The lake asks an old question as you ride to work or come home from work
on the I. C. train. The train shoots along and out of the window the lake
turns slowly like a great wheel. There is a curious optical illusion, as
if the train were riding frantically on the rim of a great wheel and the
wheel were turning in an opposite direction.
Perhaps this illusion makes it seem as if the lake were asking an old
question as you ride along its edge--"Where you going?"
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People looking out of the train window seem to grow sad as they stare at
the lake. But this does not apply to train riders alone. In the summer
time there are the revelers on the Municipal Pier and the beach loungers
and all others who sit or take walks within sight of the water.
During the summer day the beaches are lively and the vari-colored bathing
suits and parasols offer little carnival panels at the ends of the east
running streets. As you pass them on the north side bus or on the south
side I. C., the sun, the swarm of bathers smeared like bits of brightly
colored paint across the yellow sand and the obliterating sweep of water
remind you of the modernist artists whose pictures are usually
lithographic blurs.
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Yet winter and summer, even when the thousands upon thousands of bathers
cover the sand like a shower of confetti and when there are shouts and
circus excitements along the beach, people who look at the lake seem
always to become sad. One wonders why.
Perhaps it is because the inanimate sweep of the water, its hugeness and
silence, make one forget the petty things and the greedy trifles which
form the routine of one's day. And when one forgets these things one
remembers, alas, something they pleasantly obscured by their presence. A
dream, perhaps, buried long ago. A hope, an emotion successfully interred
under the amiable rubbish the days have piled up.
Then, too, there is the question, "Where you going?" And an answer to it
that seems to come out of the long reaches of water--"Come with
me--somewhere--nowhere."
These thoughts play in people's minds without words. They are almost more
a part of the lake than of their thinking, as if they were, in fact, lake
thoughts.
Another reason why people grow sad when they look at the water of the lake
is perhaps that the lake offers them an escape from the tawdry, nagging
little responsibilities of the day that go with being a citizen and a
breadwinner. Not that it invites to suicide. Quite the reverse; it invites
to living. To doing something that has a sweep to it; that has a swagger
to it. To setting sail for strange ports where strange adventures wait.
So, as the I. C. trains rush their thousands to work and home again the
citizens and breadwinners let their imaginations gallop toward a faraway
horizon. And these imaginations came galloping back again and the
breadwinners are saddened--by a memory. Yes, they were for a moment
rovers, egad! swashbucklers, gentlemen and ladies of fortune free of the
rigamarole burdens that keep them on the I. C. treadmill. And now they are
again passengers. Going to work. Going home to go to work again tomorrow.
It is easy to think that this is the secret of the sad little grimace the
lake brings to the eyes of the train riders.
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This discourse is becoming a bit dolorous. But the subject rather requires
an andante treatment. The city's press agents will tell you quite another
story about the lake--about the "city's playground" and how conducive it
is to healthful sport and joyous recreation. But, on the other hand, there
is this other side, so to speak, of the lake. For the lake belongs to
those familiar things that surprise people into uncomfortable silences.
One could as easily write about the sky in this vein, since the lake, like
the sky, challenges the monotony of people's lives with another
monotony--the monotony of nature that seems to engulf, obliterate, reduce
to puny proportions the routine by which people live and which,
fortunately, they delude themselves into admiring.
There is also the question of beauty. This is a delicate issue to
introduce into one's daily reading and the reader's pardon is solicited
with proper humiliation. And yet, there is a question of beauty, of soul
states and aesthetic nuances involved in the consideration of the lake.
Beauty by one definition is the sensatory excitement stirred in people by
the rhythm of line, the vibration of color, the play of motion and the
surprise of idea. It is usually a saddening effect that beauty produces
and perhaps this is because beauty is something like an illumination that
while admirable in itself throws into pathetic evidence all the ugly and
unbeautiful things of one's life.
In this somewhat involved aesthetic principle there is probably another
hint at the causes of the sadness people show when they look at the lake.
* * * * *
Today the lake wears its autumn aspect. Out of the train window one sees a
wedge of geese flying south or occasionally a lone bird circling like an
endless note over the water. The waves look cold and their symmetrical
crisscross makes one think of the chill, lonely nights that beckon outside
the coziness of one's home windows.
On summer days the lake is sometimes like a huge lavender leaf veined with
gold. Sometimes it becomes festive and wears the awning stripes of cloud
and sun. Or it grows serene and reminds one of a superb domesticity--as it
lies pointed like a grate, arched like a saucer or the back of a sleeping
kitten.
But today its autumn is a bit depressing. It no longer lures toward
strange adventure. Instead its grayness seems to say to one, "Stay
away--stay away. Hide away in warm houses and warm overcoats. Men are
little things--puny things."
It is when one leaves the city and goes to visit or to live in another
place where there is no lake that the lake grows y alive in one's mind.
One becomes thirsty for it and dreams of it. One remembers it then as
something that was almost an essential part of life, like a third
dimension. In some way one associates one's day dreams with the lake and
falls into thinking that there is something unfinished, sterile about
living with no lake at one's elbow.
* * * * *
In a short while, a month or so, the lake will become a stage for
melodrama. The people riding on its edge will stare into mists. They will
watch the huge mist shapes rolling back and forth over the hidden water.
The blue of the sky, the cold sun, the fog and the freezing water will
become actors in a great play and the train windows will be little
prosceniums inclosing the melodrama of winter.