MY FATHER'S DISILLUSIONMENT

My father was endowed with a due share of the romantic fervour which

distinguished men of his epoch, and set great store by friendship. More

particularly, he was wrapped up in his friends in San Sebastian.

When we discovered that we were in trouble, before throwing ourselves

into the loving arms of the Bourse, my father spoke to two intimate

friends of his who were from San Sebastian. They made an appointment to

meet me in the Café Suizo. I explained the situation to them, after

which they made me certain propositions, which were so usurious, so

outrageously extortionate, that they took my breath away. They offered

to advance us the money we needed for fifty per cent of the gross

receipts, while we were to meet the running expenses out of our fifty

per cent, receiving no compensation whatever for our services in taking

care of the business.

I was astonished, and naturally did not accept. The episode was a great

blow to my father. I frequently came face to face with one of our

friends at a later date, but I never bowed to him. He was offended. I

was tempted to approach him and say: "The reason that I do not bow to

you is because I know you are a rascal."

If either of these friends of ours were alive, I should proceed to

mention their names, but, as they are dead, it will serve no useful

purpose.

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