DORA’S DIARY.
“MORRISVILLE, June 13th.
“I was too tired last night to open my trunk, and so have a double duty
to perform, that of recording the events of the last two days. Can it be
that it is not yet forty-eight hours since I left Beechwood and all its
cares, which, now that I am away from them, do seem burdensome? What a
delicious feeling there is in being referred to and waited upon as if
you were of consequence, and how I enjoy knowing that for a time at
least I can rest; and I begin to think I need it, for how else can I
account for the languid, weary sensation which prompts me to sit so
still in the great, soft, motherly chair which Mattie has assigned me,
and which stands right in the cosey bay-window, where I can look out
upon the beautiful scenery of Morrisville?
“It is very pleasant here, and so quiet that it almost seems as if the
town had gone to sleep and knew nothing of the great, roaring, whirling
world without. Not even a car-whistle to break the silence, for the
nearest station where I stopped, after my uneventful ride, is eight
miles from here. There was Mattie herself waiting for me on the
platform, her face as sunny as ever, and her greeting as cordial. Her
husband, Mr. Randall, is a tall, well-formed man, with broad shoulders,
which look a little like West Point discipline. It was very silly in one
to contrast him at once with Dr. West, but I did, and Dr. West gained by
the comparison, for there is an expression in his face which I seldom
see in others, certainly not in Mr. Randall. _He_ looks, as I suspect he
is, proud,—and yet he is very kind to me, treating me with as much
deference as if I were the Queen of England. They had come in their
carriage, and the drive over the green hills and through the pleasant
valleys was delightful. I could do nothing but admire, and still I
wondered that one as fond of society as Mattie should have settled so
far from the stirring world as Morrisville, and at last I asked why she
had done so.
“‘It’s all Will’s doings,’ she answered, laughingly. ‘He is terribly
exclusive, and fancied that in Morrisville he should find ample scope
for indulging his taste,—that people would let him alone,—but they
don’t. Why, we have only lived there three months, and I am sure half
the town know just how many pieces of silver I have,—whether my dishes
are stone or French china,—what hour we breakfast,—when we go to
bed,—when we get up, and how many dresses I have. But I don’t care, I
rather like it; and then, too, Morrisville is not a very small town. It
has nearly three thousand inhabitants, and a few as refined and
cultivated people as any with whom I ever met.’
“‘Who are they?’ I asked, and Mattie began:
“‘There’s the Verners, and Waldos, and Strikers, and Rathbones in town,
while in the country there’s the Kingslakes, and Croftons, and Bishops,
and Warings, making a very pleasant circle.’
“I don’t know why I felt disappointed that she did not mention _Mrs.
David West_ as among the upper ten, but I did, and should have ventured
to speak of that lady, if I had not been a little afraid of Mr. Randall,
who might think my associates too plebeian to suit him.
“We were entering the town now, and as we drove through what Mattie said
was Grove Street, I forgot all about Mrs. David West in my admiration of
the prettiest little white cottage I ever saw. I cannot describe it
except that it seemed all porticoes, bay-windows, and funny little
places shooting out just where you did not expect them. One bay-window
opened into the garden, which was full of flowers, while right through
the centre ran a gurgling brook, which just at the entrance had been
coaxed into a tiny waterfall. I was in ecstasies, particularly as on a
grass-plat, under a great elm-tree, an oldish-looking lady sat knitting
and talking to a beautiful child reclining in a curious-looking vehicle,
half wagon, half chair. I never in my life saw anything so lovely as the
face of that child, seen only for a moment, with the setting sunlight
falling on its golden curls and giving it the look of an angel. The lady
interested me greatly in her dress of black, with the widow’s cap
resting on her gray hair, while her face was familiar as if I had seen
it before.
“‘Who are they?’ I asked Mattie, but she did not know.
“Neither did her husband, and both laughed at my evident admiration.
“‘We will walk by here some day, and maybe you can make their
acquaintance,’ Mattie said, as she saw how I leaned back for a last
glance at the two figures beneath the trees.
“‘There is West Lawn!’ Mattie cried at last, in her enthusiastic way,
pointing out a large stone building which stood a little apart from the
town.
“I knew before that ‘West Lawn’ was the name of Mr. Randall’s home, and
when I saw it I comprehended at once why it was so called. It was partly
because of the long grassy lawn in front, and partly because it stood to
the westward of the village, upon a slight eminence which overlooked the
adjacent country. It is a delightful place, and Mattie says they have
made many improvements since they bought it. But it must have been
pleasant before, for it shows marks of care and cultivation given to it
years ago. Like that cottage by the brook, it has bay-windows and
additions, while I think I never saw so many roses around one spot in my
life. There is a perfect wilderness of them, in every shade and variety.
These reminded me of Dr. West, who is so fond of roses, and who said
once that he would have _his_ home literally covered with them. ‘West
Lawn’ would suit him at this season, I am sure. Here in Morrisville I
find myself thinking a great deal about Dr. West, and thinking only good
of him. I forget all I ever fancied about his littleness, and remember
instead how kind he is to the Beechwood poor, who have named at least a
dozen children after him. _Mrs. David West!_ I do not see as I shall be
able to meet her ladyship, as she evidently does not belong to the
Vernor and Randall clique.
“But let me narrate events a little more in the order in which they
occurred, going back to last night, when we had tea in what Mattie calls
the ‘Rose Room,’ because the portico in front is enveloped with roses.
Then came a long talk, when Mr. Randall was gone for his evening paper,
and when Mattie, nestling up to me, with her head in my lap, just as she
used to do in school, told me what a dear fellow her husband was, and
how much she loved him. Then some music, I playing my poor
accompaniments while Mattie sang her favorite Scotch ballads. Then, at
an early hour for me, I went to bed, for Mattie does not like sitting up
till midnight. I have a large, airy chamber, which must have been fitted
up for a young lady, there are so many closets, and shelves, and
presses, with a darling little bath and dressing-room opening out of it.
Mattie, who came in to see that I was comfortable, told me this was the
only room in which the paper had not been changed.
“‘It’s old-fashioned, as you see,’ she said, ‘and must have been on
before the time of Mr. Wakely, of whom we bought the house, but it is so
pretty and clean that I would not have it touched.’
“It is indeed pretty, its ground a pure white, sprinkled here and there
with small bouquets of violets. Just back of the dressing-table and near
the window are pencil-marks, ‘Robert, Robert, Robert,’ in a girlish
hand, and then a name which might have been ‘Annie,’ though neither of
us could make it out distinctly. Evidently this room belonged to a
maiden of that name, and while thinking about her and wondering who she
was, I fell asleep. I do not believe in haunted houses, nor witches, nor
ghosts, nor goblins, but last night I had the queerest dreams, in which
that woman and child beneath the trees were strangely mingled with Dr.
West and a young lady who came to me with such a pale, sad face, that I
woke in a kind of nightmare, my first impression being that I was
occupying some other room than mine.
“This morning Mattie was present while I unpacked my trunk, and coming
upon that package, I said, as unconcernedly as possible, ‘Oh, by the
way, do you know such a person as Mrs. David West? I have a package for
her, entrusted to me by a—a friend in Beechwood.’
“‘Mrs. David West?’ and Mattie seemed to be thinking as she examined the
package, which felt like a small square box. ‘Mrs. David West? No, I
know no such person; but then I’ve only lived here three months. There’s
Bell Verner now coming in the gate. Maybe she will know, though they
have only been here since last autumn. I’ll ask her, and you be in
readiness to come down if she inquires for you, as she certainly will.
You look sweet in your white wrapper, with the blue ribbon round your
waist. I wish blue was becoming to me—Yes, yes, Dinah, I’m coming,’ and
she fluttered down to the hall, where I heard a sound of _kissing_,
accompanied with little cooing tones of endearment, such as Mattie has
always been famous for; then a whisper, and then I shut the door, for I
was sure they were talking of me. As a general thing I dread to meet
grand people, I had enough of them at Newport: and so I hated to meet
Miss Bell Verner; and after I was sent for I waited a little, half
wishing myself away from Morrisville.
“I found her a stylish, cold-looking girl, who, after taking me in, at a
glance, from my head to my slippers, said rather abruptly:
“‘Excuse me, Miss Freeman, but weren’t you at Newport last summer?’
“‘Yes,’ I answered, now scanning her, to discover, if possible, some
trace of a person seen before.
“‘I thought so,’ she continued. ‘We were at the Atlantic. We could not
get in at the Ocean House, it was so full. Pardon me, but I am afraid I
felt slightly ill-natured at your party—the Russells, I believe—because
they took so many rooms as to shut us out entirely. If I remember
rightly, there were nine of you, together with three servants, and you
stayed two months. I used to see you on the beach, and thought your
bathing-dress so pretty. We were a little jealous, too, at our house of
Miss Freeman, who was styled the belle.’
“‘Oh, no,’ I exclaimed, feeling very much embarrassed, ‘I couldn’t be a
belle. I did not go much in society. I stayed with Margaret who was
sick, or helped take care of the children.’
“‘Oh, yes,’ she rejoined, ‘I heard of the invalid Mrs. Russell, who
exacted so much of her sweet-tempered sister. The gentlemen were very
indignant. By the way, how is Mrs. Russell?’
“I did not like the way she spoke of Margaret, and with as much dignity
as possible I replied that Mrs. Russell was still out of health, and I
feared would always remain so. Somehow I fancied that the fact of there
having been nine of us, with three servants, and that we stayed at the
Ocean House two months did more towards giving Miss Verner a high
opinion of me than all Mattie must have said in my praise, for she
became very gracious, so that I really liked her, and wished I had as
fine and polished an air as she carried with her. When we had talked of
the Strykers, and Waldos, and Rathbones, Mattie suddenly asked if Bell
knew a Mrs. David West in town.
“‘Mrs. David West? Mrs. David West?’ It did seem as if Miss Verner had
heard the name, and that it belonged to a widow living on the Ferrytown
road. ‘But why do you ask?’ she said. ‘It can’t be any one desirable to
know.’
“Mattie explained why, and Miss Verner good-naturedly offered to
inquire, but Mattie said no, their man Peter would ascertain and take
the package. So after Miss Verner was gone, and Peter came round to
prune a rosebush, Mattie put him the same question:
“‘Did he know Mrs. David West?’
“‘Yes, he knew where she lived; she had that handsome grandchild.’
“Of course Mattie deputed him at once to do my errand, and I consented,
though I wished so much to go myself. Running upstairs I wrote on a
card:
“‘Dr. West, of Beechwood, commissioned me to be the bearer of this
little package, which I should have brought to you myself had Mrs.
Randall known where to find you.
“‘DORA FREEMAN, West Lawn.’
“I did not see Peter again until long after dinner, and then I asked if
he had done my errand.
“‘Yes, miss,’ he replied. ‘She was much obliged. She’s a nice woman.’
“‘Peter, don’t those verbenas need sheltering from the hot sun?’ Mr.
Randall called out, his manner indicating that by volunteering
information respecting Mrs. David West, Peter was getting too familiar.
“Mr. Randall is very proud, and so is Mattie, but in a different way. If
she knew how much I wish to see Mrs. West, or at least learn something
of her, she would never rest until the wish was gratified. We took a
walk after tea to the village cemetery, of which the people are justly
proud, for it is a most beautiful spot, divesting the dark, still grave
of half its terrors. There are some splendid monuments there, one
costing I dare not tell how much. It was reared to the memory of General
Morris, for whom the town was named, but this did not impress me one
half so much as a solitary grave standing apart from all the others and
enclosed by a slender iron fence. The grass in the little yard was fresh
and green, and there were many roses growing there. The stone was a
plain slab of Italian marble, with only these words upon it:
“‘Anna, aged 20.’
“Even Mattie was interested, and we leaned a long time on the gate,
speculating upon the Anna sleeping at our feet. Who was she, and whose
the hand of love which had been so often busy there? She was young, only
twenty when she died. Had many years been joined to the past since she
was laid to rest? Was she beautiful, and good, and pure? Yes, she was
all that, I fancied, and I even dared to pluck a rose-bud whose parent
stalk had taken root near the foot of the grave. I can see it now in the
glass of water where I put it after returning home. That rose and that
grave have interested me strangely, painfully I may say, as if the Anna
whom they represented were destined to cross my path, if ever the dead
can rise up a barrier between the living.
“June 15th.
“A steady summer rain has kept us in-doors all day, but I have enjoyed
the quiet so much. It seems as if I never should get rested, and I am
surprised to find how tired I am, and how selfish I am growing. I was
wicked enough to be sorry when in the afternoon Bell Verner came,
bringing her crocheting and settling herself for a visit. She is very
sociable, and asks numberless questions about Beechwood and its
inhabitants. I wonder why I told her of everybody but Dr. West, for I
did, but of him I could not talk, and did not.
“SATURDAY, June 16th.
“A long letter from Johnnie, and so like him, that I cannot find it in
my heart to scold him on paper for his dreadful language. I will talk to
him on my return, and tell him he must be more choice of words and must
make an effort to learn to spell, though I believe it is natural to the
Russells to spell badly. I can see just how they miss me at home, and I
cried over the letter till I was almost sick. I am sure they want me
there, and I wonder what they would say if they knew how the Randalls,
and Verners, and Strykers are plotting to keep me here until September,
Mattie and Bell saying they will then go with me to Beechwood. Just
think of those two fine ladies at our house. To be sure, it is quite as
expensively furnished as either Mattie’s or Bell Verner’s, and we keep
as many servants; but the children, the confusion! What would they do?
No, I must not stay, though I should enjoy it vastly. I like Bell
Verner, as I know her better. There is a depth of character about her
for which I did not at first give her credit. One trait, however, annoys
me excessively. She wants to get married, and makes no secret of it
either. She’s old enough, too,—twenty-eight, as she told me of her own
accord, just as she is given to telling everything about herself.
Secretly, I think she would suit Dr. West, only she might feel above
him, she is so exclusive. I wonder Margaret should tell him that story
about Lieutenant Reed, and I am glad Johnnie set him right. I would not
have Lieutenant Reed for the diamonds of India, and yet he is a great,
good-natured, vain fellow, who is coming here by and by. I think I’ll
turn him over to Bell, though I can fancy how her black eyes would flash
upon him.
“I have had a note from Mrs. David West, inviting me to come and see
her, and this is the way it reads:
“‘MY DEAR MISS FREEMAN:
“‘I am much obliged for the trouble you took in bringing me that
package, and did I go out at all, except to church, I would thank you in
person. If you can, will you come and see me before you return to
Beechwood? I should like to talk with you about the Doctor. Any one
interested in him has a sure claim upon my friendship.
“‘Yours respectfully,
“‘HELEN WEST.
“‘GROVE STREET, NO. 30.’
“Nothing can be more ladylike than the handwriting, and, indeed, the
whole thing. Mrs. David West may be poor and unknown, but she is every
whit as refined and cultivated as either Mattie or Bell. I shall see
her, too, before I leave Morrisville; but why does she take it for
granted that I am interested in Dr. West? I am not, except as a good
physician; and what is she to him? Here I am puzzling my brain and
wasting the gas, when I ought to be in bed; so with one look at that
rose, which I have been foolish enough to press,—the rose from Anna’s
grave,—I’ll bid the world good-night.”