I do not know as I "have ever realized the depths of absolute
negations," but I have realized the depths of absolute solitude,
and can sympathize with you in your loneliness, and "think it a
good thing to keep the Eternal and Infinite always in view, and so
love quiet, solitude, and meditation. They strengthen me to do my
work in life." Do not despair, then, if you are despondent at
times. Every one is, and it is good for us to some extent to be
disgusted with ourselves; it makes us know ourselves. "The dark
hours of life bring us nearer to our fellow-men, help us to know
ourselves and bring us nearer to God." God has put these
questionings into you for some wise purpose. Be true to your
highest and best self, and work them out by degrees. But remember
you are young yet, and there is time for you to solve all these
mysteries in. Do not try to solve all the great questions of life
at once. Be patient, and do not brood too much. Meditation and
solitude are good, but try to mingle somewhat with those around
you. See God in the world about you, as well as in the stars. I
would like to dwell longer upon your letter, but perhaps I shall
bring you out of doubt by giving you something to do. [She then
proposes a bit of work for him to undertake.] ... Our doubts and
mysteries are solved sometimes by setting to work on things we are
pondering over.