NIGHT DIARY

Where is the moon? Gone. This inferior luminary cannot compete with the

corset ad signs and the ice cream ad signs that blaze in the night sky. We

stand on a bridge that connects State Street and look at the river.

There are night shapes. But first we see the dark water of the river and

silver, gold and ruby reflections of the bridge lights. These hang like

carnival ribbons in the water. The "L" trains crawl over the Wells Street

bridge and the water below them becomes alive with a moving silver image.

For a moment the reflection of the "L" trains in the river seems like a

ghostly waterfall. Then it changes and becomes something else. What? The

light reflections in the dark water are baffling. It is a game to stand on

the bridge and make up similes about them. They look like this, like that,

like something else. Like golden pillars, like Chinese writing, like

monotonous exclamation points.

There are boat shapes. The river docks bulge with shadows. The boat shapes

emerge slowly from the shadows. These shapes, unlike the river

reflections, do not suggest similes. They bulge in the darkness and their

vanished outlines remind one of something. What? Of boats, of ships, of

men.

Men and ships. Little lanterns hang like elfin watchmen from the sterns of

ships. The bulldog noses of tugboats sleep against the docks. High

overhead the corset ad and the ice cream ad blaze, wink and go out and

turn on so as to attract the preoccupied eyes of people far away. Then the

bridges count themselves to the west. First bridge, second bridge, third

bridge. Street cars, auto lights and vague noises jerk eerily over the

bridges.

The sleeping tugboats, launches and lake craft remind one of nothing at

all except that there are engines. But as one stares at them they become

secret. There is something mysterious about abandoned engines. It is

almost as if one saw the bodies of men lying in shadows. Engines and men

are inseparable. And these boats that sleep in the river shadows are parts

of men. Amputations.

The night shapes increase. There are buildings. They drift along the river

docks. Dark windows and faded brick lines. Their rooftops are like the

steps of a giant stairway that has broken down. Where is the moon? Here

are windows to mirror its distant silver. Instead, the windows sleep. The

nervous electric signs that wink and do tricks throw an intermittent glare

over the windows.

Do you know the dark windows of the city, you gentlemen who write

continually of temples and art? Come, forget your love for things you

never saw, cathedrals and parthenons that exist in the yesterdays you

never knew. Come, look at the fire escapes that are stamped like letter

Z's against the mysterious rectangles; at the rhythmic flight of windows

whose black and silver wings are tipped with the yellow winkings of the

corset and ice cream signs. The windows over the dark river are like an

alphabet, like the keyboard of a typewriter. They are like anything you

want them to be. You have only to wish and the dark windows take new

patterns.

Wall shapes arise. Warehouses that have no windows. Huge lines loom in the

shadows. A vast panel of brick without windows rises, vanishes. Buildings

that stand like playing blocks. The half-hidden shapes, the tracks of

windows, the patterns of rooftops suggest things--fortresses, palaces,

dungeons, wars, witches and cathedrals.

But after watching them they lose these false significances. They suggest

nothing. They are the amputations of men. Things, playthings men have left

behind for the corset and the ice cream ads to wink at. And this is the

real secret of their beauty. The night devours their meaning and leaves

behind lines; angles, geometries, rhythms and lights. And these things

that have no meaning, that suggest nothing, that are not the symbols of

ideas or events--these become beautiful.

There are several people standing on this bridge--loiterers. Their elbows

rest on the railing, their faces are hidden in their hands. They stare

into the scene. A hoarse whistle toots at Wells Street. Bells clang far

away. There is a scurry of dim noises in the dark. Something huge moves

through the air. It is a bridge opening. Its arms make a massive gesture

upward. A boat is coming through, a heavy shape drifting among the

carnival ribbons that hang down in the black water.

* * * * *

Noises that have different tones. Boat whistles, bridge bells, electric

alarm tinglings and the swish of water like the sound of wood tapping

wood. Lights that have different colors. The yellow of electric signs.

Around one of them that hoists its message in the air runs a green border.

The electric lights quiver and run round the glaring frame like a

mysterious green water. Red, gold and silver pillars in the water. Gray,

blue and black shadows; elfin lanterns, "L" trains like illuminated

caterpillars creeping over Wells Street, waterfalls of silver, Chinese

writing in ruby; black, lead and silver windows and a thousand shades of

darkness from bronze to strange greens. All these are things that the

loitering ones leaning on the bridge rail know.

* * * * *

How nicely the hoods of automobiles hide the twisted lines of the gas

engines under them. Smooth as chariots, curved and graceful as greyhounds,

pigeons, rabbits--the State Street begins after one passes odors. This is

South Water Street. A swept, dusted and wonderfully silent street. White

wings have scrubbed its worn body. But the odors deepen with the night.

Farm odors, food odors--an aroma of decay surrounds them. By their smells

one can almost detect the presence of chickens, eggs, oranges, cabbages,

potatoes, plums and cantaloupes.

A group of movie theaters holds carnival at the entrance to the loop.

People hurry under electric canopies, dig in their pockets for dollar

bills and buy tickets. The buildings sleep along the river. The boats wait

in the shadows. Movie signs, crossing cops, window tracks and different

colored suits of clothes; odors, noises, lights and a mysteriously tender

pattern of walls--these lie in the night like a reward.

We walk away with memories. When we are traveling some day, riding over

strange places, these will be things we shall remember. Not words, but

lines that mean nothing; and the scene from the bridge will bring a sad

confusion into our heads. And we shall sit staring at famous monuments,

battlefields, antiquities, and whisper to ourselves:

"... wish I was back ... wish I was back...."

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