THE WAY THAT I DID GO

Now I went forward for a space, and took heed not to look backwards; but

to be strong of heart and spirit; for that which did lie before me had

need of all my manhood and courage of soul, that I come to the succour

of that Maid afar in the darkness of the World, or meet my death proper,

as it might need to be.

And thus did I go forward steadfastly, and conscious in all my being of

the emotions of that parting from my mighty Home, and of the tenderness

and wiseness that did underlie so much curbed rule and guidance.

And my heart was warm towards the Master Monstruwacan for that great

honour, that he should come downward in armour to make one with the Full

Watch, that he might uphold me to a lofty spirit at the moment of my

going.

And all that time as I went forward, was the aether of the night about

me, in tumult with the thoughts and blind wishings of the great millions

I had but now left to my back.

And, presently, as I steadied somewhat upon my emotions, I was conscious

of the exceeding coldness of the night air, and of the different taste

of it upon my lungs and in the mouth; and it had, as it were, a wondrous

keen sharping upon my palate, and did fill the lips more in the

breathing; so that it may be supposed it had more body within it than

that air which did fill the plateau of the Thousandth City where was my

home; for the air of every City was of difference, and the greater

between one that was afar up and another nigh to the earth, as may be

thought; so that many Peoples did migrate unto that level which gave

them best healthfulness; but under rule, and with a guidance of

quantities. And not all that were lacking of health; for, some are ever

contrary.

And here let me set down that, within the deeps of the Fields, there was

air utter varied and wonderful, that might charm one here and likewise

sorrow another that were happier elsewhere; so that all might have

suiting, did they but wander, and have Reason to companion them.

And thus did I go forward, full of new thoughts and olden memories, and

fresh-breaking wonders; neither forgetting something of doubts and fears

more than a little. And again was it most cunning strange to be out

there in the Night Land--though not yet afar--where often had my fancies

and imaginings led me; yet until that time never had I touched foot, in

all that life, upon the outward earth. And this must be a wondrous

quaint seeming thought to those of this present day.

And so came I, at last, nigh to the Circle that did go about the

Redoubt; and presently I was come to it; and something astonished was I

that it had no great bigness; for I had looked for this by _reasoning_;

having always a mind to picture things as they might be truly, and hence

coming sometimes to the wonder of a great truth; but odd whiles to

errors that others had not made. And now, lo! I did find it but a small,

clear tube that had not two inches of thickness; yet sent out a very

bright and strong light, so that it seemed greater to the eye, did one

but behold from a distance.

And this is but a little thing to set to the telling; yet may it give

something of the newness of all; and, moreover, shall you have memory

with me in this place, how that oft had I seen Things and Beast-Monsters

peer over that same little tube of light, their faces coming forward out

of the night.

And this had I seen as child and man; for as children, we did use to

keep oft a watch by hours upon an holiday-time, through the great

glasses of the embrasures. And we did always hope each to be that one

that should first discover a monster looking inwards upon the Mighty

Pyramid, across the shining of the Circle. And these to come oft; yet

presently to slink away into the night; having, in verity, no liking for

that light.

And pride had we taken of ourselves to perceive those monsters which had

most of ugliness and horror to commend them; for, thereby did we stand

to have won the game of watching, until such time as a more fearsome

Brute be discovered. And so went the play; yet with ever, it doth seem

to me now, something of a half-known shudder to the heart, and a child's

rejoicing unknowingly in that safety which had power to make light the

seeming of such matters.

And this, also, is but a small matter; yet doth it bear upon the

inwardness of my feelings; for the memories of all my youth and of the

many Beasts that I had seen to peer across the Light, did come upwards

in my mind in that moment; so that I did give back a little, unthinking

of what I did; but having upon me the sudden imagining of that which

might come out of the Dark, beyond.

And I to stand a little moment, and presently had grown free in my heart

to have courage of farewell; and so did turn me at last to the viewing

of that wondrous Home of the Last Millions of this World. And the sight

was an astonishment and an uplifting, that indeed there was so mighty a

thing in all the earth.

And well might be that there were Monsters and Forces gathered together

about that Hill of Life, out of all the Darkness of the World; for the

thing was as a Mighty Mountain that went up measureless into the night;

and spread out upon the earth to the right and to the left of me, so

that it did seem to hold all the world with its might.

And in the nearer slope were there three hundred thousand great

embrasures, as well I did know; there being in all the four sides of the

Redoubt, twelve hundred thousand embrasures, as was set out in the books

of the schools, and upon the cover of Atlas-books as they still quaintly

to be called, and many another place, as might be supposed.

And half a mile upward was the lowest tier of those great window-places,

and above that, countless other tiers. And a great light came out from

them into the darkness; so that I looked up into the night many miles,

and yet did see them in shining rows; and did make separate each

embrasure from its fellow for a great way. But there grew yet more,

above in the mighty distance, so that they were lost in the upward space

of the night, and did seem to me presently but as a constant, glimmering

fire, that did shape a shining Peak into the blackness of the heavens,

dwindling into the utmost height. And thus was that Everlasting

Monument.

Then did it come to me that those little things, which I did see to

cluster against the embrasures, were in truth the countless millions of

the Mighty Redoubt; and this I could make out with some plainness in

those lower embrasures, which were the more near to me than they above;

for the Peoples were set against the light within, yet were as small

things like unto insects, in that distance, and within so Huge a Bulk.

And I knew that they looked out upon me, and did watch through their

spy-glasses. And I sent my gaze upwards again along that great Slope of

grey metal, aye! upward again to where it strode glimmering into the

Blackness, and so at last to the little star that did crown that Wonder

of the World in the eternal night. And, for a little, I did stare

towards that far light; for it came from within that Tower of

Observation, where so lately I had spended my life; and I had knowledge

within my heart that the dear Master Monstruwacan did bend the Great

Spy-Glass upon me, through which so oft had I spied. And I raised the

Diskos unto him, in salutation and farewell, though I saw him not at all

through that vast space.

And my heart was very full; yet my soul but the stronger for it. And

then, behold, I was aware of a murmur in the night, coming to me, dim

and from afar off; and I saw the little shapes of the Peoples in the

lower embrasures, in constant movement; and I knew upon the instant that

the Multitudes did take that salute unto themselves, and cried out and

waved to me their farewells, or to come back--as may be.

And, indeed, I was but a lonesome person looking up at that great

mountain of metal and Life. And I knew that I had danger to realise my

plight; and I stayed no more; but did raise the Diskos, reversed, as was

but meet from one young man unto all the Millions.

And I looked swiftly upward through those eight great miles of night,

unto that Final Light which did shine in the black heavens; so that my

friend should know that I thought of him that was beyond my sight, in

that last moment. And it may be that the invisible millions that were

far up in the night, in the Upper Cities, did take that also to be a

meaning of farewell to themselves; for there came down out of the

monstrous height, a far, faint murmur of sound, as of a vague wind up in

the night.

Then did I lower the Diskos, and turn me about. And I breasted strangely

against the Air Clog, and stept forward across the Circle, into the

lonesomeness of the Night Land. And I looked no more behind; for that

which was my Home did weaken my heart somewhat, to behold; so that I

made determination that I look not again to my back, for a great while.

Yet, about me as I went, there was constant surging in the aether of the

world; and it did tell unto me how that those, my people and kin, had

continual mind of me, both in prayer and wishings, and in a perpetual

watching. And the same gave to me a feeling as of being something

companied; yet, in a time, it came to me that this disturbance of the

aether should tell to some Evil Force how that I was there abroad in the

Land. But how to stop this thing, who should have power? For, of truth,

had I been among them to make a full explaining of the danger, they had

been yet powerless to cease; for but to have such great multitudes

a-think upon one matter, was to set a disturbance about, as should be

most clear to all.

Now, at the beginning, I did walk outwards into the Night Land, somewhat

blindly, and without sure direction; being intent only to put a good

space to my back, that I might cure somewhat the ache which did weaken

my heart at the first.

But, in awhile, I ceased somewhat from my overswiftness, and did put

thought to my going. And I came quickly to reason that I should try a

new way through the Land; for it might be that there was an

over-watchfulness in that part which had been trod by the Youths.

And I began therewith to set this thought to the practice; and went not

direct towards the North; but to the North and West; and so in the end

to mean to circle around to the back of the North-West Watcher, and

thence to the North of the Plain Of Blue Fire; and afterwards, as might

be, have a true and straightway to the North; and by this planning come

a long way clear of that House of Silence, which did put more fear upon

me than all else that was horrid in the Land.

Yet, as all will see, this made to me a greater journey; though, in

verity, it were better to go slowly and win to success, than to make a

greater haste towards Destruction; which was, indeed, surely to be mine

end, did I not go warily.

Now it may be thought upon with wonder, that I did go so assuredly to

the North; but I went thiswise, part by an inward Knowing, and part come

upon by much latter studying, within the Pyramid, of olden books; and by

reasoning upon all things that I did observe, that had seemings of

verity in them.

And because of this constant searching upon one matter, I had come, but

a while back, upon a little book of metal, very strange and ancient,

that had lain forgot in a hid place in the Great Library through ten

hundred thousand years, maybe, or less or more, for all that I had

knowing.

And much that was writ in the book was common knowledge, and set mostly

to the count of fairy-tales and suchlike, even as we of this our age

take not over-surely any belief in Myths of olden times. Yet had I

always much liking for such matters, perceiving behind that outer shell

which did win always so much unbelief, the kernel of ancient truths and

happenings.

And thus was it, concerning this little book which I had made discovery

of; for it told again, that which oft I had heard (even as we in this

age, read of the Deluge) how that once, in a time monstrous far back

from that, but utter future to this age of ours, the world did brake

upwards in a vast earth-quaking, that did rend the world for a thousand

miles.

And there came a mighty chasm, so deep that none might see the bottom

thereof; and there rushed therein an ocean, and the earth did burst

afresh with a sound that did shake all the cities of the world; and a

great mist lay upon the earth for many days, and there was a mighty

rain.

And, indeed, this was just so set in certain Histories of the Ancient

World. Also, there was made reference to it, within some olden Records.

Yet nowise to be taken with a serious mind, to the seeming of the

peoples of the Mighty Pyramid; but only as a quaint study for the

Students, and to be set out in little tales that did entertain the

nurseries; or, as it might be, wise men and the general.

Yet, there was this, about that small and peculiar book, that it did

speak of many of these things, as it were that it did quote from the

pens of those that did have actual witness; and set all out with a

strange gravity, that did cause one to consider it as meant to be indeed

the tellings of Truth, and to seem thiswise to have great difference

from all that I had read before concerning those matters.

And there was, further, a part in the ending of the book, that did seem

to be writ of a time that came afterwards, maybe an hundred thousand,

and maybe a million years; but who shall say.

And therein it did tell of an huge and mighty Valley that did come out

of the West, towards the South-East, and made turning thence Northwards,

and was a thousand miles both ways. And the sides thereof were an

hundred miles deep, and the Sun did stand in the Western end, and made a

red gloom for a thousand miles. And in the bottom there were great seas;

and beasts strange and awesome, and very plentiful.

Now this, as may be seen, was as the talk of Romance; yet did I turn my

wits to their natural end, and made thus plain of it. For, in truth, I

to have something of belief, and it to seem to me that in a bygone

Eternity, when the world was yet light, as in my heart I knew to have

been indeed a thing of verity, there was a great and wondrous

earthquake.

And the earthquake did burst the world up, along a certain great curve

where it had weakness; and there fell into the yawning furnace of the

world, one of the great oceans; and immediately made of itself steam,

and so brake upwards again, and tore the earth mightily in its swift

uprising.

And thereafter there was a mist and confusion and rain upon the world.

And, indeed, all very seemly put; and not to be taken as a light tale.

Then, in that ending of the book, there was one that did write, having

lived in a vast later age, when the Sun had come anigh to his dying, and

the upward earth was grown quiet and cold and not good to live upon. And

in that time the Mighty Chasm had been calmed by the weight of an

Eternity, so that it was now a most deep and wondrous Valley, that did

hold Seas and great Hills and Mountains; and in it were great forests of

kinds, and Lands that were good and healthful; and Places given over to

Fire, and to Steamings, and Sulphur Clouds; so that they held Poisons

that had ill for Man.

And Great Beasts were there down in that far depth, that none might see

ever, save by a strong spy-glass. And such there were in the Early

World, and had now been bred in the Ending by those inward forces of

Nature which did make the Valley a place of Good Warmth; so that there

was, as it were, once more the Primal World born to give new birth unto

such olden Monsters, and to others, new and Peculiar to that Age and

Circumstance.

And all this, indeed, did the book give also; but constrained and

difficult to take clearly to the heart, and not like to the wise plain

speech of the early tellings; so that I must even set it out here in

mine own speech.

And it did seem to me, by my reading, that Man had come at one time to a

great softness of Heart and Spirit through many ages of over-ease. But

that the World did come to coldness and unfriendliness, by reason of the

Sun's slow ceasing.

And there was presently, in naturalness, a Race upon the earth that were

hardy, and made to fight for their lives; and did perceive that the

Mighty Valley that cut the World in twain, was a place of Warmth and

Life; and so did make to adventure their bodies down that wondrous

Height; and were many Ages coming safe to the Bottom; but did find safe

places in the downward way where they built them Houses, and made to

live, and begot them children; and these grew up to that life of

constant and great climbings, and of hard workings upon The Road, which

was the One Intent of that People; so that the book did speak of them

always as The Road Makers.

And thus did they make downwards through the long years and the ages;

and many generations did live and die, and saw not the reaching of the

Road down into that Great Vale that lay so monstrous deep in the World.

But in the end they did come there with the Road; and they were very

Hardy; and they did fight with the Monsters and slay many; and they

built them many Cities, through great years in the Mighty Valley, and

did make the Road from City unto City along that Great Valley, even unto

the Bight of the Valley. And they found here a constant darkness and

Shadow; for that the Sun could not make a shining around that Great

Corner. Yet, even here they ceased not to make the Road; but took it

around, and a mighty way unto the North; passing it among strange Fires

and Pits that burned from out of the earth.

But there was presently, such a power and horror of Monsters and Evil

Things in that Valley of Shadow, that the Road Makers were made to go

Backwards into the Red Light which did fill the Westward Valley, and

came from that low Sun.

And they went back unto their Cities; and lived there mayhaps an hundred

thousand years; and grew wise and cunning in all matters; and their Wise

People did make dealings and had experiment with those Forces which are

Distasteful and Harmful unto Life; but they did this in Ignorance; for

all that they had much wisdom; thinking only to Experiment, that they

come to greater knowings. But they did open a way for those Forces; and

much harm and Pity did come thereby. And then had all People to have

Regret; yet too late.

Now, presently, when an hundred thousand years had gone, or it may be a

greater space; there came slowly the utter twilight of the world, as the

sun to die the more; so that presently it gave but an utter gloomy

light. And there grew upon many of the Peoples of the Cities of the

Valley, a strangeness and a wildness; so that strange things were done,

that had been shameful to all in the Light. And there were wanderings,

and consortings with strange outward beings, and presently, many Cities

were attacked by monsters that did come from the West; and there was a

Pandemonium.

Then was an Age of Sorrows and Fightings, and Hardenings of the Spirit

and of the Heart, for all that were of good Fibre; and this did breed a

Determined Generation; and there grew up into the World a Leader; and he

took all the sound Millions; and did make a mighty Battle upon all

Foulness and upon all that did harm and trouble them; and they drove

their Enemies down the Valley, and up the Valley, and did utterly

scatter and put them to flight.

Then did that Man call all his Peoples together; and did make it plain

how that the Darkness grew upon the World, and that the Foul and

dreadful Powers abroad, were like to be more Horrid when a greater Gloom

came.

And he put to them that they Build a Mighty Refuge; and the Peoples did

acclaim; and lo! there was built, presently, a Great House. But the

Great House was not Proper; and that Man did take all the Peoples to

Wander; and they came to the Bight; and there was built at last that

Great and Mighty Pyramid.

Now this is the sense and telling of that book; and but late had I read

it; and talked somewhat of it with my dear friend, the Master

Monstruwacan; but not overmuch; for I had taken so sudden a mind to GO,

that all else had dropped from about me. Yet, to us it did seem clear

that there was no life in all the invisible upper world; and that,

surely, that Great Road whereon the Silent Ones did walk, must be that

same Road which the hardy Peoples of that age did make.

And it did seem wise to the Master Monstruwacan, and unto me, that if

any should find the Lesser Redoubt, they must surely do so somewhere

within the mighty Valley; but whether The Road that led into the West,

where was the Place of the Ab-humans, should bring me to it, I had no

knowing; nor whether it might lie on the Northward way. And I, maybe, to

wander a thousand miles wrong; if, in truth, I were not into some

dreadful trouble before.

And, indeed, no reason of value was there to give me hope that the

Lesser Pyramid lay either to the West, or where the Road went

North-ward, beyond the House of Silence. Yet I did so feel it to be

somewhere to the North, that I had made a determination to search that

way for a great distance, the first; and if I could not come upon aught,

then I should have sober thought that it did lie Westward. But in the

Valley someways, I had feeling of assurance that it must be; for it was

plain that the telling of the book was sound in its bottom sense; as

might be seen; for how should any live in the utter bleak and deadly

chill of the silent upper world that lay an hundred miles up in the

night, hid and lost for ever.

And strange is it to think of those wondrous and mighty cliffs that

girt us about, and yet were fast held from us in the dark; so that I

had not known of them, save for the telling of that book; though, in

truth, it had been always supposed that we lived in a great deep of the

world; but, indeed, it was rather held in belief that we abode in the

bed of some ancient sea, that did surely slope gradual away from us, and

not go up abrupt and savage.

And here let me make so clear as I may that the general peoples had no

clear thought upon any such matters; though there was something of it

taught in the schools; yet rather this and that, of diverse conclusions,

as it might be thinkings of the Teachers, after much study, and some

ponderings. For one man, having a lack of imagining, would scoff, and

another, maybe, to take it very staidly, but some would build Fancy upon

the tellings of the Records, and make foolish and fantastic that which

had groundings in Truth; and thus is it ever. But to the most Peoples of

the Pyramid, there was no deep conviction nor thought of any great hid

World afar in the darkness. For they gave attention and belief only to

that which lay to their view; nor could a great lot come to imagine that

there had been ever any other Condition.

And to them, it did seem right and meet that there should be strange

things, and fires from the earth, and an ever-abiding night, and

monsters, and matters hid and tangled much in mystery.

And very content were the most of them; though some had in them the

yeast of imaginings, or the pimples of fancy upon them, and to these

there seemed many possibilities; though the first to read out to sanity;

and the second, to expect and have speech towards much that was foolish

or to no purpose.

And of these vague believings of the peoples, have I made hint before,

and need not have much trouble to it now. Save that, with the children,

as is ever the way, those olden tales had much believing; and the

simplicity of the Wise did mate with the beliefs of the Young; and

between them did lie the Truth.

And so did I make speed towards the North, having a strong surety in my

heart and mind that there were but two ways to my search; for without of

the Valley, afar up in the dead lonesomeness of the hidden world, was a

cold that was shapen ready to Death, and a lacking, as I must believe,

of the sweet, needful air that yet did lie in plenty in that deep place

of the earth. So that, surely, the mighty Valley somewheres to hold that

other Redoubt.

Yet, as I have said, I went not direct to my journey, but otherwise, for

those sound reasons which I did set down a time back.

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