TO SIDNEY COLVIN

_Yacht_ ‘_Casco_,’ _at Sea_, 14_th_ _January_, 1889.

MY DEAR COLVIN,—Twenty days out from Papeete. Yes, sir, all that, and

only (for a guess) in 4° north or at the best 4° 30′, though already the

wind seems to smell a little of the North Pole. My handwriting you must

take as you get, for we are speeding along through a nasty swell, and I

can only keep my place at the table by means of a foot against the divan,

the unoccupied hand meanwhile gripping the ink-bottle. As we begin (so

very slowly) to draw near to seven months of correspondence, we are all

in some fear; and I want to have letters written before I shall be

plunged into that boiling pot of disagreeables which I constantly expect

at Honolulu. What is needful can be added there.

We were kept two months at Tautira in the house of my dear old friend,

Ori a Ori, till both the masts of this invaluable yacht had been

repaired. It was all for the best: Tautira being the most beautiful

spot, and its people the most amiable, I have ever found. Besides which,

the climate suited me to the ground; I actually went sea-bathing almost

every day, and in our feasts (we are all huge eaters in Taiarapu) have

been known to apply four times for pig. And then again I got wonderful

materials for my book, collected songs and legends on the spot; songs

still sung in chorus by perhaps a hundred persons, not two of whom can

agree on their translation; legends, on which I have seen half a dozen

seniors sitting in conclave and debating what came next. Once I went a

day’s journey to the other side of the island to Tati, the high chief of

the Tevas—_my_ chief that is, for I am now a Teva and Teriitera, at your

service—to collect more and correct what I had already. In the meanwhile

I got on with my work, almost finished the _Master of Ballantrae_, which

contains more human work than anything of mine but _Kidnapped_, and wrote

the half of another ballad, the _Song of Rahero_, on a Taiarapu legend of

my own clan, sir—not so much fire as the _Feast of Famine_, but promising

to be more even and correct. But the best fortune of our stay at Tautira

was my knowledge of Ori himself, one of the finest creatures extant. The

day of our parting was a sad one. We deduced from it a rule for

travellers: not to stay two months in one place—which is to cultivate

regrets.

At last our contemptible ship was ready; to sea we went, bound for

Honolulu and the letter-bag, on Christmas Day; and from then to now have

experienced every sort of minor misfortune, squalls, calms, contrary

winds and seas, pertinacious rains, declining stores, till we came almost

to regard ourselves as in the case of Vanderdecken. Three days ago our

luck seemed to improve, we struck a leading breeze, got creditably

through the doldrums, and just as we looked to have the N.E. trades and a

straight run, the rains and squalls and calms began again about midnight,

and this morning, though there is breeze enough to send us along, we are

beaten back by an obnoxious swell out of the north. Here is a page of

complaint, when a verse of thanksgiving had perhaps been more in place.

For all this time we must have been skirting past dangerous weather, in

the tail and circumference of hurricanes, and getting only annoyance

where we should have had peril, and ill-humour instead of fear.

I wonder if I have managed to give you any news this time, or whether the

usual damn hangs over my letter? ‘The midwife whispered, Be thou dull!’

or at least inexplicit. Anyway I have tried my best, am exhausted with

the effort, and fall back into the land of generalities. I cannot tell

you how often we have planned our arrival at the Monument: two nights

ago, the 12th January, we had it all planned out, arrived in the lights

and whirl of Waterloo, hailed a hansom, span up Waterloo Road, over the

bridge, etc. etc., and hailed the Monument gate in triumph and with

indescribable delight. My dear Custodian, I always think we are too

sparing of assurances: Cordelia is only to be excused by Regan and

Goneril in the same nursery; I wish to tell you that the longer I live,

the more dear do you become to me; nor does my heart own any stronger

sentiment. If the bloody schooner didn’t send me flying in every sort of

direction at the same time, I would say better what I feel so much; but

really, if you were here, you would not be writing letters, I believe;

and even I, though of a more marine constitution, am much perturbed by

this bobbery and wish—O ye Gods, how I wish!—that it was done, and we had

arrived, and I had Pandora’s Box (my mail bag) in hand, and was in the

lively hope of something eatable for dinner instead of salt horse, tinned

mutton, duff without any plums, and pie fruit, which now make up our

whole repertory. O Pandora’s Box! I wonder what you will contain. As

like as not you will contain but little money: if that be so, we shall

have to retire to ’Frisco in the _Casco_, and thence by sea _via_ Panama

to Southampton, where we should arrive in April. I would like fine to

see you on the tug: ten years older both of us than the last time you

came to welcome Fanny and me to England. If we have money, however, we

shall do a little differently: send the _Casco_ away from Honolulu empty

of its high-born lessees, for that voyage to ’Frisco is one long dead

beat in foul and at last in cold weather; stay awhile behind, follow by

steamer, cross the States by train, stay awhile in New York on business,

and arrive probably by the German Line in Southampton. But all this is a

question of money. We shall have to lie very dark awhile to recruit our

finances: what comes from the book of the cruise, I do not want to touch

until the capital is repaid.

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