A PLANT GROWS UNDER THE SNOW.
Lenz sat mute and motionless, watching in the face of night and death.
Petrovitsch was the first to rouse himself. He told of a house that had
once been buried in this way, and of those who came to the rescue
finding the bodies of four peasants with the cards still in their
hands, crushed to death at the table round which they had been sitting.
The old man shuddered as he told the story, and yet he could not keep
it to himself; he must tell it and relieve his mind, though it should
freeze the hearer's blood. But God would save them, he added, for the
sake of the innocent child. He almost railed against the Providence
which could doom the child as well as themselves to destruction.
"She too is like a child again," replied Lenz. Petrovitsch shook his
head and warned him not to trust to such sudden conversion. If ever
they got out he must oblige Annele to sue daily and hourly for his
love. Lenz disputed the matter with his uncle, who had never known what
it was to be married; there was an angel in Annele, he said, that might
well raise a man to a heaven on earth; the trouble had been that, in
her frenzy, she had debased the good in her to the level of the evil.
Petrovitsch only shook his head; he was evidently not convinced.
Annele and the child awoke simultaneously with a cry of terror: "The
roof is breaking in!" screamed Annele. "Where are you, Lenz? Keep by
me; let us die together! put the child in my arms."
When she was quieted, they all went together into the sitting-room.
Lenz pounded up Cousin Ernestine's coffee-beans, and they drank their
coffee by the light of the ghastly blue flame. The clocks struck.
Annele said she should stop counting the strokes, and asking whether it
was night or day; they were already in eternity. If the last cruel step
were only over!--She had hoped for some answer to relieve her fears,
her certainty of death; but none came.
They sat for a long while in silence; words were useless. Lenz ventured
at last to take advantage of the pleasant terms on which he and his
uncle now stood, to ask why he had manifested such cruel reserve
towards him.
"Because I hated the man whose dressing-gown I now am wearing; yes,
hated him. He treated me cruelly in my youth, and fixed the nickname of
goatherd on me. Constant pressure leaves its mark on the hard wood, why
not on a human heart? The thought that my only brother had rejected and
banished me was always wearing into my soul. I came home in the hope of
laying down the burden of hate which I had so long carried about the
world. I can truly say, I hated him to his death. Why did he die before
the word of reconciliation was spoken between us? On the long journey
home I rejoiced at the prospect of having a brother again, and I found
none. In the bottom of my heart I did not hate him, or why should I
have come home? Never again in this world shall I hear the name of
brother; soon elsewhere--"
"Uncle," said Annele, "at the very moment we heard Bubby scratching at
the door Lenz was telling me how his father, when he was once snowed up
here, though not buried as we are, said that if he should have to die
then, he should leave no enemy behind but his brother Peter, and that
he would gladly be friends with him."
"So, so?" said Petrovitsch, pressing one hand to his eyes, while the
other closed convulsively over that grooved handle which his brother's
hand had worn.
For a while nothing was heard but the ticking of the clocks, till Lenz
asked again why his uncle had refused to recognize him, during the
first year after his return home, when his heart was yearning towards
his father's only brother, and he had longed, whenever he met him in
the street, to run to him and grasp his hand.
"I knew how you felt," replied Petrovitsch, "but I was angry with both
you and your mother. I was told she petted you to death, and praised
you half a dozen times a day for being the best son, and the wisest,
cleverest man in all the world. That is a bad plan. Men are like birds.
There are certain fly-catchers who must always have something in their
crops. You are just such a bird, always crying out for a pat of the
hand or a kind word."
"He is right, Annele,--is he not?" said Lenz with a bitter smile.
"Perhaps so," answered Annele.
"You need not talk!" cried Petrovitsch. "You are a bird yourself, or at
least have been; and do you know what kind of a one? A bird of prey,
who can go for days without food, but when he does eat, devours all he
can seize hold of, innocent singing-birds or little kittens, swallowing
bones, skin, hair and all."
"Alas! he is right there, too," said Annele. "I never was so happy as
when I had some one to worry and tear to pieces. I was not conscious of
it till our first drive together, when you asked me how I could take
pleasure in exulting over Ernestine as I did. The words dwelt in my
heart, and I determined to become as good as you. It seemed to me I
should be much happier so. When on the way home you wanted to give old
Proebler a seat in the carriage, I could have pitched you out for being
such a simpleton; but afterwards, when you gave up the idea, excusing
yourself to God and your conscience for not giving a poor old fellow a
lift on the road, and seeming so happy, I could gladly have kissed your
hands for love of your goodness, if my pride had permitted. I resolved
to be like you, yet still I kept on in my old way, putting off from day
to day beginning on my new life, till the old devil took possession of
me again. I first grew ashamed of my good resolutions, and finally
ceased to entertain them. I was Annele of the Lion, whom all flattered;
I needed not to change. You were the first person who blamed in me what
others had found pretty and amusing. I was angry, fearfully angry. I
resolved to show you that you were no better than the rest of the
world. Finally, one idea took entire possession of me: I must be once
more at the head of a public-house; then you and the world would see
what talents I had. So I went on from worse to worse. Yesterday,--was
it yesterday that the minister was here?--hark! uncle is asleep. That
is good. I want one hour with you alone before we go into eternity. No
third person can understand our two hearts after all we have been
through together. Yesterday, Lenz, as I was sitting here by myself, the
thought came to me, that I had never known what it was to love with my
whole heart. I had been your wife for five years, and never found out
till yesterday how much I loved you. If you had come home then, I
should have kissed your eyes and your hands. Oh, you do not know how
dearly I can love! But instead came Faller, who first frightened me,
and then told how you had deceived me about the security. I became
again possessed with the evil spirit that makes me do and say what he
will, not what I will. But he is gone now; his power is over. I would
crouch at your feet if it would serve you. Oh, if I could but see you
once more; only once in the light of day! There is no seeing by this
blue flame. If I could but once more see your kind, good face, your
honest eyes! To die thus without seeing or being seen; it is terrible!
How often I met your eyes with averted looks! Oh for one flash, one
single flash of light, to show you to me!"
Petrovitsch had only feigned sleep, seeing that Annele wanted to open
her heart to her husband, alone. The child was playing with Bubby. "If
I could but call back the years!" continued Annele. "One day at noon
you said, 'Is there anything better than the sun?' and in the evening,
'O, this good fresh air! it is pure blessing.' I laughed at your folly;
yet you were right,--you were happy. Happiness came to you as naturally
as the light and air. I sinned against you in all ways. When I threw
down your father's file and broke it, the point pierced my heart; but I
would not show that I was sorry. I threw out of the window that dear
writing of your mother's and that memento of her. Nothing that was
sacred to you escaped my venom. You forgive me, I know; pray God to
forgive me, whether I live or die."
A musical clock began to play. Petrovitsch turned involuntarily in his
chair, but appeared to drop off to sleep again. When the piece was
finished, Annele cried again: "I must beg forgiveness of everything,
even of the clock. I was always ridiculing it, and now I hear how
beautiful it is. O God! not for myself I pray. Save us, save us all!
Let me show that I can make all well again."
"All is well now," said Lenz; "even though we die. While the clock was
playing the thought came to me that we have our edelweiss again. It has
grown up in your good heart and in the hearts of us all? Why do you
tremble so?"
"I am so cold; my feet are like ice."
"Take off your shoes and let me warm your feet. So will I bear you up
in my hands my life long. Are you not better now?"
"Yes, much better; but oh, my head! every hair seems dropping blood.
Hark! I hear the cock crow and the raven scream. Thank God, it is day."
They all rose, even the uncle from his pretended sleep, as if
deliverance were at hand. A fearful pounding now began overhead. "We
are lost," cried Petrovitsch. Again all was still. The roof of the
sleeping-room had been broken in, so that the door refused to open.
After the first shock Lenz thanked God that a presentiment of the
coming danger had startled both wife and child from their sleep. He
comforted his companions by telling them that the sleeping chamber had
been lately added to the original house, and was quite independent of
it. The old oaken timbers of the main building would resist every
shock. Even while he spoke he thought he saw the roof giving way in the
direction of the sleeping-room; but he did not express his fears,
thinking he might easily be mistaken in this uncertain blue light.
Again followed a long, breathless silence, unbroken except when a
distant cock-crow was answered by a bark from Bubby and a croak from
the raven in the kitchen.
"This is a veritable Noah's ark," said Petrovitsch.
"Whether we are nearing life or death, we are saved from the deluge of
sin," returned Lenz.
Annele laid her hand upon his face.
"If I only had a pipe of tobacco! it is a shame you don't smoke, Lenz,"
complained Petrovitsch. Reminded of his fire-proof safe by the thought
of his row of pipes at home, he continued: "One thing I tell you; if we
ever are saved, you will get no money from me: not a penny."
"We shall not need it now," replied Lenz; while Annele said,
cheerfully, "Do you know who will not believe that?"
"You?"
"No; the world. Nobody will believe, though you swear it a hundred
times, that one who was in death with us will not continue with us in
life. The world will give us credit on your account, and make us rich
if we will let it."
"You are the same old rogue as ever," said Petrovitsh, trying to scold.
"I thought you were done with your jests."
"Thank God, she is not!" cried Lenz. "Keep your happy heart, Annele, if
God delivers us."
Annele threw her arms about her husband's neck and hugged and kissed
him. All were surprised at finding they had suddenly grown as gay as if
the danger were passed, whereas it was really at its height. Neither
communicated his fears to the others, but each saw how the walls
trembled and the main beam seemed about to fall.
Annele and Lenz held each other in a close embrace. "So let us die and
shelter our child!" cried Annele.
"Hark! there is a hollow sound without. It is our deliverers; they are
coming, they are coming! they will save us!--"