Esther Fleming, Norman Rutherford's nurse, lived in a cottage by
herself, not far from Merkland. When the first Mrs. Ross's first son was
born, Esther had entered her service as "bairns'-maid," had left it
again to be married, and after a brief period of two years had returned
a youthful widow, with one boy infant of her own, between whose birth
and Norman's there was but some brief intervals of weeks. Esther had
remained the head of Mrs. Ross's nursery through the vicissitudes of all
the succeeding years; had received into her charge infant after infant
of Mrs. Ross's family, and with grief, less only than the mother's, had
seen the tender blossoms fall one by one into the family grave: but
Norman was peculiarly her own--a tie especially tender attached the
generous, manly boy, to his foster-mother; and when her own handsome
sailor-lad, returned from his first voyage, stood up to measure his
height with that of his playmate and comrade, Esther's overflowing eye
looked with scarce less partial pride upon Norman Rutherford than upon
William Fleming. When Mrs. Ross herself died, the little Anne became
the object of Esther's devoted and unceasing care, although her removal
from Merkland to the cottage she now occupied took place before the
second marriage of Mr. Ross; but even after that event, bitterly as the
faithful servant resented it, Esther continued, for her delicate
nurseling's sake, to hold her footing in Merkland, and to pay daily
visits to her old dominion in the nursery, asserting against all comers,
and in face of the new darling, Lewis himself, the rights and privileges
of "Miss Anne." But when Anne was still a child, a blight fell upon
Esther Fleming; the self-same blight, which brought the gray hairs of
Norman Rutherford's father in sorrow to the grave. The old nurse,
stronger, or more tenacious of life, had borne her sorrow silently, and
marked it more by her utter seclusion from the rustic society round her,
than by any other demonstration. She had a little niece living with her,
to manage her small domestic concerns, and except through this girl and
Anne, Esther had no intercourse with the world--the very brief and quiet
world--about her. Her house stood on a high bank of the Oran, with a
pathway winding before it; and the grassy descent, dark with old trees
and bushes, shelving steeply down behind. Within, the little dwelling
consisted of two apartments, perfectly clean and neat (as is, indeed,
much more usual in our Scottish cottage than southern readers give us
credit for,) though without any attempt at ornament, except the two or
three small profile portraits of children, which hung over the
mantlepiece of the outer room, the only existing memorials of the dead
sons and daughters of the house of Merkland, which Esther had rescued
from their disgrace, in the lumber-room, after Mr. Ross's death.
The nurse herself, in her gown and petticoat of dark print, and white
cap bordered with narrow lace, and carefully-kept hood of black velvet,
sat sewing by the fire, making shirts for her sailor son, then far away
in a man-of-war, toiling upon the sea. Esther was alone, so there was no
obstacle in the way of Anne's errand.
"Esther," she said, when she had delayed nervously for some time, in
indifferent conversation, "I have come to ask you about a very grave
matter, of which I only heard recently. A secret, Esther--you know--"
She paused. Esther looked up gravely in her face, and then, rising,
closed the door.
"Mr. Norman?" she asked in a very low voice.
"Yes," said Anne. "You know it all, Esther?"
"God be thanked that has put it in your heart to ask," said the nurse,
solemnly. "Yes, Miss Anne, I ken. It has been lying heavy on my heart
since ever that cloud fell upon my boy. I have looked to you--I have aye
looked to. Ye are like your mother, and will not falter. Oh, Miss Anne!
if ye but kent how it has lain upon my heart!"
Anne looked at her inquisitively, uncertain how far her knowledge went,
or whether it was safe to speak to her of Norman, as alive.
"Ye are doubtful of me, Miss Anne," said Esther. "I see it in your eye.
What of this story do ye ken yoursel? Have ye heard it _all_?"
Anne faltered.
"I do not know, Esther. I have heard--"
"Let me tell ye what _I_ ken," interrupted the nurse, "and then ye can
give me your full trust. I claim nothing less from your mother's bairn.
Miss Anne, your brother Norman lies under the reproach of a black
crime--the blackest that man can be blotted wi'. Folk think that he is
dead, and he is guilty; he is not either the one nor the other. He is a
living and an innocent man!"
Anne's whole frame thrilled with joy as the words were said.--Solemn as
was the testimony of the dead, and deeply as her hapless brother's
self-defence moved her, the words seemed surer and more hopeful when a
living voice pronounced them.
"I want you to tell me everything, Esther," she said, eagerly.--"I have
Norman's letter, and my father's testimony, but, except these, I have
heard little. This morning I was in despair, because I knew that Norman
lived, and believed that he was guilty. Now, I can do anything. His
innocence is all I care for. Tell me what can be done to prove his
innocence--rather, I should say, tell me every circumstance,
Esther--tell me all you know."
"I care about his innocence also," said Esther. "Yes, living or dead, I
care about that first. But, Miss Anne, ye dinna ken--ye canna fathom how
dearly I care about himsel. He was laid in my arms a helpless, greeting
bairn, the first day o' his life; wi' my ain hands I put his first
mortal claes about him--my boy!--my gallant, mirthful boy! And to think
of him spending his best years toiling in a strange country, wi' a dark
end hanging ower him, his name cursed, and his lands lost!--and him an
innocent man! Oh! I have thought upon it till my heart was like to
burst!"
"Why did you not tell me?" said Anne. "We have lost years! Esther, there
might have been something done long ago, if you had only told me."
"I durstna," said the nurse. "I was feared to whisper to mysel that he
was living, for fear of trouble; but now, Miss Anne, now, ye have your
work before ye--and a strange work it is for a young lady. But ye maunna
shrink or fail."
"I will not--do not fear me," said Anne. "Only tell me, Esther--tell me
everything you know--let us lose no more time."
"It's a lang story," said Esther, "and ye maun let me tell ye my ain
way, Miss Anne, as I have thought it ower in my ain spirt, money a time,
looking for this day. Maybe, if ye haena patience wi' me, I may mak it
no sae clear. It's a lang story, and, to understand it right, ye bid to
ken his nature. I maun begin at the beginning."
Anne assented, and Esther went on. "Miss Anne, he was the sweetest bairn
that was ever putten into mortal hands for earthly upbringing. I think I
can see him before me yet; aye the head o' them a' in their wild plays,
and never out o' mischief; but, for a' that, as gentle as a lamb. I used
to tell them, when they came in to me wi' torn claes and dirty shoes,
and blythe, black faces, that they were the plagues o' my life--eh! Miss
Anne, the ill o' thae idle words--they were its very joy and sunshine;
my blythe callants!--my bonnie, brave, pleasant bairns!
"For Mr. Norman was alike in age wi' my Willie, and the twa were like
brithers; they lay in the same cradle, and were nursed in the same
arms--puir, feckless, withered arms, as they are noo!--and I had a
conceit that they were like ane an ither, though Mr. Norman was head and
shouthers higher than Willie, and had eyes like stars in a frosty nicht,
and hair as dark as the clouds; and Willie was blue-e'ed and
fair-haired, like his father before him. Ony way, they were like in
spirit; the very look of them was heartsome in a house.
"But there was ane thing special, Miss Anne, about your brother; a
thought o' pleasure never entered his head; he had a sunshine within
himsel that keepit him aye cheery; and the bits o' dawting, and good
things, and makings o', that ither bairns fecht for, he heeded not,
though I never saw a laddie that liket better the quietest mark of
kindliness: only, if there was onything like a privilege or an honor, he
would aye have it wared on the rest; no jealous and grudging, like as ye
will see some bairns, that are learned to pretend to do the like, and no
to be selfish; but with a blythe spark shining in his eye, enjoying the
good thing, whatever it was, far mair than if he had gotten it himsel.
"It might be because Mr. Lawrence was aye delicate, and bid to get his
ain way; but the maist of it, without doubt, was in the nature. My ain
Willie was a kindly callant, as need to be; but I have seen him (who was
only a poor man's son, and no equal to the young Laird,) standing out
against Mr. Lawrence in his pets, when Mr. Norman gaed way, in his
blythe, frank manner, without sae much as a thought about ony pride o'
his ain; and I have kent him, money a time, when ony o' them were in the
wrang, taking the blame upon himsel.
"Ye will think I am dwelling on thae auld stories ower lang, Miss Anne;
but I see them--I think I can see them on Oranside, Mr. Lawrence
sitting, white and thin, on the bank, watching them; and my ain twa, my
beautiful laddies! as wild in their innocent play as twa foals on a lee;
and the cut fingers, and the torn clothes, and the fa's into Oran: waes
me! what were a' their bits o' tribulations but just another name for
joy?
"Weel, Mr. Lawrence died, as ye ken. If he was petted whiles, it was wi'
sickness and suffering--pain that the young spirit could ill bear, and
that awfu' cough; but he was a blessed bairn, and departed as calm and
pleasant as an angel gaun hame--as truly he was, puir lamb!--out of a
world that had held nothing but ill to him; and the other bairns dwined
away from the house o' Merkland. Eh! Miss Anne, ane canna read thae sore
and sorrowful dispensations! To think that there should be sae mony
blythe families round about, wi' no ane wee head lifted out among them,
and a' the Mistress's lilies gathered--a' but Mr. Norman; and ye wad
have thought the rest had left a portion of their life to him, as that
strange lassie, Jacky Morison, was saying to me out of a book of
ballants, about three knights--aye as the ane was killed, the spirit and
the strength of him entered into the other; but that's a fule story. So,
as I was saying, ye might have thought it was so wi' Mr. Norman; for,
the mair death there was in the house, the stronger and fuller of life
_he_ grew. Ye may think, Miss Anne, how the Mistress's heart was bound
up in her one son, growing among tears and troubles, like a strong young
tree by the waterside.
"And then she died hersel. He wad be haill eighteen then, maistly a man;
and ye wad have thought his heart would burst. For months after that, he
used to come in and sit beside me in the nursery, never speaking a word.
We were the truest mourners in Merkland, him and me, and maybe it made
us like ane anither a' the better.
"It was a dreary year, that first year after your mother died; but there
were drearier years to come. The twelvemonth was just out, when it began
to be whispered in the countryside that Merkland was courting a new
wife. I could have felled the first body that said it to me, and Mr.
Norman flew upon Duncan, in the greatest passion I ever saw him in, for
dauring to hint at sic a word; but the rumor rose, for a' that (folk
said it was because Mr. Norman had been put aside from inheriting
Merkland, because he was to take his uncle's name, and sae noo there was
nae heir,) till I put it to the Laird my ain sel--ye may think it bauld,
Miss Anne, but I had been about the house a' his married life.--That
very night--for I wasna likely to bide wi' a strange woman in my
mistress's seat--I was sorting my bits of odds and ends to gang away;
and looking at you, sleeping in your wee bed, and murning for ye, an
innocent lamb, left to the cold mercies of a stepmother, when Mr.
Norman came in. I saw, by the white look of him, in a moment, that he
had been hurt and wounded to the very heart (and so he was,) for his
father had tell't him. Eh! Miss Anne, to think that he could tell the
fine, manly, grown-up lad, that nae mortal could help being proud o';
and that was liker being marriet himsel than hearing tell o' his father.
"So he sat down by the fireside and covered his face wi' his hands, and
did not say a word to me--only I heard him moaning to himsel, 'O,
mother, mother!' Nae wonder--we were wearing our murnings still, and she
had been but ae twelvemonth gone.
"So the marriage-day came at last. I had flitted into this house the
week afore--and there were mony folk at the wedding, only Mrs.
Catherine, and Strathoran's lady, and some more, wouldna come; and when
they sought Mr. Norman, he wasna to be found far or near--where think ye
he spent that day, Miss Anne? at his mother's grave!
"Ye're wearying on me--it's just because it's a' sae clear in my ain
mind--I canna help it; but I am coming to the time noo. Mr. Norman ye
ken, had an inheritance o' his ain by the mother's side. Your uncle, Mr.
Rutherford, of Redheugh, was a bachelor gentleman, and died three or
four years before your mother--and Mr. Norman was his heir. He was to
take both the land and the name, and I have heard it was a better
property than Merkland, only it was far south by this, on the ither side
o' Edinburgh. Mr. Norman was to bide wi' his father till he came of age,
and a sore and weary time it was, for this Mrs. Ross couldna bear the
sicht of him, and he likit her as ill. I maistly wished for his ain sake
that the time was come, though it was a sore thought to me that I was to
have the sight o' him, gladdening my auld e'en (I wasna sae auld then
either nae mair).
"And at last his one-and-twentieth birthday came, and he gaed away. I
did not see him after that for a whole year. The light of my eyes was
ta'en from me, Miss Anne--I had little pleasure of my life, for both my
boys were away.
"Willie had served out his prenticeship, and was sailing second-mate in
a timber ship to the Baltic; but that time he had ta'en a langer voyage,
to India and thereaway, and didna came hame till the year was out. The
very next day after Willie came, Mr. Norman arrived on a visit at
Merkland, and the first body he came to see, after his father, was just
my very sel--and what do ye think he had been devising in the kindness
of his heart for my Willie? There was a schooner lying at Leith on sale,
and Mr. Norman had made an offer for't, for Willie's sake, and no ither,
to make him captain; and when they had rested themsells a week at hame,
Mr. Norman took Willie away to Leith wi' him to see the ship. Weel, Miss
Anne, every thing was bright for baith o' them when they gaed away; but
when they got to Leith, and had near settled about the boat, my puir
Willie, being maybe ower proud and uplifted about the honor, and the
grand prospect, was careless o' himself: and the first word that came to
me was, no that he was captain of Mr. Norman's ship, but that he was
pressed, and ta'en away to some of the muckle English sea-towns on the
east coast, to be a common man afore the mast in a man-o-war."
Esther paused to wipe her eyes with her apron.
"Eh, Miss Anne, thae sore and humbling providences! just when ane
thought every thing was prosperous and full of promise to be cast down
into the very depths--my heart was sick within me. I had no more spirit
for onything, but just gaed about the house like a ghaist, and caredna
to spin, as the lass says in the sang. Mr. Norman did his endeavor to
free my puir laddie, but it couldna be--and ye may think what a clould
fell upon me, dwelling here alane, and my son far away in the dangers o'
the war, where, if he were spared, I couldna see him for years.
"Mr. Norman came seldom back to Merkland after that. He liked Mrs. Ross
but little at all times, and I think he reproached himsel for no being
carefu' enough of Willie, though I never blamed him--no for a moment;
but onyway he was altogether pairted from his ain auld hame--no that he
forgot us; there was aye the tither bit present coming to me, at
New-year's times, and his birth-days and the like; and many fine claes
and toys, and things, to yoursel, Miss Anne, that ye didna get the half
o'--
"So three years ran out, and ane day when I happened to be up at
Merkland, on some errand concerning yoursel, ye came, to me, Miss Anne,
wi' a paper in your hand, to let me hear ye read (ye were six years auld
then.) So I got the paper--ye had slipped it out o' the lockit book-case
in the library, the time your papa was writing a letter, and didna see
ye. I mind the very words ye said--because I likit to see the
papers--and so I did, to see what word there was about the war, and if
there was ony tidings of Willie's ship. Sae I got it, and began to read
it, the time Mr. Lewis and you were playing at my fit.
"Eh! Miss Anne: I mind the bits of words that came in upon me now and
then, when I was looking at that awful paper, as if I had heard them in
a fever. There was the haill story of the murder in't; of how Mr. Norman
and Mr. Aytoun had had a bitter quarrel the night before, and parted in
anger--and how, the next morning. Mr. Aytoun was found lying dead in a
lone place by a waterside--and how a man, gaun to his work, had met Mr.
Norman coming, like from the same place, just about the time the deed
bid to hae been dune--and there was mair than that still--a gun was
found in the wood, and the gun was Mr. Norman's, and when the officers
gaed to take him up, he had fled, no man kent whither. My e'en were
reeling in my head, but I could read it for a' that--I didna lose a
word; and in anither place there was mair news--the murderer, as they
daured to ca' him, had been traced into a Holland boat, and there was
certain word of it, that it was wrecked, and all on board lost, so he
had come, they said, to speedy punishment. I ken not now, how I had
strength to do it; but I rose up the moment I was done, and went down
into the library mysel'--what cared I at that time, if I had met a' the
leddies in the land?--to put it back secretly into the book-case again.
Your father was sitting in the library, Miss Anne, a changed man; the
white on his face was the white of death, and he was trembling like as
with the cauld, and had the darkest woe in his e'e, that I ever looked
upon. I put down the paper on the table, and he started, and looked up
at me. There was never a word said between us; but we were equal in our
terrible sorrow. He kent that, and so did I.
"I know not how I gaed hame that day; it was a bonnie day in June, but I
thought that the sky, and the earth, and the trees, were a' black alike,
and the running of the Oran was hoarse and loud, like the wild sea that
was flowing over my dear, dear bairn. It was before my eyes night and
day, sleeping and waking. I kent he couldna have done it out of evil
counsel or malice, but he might have done it in passion. The sinking
ship, and the storm, and the black sky, and my pleasant laddie in the
midst, wi' bluid on his hand, and despair in his soul; oh, Miss Anne!
"A month past in that way. I dauredna face Merkland, and he never came
near me, and I thought not there was any hope for Mr. Norman; I never
doubted he was dead. In the beginning of July, I got a letter from
Willie, telling me his ship was lying in Leith Roads, and I was to come
and see him. So I put up a bit bundle, and took some lying siller, and
set out upon the road. I wanted to buy some bits of things the puir
laddie needed, and so I couldna afford to tak the coach, but walked
every step, and a weary road it was. So Willie met me in my cousin's
house in the Citadel, and whenever our first meeting was ower, he came
after me to the room I was to sleep in, and shut the door, and I saw
there was trouble in his face. So I did not doubt he had heard.
'Mother,' he said to me, 'I have news to tell you.'
"'Oh, Willie!' said I. 'I ken, I ken; it has near broken my heart.'
"So Willie went to the door again, and saw it was safe shut, and said
he, 'Mother, what do ye ken?'
"'About Mr. Norman, my dear laddie,' said I; 'that he has been left to
himself, and done a terrible crime, and died a terrible death. Oh, that
we had but kent that he repented; oh, that we had ony token that the
Lord had visited his soul.'
"'Mother,' said Willie, very low, 'do ye need me to tell you that he
didna do it? Do you no ken that yoursel? O, mother! mother! him that
wouldna have harmed the worm at his fit.'
"'Ane disna ken--ane canna tell,' said I; 'he never did it wi' purpose
and counsel, Willie; but he may have been beguiled by passion. God send
that it hasna been counted to him.'
"'Mother,' said Willie. 'Whisht! mind that a precious life is hinging
on't. I have seen Mr. Norman.'
"Miss Anne, I thought I would have fa'en at his feet, for what could I
think, but that it was the unquiet spirit my puir laddie had seen.
"'Mother,' said Willie, 'God has saved him out o' the sea, near by a
miracle. Mr. Norman is a living man, and an innocent man. The hand that
saved him will clear him in its ain guid time; but he bade me tell you.
He couldna bear, he said, that folk that had kent him, and likit him
weel should think he had done that crime; and he minded me that folk
could pray for a living man, and couldna for a dead, and bade me tell
you, mother.'
"'O, Willie!' said I, 'wherefore did he flee?--the right would have been
proved, if he had but waited for the trial.'
"'I canna tell ye, mother,' said Willie, 'but he said every thing was
against him; and it was borne in on my mind, that he knew wha had dune
the deed, and that it was ane he likit weel and was willing to suffer
for--ye ken his nature--but mind, that was only a fancy o' my ain, for
he did not mint a word of it to me.'
"'And where was he, Willie?' said I, 'where was my dear laddie?--was he
out of peril?"
"'It was in a town on the Holland coast,' said Willie, 'a bit sma place,
less than Portoran. They had travelled there on fit, from the place
where the boat was cast away; and Mr. Norman was waiting till there
should be some ship sailing from Rotterdam to India. He said to me,
mother, that he would never daur write hame again; but if he died he
would cause that word should be sent baith to Merkland and you--but as
lang as ye didna hear, ye were to mind and pray for him, as a living and
sorrowful man, and no to think he was dead.'
"'My laddie!' said I, 'my dear bairn!--oh, that the Lord would bring
forth His righteousness as the noonday, and His judgment as the morning
light. Ye said _they_, Willie--was there onybody wi' him?'
"'Yes, mother,' said Willie; 'Mr. Norman was married the nicht before he
fled, and there was a young lady with him. She didna belang about
Strathoran--I never saw her before, but Mr. Norman said that in the
wreck, she was braver than him, though she was a bit genty,
delicate-looking thing. Mr. Norman took me in to see her, and tell't her
I was his foster-brother and friend. He is aye like himsel, thinking on
pleasuring me, in the midst o' a' his ain trouble--and she gaed me her
hand wi' a sorrowful smile, that made me like to greet--and whiles when
he was speaking to me, when his grief was like to get the better of him,
she put her bit little hand on his arm, and said, "Norman, Norman," and
then he aye calmed down again.'
"So that was a' that Willie had to tell, and in little mair than a week
after that, his ship sailed again, and when I was on my road hame, I
went first of a' to the place where the deed was done. Its on the south
side o' the Firth, far down--but I could find out naething there, except
that everybody blamed Mr. Norman, and naebody would believe but what he
was the murderer.
"And since then, Miss Anne--it's seventeen years past in the last
July--I have been a bereaved woman, for Willie never came hame but ance,
when the war was ended, and that was just for a while, for he had
pleased his captain unco weel, and was made gunner in the ship, and he
had got used wi' their life, and liked it, so he just gaed back. He said
to me, I mind, that he might aye be in the way of hearing tidings of Mr.
Norman, and would come hame without delay if there was ony guid word.
But word, guid or bad, there has been nane since that time, Miss Anne; a
weary time it has been to me--but your brother is a living man, and the
work is not too late."
"What can be done?" said Anne; "what can be done?"
She felt an impulse to rise and hurry to the work at once. She felt it a
sin to lose a moment. Yet all the difficulties rose up before her. What
steps to take--what to do!
"Miss Anne," said Esther; "I have pondered it, and ower again pondered
it in my ain mind since I came hame frae that weary journey, and often I
have been on the point of gaun away back again, to see if I could hear
onything mair. But what I would bid ye do, would be to gang, or to get
some of thae keen writer chiels to gang, cannily, without letting on
what they want, to do their endeavor to find out if onybody else in that
countryside had an ill-will at Mr. Aytoun: he was a wild man, I heard,
and nae doubt had enemies--and if ony other man had been seen leaving
the wood that awful morning bye Mr. Norman. There's been a lang time
lost, but I've thought often, it might maybe put the real sinner aff his
guard, and so he micht be easier found. Miss Anne, that is the way, sae
far as I can see. Ye maun try and find the true man that did it, living
or dead."
"And bring disgrace and ruin into some other peaceful family, Esther,"
said Anne, sadly. "It is a terrible alternative!"
"Miss Anne," said Esther, "my dear laddie Norman maun be saved, if I
should gang away mysel. I aye waited for you. I had no thought ye wad
falter. The work is a sore and painful work, but if ye will not do it,
that have better power, I will try myself."
"I had no thought of faltering, Esther," said Anne. "I only said it was
a very sad and terrible alternative, and so it is--if William was
correct--if we are to endeavor to prove the guilt of one whom Norman was
willing to sacrifice name and fame for, it is only so much the more
painful. Yet I do not falter--you say truly, Norman must be saved--if it
is within human power to clear his name, he shall be saved. But, oh! for
guidance--for wisdom!"
When Anne left the house, Esther accompanied her to the door, earnestly
urging upon her the necessity of losing no time. To lose no time!--no,
surely; when, for all Alice Aytoun's sunny lifetime, Norman had been an
outcast and an exile.
And the "Marion!"--who was this who had not deserted him in the midnight
of his calamity? this who had been bolder amidst the perils of the wreck
than he, and who had gone with him to the unknown far country, the
outcast's wife? Anne's imagination no longer pictured him alone, abroad
beneath sweeping blast and tempest. A calmer air stole over the picture.
It might be from some humble toiling home--not bright, yet with a
chastened sunshine of hope and patience about it still--that the tidings
of restored honor and fortune should call the exile, and the exile's
household, rejoicing to their own land.