CHAPTER XVIII

When Helena went back to the house, her face was red, and her whole

body tingling; every now and then her breath came in a gasp of rage. At

that moment she believed that she hated everybody in the world--the

cruel, foolish, arrogant world!--even the thought of David brought no

softening. And indeed, when that first fury had subsided, she still did

not want to see the little boy; that destroying wind of anger had

beaten her complacency to the dust, and she could not with dignity meet

the child's candid eyes. It was not until the next day that she could

find any pleasure in him, or even in the prospect of Lloyd's visit; and

when these interests began to revive, sudden gusts of rage would tear

her, and she would fall into abrupt reveries, declaring to herself that

she would tell Lloyd how she had been insulted! But she reminded

herself that she must choose just the right moment to enlist his

sympathy for the affront; she must decide with just what caress she

would tell him that she meant to leave Old Chester, and come, with

David, to live in Philadelphia. (Oh, would Frederick _ever_ die?)...

But, little by little, she put the miserable matter behind her, and

filled the days before Lloyd's arrival with plans for the few golden

hours that they were to be together, when he was to have her "all to

himself." But, alas, the plans were all disarranged by David.

Now Saturday, when you come to think of it, is always a day of

joy--even if there must be a visitor. To begin with, there is no

school, so you have plenty of time to attend to many important affairs

connected with playthings. Then, the gravel paths must be raked and the

garden made tidy for Sunday, and so there is brush and refuse to be

burned; and that means baking potatoes in the ashes, and (as you will

remember), unless you stand, coughing, in the smoke to watch them, the

potatoes are so apt to burn. Also, the phaeton is washed with peculiar

care to make it fine for church; the wheels must be jacked up, one

after the other, and spun round and round; then, if you go about it the

right way, you can induce George to let you take the big, gritty sponge

out of the black water of the stable bucket, and after squeezing it

hard in your two hands, you may wipe down the spokes of one wheel.

Besides these things, there are always the rabbits. Right after

breakfast, David had run joyously out to see Mr. and Mrs. Smith, but

while he poked lettuce leaves between the bars of their hutch, the

thought struck him that this was the moment to demonstrate that

interesting fact in natural history, so well known to those of your

friends who happen to be stablemen, but doubted by Dr. Lavendar,

namely, that a hair from the pony's tail will, if soaked in water, turn

into a snake. David shuddered at the word, but ran to the stable and

carefully pulled two hairs from the pony's silvery-gray tail. The

operation was borne with most obliging patience, but when he stooped to

pick up another beautiful long hair from the straw--for when you are

making snakes you might as well make plenty, alas! the pony was so

absent-minded as to step back--and down came the iron-shod hoof on the

small, eager hand!

David's shriek and George's outcry brought the feminine household

running and exclaiming, and at the sight of the bruised hand, with one

hanging, helpless finger, Helena gathered the quivering little body

into her arms, and forgot everything but the child's pain. George was

rushed off for William King, and Mrs. Richie and the two women hung

over the boy with tears and tender words and entreaties "not to cry"!

David, in point of fact, stopped crying long before they did; but, of

course, he cried again, poor little monkey! during the setting of the

tiny bone, though William King was as gentle and determined as was

necessary, and David, sitting in Helena's lap, responded to the demand

for courage in quite a remarkable way. Indeed, the doctor noticed that

Mrs. Richie quivered more than the child did. It was nearly eleven

before it was all over, and William went off, smiling at Helena's

anxiety, for she accompanied him to the gate, begging for directions

for impossible emergencies. When he had driven away, she flew back to

the house; but at the door of David's room looked at her watch, and

exclaimed. Lloyd was due in half an hour! What should she do?

"Dear-precious," she said, kneeling down beside the little boy, "Sarah

shall come and sit with you while Mr. Pryor is here; you won't mind if

I am not with you?"

David, who had begun to whimper again, was too interested in himself to

mind in the least. Even when she said, distractedly, "Oh, there's the

stage!" his unhappiness was not perceptibly increased. Helena, calling

Sarah to come and sit with the invalid, ran down-stairs to meet her

guest. There had been no time to make herself charming; her face was

marked by tears, and her dress tumbled by David's little wincing body.

Before she could reach the gate, Lloyd Pryor had opened it, and,

unwelcomed, was coming up the path. His surprised glance brought her

tumultuous and apologetic explanation.

"Oh, I'm sorry!" he said kindly; "I must console him with a new dollar;

don't you think a dollar will be healing?"

She laughed and possessed herself of his hand.

"You run a sort of hospital, Nelly, don't you? I must be a Jonah; it

was your cook the last time. How is she? I trust we are to have enough

food to sustain life?"

"I meant to have such a fine dinner," she said, "but we've all been so

distracted about David, I'm afraid things won't be as extraordinary as

I planned. However, it will 'sustain life'!--Though you could go to Dr.

King's again," she ended gayly.

The instant irritation in his face sobered her. She began, carefully,

to talk of this or that: his journey, the Mercer business, his

health--anything to make him smile again. Plainly, it was not the

moment to speak of Mr. Benjamin Wright and her purpose of leaving Old

Chester.

"Now I must run up-stairs just one minute, and see David," she said in

the middle of a sentence. Her minute lengthened to ten, but when she

came back, explaining that she had stopped to wash David's face--"it

was all stained by tears"--he did not seem impatient.

"Your own would be improved by soap and water, my dear," he said with

an amused look. "No! no--don't go now; I want to talk to you, and I

haven't much time."

She knew him too well to insist; instead, she burst into what gayety

she could summon, for that was how he liked her. But back in her mind

there was a growing tremor of apprehension:--there was something wrong;

she could not tell what it was, but she felt it. She said to herself

that she would not speak of Mr. Benjamin Wright until after dinner.

Little by little, however, her uneasiness subsided. It became evident

that the excitement of the morning had not been too much for Maggie;

things were very good, and Lloyd Pryor was very appreciative, and

Helena's charm more than once touched him to a caressing glance and a

soft word. But as they got up from the table he glanced at his watch,

and she winced; then smiled, quickly. She brought him his cigar and

struck a light; and he, looking at her with handsome, lazy eyes, caught

the hand which held the flaming match, and lit his cigar in slow puffs.

"Now I must go and give a look at David," she said.

"Look here, Nelly," he protested, "aren't you rather overdoing this

adopted-mother business?"

She found the child rather flushed and in an uneasy doze. Instantly she

was anxious. "Don't leave him, Sarah," she said. "I'll have Maggie

bring your dinner up to you. Oh, I _wish_ I didn't have to go

downstairs!"

"I'm afraid he is worse," she told Lloyd Pryor with a worried frown.

"Well, don't look as if it were an affair of nations," he said

carelessly, and drew her down on the sofa beside him. He was so

gracious to her, that she forgot David; but she quivered for fear the

graciousness should cease. She was like a thirsty creature, drinking

with eager haste, lest some terror should drive her back into the

desert. But Lloyd Pryor continued to be gracious; he talked gayly of

this or that; he told her one or two stories that had been told him in

a directors' meeting or on a journey, and he roared with appreciation

of their peculiar humor. She flushed; but she made herself laugh. Then

she began tentatively to say something of Old Chester; and--and what

did he think? "That old man, who lives up on the hill, called, and--"

But he interrupted her. "You are very beguiling, Nelly, but I am afraid

I must be thinking of the stage--it is after three. Before I go I just

want to say--" then he broke off. "Come in! Well? What is it?" he

demanded impatiently.

"Please, ma'am," said Sarah, standing in the doorway, her face puckered

almost to tears, "David's woke up, and he's crying, and I can't do

nothing with him. He wants you, ma'am."

"Oh, poor darling! Tell him I'll come right up," Mrs. Richie said,

rising in quick distress.

"Nonsense!" said Lloyd Pryor, sharply. "Sarah, tell the boy to behave

himself. Mrs. Richie can't come now."

Sarah hurried up-stairs, but Helena stood in painful indecision. "Oh,

Lloyd, I _must_ go! I'll just sit with him a minute!"

"You'll just sit with me a minute," he said calmly. "Be sensible,

Helena. I want to speak to you about something."

But she did not hear him; she was listening for David's voice. A little

whimpering cry reached her, and the tears sprung to her eyes. "Lloyd! I

must. He is crying."

"Let him cry."

"He's takin' on so, please come up, ma'am," came Sarah's entreating

voice from over the banisters in the upper hall.

"Oh, Lloyd, I must!" She turned; but he, springing up, caught her wrist

and pulled her to him.

"Don't be a fool."

"Let me go! Oh, how cruel you are!" She tried to wrench her wrist from

his grasp. "I hate you!"

"Hate me, do you?" He laughed, and catching her in his arms, kissed her

again and again. Then he put his hands in his pockets and stepped back,

leaving her free. "Will you go?"

She stood, vibrating between surprised affection and anguished longing

for the child. "Lloyd!" she said faintly; she put her hands over her

face, and came towards him slowly, shivering a little, and murmuring

"_Lloyd!_" Then, with a sudden gasp, she turned and fled up-stairs.

"David--I am coming--"

Lloyd Pryor stood dumfounded; in his astonishment he almost laughed.

But at that instant he heard the crunch of wheels drawing up at the

gate. "The stage!" he said to himself, and called out, angrily,

"Helena!"

But it was not the stage; it was William King's shabby old buggy

standing in the shadow of the big locust by the roadside; and there was

the doctor himself coming up the path.

Lloyd Pryor swore under his breath.

The front door was open to the hot June afternoon, and unannounced the

doctor walked into the hall. As he took off his hat, he glanced into

the parlor, and for a second of consternation stood staring with angry

eyes. Then he nodded stiffly. "I will be obliged if you will let Mrs.

Richie know I am here."

"She is with that boy," said Lloyd Pryor. He made no motion of

civility; he stood where Helena had left him, his hands still in his

pockets. "Will you be so good as to tell her to come down here to me?

The stage is due, and I must see her before I go."

William King, red and stolid, nodded again, and went up-stairs without

another look into the parlor.

While he waited Lloyd Pryor's anger slowly rose. The presence of the

doctor froze the tenderness that, for an idle moment, her face and

voice and touch had awakened. The annoyance, the embarrassment, the

danger of that call, returned in a gust of remembrance. When she came

down-stairs, full of eager excuses, the touch of his rage seared her

like a flame.

"If you will kindly take five minutes from that squalling brat--"

"Lloyd, he was in pain. I had to go to him. The instant the doctor

came, I left him. I--"

"Listen to me, please. I have only a minute. Helena, this friend of

yours, this Dr. King, saw fit to pry into my affairs. He came to

Philadelphia to look me up--" "_What!_"

"He came to my house"--he looked at her keenly through his curling

eyelashes--"to my house! Do you understand what that means?"

In her dismay she sat down with a sort of gasp; and looking up at him,

stammered, "But why? Why?"

"Why? Because he is a prying suspicious jackass of a country doctor! He

came at exactly six o'clock. It was perfectly evident that he meant to

give me the pleasure of his company at dinner."

At that she sprang to her feet, her impetuous hands upon his arm. "Then

he was not--suspicious! Don't you see? He was only friendly!" She

trembled with the reaction of that instant of dismay. "He was not

suspicious, or he wouldn't have been--been willing--" Her voice trailed

into shamed silence.

Lloyd Pryor pushed her hand away, impatiently. "I'm not anxious for his

friendship or even his acquaintance. You will please consider what

would have happened if I had not come home just as he arrived!" He

paused, his voice hardening: "My daughter saw him."

Helena stepped back, wincing and silent.

"You will be so good as to consider the result of such tomfoolery--to

me."

"And what about me?" she said. "Your 'daughter'--I suppose you mean

Alice--is not the only person in the world!"

But Lloyd Pryor, having dealt his blow, was gracious again. "My dear,

you needn't begin recriminations. Of course, I speak on your account as

much as on my own. It would have been--well, awkward, all round. You

must see that it does not occur again. You will not get on terms with

these people that will encourage them to look me up. You understand?"

She looked at him, terror-stricken. In all their squabbles and

differences--and there had been many in the last few years--he had

never spoken in this extraordinary tone. It was not anger, it was not

the courteous brutality with which she was more or less familiar; it

was superiority. The color swept into her face; even her throat

reddened. She said stammering, "I don't know why you speak--in--in this

tone--"

"I am not going to speak any more in any tone," he said lightly;

"there's the stage! Good-by, my dear. I trust your boy may recover

rapidly. Tell him I was prepared for his sling and the 'smooth stone

out of the brook'! Sorry I couldn't have seen more of you." As he spoke

he went into the hall; she followed him without a word. He picked up

his hat, and then, turning, tipped her chin back and kissed her. She

made no response.

When he had gone, she went into the parlor and Shut the door.

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