XXVIII.

The Jeliagins' trunks have already gone with the maid to the railway

station. The carriage which is to take the two ladies already stands

waiting. In vain has Barbara represented to her daughter how this

precipitate flight will make Mascha's position much worse, how it will

be almost impossible to conceal the misfortune.

Not an hour longer than was necessary to arrange her affairs would Anna

consent to remain, and, as always, the mother had obeyed her daughter's

command. But at the last moment, when she and Anna stood in the

vestibule, she, so to speak, broke loose from the chain. "I--I have

forgotten something--I must get something." With these words she rushes

up the stairs, stumbling, treading on her dress at every step, and

knocks at Mascha's door.

"What do you want?" calls out Lensky, harshly, while he comes out to

her.

"I would like to see Mascha. I--I would like to give her a kiss before

I go," murmured the old woman, and tears are on her wrinkled cheeks.

"She was a good child--always very good to me. Please--please let me in

to her."

He steps back, lets her in. She bends over the bed, over the girl

glowing and trembling with fever. "Maschenka, good-by, my little soul.

I love you. I will always love you," murmured she, and stroked the

child and wished to kiss her; but Maschenka hid her face in the

pillows, and half mad with shame, repulsed her aunt with an impatient

shrug of her shoulders, and suppressed weeping.

"God keep you, Maschenka!" murmured the old woman.

"What shall he keep?" cried out Lensky, pointing to the bed, with

horrible bitterness. Then, seizing her roughly by her thin arm, he

pushed her out of the room.

Now she has gone; the house has been empty for an hour. He sits near

Mascha's bed as he has sat there since yesterday, and she lies there

silently, with her face to the wall. It is eight o'clock. The front

door bell rings--rings again. It is so long before the door is opened.

Who may it be? The kitchen maid knocks at the door.

"What is it?"

"A lady desires to speak with monsieur."

"No one can see me."

"I told her that, but she would not be denied; she desires to see

monsieur. It is about something very important, she said."

"Did she, at least, give her name?"

"No, she would not; but she is certainly a distinguished lady."

"So! And she would not be denied." He draws down his mouth, scornfully.

"Where is she waiting?"

"In the drawing-room."

"Well, stay here until I come back. Do not leave the room an instant!

Do you hear? I will be back immediately."

With that he goes down-stairs.

With an angry, repellent word on his lips, he enters the drawing-room,

where the chairs are disarranged and the dust lies untouched on the

furniture.

A tall, slender figure comes to meet him, quickly, and at the same time

hesitatingly, evidently urged forward by hearty compassion, and yet

held back by that oppressing timidity and reverence with which noble

natures approach a great pain. Now he sees her more distinctly, starts.

"You here?" he cries out. "What do you wish?"

"To help you," says she, simply.

"You?" He looks at her, astonished. At first he would like to deny the

affair, to bring forward the fable of contagious illness which Kasin

has promised to spread as the cause of the Jeliagins' flight. But

Nita's face teaches him that here no deception can avail. "You know?"

he murmurs, scarcely audibly, without looking at her.

"Yes."

"And you wish to help me--you?"

The blood rushes to her cheeks. The situation is unbearable for a girl

of delicate feelings; but who would be influenced by foolish prudery

when it is a question of caring for a sick one whom no one else will

care for?

"Has Mascha confessed to you?" she asks, softly.

"No."

"Is she perfectly conscious?"

"I do not know. She has not spoken a word since yesterday; she lies

there with her face to the wall. She has a strong fever, but the doctor

says it is of no importance; she will recover in two or three days.

_And I have not the courage to give her an opiate_." He says all this

in an unnatural, choked voice. "You wish to help me? How will you help

me?" he groans defiantly and bitterly.

"Let me speak with her," begs Nita. "We have always loved each other,

she and I."

"Yes, you were very good to her, I know; she has spoken to me of you;

but you will only needlessly torment her--she will not speak. And of

what use is it? Nothing can be done--nothing." He stamps his foot.

"Let me go to her--I have a suspicion, a clew. It sounds trite and

foolish to say so, but if any one can help you, it is I."

For a moment he hesitates; then turning to go, he cries out: "Well,

come then."

She follows him across the hall, up the mud-covered stairs, to Mascha's

room.

"Leave me alone with her," she begs.

And he leaves her alone; meanwhile walks up and down the corridor.

Sometimes he stops and listens. At first he hears nothing but a soft,

coaxing, persuasive voice; then a sharp, involuntary cry--another----

"She will not speak, why torture her so?" he says to himself. He turns

the knob of the door. Then he hears violent weeping, opens the door,

sees Nita sitting on the low bed and holding the head of the sobbing

child in her lap. She motions to him to withdraw; he does it. He stands

before the door and listens as one listens for the heart-beats of a

person to convince one's self whether he still lives. He can hear

nothing plainly, but still he listens. At first he hears nothing but

the same pitiful sobs, hears a calm, caressing voice, soft, sad,

compassionate. Now she is silent; he hears hoarse, unrecognizable

sounds. Is that Mascha's voice? How long she speaks--at first in short,

broken sentences, then fluently; if he could only understand a word of

what she says! He still listens--nothing more. Now it is Nita again who

speaks, then follows a long pause, a hearty kiss, and Nita comes out in

the corridor to him, very tearful, very pale.

"Well, did she confess to you?" asks Lensky, anxiously.

"Yes, but I must swear to her not to betray anything to you. Do not

ask, do not torment the child. To-day is Wednesday; next Monday you

shall hear from me. Until then she has promised me to make no new

attempt to take her life. She will keep her word."

Herewith Nita turns to go. Suddenly she hesitates, turns once more to

him: "I will only tell you it was a misfortune, it was very little her

fault. I am astonished at the magnanimity which is betrayed in every

word of her confession."

"It is very noble of you to think of telling me that," murmured he. "I

know it was not her fault, it is only I who am to blame. That does not

make the affair better."

"I hope for a good result," murmured Nita embarrassedly.

"I do not," said he, harshly; then detaining her, he adds: "But it was

good in you to come. The others have run away, all, as if the pest had

broken out in the house; and you, you have come--you! I thank you!"

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