XVIII

She was still asleep, lost in that terrible slumber which, assuredly

was more like death than like life. Her black eyelids, her livid lips,

her ashen cheeks, her cold flesh, I scanned vehemently for some faint,

deep-seated flush that would bespeak the coursing of a little blood, at

least, through a few of her arteries.... In vain! In vain!

An endless minute passed. I had bent forward over the bed to gaze

upon her, not daring to stir the coverlets with the merest touch of

my fingers. Finally, from her sunken chest the sound of stronger

breathing seemed to come; and simultaneously on both her cheeks I could

distinguish the pallid but reassuring blush I had waited for, so long,

so ardently....

What now took place was like a swift, miraculous resurrection. Her

whole countenance regained its color gradually, her pulse beat more

strongly, her beautiful breast began to raise the comforters in a

regular rhythmic heaving. I lowered my head till my face almost rested

on her eyelids, my lips ready to welcome with a kiss the first opening

of her eyes; I could feel the vital warmth again returning to her

forehead and cheeks. She sighed inaudibly and her lips sketched a

smile. I could restrain my caress no longer. It was under a passionate

shower of kisses from me that she returned to consciousness....

Oh gods of Heaven and Hell! All this was but a few weeks ago! Yet how

many ages have died, how many aeons have sunk into eternity, since that

kiss was mine?

She said:

“Oh, I have been asleep!... And you were here, saucy boy!”

She knotted her silken arms about my neck; and I felt her body--how

light, how alarmingly light it was!--stiffen a little as she drew

herself up languidly under the coverlets....

She also said:

“Dearest, dearest love!... Oh, how tired I am!... It seems as though

I could never again lift my head or stir a finger!... Never, never

again!... But you love your poor little girl, don’t you?... Look out,

Monsieur! Perhaps your doll is broken!...”

She said no more--just then; because my lips had smothered her last

words.

As she sat up, I piled the pillows behind her. Her hair of greenish

gold poured in a sparkling torrent down over her body. Her white

arms still encircled my neck. She laughed--that laugh of mischievous

girlish gaiety which I had always so much adored in her. I released

myself from her embrace; and resting a knee upon the bed, and throwing

an arm around her wonderful shoulders, I plunged my gaze into the

bright lucid depths of her eyes.... And I forgot, I forgot, everything,

everything!...

She said:

“Why, my hair is all down! I seem to have lost every comb, every pin to

my name!” And she laughed aloud.

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