a fine old world after all!” he exclaimed leaning back and half

closing his eyes, while a sense of ineffable peace filled his soul.

“Peace at last! Thank God! May I never see a gun or a sword, or hear a

drum or a fife’s scream on this earth again!”

A hound came close wagging his tail and whining for a word of love and

recognition.

“Well. Bob, old boy, you’re the only one left. You’ll have to chase

cotton-tails by yourself now.”

Bob’s eyes watered and he licked his master’s hand apparently

understanding every word he said.

Breaking from his master’s hands the dog ran toward the gate barking,

and Tom rose in haste as he recognised the sturdy tread of the Preacher,

Rev. John Durham, walking rapidly toward the house.

Grasping him heartily by the hand the Preacher said, “Tom, you don’t

know how it warms my soul to look into your face again. When you left, I

felt like a man who had lost one hand. I’ve found it to-day. You’re the

same stalwart Christian full of joy and love. Some men’s religion didn’t

stand the wear and tear of war. You’ve come out with your soul like gold

tried in the fire. Colonel Gaston wrote me you were the finest soldier

in the regiment, and that you were the only Chaplain he had seen that he

could consult for his own soul’s cheer. That’s the kind of a deacon

to send to the front! I’m proud of you, and you’re still at your old

tricks. I met two one-legged soldiers down the road riding your horse

away as though you had a stable full at your command. You needn’t

apologise or explain, they told me all about it.”

“Preacher, it’s good to have the Lord’s messenger speak words like them.

I can’t tell you how glad I am to be home again and shake your hand.

I tell you it was a comfort to me when I lay awake at night on them

battlefields, a wonderin’ what had become of my ole woman and the baby,

to recollect that you were here, and how often I’d heard you tell us how

the Lord tempered the wind to the shorn lamb. Annie’s been telling me

who watched out for her them dark days when there was nothin’ to eat.

I reckon you and your wife knows the way to this house about as well

as you do to the church.” Tom had pulled the Preacher down on the seat

beside him while he said this.

“The dark days have only begun, Tom. I’ve come to see you to have you

cheer me up. Somehow you always seemed to me to be closer to God than

any man in the church. You will need all your faith now. It seems to me

that every second woman I know is a widow. Hundreds of families have

no seed even to plant, no horses to work crops, no men who will work

if they had horses. What are we to do? I see hungry children in every

house.”

“Preacher, the Lord is looking down here to-day and sees all this as

plain as you and me. As long as He is in the sky everything will come

all right on the earth.”

“How’s your pantry?” asked the Preacher.

“Don’t know. ‘Man shall not live by bread alone,’ you know. When I hear

these birds in the trees an’ see this old dog waggin’ his tail at me,

and smell the breath of them flowers, and it all comes over me that I’m

done killin’ men, and I’m at home, with a bed to sleep on, a roof over

my head, a woman to pet me and tell me I’m great and handsome, I don’t

feel like I’ll ever need anything more to eat! I believe I could live a

whole month here without eatin’ a bite.”

“Good. You come to the prayer meeting to-night and say a few things

like that, and the folks will believe they have been eating three square

meals every day.”

“I’ll be there. I ain’t asked Annie what she’s got, but I know she’s

got greens and turnips, onions and col-lards, and strawberries in the

garden. Irish taters’ll be big enough to eat in three weeks, and sweets

comin’ right on. We’ve got a few chickens. The blackberries and plums

and peaches and apples are all on the road. Ah! Preacher, it’s my soul

that’s been starved away from my wife and child!”

“You don’t know how much I need help sometimes Tom. I am always giving,

giving myself in sympathy and help to others, I’m famished now and then.

I feel faint and worn out. You seem to fill me again with life.”

“I’m glad to hear you say that, Preacher. I get downhearted sometimes,

when I recollect I’m nothin’ but a poor white man. I’ll remember your

words. I’m goin’ to do my part in the church work. You know where to

find me.”

“Well, that’s partly what brought me here this morning. I want you to

help me look after Mrs. Gaston and her little boy. She is prostrated

over the death of the Colonel and is hanging between life and death.

She is in a delirious condition all the time and must be watched day and

night. I want you to watch the first half of the night with Nelse, and

Eve and Mary will watch the last half.”

“Of course, I’ll do anything in the world I can for my Colonel’s widder.

He was the bravest man that ever led a regiment, and he was a father to

us boys. I’ll be there. But I won’t set up with that nigger. He can go

to bed.”

“Tom, it’s a funny thing to me that as good a Christian as you are

should hate a nigger so. He’s a human being. It’s not right.”

“He may be human, Preacher, I don’t know. To tell you the truth, I have

my doubts. Anyhow, I can’t help it. God knows I hate the sight of ’em

like I do a rattlesnake. That nigger Nelse, they say is a good one. He

was faithful to the Colonel, I know, but I couldn’t bear him no more

than any of the rest of ’em. I always hated a nigger since I was knee

high. My daddy and my mammy hated ’em before me. Somehow, we always

felt like they was crowdin’ us to death on them big plantations, and the

little ones too. And then I had to leave my wife and baby and fight four

years, all on account of their stinkin’ hides, that never done nothin’

for me except make it harder to live. Every time I’d go into battle and

hear them Minie balls begin to sing over us, it seemed to me I could see

their black ape faces grinnin’ and makin’ fun of poor whites. At night

when they’d detail me to help the ambulance corps carry off the dead and

the wounded, there was a strange smell on the field that came from the

blood and night damp and burnt powder. It always smelled like a nigger

to me! It made me sick. Yes, Preacher, God forgive me, I hate ’em! I

can’t help it any more than I can the color of my skin or my hair.”

“I’ll fix it with Nelse, then. You take the first part of the night ’till

twelve o’clock. I’ll go down with you from the church to-night,” said

the Preacher, as he shook Tom’s hand and took his leave.

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