XXX

Philip was restless and dissatisfied. Hayward’s poetic allusions

troubled his imagination, and his soul yearned for romance. At least

that was how he put it to himself.

And it happened that an incident was taking place in Frau Erlin’s house

which increased Philip’s preoccupation with the matter of sex. Two or

three times on his walks among the hills he had met Fraulein Cacilie

wandering by herself. He had passed her with a bow, and a few yards

further on had seen the Chinaman. He thought nothing of it; but one

evening on his way home, when night had already fallen, he passed two

people walking very close together. Hearing his footstep, they

separated quickly, and though he could not see well in the darkness he

was almost certain they were Cacilie and Herr Sung. Their rapid

movement apart suggested that they had been walking arm in arm. Philip

was puzzled and surprised. He had never paid much attention to Fraulein

Cacilie. She was a plain girl, with a square face and blunt features.

She could not have been more than sixteen, since she still wore her

long fair hair in a plait. That evening at supper he looked at her

curiously; and, though of late she had talked little at meals, she

addressed him.

“Where did you go for your walk today, Herr Carey?” she asked.

“Oh, I walked up towards the Konigstuhl.”

“I didn’t go out,” she volunteered. “I had a headache.”

The Chinaman, who sat next to her, turned round.

“I’m so sorry,” he said. “I hope it’s better now.”

Fraulein Cacilie was evidently uneasy, for she spoke again to Philip.

“Did you meet many people on the way?”

Philip could not help reddening when he told a downright lie.

“No. I don’t think I saw a living soul.”

He fancied that a look of relief passed across her eyes.

Soon, however, there could be no doubt that there was something between

the pair, and other people in the Frau Professor’s house saw them

lurking in dark places. The elderly ladies who sat at the head of the

table began to discuss what was now a scandal. The Frau Professor was

angry and harassed. She had done her best to see nothing. The winter

was at hand, and it was not as easy a matter then as in the summer to

keep her house full. Herr Sung was a good customer: he had two rooms on

the ground floor, and he drank a bottle of Moselle at each meal. The

Frau Professor charged him three marks a bottle and made a good profit.

None of her other guests drank wine, and some of them did not even

drink beer. Neither did she wish to lose Fraulein Cacilie, whose

parents were in business in South America and paid well for the Frau

Professor’s motherly care; and she knew that if she wrote to the girl’s

uncle, who lived in Berlin, he would immediately take her away. The

Frau Professor contented herself with giving them both severe looks at

table and, though she dared not be rude to the Chinaman, got a certain

satisfaction out of incivility to Cacilie. But the three elderly ladies

were not content. Two were widows, and one, a Dutchwoman, was a

spinster of masculine appearance; they paid the smallest possible sum

for their pension, and gave a good deal of trouble, but they were

permanent and therefore had to be put up with. They went to the Frau

Professor and said that something must be done; it was disgraceful, and

the house was ceasing to be respectable. The Frau Professor tried

obstinacy, anger, tears, but the three old ladies routed her, and with

a sudden assumption of virtuous indignation she said that she would put

a stop to the whole thing.

After luncheon she took Cacilie into her bed-room and began to talk

very seriously to her; but to her amazement the girl adopted a brazen

attitude; she proposed to go about as she liked; and if she chose to

walk with the Chinaman she could not see it was anybody’s business but

her own. The Frau Professor threatened to write to her uncle.

“Then Onkel Heinrich will put me in a family in Berlin for the winter,

and that will be much nicer for me. And Herr Sung will come to Berlin

too.”

The Frau Professor began to cry. The tears rolled down her coarse, red,

fat cheeks; and Cacilie laughed at her.

“That will mean three rooms empty all through the winter,” she said.

Then the Frau Professor tried another plan. She appealed to Fraulein

Cacilie’s better nature: she was kind, sensible, tolerant; she treated

her no longer as a child, but as a grown woman. She said that it

wouldn’t be so dreadful, but a Chinaman, with his yellow skin and flat

nose, and his little pig’s eyes! That’s what made it so horrible. It

filled one with disgust to think of it.

“Bitte, bitte,” said Cacilie, with a rapid intake of the breath. “I

won’t listen to anything against him.”

“But it’s not serious?” gasped Frau Erlin.

“I love him. I love him. I love him.”

“Gott im Himmel!”

The Frau Professor stared at her with horrified surprise; she had

thought it was no more than naughtiness on the child’s part, and

innocent, folly. but the passion in her voice revealed everything.

Cacilie looked at her for a moment with flaming eyes, and then with a

shrug of her shoulders went out of the room.

Frau Erlin kept the details of the interview to herself, and a day or

two later altered the arrangement of the table. She asked Herr Sung if

he would not come and sit at her end, and he with his unfailing

politeness accepted with alacrity. Cacilie took the change

indifferently. But as if the discovery that the relations between them

were known to the whole household made them more shameless, they made

no secret now of their walks together, and every afternoon quite openly

set out to wander about the hills. It was plain that they did not care

what was said of them. At last even the placidity of Professor Erlin

was moved, and he insisted that his wife should speak to the Chinaman.

She took him aside in his turn and expostulated; he was ruining the

girl’s reputation, he was doing harm to the house, he must see how

wrong and wicked his conduct was; but she was met with smiling denials;

Herr Sung did not know what she was talking about, he was not paying

any attention to Fraulein Cacilie, he never walked with her; it was all

untrue, every word of it.

“Ach, Herr Sung, how can you say such things? You’ve been seen again

and again.”

“No, you’re mistaken. It’s untrue.”

He looked at her with an unceasing smile, which showed his even, little

white teeth. He was quite calm. He denied everything. He denied with

bland effrontery. At last the Frau Professor lost her temper and said

the girl had confessed she loved him. He was not moved. He continued to

smile.

“Nonsense! Nonsense! It’s all untrue.”

She could get nothing out of him. The weather grew very bad; there was

snow and frost, and then a thaw with a long succession of cheerless

days, on which walking was a poor amusement. One evening when Philip

had just finished his German lesson with the Herr Professor and was

standing for a moment in the drawing-room, talking to Frau Erlin, Anna

came quickly in.

“Mamma, where is Cacilie?” she said.

“I suppose she’s in her room.”

“There’s no light in it.”

The Frau Professor gave an exclamation, and she looked at her daughter

in dismay. The thought which was in Anna’s head had flashed across

hers.

“Ring for Emil,” she said hoarsely.

This was the stupid lout who waited at table and did most of the

housework. He came in.

“Emil, go down to Herr Sung’s room and enter without knocking. If

anyone is there say you came in to see about the stove.”

No sign of astonishment appeared on Emil’s phlegmatic face.

He went slowly downstairs. The Frau Professor and Anna left the door

open and listened. Presently they heard Emil come up again, and they

called him.

“Was anyone there?” asked the Frau Professor.

“Yes, Herr Sung was there.”

“Was he alone?”

The beginning of a cunning smile narrowed his mouth.

“No, Fraulein Cacilie was there.”

“Oh, it’s disgraceful,” cried the Frau Professor.

Now he smiled broadly.

“Fraulein Cacilie is there every evening. She spends hours at a time

there.”

Frau Professor began to wring her hands.

“Oh, how abominable! But why didn’t you tell me?”

“It was no business of mine,” he answered, slowly shrugging his

shoulders.

“I suppose they paid you well. Go away. Go.”

He lurched clumsily to the door.

“They must go away, mamma,” said Anna.

“And who is going to pay the rent? And the taxes are falling due. It’s

all very well for you to say they must go away. If they go away I can’t

pay the bills.” She turned to Philip, with tears streaming down her

face. “Ach, Herr Carey, you will not say what you have heard. If

Fraulein Forster—” this was the Dutch spinster—“if Fraulein Forster

knew she would leave at once. And if they all go we must close the

house. I cannot afford to keep it.”

“Of course I won’t say anything.”

“If she stays, I will not speak to her,” said Anna.

That evening at supper Fraulein Cacilie, redder than usual, with a look

of obstinacy on her face, took her place punctually; but Herr Sung did

not appear, and for a while Philip thought he was going to shirk the

ordeal. At last he came, very smiling, his little eyes dancing with the

apologies he made for his late arrival. He insisted as usual on pouring

out the Frau Professor a glass of his Moselle, and he offered a glass

to Fraulein Forster. The room was very hot, for the stove had been

alight all day and the windows were seldom opened. Emil blundered

about, but succeeded somehow in serving everyone quickly and with

order. The three old ladies sat in silence, visibly disapproving: the

Frau Professor had scarcely recovered from her tears; her husband was

silent and oppressed. Conversation languished. It seemed to Philip that

there was something dreadful in that gathering which he had sat with so

often; they looked different under the light of the two hanging lamps

from what they had ever looked before; he was vaguely uneasy. Once he

caught Cacilie’s eye, and he thought she looked at him with hatred and

contempt. The room was stifling. It was as though the beastly passion

of that pair troubled them all; there was a feeling of Oriental

depravity; a faint savour of joss-sticks, a mystery of hidden vices,

seemed to make their breath heavy. Philip could feel the beating of the

arteries in his forehead. He could not understand what strange emotion

distracted him; he seemed to feel something infinitely attractive, and

yet he was repelled and horrified.

For several days things went on. The air was sickly with the unnatural

passion which all felt about them, and the nerves of the little

household seemed to grow exasperated. Only Herr Sung remained

unaffected; he was no less smiling, affable, and polite than he had

been before: one could not tell whether his manner was a triumph of

civilisation or an expression of contempt on the part of the Oriental

for the vanquished West. Cacilie was flaunting and cynical. At last

even the Frau Professor could bear the position no longer. Suddenly

panic seized her; for Professor Erlin with brutal frankness had

suggested the possible consequences of an intrigue which was now

manifest to everyone, and she saw her good name in Heidelberg and the

repute of her house ruined by a scandal which could not possibly be

hidden. For some reason, blinded perhaps by her interests, this

possibility had never occurred to her; and now, her wits muddled by a

terrible fear, she could hardly be prevented from turning the girl out

of the house at once. It was due to Anna’s good sense that a cautious

letter was written to the uncle in Berlin suggesting that Cacilie

should be taken away.

But having made up her mind to lose the two lodgers, the Frau Professor

could not resist the satisfaction of giving rein to the ill-temper she

had curbed so long. She was free now to say anything she liked to

Cacilie.

“I have written to your uncle, Cacilie, to take you away. I cannot have

you in my house any longer.”

Her little round eyes sparkled when she noticed the sudden whiteness of

the girl’s face.

“You’re shameless. Shameless,” she went on.

She called her foul names.

“What did you say to my uncle Heinrich, Frau Professor?” the girl

asked, suddenly falling from her attitude of flaunting independence.

“Oh, he’ll tell you himself. I expect to get a letter from him

tomorrow.”

Next day, in order to make the humiliation more public, at supper she

called down the table to Cacilie.

“I have had a letter from your uncle, Cacilie. You are to pack your

things tonight, and we will put you in the train tomorrow morning. He

will meet you himself in Berlin at the Central Bahnhof.”

“Very good, Frau Professor.”

Herr Sung smiled in the Frau Professor’s eyes, and notwithstanding her

protests insisted on pouring out a glass of wine for her. The Frau

Professor ate her supper with a good appetite. But she had triumphed

unwisely. Just before going to bed she called the servant.

“Emil, if Fraulein Cacilie’s box is ready you had better take it

downstairs tonight. The porter will fetch it before breakfast.”

The servant went away and in a moment came back.

“Fraulein Cacilie is not in her room, and her bag has gone.”

With a cry the Frau Professor hurried along: the box was on the floor,

strapped and locked; but there was no bag, and neither hat nor cloak.

The dressing-table was empty. Breathing heavily, the Frau Professor ran

downstairs to the Chinaman’s rooms, she had not moved so quickly for

twenty years, and Emil called out after her to beware she did not fall;

she did not trouble to knock, but burst in. The rooms were empty. The

luggage had gone, and the door into the garden, still open, showed how

it had been got away. In an envelope on the table were notes for the

money due on the month’s board and an approximate sum for extras.

Groaning, suddenly overcome by her haste, the Frau Professor sank

obesely on to a sofa. There could be no doubt. The pair had gone off

together. Emil remained stolid and unmoved.

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